Chapter- Eighty One

It's been long since you don't come to the dorm, your first home in Korea. You were a bit nervous while waiting before entering to the living room. Normally scoups, Seungkwan are always in the living room, watching television. But today it was empty.

You looked through the dinning if someone was there.

Mingyu was cooking something. You thought you came early, it's about ten AM. You saw him working for a while, the view you Don't see for long. He used to make you food and you used to sit on that chair seeing him attentively. You could never get tired seeing him. Suddenly you could see yourself sitting in that chair. You sighed thinking about your psychological issues happened. You used to hallucinate mingyu. It got severe when you started living alone in the apartment.

You thought you could never discuss your problem to anyone. But little by little it got well. You couldn't see a doctor or a therapist because you didn't want to share this with anyone. Without wonwoo, you never could get out from this.

You inhaled a deep breath before calling him.

'Mingyu!'

You didn't count for how long you didn't call out his name. Many days, many weeks, many months! You never thought the name you call out more than hundred times a day, would turn into zero this soon.

Mingyu was so surprised seeing you there, in some weird time. His face got brightened like a puppy.

'Fairyssi!? No way, it's not real.'

He ran to you and hugged you tightly. You didn't know how to respond. You didn't think he was gonna give you a hug. He did it like the things never happened. suddenly all the memories of mingyu hugging you kept coming one by one. So quickly it slided away overlapping one memory with other. You closed your eyes taking you to a normal day of one year ago. When you were happy with mingyu. Suddenly you wanted this long one year to he a dream. You wanted to open your eyes and see that all the changes didn't happen actually. There was a little hope in you that everything would be like before, mingyu still is with you. He didn't break up and also.. also you are not married to wonwoo! You felt bad thinking the last part and opened your eyes enlarged. Nah you can't wish this. You can't deny wonwoo. You were thinking so selfishly. Yet from a part of your heart, you somehow wanted all those to turn into lie.

But it wasn't. You were standing in front of mingyu. It was not a dream. Though mingyu was talking as if nothing had changed.

'How are you? You didn't come here for so long.'

Mingyu asked removing the hug. He looked at you mockingly.

'You don't miss us at all.'

You smiled awkwardly. You couldn't talk to him as easily as he is doing.

'Happy birthday!'

You wished quietly giving the flower bouquet to him.

Mingyu acted like a girl of sixteen years. He took the bouquet and saw it thoroughly.

'You bought me flowers! Thank you so much fairyssi! This is so pretty. Look at this flower.'

You saw the flower he was indicating.

'What?'

'This one looks like you.'

You kept looking at him while you should have laughed out. You can't just be easy with him. It hurts!

'Well okay, you look prettier than any flower of world.'

As you didn't react, mingyu told this. But still you couldn't return him a smile. You awkwardly tried to hide a deep breath.

'Should I make you a coffee fairyssi?'

He asked going near the cabinet, putting out the coffee powder.

'No I'm okay. I just had coffee before coming.'

You said.

'Whoa! You made coffee?'

'W-wonu made for me.'

You said getting shy. Mingyu chuckled saying

'You make our lazy wonwoo hyung cook? He makes coffee for you, that's so lucky. I'm jealous of you.'

You didn't know what to do. You just came here to give him the flowers for wishing him. But now mingyu is making tea since you already had coffee. He said Jun brought some different tea leaves this time. He tells about you whenever he is taking tea. But he is too shy to give you the tea bags. Though he thought about giving it to wonwoo, but he feels embarrassed like it's just tea.

You heard it from mingyu and felt really bad. Jun is dating someone still he remembers you. Back then Jun fell for you really hard.

'Is he home?'

You asked.

'Probably not. Hyung went work early.'

'Thanks.'

You told when mingyu passed you the tea.

'Tzuyu also loves tea a lot.'

He said very casually lime there's no way it could hurt you. You were surprised but somehow it didn't hurt hearing about her from mingyu. It did hurt but it's numb, not sharp if it was even some months ago.

'You make her tea?'

'No way! She doesn't like my tea. She does it herself.'

'How does it taste? Did you try?'

'Yeah she offered me and I tried. You know I Don't usually like tea. But the flavour was horrible. She doesn't use sugar like eisa.'

You noticed mingyu too was sipping tea sitting on the chair beside you, he took you to the little space extended from the living room, from where you could see the yard.

