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raelyn "i hate how billie seems like she feels the same way, but she just acts weird" i sighed while laying my head on tycees lap.

"maybe she's scared to admit she has feelings" ty shrugged.

"i mean, she has to feel something right?" i looked up at her. "she even tells me 'stop that or i'm gonna fall in love with you' whenever i like kiss her or some shit"

"she's definitely in love with you" tycee smirked.

"i don't know" i sighed. "billie just... she's confusing. when we're out in public we're just friends, and when we're both alone we're like lovers"

"do you think it's mutual between you two?" she asked me.

"well we know what's up but it stays between us" i shrugged. "but she's so fucking oblivious!"

tycee just frowned as i ranted to her.

"like the other day some bitch was texting her" i rolled my eyes. "and i was getting jealous because why does she have a random bitch talking to her?"

"maybe they're friends?" ty told me. "you're probably overthinking it"

"but her phone kept dinging!" i groaned. "it's just so annoying! i haven't answered her at all though... bitch deserves it"

"for how long?" tycee asked.

"two or three days, i don't know" i shrugged. "she's been spamming me a lot"

"wait- you ghosted her for texting some other girl?" she made a face. "youre jealous! do you like her?"

"i just said that" i sent her a look. "isn't it obvious?"

"i don't know" she shrugged. "you're confusing"

"i ghosted her because she's texting another bitch while we do couple shit" i scoffed and rolled my eyes. "she's confusing. why act like you like me and then talk to someone else? make up your mind!"

"girl you do the same!" tycee snorted.

"no i don't" i smacked her chest. "shut up... even if i did i don't do it anymore"

"you really like her huh?" she looked down at me with a smirk.

"sadly..." i mumbled. "fuck that hoe though"

"be quiet" tycee chuckled.

"i don't know what to do though" i sighed while sitting up. "i mean... i just i wanna tell her but i'm scared"

"don't be" ty rubbed my shoulder. "if you tell her something good can happen"

"but you know how terrified i am when it comes to relationships and dating someone" i shook my head. "for fucks sake dude! we were messing around while she had a girlfriend!"

"oh what?" tycee furrowed her brows.

"yeah" i sighed. "so i'm just scared cause she's gonna do something like that"

"are you gonna answer billie?" tys eyes flicked down to my phone and back to me. "she's sent you like twenty texts ever since you've been here... you've been here for two days!"

"nope" i shook my head no. "not gonna"

"what is she saying?" she asked me.

i grabbed my phone and went to her messages from today. i didn't feel like reading the others ones from three days ago. they were just her saying 'hey' and then a couple hours later she sends me a '?'.

today at 11:37am

pirate: raelyn 😐three fuckimg days 3 DAYSwhy aren't you answering medid i do something?if i did i'm sorry i'm very sorry omgjust answer me dammit! 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕raelynnni'll give u head pls answer mei miss you like a lot actually who am i supposed to cuddle???im coming to ur house idcfuck u

"what the hell" i looked up at tycee when i finished reading them. "she just sent that last one like ten minutes ago"

"well go to your house stupid!" tycee held her hands up. "go!"

"no!" i told her. "if she really wants me she w-"

"if she didn't want you why would she be saying that?" ty cut me off. "she obviously likes you idiot!"

"no she doesn't" i mumbled. "she d-"

i was cut off by my phone dinging again.

pirate: you're not at ur house where tf are you i'm staying here until you get here idcur mom let me in come home stupid

"she doesn't like me" tycee mocked me and smacked my arm. "go fucking talk to her!"

"tyty" i whined while pouting. "i can't"

"yes you can bitch!" she pushed me off of her bed. "go!"

"she's at my house!" i smacked her. "i'm not going!"

"go raelyn!" tycee smacked me back."now, or your are never invited back here"

"shut up bitch" i mumbled while walking out her room.

tycee followed me out and said bye.

the drive to my house was fucking horrible. i took my time because i really don't wanna see billie right now.

im dreading it

she's probably gonna be in the living room with bubba so i can sneak in through the back and go into my room.

i parked my car in the driveway and ran to the side gate. i opened it and ran to where my room is. i'm pretty sure i left the doors unlocked.

i approached my glass doors and opened it.

"oh hey there mckay" i heard billies voice when i walked into my room.

for fucks sake

"what do you want" i asked her dryly while setting my things down.

billie was laying on my bed with bubbas head resting on her stomach.

"sheesh!" she let out a chuckle. "why are you mad?"

"im not mad" i sent her a look. "what makes you think i'm mad?"

"what do you want! she mocked me. "i'm not mad!"

"stop it" i smacked her leg. "you're annoying!"

"whatever" billie rolled her eyes at me. "where were you the last three days"

"none of your business" i mumbled while i changed in front of her.

idc

"raelyn" billie sent me a look. "why were you ignoring me?"

"just cause" i shrugged. "why do you care?"

"cause you literally ghosted me for three days with no explanation!" billie furrowed her brows and made a face. "do you know how much ive been overthinking that i did something?"

