Chapter 37

“Let’s have dinner first. Mom and dad aren’t here because they have their wedding anniversary date.”

Yeonjun just nods while looking around at Soobin’s house. “You’re an only child, right?” Yeonjun asks, following the younger’s steps towards the dining area.

“Yeah and they both got busy so I don’t have any siblings after,” Soobin explained. “These are all the foods?” he asked one of the maids and she nods. “Thank you,” he added. “How about you?”

“Me? I’m an only child and there’s Jaemin,” Yeonjun answered, trying not to sound awkward.

They both take their sits and started putting food on their plate. “About Jaemin, he never told my about you that’s why I don’t have any idea but I just found out recently as well that he wants us to meet and be friends,” Soobin tells.

“Is that why you’re acting like this?” Yeonjun questioned.

“How about you? Aren’t you being friendly and sorry because of him too?” Soobin shots back and he saw how Yeonjun reacted to it, so he chuckles. “Don’t worry, it’s not bad. It’s for the best,” Soobin added and smiles.

“Y-yeah,” Yeonjun responded.

“If I have just known since then that you are his brother, I already ask for forgiveness but maybe, learning it on a hard way will keep things even better. Right?”

Yeonjun stares at Soobin, trying to decipher how come Soobin is this understanding? How come Soobin will just forgive that fast? Is he really stupid or he’s just like that?

“I don’t know what I should do with you,” Yeonjun whispered and played with his food, obviously he doesn’t have the appetite anymore.

“There’s so much you can do with me,” Soobin suddenly answered. “You can do… everything with me.”

Yeonjun stands up. “I really need to go, Soobin. This won’t get us any good. You’ll just hurt yourself again. I came here to say sorry and I thought you’re not going to like me anymore. Just stop being so stupid,” Yeonjun remarked and started walking away.

Soobin quickly stands up and hold Yeonjun’s wrist. “Don’t go, please,” Soobin begged.

Yeonjun harshly pulled his arm from Soobin. “What the hell Choi Soobin? Aren’t you tired? Until when are you going to let your feelings go wild like that!?”

“Don’t you like me?”

Yeonjun pauses, gasps, the question is so sudden for him.

“Do you think it’s that easy, Choi Yeonjun? To un-like you? No. Every fucking night, I dreamt of you. Every single day, I think of you— thinking about what ifs! Did you know that the past month I am so exhausted but I need to fucking push myself to study so I can see you and seeing you, just a glance of you, can make me feel at ease? Did you know how much I am hoping, praying, wishing that one day you’ll come at me then say sorry and it happened—“

“It happened and that’s it!”

“And if it happens, I’m going to continue these fucking feelings.”

A long silence covered the whole area. There are servants hearing them but pretends they not and there’s a space between them that Soobin wants to invade and claim Yeonjun again.

“So tell me Yeonjun if you like me or not. Reject me properly so I won’t hope anymore. I will let you hurt me, I’m fine with it! I will let you do what you want to me, use me, abuse me or what like you always did and I can handle it! Choi Yeonjun, I can be whatever you want,” Soobin’s tears started streaming down.

Soobin’s hand slowly reached Yeonjun’s and he hold it so tight. “P-please, Yeonjun. Please, you don’t need to change for me. I can handle you,” he begged again.

Yeonjun frustratedly closed his eyes. He knows he doesn’t like Soobin at all— maybe in bed, but that’s it. He admits, he likes to fuck the kid. He likes to see him in pain, he misses his body, and his voice moaning his name but that’s just it. He doesn’t like him romantically and that’s for sure but what is this feeling he has right now?

Is it pity? Is it because he’s seeing Soobin begged to stay even if they both know he’s toxic one? Or it’s something else? He suddenly thought of Taehyun's words before.

“Where’s your room, Puppy?”

Yeonjun found himself kissing Soobin, hungrily. How many days it has been alreay? It's been so long since they touched each other and this hunger and wanting for more is understandable.

Yeonjun laid the younger on his bed and started stripping his clothes while sucking his neck and leaving some red marks on it. Soobin’s hands are also busy taking off Yeonjun’s clothes and then they kissed again until they are both naked.

