Chapter- Nine

You're sitting with Jeonghan without matching legos now. As you have lost interest in it and you just watching Jeonghan doing so.

'Y/n ah, you lost interest already? Haha it's fine. Let's do something interesting. '

'Really? Hm I hope it will be interesting.'

Woozi suddenly started talking as Jeonghan said so

'Hyung, what thing in the world you will do and that will be interesting?  Come on man, it's not possible.'

Woozi talked with a humorous tone.

'No, woozi hyung, it will be super interesting. Y/n will play violin and it will be super exciting.'

Boo entered the room with a tray full of evening tea and snacks.

'Oh.. haha you guys are so mean! I am not prepared at all..'

You talked back with a smile and Jeonghan started talking cutting your sentence

'No y/n is playing violin guys. I'm calling others to join.'

Saying so he picked his phone to call others who are in the dorm.

You don't know how these mens' brain work. They will surely just keep a party here now. Yes it will be interesting surely but you kinda have no mood right now.

But you are smiling and happy as they really take care of your mental state too.

Dino and Vernon were passing by Jeonghan's room so they stop there hearing about the little party.

They are now busy keeping the furnitures of Jeonghan's and dokyeom's room at the corner to make some space and to give it vibe of most musical.

It is really being so interesting as everyone is busy making the spot more beautiful and lively.

Jisoo and Dokyeom entered the room with your violin in dokyeom's hand.

Scoups also came wrapping a blanket around his body, maybe he is feeling cold. He is really an old guy you rest think.

'Seems like our princess will play her violin and we all have to listen that? Uffs so annoying.'

You know he told with a jokey tone as all here appreciate your violin too much.

'Ye, why did you come then?'

Jeonghan told it teasing him.

Boo finally started the party standing in the middle of the room, where you supposed to be perform now.

He started talking like a professional mc.

You are feeling shy and good at the same time. Boo is introducing you like you are international violinist. Ahh this guy

You stood up from your place and walked towards where Boo is speaking as he told you to go there for starting your performance.

Surely all the members are not there, as maybe they are so busy always. But your eyes are searching for a guy, but you can't tell it to anyone as you are shy.

But Woozi helped you saying

'Aah, where's Mingyu? Didn't you call him?'

He asked Jeonghan and Jeonghan said that he didn't pick up the call.

And after that Dokyeom started talking

'Mingyu is kinda busy guys.'

He was about to stop here just saying that he is busy. Then Boo started talking

'Busy? But today's party is for y/n. And she will perform and hyung is not here!'

'What is he doing?'

Jisoo asked Dokyeom but dokyeom was trying to avoid the question as you are here. But now Jisoo asked him, he has to say. He told playfully that

'Ay just Tzuyu came to Mingyu, maybe they are talking about the next program that will they do together as MC.'

He tried to ignore your eyes talking so with smiling, as he knew you maybe felt sad knowing Mingyu is with other girl.

Boo wanted to normalize the situation as it's really weird that he can't come here to listen to his girlfriend's violin playing with all of his friends, just for talking with Tzuyu.

'Okay he maybe busy. You can start without him, right y/n?'

He asked you with a beautiful smile in his face and tapping his hands in your back lightly as he knows how do you feel. He knows very clearly that you can't bear Mingyu with other girls.

'Yes!'

Your face was dark hearing all the things about Mingyu but seeing Boo beside you with a smile, and most of the seventeen members along with your besties Dino and Vernon, you felt happy for having them. You give them a decent smile before starting your performance.

Boo took his seat along with others in the floor leaving you alone in the middle of the room with the beautiful elegant violin.

Your shiney beautiful hands took the violin in it. You are kinda skinny and so the violin and your combination mixed very beautifully along with the long curly hair of yours.

You placed it in your shoulder and closed your eyes to start. But before starting the opening tone, your one hand holding the stick changed it position, moving away from violin.

You looked at all the guys here.

