Chapter 41

The spice is about to come people, sorry I had you all waiting for so long for it!————————————————

Hana's POV

I lay in Crowley's bed, not able to fall asleep because too many things are going on inside my head.I had finally had my revenge, and together with the exhaustion of using that too heavy blade over and over again I should be able to sleep peacefully. But that stupid bloodsuckers face appears in my mind every time I close my eyes.

It wasn't looking good. My hatred towards him was diminishing drastically. That stupid mate bond is starting to effect me. I was starting to tolerate him, like him at most.

I could escape on my own, since Crowley seems to trust me enough to leave me alone near unlocked windows, but he knows that I can't leave, not without Guren.That was the big problem. Either I escape from Crowley and his mate bond but without Guren, or I try my shot at rescuing the colonel and leave together with him, or die trying. The last one however seems to become a less likely plan to succeed. My idea to have Guren keep me hostage to escape had too many variables that could cause problems, the biggest threat being Crowley. Killing Crowley was also almost out of the question, both because I felt a strange feeling when thinking about it and because he is simply too strong.

That leaves only me escaping without the lieutenant colonel. He wouldn't mind, but what about the rest? Would they forgive me for leaving him behind?

I turned to my side, hiding my face in the pillow. I inhaled deeply and noticed the smell of Crowley faintly on the pillows, it smelled nice.

There was another solution I realized, one I didn't particularly like myself. I could help Guren escape by staying here myself, maybe I could convince Crowley even to let him go in exchange for my full cooperation as a soul mate.

I felt both sick and fuzzy all at once thinking about it, staying with Crowley. Loving him.

But at the end of the day lieutenant colonel Guren was more valuable to the human army than a single soldier like myself was. I had decided, the safest solution would be to get Guren out first and maybe I could escape later when I had Crowley's full trust. I had to act quickly though, something was going to happen soon. More vampires should be arriving and I don't want another round of Vlad.

I needed to talk to Guren to tell him my new plan, which meant I had to talk to Crowley.

I left the bedroom after only having been in it for two hours. I wasn't sure where Crowley had gone but my best shot was his office so I headed that way.The door was slightly ajar and I carefully creeped closer. I peeked inside and saw Crowley at his desk, looking concentrated on a document he was reading.He soon noticed my smell because he suddenly looked up at me. He smiled cockily and leaned back into his chair.

"Don't stare from the hallway, you can come inside and do that." He says cheekily.

I feel my cheeks warm up but enter the office non the less, closing the door behind me.I settle down in one of the uncomfortable chairs opposite him. We meet each others stare and neither of us wants to be the first one to break it.

An intense want to touch him, to feel his skin against mine suddenly overwhelmed me. My eyes drifted down to his mouth, his lips. He must have noticed because he licked his lips, showing off his fangs in the process.My eyes involuntarily drifted down even more, settling on the open buttons revealing his chest beneath. He shifted slightly but I kept my eyes on his chest.

What am I doing?!

I couldn't stop however, a feeling deep in my core was tugging me towards him. I needed him to touch me, to make this feeling go away just for a little while so I could focus on why I came here.

Why did I even come here? I can't recall.

My eyes drift to his large hands, he is pulling of his gloves, painfully slow in my opinion.

"Hana." He breathes my name.My eyes shoot back at his face, his eyes were blazing. He seemed like a predator ready to pounce, but instead of feeling afraid I feel intrigued.

"Yes" I answer back sweetly, barely audible in my opinion.

"Come here." He says standing up himself. A chill ran down my spine, I felt excited. I walked towards him behind his desk and in a quick movement he had me pinned against his desk. His lips were resting against the nape of my neck, slowly breathing in my scent. I was frozen in place, I wasn't sure how to proceed, was he about to bite me or kiss me? Against my will I could feel my cheeks redden.

I put my hands against his chest and tried pushing him away, the sudden shock of his fangs so close to my skin helped my senses sharpen a bit again.

Oh god what am I doing?!

I push but of course to no avail. "You smell so good" His lips murmured against my skin, sending a tingling sensation through my body. My legs felt like jello.

"What are you doing?" I asked, trying my best to hide how much his words affected me, but my words came out breathless. He backed up a bit and looked me straight in the eyes. But I couldn't look at him, I felt too embarrassed and ashamed at my situation. How can I betray my own kind like this by having these feelings for a vampire? What am I even feeling? It's not love but I certainly feel good in his presence, not that I ever will admit that out loud.

I dared to glance up at Crowley for just a moment, he is towering over my small frame, just looking down at me with a knowing smile as if he had read my thoughts. I averted my gaze again. "You're blushing" he said, not in a teasing way but more like an observation. "Am not!" I say defensively, I could feel more heat rising to my head. Dammit. "Why would I be blushing?" When my dark brown eyes drifted back to his blood red ones, it was over. His lips caught mine in surprise, there was nothing gentle about this kiss. It was full of hunger and longing. Every thought in my head disintegrated into pure nothingness. I felt Crowley's hands drift down to my thighs and I felt myself getting lifted up a bit from the floor, I was suddenly sitting on his desk, him standing between my legs, still kissing me. He shifted, pressing himself more into me, I felt a dark pull of desire starting to grow in my belly and between my legs, trying to bend my moral rules.

With my last brain cell of common sense I tried one last time to push him away from me. He broke the kiss off for a moment and stared with hooded eyes at my lips. I couldn't help myself from staring back at his mouth as well, his lips were slightly parted, his fangs barely visible. His breath smelled of mint and he seemed to be panting slightly. Not from exhaustion, this man was a vampire and kissing wouldn't effect his stamina, but out of pure desire and want. He put a finger under my chin, tilting my head slightly up so I was looking him in his eyes. He looked determined and brought his lips back to mine.

This time he kissed me more gently, I had finally succumbed to my instincts and started to slowly and carefully kiss him back. Embarrassingly enough I have never in my eighteen years of life kissed someone before, so I didn't even know if I was doing it correctly, but Crowley didn't complain. His hands left my chin and went behind my head, tangling in my blonde locks as he leaned further forward, deepening the kiss. Unintentionally my hands had drifted up against his chest, we were both still fully clothed but that didn't matter because I could still feel his muscled body beneath my touch. I couldn't stop myself, it just felt so good. My whole body was tingling with sensation and my mind felt as if it were on cloud nine. That little voice in the back of my mind was screaming at me to stop, to not like this, to remember what he is and what his kind had done to mine, but the voice grew weaker and weaker the more passionate the kiss became.

I curled my fingers into the fabric of his jacket and pulled him closer to me, his groan pressing between my legs. He let out a low growl in the back of his throat, a small, pleading sound that send every inch of my skin on fire and made my legs clench. "Hana..." he murmurs against my lips, it sounded like a warning, or a question, I wasn't sure.

Yes?" I breathed back, his lips never leaving mine. He finally pulled away and looked at me, he had a serious look on his face as if he was considering something very important, which seems to be a rare thing for Crowley. I raise my head a bit trying to reach his lips again.

"Fuck it" he suddenly says and before I knew it he had thrown me over his shoulder in a split second and used his vampire speed to get us to his bedroom in only few seconds. He quickly closes the bedroom door behind us and throws me onto the bed. I had no time to protest before he was upon me.