'It's unusual that you are taking tea.'

You said.

Mingyu waited for sometime looking in front. He took sometime before talking.

'Everytime I see tea or even tea cups, I remember you. I Don't like tea but when I remember you, I make some for myself. Remember you once told that you really want that we will drink tea together while we get old, looking at sunsets?'

You didn't respond to him.

'Then I used to tell you I would not drink it.. I remember that conversation.'

'You are drinking tea regularly?'

'Of course not. It doesn't mean I Don't miss you. I sometimes try what you like to do, it feels good.'

You waited for sometime and sighed. You couldn't hide it at all.

'Really I can't understand any of the book of your garden library. But it's calm to sit there and going through the pages.'

'You sit there?'

'Sometimes!.. I got to the rooftop, and when it feels so empty I swim in the pool in late nights.'

You thought if you stay there a little longer you would cry.

You tried to smile

'Please skip that. You are prone to cold. Just call me when I'm on your mind. It's that easy.'

Mingyu laughed hearing that.

'Wonwoo hyung won't let me live if I do so.'

'He is not like that.'

You said looking at the empty cup.

'Ayy you know him more now.'

Mingyu chuckled poking your arm.

'So he is nice right?'

You nodded putting the cup down.

'Tell me more. He is like very nice? Like a lil too nice?'

'What do you mean?'

You asked confusingly.

'Don't pretend you don't understand. Like he kisses you every morning, before going work. Or he hugs you while sleeping?'

You got embarrassed hearing that.

'You do the same with your girlfriend?'

'No way. She is not my wife. And we are not close enough. And moreover I'm not very nice as wonwoo hyung.'

'You should treat her like very close. She is a nice girl.'

'OK as you say.'

'You know mingyu, wonu is not that kind of guy. He is a bit cold... I mean- not that type of cold. But he is though. It's not very warm.'

You said looking at the yard. Mingyu looked at you for sometime and said

'Is anything wrong? Hyung is the best human to exist.'

'Nothing is wrong mingyu. He just doesn't talk often. But I sometimes want to tell him a lot. He listens attentively but-but he doesn't talk back a lot. It feels forceful that he may not liking my talks.'

'There's no way he doesn't like whatever you will say.'

'...but it's calm you know. I needed it the most. He doesn't talk but makes sure that I'm okay.'

Mingyu saw your dazzling eyes when talking about wonwoo.

'He is a good guy.'

'I know it right. I told you that you should marry him.'

He said stretching his arms behind his nape.

'Should I say thanks to you?'

You asked.

'Well maybe! At least you got someone better than me, even I hurt you the most.'

Mingyu said hiding a deep breath. You took some time to say calmly

'You didn't hurt me mingyu.'

You felt shy saying so. Mingyu looked at you and thought for a while

'I can feel the time spent with you was very good. I could be whatever I wanted to. Happy, excited, clingy, weird, toxic and what not!'

You smiled lightly looking at mingyu. He didn't know if he should tell you or not, your hair was sparkling due to the morning golden sun rays on you. With the smile when you put your long hair behind with a little shake made you look like a Greek goddess. Mingyu never saw any goddess but he felt the same.

'You are looking so pretty. Prettier than anyone, anything beautiful that I've ever seen.'

Mingyu felt a bit embarrassed after telling you so. He shouldn't compliment you like that, since you are married. You might feel it creepy.

You looked at mingyu for a while and then said

'You too.'

'I'm sorry for telling you like that. I couldn't find any other words to describe you.'

Mingyu said.

You kept silent for a while and smiled a little

'I should leave now mingyu.'

You said standing up from the chair. Mingyu kept looking at the flower bouquet you gave him. He saw a piece of paper folded in the flowers when you first handed him it.

'Yeah sure fairyssi! Let's take you to the car.'

He said.

You were confused about the letter that you hid in the flowers. You thought to yourself while writing it beneath a yellow table lamp, that you will hide it inside the flowers. If mingyu can know it was the letter by finding it, then it's the success! But if he doesn't see the bouquet attentively and so can't find the letter, then it's the luck.

This is a really sunny pretty day. You noticed the rose trees planted by wonu, it looks like someone still takes care of it.

'Joshua hyung takes care of wonwoo hyung's garden.'

'I see.'