Scoups, Jeonghan, Woozi are sitting in sofa. Boo, Vernon, Dino are in the floor folding their legs in relaxed position. Jisoo Dokyeom are also there sitting at a side.

Your eyes are searching for the 2nd time, for different person.

'What happened y/n? Any problem?'

Jisoo asked you in a concerned tone.

'Jun won't come?'

You asked them feeling scared. You never managed to perform well alone without having Jun beside you or at the corner. Even when you go to the competition, Jun has to go there too as your teacher.

Before anyone replying to your question, Jun entered the room like an old man saying

'I knew my student will never perform violin without me in front of many people. Ah y/n when will you gather the confidence?'

Jun had a sit in the sofa lightly scolding you. But you don't feel scolded, you just feel relaxed to have Jun here.

' I called you Jun. Your phone is off.'

Jeonghan asked Jun.

Jun replied with a really annoying tone

'Aish that phone, that doesn't work anymore. I've to buy another one.'

Everyone in the room laughed so bad as Jun plays games in his phone all the time and he has to change his phone very frequently.

.......'It is so beautiful, who is playing it?'

Tzuyu asked Mingyu while listening to your sad and soft violin tone.

'It is y/n. She is really good at it.'

'Yeah she is so talented I see.'

Tzuyu replied Mingyu having the coffee from Mingyu that he made for her.

'She sometimes play a different tone, you know. That's so mind blowing that sometimes many of us cried listening to that tone. But she doesn't play it often. That's very rare. When she feels very sad, in the very late night she plays that tone.'

Mingyu told Tzuyu with a smile in his face looking at the floor while sipping coffee. He was smiling thinking about you.

'Did you cry listening to that tone too?'

Tzuyu asked him just to know as Mingyu is not a cry babe.

Mingyu avoided her question telling her about different topic of the program.

'You feel sad for her? You should tell her the truth. The sooner you tell, the better is for her.'

Tzuyu asked Mingyu holding his hands in her with a comforted face.

'I don't know Tzuyu, she is always so scared to leave me. I don't know how to tell her.'

Mingyu replied slowly looking at the floor, but he felt so comforted beside Tzuyu.

Just her placing hands on his made Gyu so delighted and comforted.

He took a deep sigh as he can never manage to feel the comfort from you, though he tried. He really tried hard..

He really treats you and sees you like his close and dear one, but what is in you and him, is not love; that Mingyu can feel.

There's a lot of space between you two. Like Mingyu and Tzuyu could be close, erasing the gap of being idols of different groups, you guys couldn't do it even you are in the same group having relationship more than 5 years.

You never talked to him openly about what you like, what you find beautiful. You never told about your interests. You're a real introvert, that may be he doesn't like. He likes cheerful and extroverted like him.

Though you most of the time clinging with him, Mingyu loves it. But you're always with him not telling about you, crying alone at night.

Firstly he asked you one thing for thousand times, but now he just let you lead your life in your own way. You're so stubborn sometimes and it is harmful for you, but you don't wanna understand that.

You can't live without him for even a second, but in the same way you can't share your true self around him.

He always used to see that in actual you are a really hot tempered girl, and so much choosy. But in front of Gyu, you pretend to be so cool that you can never be angry at all. But he knows very well you even don't bother to break things if you get angry.

You don't smile at all. But whenever you see Mingyu, you give him a decent smile. Mingyu knows you're doing it for him. But he doesn't want that.

He wants you to be really happy and..

When you were teen, you guys fall in love and it is really some golden days.

And with the change of time, you also changed a lot. He started to feel that you became different. And one day with his utter surprise he found that you started smoking.

He wanted to make you realise that it's not a good habit but you didn't bother to continue that....

He thought he loves you all these years.

But after meeting Tzuyu he can't process what just happened to him.

He just think your relationship becomes lighter and colder as the time goes.

He felt very sad for you but he can't help it.

