C15

Next morning :

Joss opens his eyes to a face he longs to see every moment, face that he misses even when he's looking at it. His lips curve to form a smile. He supports himself with his elbow and continues watching his lover sleep. Even though the current scene looks like a scene out of a romantic movie, he knows well how his will go, at least for the days to come. He knows the moment his father comes to know about this, he will be sent abroad for who knows how many years. But he isn't scared of this, but he's scared he might end up hurting his special person. Gawin is the one person beside his family that he values more than his own life.

"I will protect you with my everything." Joss traces his hands gently against Gawin's face. Gawin's eyes start moving before opening, revealing those sparkly eyes. He smiles and nuzzles against Joss's chest.

"Good morning."

"Morning..."

Gawin continues nuzzling. Joss giggles and hugs him loosely, leaving a soft kiss on the crook, his neck making Gawin giggle after him.

"It tickles....hehe."

"I see u have sensitive neck. Noted."

"What noted?" Gawin slaps Joss on his arms.

"Ouch! Haha...are u shy?"

"Stop it. I'm not." Gawin gets up with his hair all messy.

"Haha...how cute, your hair is a mess. Here, let me fix it for u." Joss gets up and stands in front of Gawin. He's just a few centimetres taller than him, but because of some unknown reasons, Gawin looks unexpectedly smaller in front of him. Gawin just stood there, still letting Joss fix his hair.

"I didn't know that u are very caring."

"U didn't cause i didn't let u know. This kinda thing is reserved for my special person only."

"And who is that?" Gawin pokes on Joss's chest while Joss is still busy fixing his hair. He straightens the hair strands as gently as possible. To him, it's not just some hair strands but treasures for him.

"My lover."

"And where is ur lover?"

"Right here, in front of me, you."

"Since when did I become ur lover?" Gawin puts his arms around Joss's neck and wraps around it. Joss finished fixing his hair by then, so he placed his hands on Gawin's waist and rested them there.

"Since yesterday." Joss tilt his head and wraps his hands around his man's  small waist. "Looks like ur waist is made just for me. My hands can wrap around them just right." Joss tightens his arms and pushes Gawin closer against him.

"Wanna see what other things are made for u?" Gawin whispers against Joss's ears, sending chills down his spine.

"Do I have the permission to do so?"

"Who's stopping u?" Gawin whispers back, making Joss grin before kissing on his lips. Gawin jumps up and wraps his legs around Joss. Joss carries him to the bed, taking slow and careful steps, still continuing the kiss. He slowly puts G down on the bed and pulls his own shirt off from his body, and throws it aside. Gawin watches as he pulls in Joss again into yet another deep kiss. Tongue interwhine with each other. The kiss turns from sweet to sloppy to hungry one.

Gawin traces his hands against Joss's smooth yet hard skin. Joss lets out a gasp in between the kiss when Gawin's soft hands touch his sensitive spots. Joss hands also get under Gawin's shirt and start tracing against his bare skin.

Ring...ring...

Ring...ring...

"Joss, pick up the call first." Gawin broke the kiss.

"Later..." Joss continues kissing  Gawin.

Ring...ring...

"Pick it up first." Gawin pushed Joss, making him annoyed at the caller.

"Whoever it is , it better be important, or someone will die in my hands today." Joss gets up from Gawin's body and takes his phone from the side."Hospital."

"Huh?"

'Hello?....What!?' The phone dropped from his hands and fell down on the ground.

"What happened? What is it? J? J!?" Gawin taps lightly on Joss's face, bringing him back to reality.

"G..."

"What is it?"

"My mom. My mom...G."

"What about ur mom? Tell me? Calm down. I'm here."

"Her health is worsening. What do i do, G? I feel completely helpless."

"What did the doctor say?"

"The doctor told me to come there."

"Then what are u waiting for?"

"Right. What am I doing? I need to be there. My mom must be scared right now."

"Let's go. I'll come with u. Where are ur car keys? Let me drive."

"Ok. It must be there."

Gawin decided to tag along as he knew well that Joss's mind wasn't stable at the moment. He can get shaky emotionally when it comes to his mother. Both of them rush inside the hospital. Joss rushed inside his mother's room, followed by Gawin. Joss runs towards his mother and kneels down beside her, taking her hands and bringing it to his face.

'Mom, I'm here, mom... Joss is here..mom...mom...hic...' Joss starts sobbing.

"Don't cry, J. Mom will be alright."

'Yes, yes. She will be alright. Nothing will happen to her.'

'Why did u come if all u are going to do is cry ?' Joss father steps inside. Gawin steps aside and bow down in respect.

'Paa? When did u come back?'

'We will talk about that later. For now, come with me to talk to the doctor.'

'Why don't u do it alone? Until now, it's always been me who has been doing all of it. Just think how Ma must be feeling. His dear husband values his company more than her. The least u could do is sit beside her and ask her to wake up.'

'Be realistic. We all know what's possible and what's not. Stop this nonsense and follow me to the doctor.' His father steps outside first. Joss has his two eyebrows knitted towards each other with anger, but Gawin calms him down before sending him to the doctor.

"Don't worry. Just go with him. I'll be here for u."

"Thank u."

After all the talking is done, Joss walks back to the room.

"U are back?"

"G." Joss walks towards him and pulls him into a hug.

"Is there anything wrong? What did the doctor say?"

"Later." Joss pulls away from the hug and walks towards his mother and kneels down beside her again.

'Mom, what do I do? I don't think I can move on without u. Can't u just be with Joss forever? Is it really painful? Should I let u go, mom?' Joss cries out painfully, but there was no response, only silence with the sound of the machine beeping.

Gawin sits down by his side and rubs him on his back. Joss just lets out all his tears at once. All the sadness he's been bottling up until now, he let it all out. The quiet room is now filled with the cries of a grieving son who's unwilling to let his mother go.

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