'I thought this birthday was going to spend without you. But you came.'

Mingyu said smiling.

'Tzuyu unnie didn't come?'

'She came and surprised me at 12 AM. For a moment I almost thought you were there. I know I shouldn't expect that. But it felt strange when I found you were not there.'

'Here I am. Why do you worry?'

Mingyu tried to smile saying

'Thanks fairyssi! You made my day.'

'You are funny.'

Mingyu bent to your car window to see you before you leave.

'Please visit wonu's home. He made a pretty garden there.'

You said like pleading. You know you adore mingyu so much.

'You said you would come for a visit. But you never.'

'I'll surely go to see you and wonwoo hyung soon. Okay?'

'Please take tzuyu unnie too.'

'I'll try..'

There was a silence when there was nothing to tell.

'I couldn't see members today. Please tell them I was in hurry.'

'Dino talks about you a lot. He will surely be sad if he knows you came here and didn't meet him.'

'I'll talk to him on phone don't worry.'

You said.

Since it was time to leave, mingyu said

'Take care of yourself. And my wonwoo hyung.'

Mingyu said smiling.

'Go safely.'

You nodded before the car started.

A deep breath came from you after the car left from mingyu.

You were sitting on the back seat alone. You wanted to feel the wind out, so you opened the window for letting some breeze come inside. You went closer to the window and put your face near. The wind was hitting your face making your hair messy. Your heart felt with joy seeing the familiar place of han River, the side of the road was filled with dandelions, you saw the dry pretty petals spreading to the world, you caught one in your fist and made it free after.

You know all your dandelions made it. They did it to shower you with love. You acknowledge all the persons who loved you, who care for you. All your members of seventeen are always with you. Including the ones who maybe wanted to be someone closer to you, like Jun mingyu or Vernon. Also there's someone like hoshi too, who was in a way obsessive about you, getting toxic.

Still you acknowledge all of the love they gave. You know in this world, you have thirteen person to care about you, your dear seventeen members!

You closed your eyes feeling the breeze and thinking about the one who you got miraculously. You know it was not a coincidence by now. You get your love back through wonu.

'Ahh I made you wait long y/nah?'

Wonwoo said getting into the car. You went to take wonu from the studio.

'No I just came here.'

He was not late.

'You came from the dorm already?'

'Yeah.'

'I should go see mingyu today. I bought this for him that day.'

He showed you a sneaker from online. For showing he needed to get close, he did it without knowing that if it would make you uncomfortable. You were not uncomfortable or something. Wonwoo was talking about the newly come shoe from a famous brand. He doesn't talk this much. But when he does you feel so adorable that you kept looking at his face.

Wonwoo noticed it soon and stopped looking at you. You were looking at him with your doe eyes, he couldn't look away from the view. Then he said

'Oh sorry y/n! I didn't know I got close to you.'

He said while moving to his seat.

'No it's OK.'

You said holding his arm not letting him go. Wonwoo looked confused watching you holding him.

'Please stay here.'

'What?'

He asked.

'I like.. when you get close and I could smell your perfume. You smell good.'

You didn't know what you said. But you just know you feel good when he is around.

'Okay. As you say.'

He didn't move and stayed there.

It was awkward but then wonwoo again showed that phone to you, showing that shoe.

'You are so caring towards mingyu.'

You told him as he noticed that mingyu liked the shoes and recently was talking about getting one.

'Me? Eh no way. It's his birthday you know.'

'You don't care about him? You are saying?'

'Yeah. He is a grown man. Why would I care?'

'Then who do you care about?'

'Ahh I guess no one? Dino? Yea I feel like I'm caring towards Dino. He is so adorable.'

'How about me? How much do you care for me? Am I not adorable?'

'No.'

Wonwoo chuckled looking at you.

'I mean yes you are. But not as much as Dino.'

'He doesn't even have long hair as me. He dances well doesn't mean he is cute.'

You were jealous of your bestie at that moment.

'He is cute you have to admit it. Everyone knows he is more adorable than you.'

Wonwoo said teasing you.

'Fine then why do you care for me then?'

'Isn't it obvious?'

'Obvious what? You should go see Dino everyday.'

'I do. Everyday I see him in studio or in dorm.'

You looked at wonwoo for sometime.

'Well!'

'Are you jealous because I'm telling about him?'