"okay" i said dryly and shrugged. "i don't care"

"yeah right" she scoffed. "why did you do that?"

"i already told you" i rolled my eyes.

"just cause is not an excuse raelyn" billie told me while looking at me seriously. "what did i do"

"are you stupid?" i sent her a 'really' look. "can you not remember why i was upset the other day?"

"no i don't" she shook her head while rolling her eyes. "what did i do to get you so upset? i've done nothing but literally be with you all the time until you ignored me for no reason!"

"you are an idiot" i let out a bitter chuckle. "how can you not remember?"

"oh!" billie sucked her teeth and scoffed. "is that why you ghosted me? because of that girl?"

i just stood quiet and patted bubbas butt so she can come too me. she's not gonna be on billie right now, we're mad at each other.

"answer me raelyn!" she said in an angry tone. "is that why?"

i shrugged in response and looked up at her. "nah" i gave her a fake smile. "that is totally not the reason why i'm upset at you"

idk why i'm so mad rn i wanna cry

"so you ghosted me for three days because i was talking to a girl?" she let out a chuckle. "you're unbelievable"

"shut up" i mumbled while rolling my eyes and pushed her off my bed like she does to me sometimes. "you are an idiot"

"dude" billie scoffed. "we're just friends, why do you care so much?"

"because friends don't go sneak around and do the things we do!" i cried. "can't you tell that i like you?"

"well... don't" she shrugged while turning around to leave.

i quickly got up from my bed and yanked billie back into my room. "then what the fuck was all the shit we did for?" i shouted at her while i wiped a tear away. "huh? what the fuck was it for?"

billie just looked at the ground.

"you expect me not to fall for you with all the things we've done?" i made her look at me. "why tell me not to like you after i tell you? did you just want me to admit to it so you can hurt me or some shit?"

she still didn't answer me.

"billie" i groaned and wiped a tear away. "was i just a distraction to you? a temporary comfort satisfaction?"

bitch didn't wanna talk.

"look me in they eyes and tell me!" i grabbed her face. "fucking tell me!"

"no" billie told me quietly.

"then what the fuck" i scoffed. "do you know how long i wanted to tell you that i like you? so fucking long billie, and this shit happens!"

she just swallowed and stared at me.

"i didn't wanna tell you this way" i sighed while rubbing my face and sniffled. "i'm so fucking stupid, i should've fucken known when you told me you don't do feelings. i should've havent s-"

"raelyn stop" billie cut me off and cupped my face. "i'm sorry, i really am"

"shut the fuck up" i spat at her and took her hands off of my face. "don't touch me"

"i don't know what to do" she told me quietly. "i didn't know why to say other than don't and leave. i'm sorry rae. i just- i don't wanna hurt you"

"you don't want hurt me?" i scoffed and let out a dry chuckle. "you tell me to not like you after i tell you. i'm totally not hurt and annoyed over that"

"i'm sorry" billie leaned her head onto my shoulder and tightly wrapped her arms around my torso. "i'm sorry rae"

"are you really?" i grabbed her and pushed her away from me. "no you're fucking not. if you were y-"

billie shut me up by kissing me.

i pushed her away again and made a face. "don't do that shit!" i told her. "you tell me not to like you and you do that shit! you always do that!"

"raelyn if i didn't like you i wouldn't be spamming your phone and arguing with you right now!" billie groaned while slightly shaking me. "i'm sorry that i said that okay? i'm sorry, but i like you stupid!"

"what?" i blinked at her.

"i like you!" she told me again. "i like you dammit!"

"you do?" i asked her quietly.

"yes, i like you!" billie chuckled. "how many times do i have to say it?"

"a lot" i mumbled while i felt my cheeks heat up. " do you really?"

"yes i do!" billie sent me a look. " i have feelings for you raelyn... we both have feelings right?"

"did you not get the fucking point of this whole argument?" i made a face. "i li-

"i got you" she cut me off and giggled. "it's okay, i really do like you though raelyn"

"i like you too" i blushed. "like a lot sadly..."

"me t- sadly??" billie made a face.

"i'm playing" i giggled. "i do like you a lot"

"me too" she told me. "i like you a lot for some reason"

"me too" i said while biting my lip. "i think we're repeating ourselves a lot"

"i think we're just nervous" billie let out a small laugh. "cause we 'don't do feelings', but look at us admitting we like each other"

"yeah" i giggled. "i'm sorry for being over dramatic over that girl though... sorry"

"you shouldn't be. it's okay" she told me. "she was just one of my partners for an assignment i needed to do"

"what-" my mouth was slightly open. "she was just a partner for an assignment?"

"yeah" billie nodded her head. "she's just a partner"

"we could've avoided this whole thing if you just told me that" i sent billie a look. "this wouldn't have ever happened if you told me the first time i asked you"

"i mean... if i did this probably wouldn't have happened right?" she smiled sheepishly at me. "we wouldn't have angry confessed our feelings?"

"you're an idiot" i giggled at her. "a really big idiot"

a/n: so what now?