There is another person who is listening to the sad tone of violin that you're playing right now.

His room is full of white smoke, that was spreading from the cigarette that he was smoking.

He was smoking thinking about you, thinking about the tone of yours.

.........

After your performance of playing Violin, Boo and Dokyeom are singing together 'Sarang2'

It is a very soothing song and you guys are crazy fan of Boo and Dokyeom as they are the main vocal and yes they are really really talented.

It is very soft weather here, Dino and Jisoo were duet dancing slowly with the beautiful harmonies of BooSeok.

(Idk what's the name of this dance, so I just include it here. Guess Dino and Jisoo dancing like this together)

You were sitting beside Scoups and Jun  in the sofa and were moving slowly with their mesmerized voice and karaoke that was playing with it.

A beautiful and white hand spreads at you with a view to receiving your hands.

Vernon was looking at you raising his eyebrows and giving his hands to you, with a question in his face,- will you dance with him?

Of course!Why not, yes you are the besties. Though he talks very less but he sometimes gossip with you. Vernon is always there with you in any shooting or anything. Even when you guys randomly go to eat, Vernon must go with the group where you or Boo is.

And you find like Vernon always finds you cute, he talks to you like you are a baby, pouting his lips.

When you whimper about something that you wanna have, Vernon starts smiling or mimicking you in a cute way.

You hold his hands and start dancing like Jisoo and Dino.

Everyone in the room was enjoying, it is really a happy day indeed.

Vernon is so handsome and beautiful, sometimes you can't help looking at him. You really love your bestie so much and want him to be happy always.

In Vernon's mind now there is nothing. He is dancing with you, that's all. Yeah maybe he fall for you and it's not right. As he is your bestfriend he really find it wrong. But he has nothing to do about.

It's not possible to control his mind, though it's really possible for him.

He never ever told you something weird that Jun sometimes tells you with a tone of humor. Vernon doesn't want to ruin your precious friendship between you two. He never ever made you feel insecure or uncomfortable.

He never showed his love to you so you also didn't have any hint that he just not only think you bestie but more than just bestfriend.

Vernon just simply leads his life. He is so happy to have you in his heart. He just feels so delighted to love you.

He never thought he can love you with no expectations. He just love the fact. He thought about it for a long time that what should he do. Should he just express his love to you?

But then he realized one day when he was so sick with fever and cold. You took a great care of him and were so concerned for his situation. Vernon knew you are a type of girl who doesn't take care of herself let alone others.

Really you can't take care of you but in that time you felt so scared to see him sick like that for several days. He even didn't manage to eat, so he just had to take saline.

Those days were hard for all of the seventeen members. And you thought maybe it's not only fever, maybe he had caught any harmful diseases.

But actually not, he recovered after some days.

Then Vernon was so happy thinking the fact that how much care you do for vernon, that you can't even do for Mingyu. He took the decision that he will never let you know about his secret love to you. He will never let you down.

Your soft palms were in his hands, you were smiling at him with your eyes and yeah...    that is all for him. He never wanted more.

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It was really a good day, though last night's effect was so hard that you kinda feel dizzy now thinking that you'll have to face Hoshi many more time and though you don't wanna see him, you will have to live under the same roof together with him.

Today he and Minghao were not here as they are in the radio and maybe they had something more to do. So you didn't have to see him.

You are in the bath tub, bathing with a cup of tea in your hand. You usually take a lot time in bathing. A book is beside your tub, on a cabinet but you are not interested in the book right now, you are thinking something so deeply.

You know Mingyu and Tzuyu are pretty famous so they have to perform as MC or as any other part in any program. So they maybe something kinda friends.

But Mingyu and Tzuyu have nothing like good friendship between them.

It is so recent for Mingyu to work with Tzuyu, but by this time Tzuyu often comes to your dorm, to talk with Mingyu. Sometimes there are pictures of them eating together in any restaurant too.