'Kinda. Yes of course. He is not that cute as you are saying.'

You said.

'He is though.'

You looked at wonwoo again. He wasn't smiling this time. He only was looking at you. You were looking so pretty from that close. When you are excited, your face gets red. Wonwoo put his hand on your face to adore it gently.

'W-what happened?'

You startled a bit.

'You are looking so beautiful.'

'Y-you just said I'm not adorable.'

You said holding his hand that still was on your face.

'I never said that.'

'Y-you just did.'

'Well even if I say you are not cute as Dino, that isn't the same.'

You turned more red from when wonwoo touched your face. He was looking at you with his sharp eyes that made you really shy. You tried looking at the window turning your face, but wonwoo moved your face to him holding your face with his two fingers.

'Are you mad?'

'N-no! Why?'

'You seem like you are trying to ignore me.'

'I-im n-not.'

You answered.

'What do you think I do care for you? Or not?'

'How would I know?'

You said like you didn't actually know.

Wonwoo smiled seeing your reaction and took you closer holding your arm.

'Cmon you are my family.'

'I want to hear it from you.'

You said.

'I care for you so much. More than anyone else.'

He said calmly. You didn't know why man took this much time to tell this.

You looked at wonwoo. He was looking in front.

'Wonu-?

'Yes?'

'How about you telling me that- that three magical words?'

'Three magical worlds? What are they?'

Wonwoo said chuckling. He finds fun teasing you sometimes.

You started whinning

'Like- You love me!?'

'You love me?'

Wonwoo repeated after you smiling.

You looked so done with him, you looked at outside letting the wind hitting your face again. Wonwoo led you have your space.

You were waiting for him to say it. But looking back you saw he lightened a cigarette, taking the stick inside his lips. He does it so mesmerisingly that you want to learn it from him. There's some art in his doing so. You thought about yourself, the way you smoke, like your life depends on it.

Wonwoo took the first puff and said without looking at you

'Is there something in my face? Wanna have a cigarette?'

You got embarrassed realising you were looking at him for that long.

'No I'm fine.'

'Wanna puff once from it then?'

He offered you his cigarette, taking it in front of your lips. You didn't know people can just share cigarette.

'No problem if you don't like it that way.'

He started puffing again.

Wonwoo is trying to quit smoking these days. Mingyu don't like that you guys smoke. Though he didn't tell you to stop. A day or two before your marriage, he told both of you to quit smoking separately. It was softer than a request. Still you think you won't stop it because he said so. But wonwoo is trying because mingyu said. You sometimes wonder about wonwoo and Mingyu's friendship or whatever it is!

'Why are you suddenly smoking? I mean you don't usually now.'

Wonwoo replied

'Because I'm nervous.'

'Why? You don't look like you are nervous.'

You said. Wonwoo looked at you with little smile.

'What happened? Are you okay?'

You asked putting your hand on his shoulder.

'I'm alright.. I wonder how to tell it.'

'Tell what?'

You asked.

'The three magical words you wanted to hear.'

Wonwoo said.

'... no problem. Tell me any other time when you are drunk.'

Wonwoo laughed out.

'You are right...'

Wonwoo kept silent looking at you for sometime.

'What now?'

'Y/n!'

You flinched when he called out your name. You can't describe how you love when he calls out with your real name.

'Y-eah!'

'I love you.'

You said it was a magical sentence. But didn't know it was gonna heard like this. You felt it. That made you keep silent for sometime looking at wonwoo. It is really magical!!

It was silent but not awkward.

You told

'It felt so real. I felt goosebumps.'

Wonwoo held your hands smiling.

'Please keep telling it everyday.'

Wonwoo told shaking his head

'My heart is gonna explode everyday then.'

You didn't say anything. His 'I love you' was still in your mind.

'I know a taco place around. Wanna go there?'

Wonwoo told this fixing your hair that was getting messy due to wind.

'Yy-yeah!'

He smiled removing your arm.

He maybe could realize the meaning of life a little when he saw you enjoying the wind getting closer to the window, while he was inhaling nicotine. Your long black hair was moving around almost touching him.

A soft song was playing around that wonwoo couldn't understand because it was from the language of your country. A sluggish lazy yet spiritual song. He didn't know it felt this good one day listening to a song that he doesn't understand.

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