“You’re really going to regret,” Yeonjun whispered at him, tracing Soobin’s hole with his finger.

“Agh— I-I won’t and I… I don’t care— hmgh,” Soobin answered between his moans.

Yeonjun smirks and move down. He kisses Soobin’s lips, traced his jaw, sucks his neck and chest all the way down and held Soobin’s dick then give its head a kiss and proceeds on Soobin’s hole.

“It’s been a while,” Yeonjun muttered, staring at it.

“S-stop staring,” Soobin shyly reacted and Yeonjun just chuckles.

Yeonjun’s lips parted and let his tongue out and rimmed Soobin’s hole. Soobin moans because of its tingling feeling and grips on his bed sheet when he felt Yeonjun’s tongue digging in.

After that, Yeonjun spits on his finger and entered Soobin in such slow and careful pace. Soobin moans again and this time he grabs a handful hair of Yeonjun.

“F-fuck me, Yeonjun… Please,” Soobin uttered.

“Beg for more, baby. I can’t hear you,” Yeonjun teased him and even went slower this time.

“Fuck me hard, Yeonjun. F-fuck me so hard, I want it all! Please!” Soobin begged, looking at Yeonjun’s eyes. He doesn't care if he looks idiot and sounds desperate. He missed Yeonjun, he missed him a lot.

What Soobin just begged right now, with Soobin’s drowsy and needed eyes, and the fuck that he missed how Soobin begged for him to enter, made his cock goes wild.

Yeonjun lick the corner of his lips and positioned himself on Soobin’s entrance. “I’m going,” Yeonjun said and started pushing himself on Soobin.

Soobin arched his back, throws his head and whimpered in pain. His insides are getting teard again. It’s painful but he wants more of it. He wants more of Yeonjun inside him.

Yeonjun moves in slow pace to let Soobin recover first then he’s starting going fast and even faster that Soobin’s almost crying and being loud and he doesn’t care if others outside will hear him.

They both continued to moan each other’s name and then Yeonjun decided to switch their positions. “Ride me, baby,” he whispered upon moving and lies down.

Yeonjun’s on the bed while Soobin positioned himself on top. He held Yeonjun’s cock and directed it on his entrance. He whimpered when it entered and he starts moving down and up.

Yeonjun gasps when he felt Soobin’s warm and tight insides wrapping his cock not to mention they are in raw right now. He held Soobin’s waist and guided him to pull up and down. Soobin wanted to go slower but Yeonjun’s slamming him down, making him go crazy.

Soobin continued humping on Yeonjun’s cock while moaning the older’s name. He loves what he’s doing. And then Yeonjun felt that he’s near so he pulled Soobin down on his chest and hugged him as he moves his hips faster and cum inside Soobin and Soobin as well cum in their stomach.

They both panted and Soobin supports his body with his hands on the bed and looked at Yeonjun. The older’s smiling at him so Soobin tried his best not to cry.

“Just cry, I won’t judge,” Yeonjun whispered, voice is low and sweet. As if he's talking to a kid.

Soobin falls and hugged him again, sobbing like a kid. “I hate it that I like you,” Soobin muttered.

“Are you that happy, we’re back again?” Yeonjun asks him, rubbing the back of the younger and he felt Soobin’s head move as he nods.

“A-are you really going to hurt me?” Soobin asks, face still buried on Yeonjun’s chest.

“Will I? If you’ll stay as a good dog, I may not,” Yeonjun replied.

“I will!” Soobin exclaimed and looked at Yeonjun like a kid.

Yeonjun tried his best not to laugh at Soobin being so stupid and submissive. “Then it’s settled.”

“B-but are you going to fuck someone again aside from me?”

“Only if you’ll become a bad dog,” Yeonjun answered. “But you won’t, right? So my dick’s only yours,” he continued.

Soobin blushed on what Yeonjun just said and then he heard Yeonjun chuckles because he felt something between their stomachs. “You went hard just by what I said? My dick is still even inside you,” Yeonjun teased him.

Soobin pursed and looked away because he’s embarrassed. Yeonjun moves to sit and Soobin’s above. “Let’s take a shower and fill your ass again, Puppy.”

“Yes, I would love to do it!”