Yeah surely they would maybe just talk about the work and everything is okay. But it's not okay... for you.

You don't wanna think about them at all but it is the only thing that is in your mind now. Your heart ached so much.

You suddenly thought about Jun. Does Jun feels it in this way? You being with Mingyu made Jun sad?Or jealous?

But no, there's a little difference between this. You and Mingyu are in relationship, and that's for many years, so you can be sad or feel jealous if you see him with other girls.

But you had or have nothing with Jun that he will feel sad.

Jun also never wants you, he just love you? Or has a crush on you!?

Putting the empty cup in the corner of tub, you suddenly flinched looking at the water of the tub. The transparent water becomes red, red like real blood.

You felt really disgusted when in a moment you just understand where it is coming from.

You even didn't know you just had periods. Like how can you be this much Careless that you didn't even feel it!

Thanks God, it just happens here, what if it started while you were sitting at Jeonghan's sofa.

You get out of the Bath tub, uff it's feeling so disgusting.

You switched on the shower and is busy with showering your naked body.

A line of blood can be seen dripping from your inner thigh to the floor, through the whole length of your beautiful milky legs.

Opening the cabinet by spreading your body and hands with the help of heel of your foot, you reached your hands to one of pads.

This cabinet is beautifully arranged with pads.

Cramps starting to appear lightly in your lower stomach. You don't know you hate this?

With the towel and pad on, you walks to the window of yours, where there was another regular rose for you.

You took it in your hand, your other hand was in your chest, holding the towels.

But when you took the flower, you see something at the window. You live in the third floor and it can be seen very clearly from here that Mingyu and Tzuyu were talking with each other, while laughing and smiling beside a car, outside the main gate.

You felt a sharp pain in your heart and they were beating quickly. It's 9 PM already and Tzuyu still was there? What type of important topic is it that they have to gossip for so long?

You were looking at them, while holding the rose tightly. Your hand fisted the rose stick, where there were some thorns in it. You didn't feel that pain, but blood was dripping from your closed hand.

They looked so beautiful together, that you felt so jealous. Does anytime you and Mingyu look this much beautiful?  A weird question came to your mind.

You didn't understand that you were mixing your relationship with mingyu and Tzuyu.

An electric shok flows into your heart and soul when you found they are hugging right now.

You don't know for why you find it way too long for them to not break the hug, as they are just kinda friends nothing more.

Mingyu waved at her and she waved back looking at him through the car window with a smile.

After the car had gone, Mingyu entered the main gate.

You don't know why you are pounding heavily after seeing them. Yeah maybe you're wrong. You shouldn't act like this just watching him with other girl.

Maybe you are the one who is overreacting.

You are sitting in the bed with some tears in your eyes. No you shouldn't cry at this silly thing. But you can't hold yourself.

And you find a sharp pain in your hands, you looked at your hands for some moment. It didn't surprise you to get cut like this, blood is in your palm.

You were looking at the bloody palm and then a big hand takes your hands softly.

It was Mingyu's. He caressed your palm with his hands with a sad face looking at your hands.

'You know I love you. Then why do you act like this? You don't have any love for your own life?'

He kissed the dorsal surface of your wound hands and started bandaged it softly.

You were looking at him for the whole time, that you didn't see your hands.

After doing the bandages he looked at you suddenly.

It was not soft at all like he always looks at you so softly and so you flinched.

You sorta felt scared to see his eyes looking at you like this, he smiled at you creepily with a beautiful smirk.

You blink your eyes and there are drops of tears just fall touching your bare thigh. You looked at your thigh and saw drops of tears that fell from your eyes.

You wiped it with the wound hand of yours, and the thigh becomes more bloody with the blood of your hands.

You shocked to see your hands that there is no bandage in your hands, you looked up to see Mingyu who just bandaged your hand.

But he was not there.

It was just an illusion.

From that day your delusion of Mingyu, began to be seen.

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