Chapter 17: Love and Affection

(Cecelia's Pov)

I weakly fluttered my eyes open to a pair of arms around my waist, I sucked in deep breath and sighed as it hurt to breathe, my head hurt, my heart hurt, everything just fuckin hurt so bad...I was just so tired...I'm so tired...I blinked a few times and sighed as I looked seein it was 7am...

I groaned and whined and looked seein Oliver was lyin besides me wide awake. He gave me a small smile as I turned to look at him "Mornin love" he whispered and put his hand on my cheek and caressed it gently which made me smile weakly "mornin Ollie" I whispered hoarsely,

Oliver brushed my hair out of my face "How'd ya sleep?" he asked, I shrugged "Okay" I whispered, he just nodded "That's good" he whispered, I just sighed and nodded "How long have you been up?" I whispered, "not long. I had to make sure ya slept okay" he said,

I just nodded "is there anythin ya wanna do today?" he asked, I bit my lip and shook my head as all those feelin came back...I didn't want them to be back...I want them gone...I want them to go away...I'm so tired of cryin...I can't...My heart raced and stomach churned anxiously as I felt the tears welled up.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and squeezed my eyes shut tryin so hard not to cry again but it's like no matter what happens everythin comes back...I can't get Cedric out of my mind...he's everywhere and he's dead and he's never comin back...

Oliver pulled me ontop of him and rubbed my head and back "It's okay love. It's okay" he whispered, I ran my fingers through his hair and gripped a bit and trembled "Don't hold it in love, it's okay" he whispered and kissed my head which made me just let it all out...I just let it all out and sobbed and I just don't know why anymore...I just can't...

After I managed to stop cryin, Oliver kissed my head and just rubbed my back. I sniffled as I weakly sat up and wiped my face "I'm sorry" I whispered, Oliver frowned and sat up and brushed my hair out of my face "Ya don't have ta apologize my love...Ya never have ta apologize for how yer feelin right now because it's normal okay...I know yer hurtin and I know yer upset and it's okay. We don't blame ya love...we all just love ya so much and will do anythin ta make ya feel better okay?" he asked caressin my cheek.

I just sniffled and nodded "Is there anythin ya wanna do? Or need?" He asked, I sighed and let out a shaky breathe "I probably smell awful. I wanna take a hot bath" I said, Oliver nodded "Can ya walk or do ya want me to carry you?" he asked, I smiled weakly and held my arms up and made grabby hands because I am just too tired and weak to move.

Oliver smiled as he hopped out of bed and stretched a bit and picked me up bridal style. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and snuggled in his chest which made him chuckle as he took me to the prefect bathroom.

He set me on the edge of the sink and started up the bath. He came back to me and slid between my legs. I blushed shyly and wrapped my arms around his neck. He smiled and kissed my head "I'll take care of ya love" he whispered, I just nodded as he pressed a gentle kiss on my lips which made me smile and kiss back.

His lips always felt so soft and the kiss always felt so sweet and passionate and made me warm on the inside. He smiled as he grabbed the hem of my jumper which was Cedric's and pulled it over my head and on the floor. I was still wearin another shirt and no bra since those are the devil.

Oliver grabbed the hem of my undershirt and lifted it over my head which made me smile shyly as I felt so bare not to mention embarrassed. Oliver chuckled and kissed my jaw and neck which made me giggle "Yer so perfect my love" he whispered which made my heart and stomach flutter with love.

I pulled at Oliver's shirt which made him chuckle and pull it off. I eyed him and bit my lip a bit and placed my hands on his warm and sculpted chest which made him chuckle as Oliver rubbed my waist and grabbed the hem of my pants and slid them from my thighs. I shivered a little as his calloused fingers ghosted over my thighs. Oliver smirked and ran his hands up and down my thighs which made me bite my lip a bit feelin the goosebumps on my skin.

Oliver chuckled and pampered my neck with kisses which made me whimper as I ran my fingers through his hair and pulled a bit. For a moment, I forgot everythin in my head, I forgot all about the bad things and for a moment...I just wanted to forget everythin...

I ran my hands down his chest and to his sweatpants and pulled them down a bit. He chuckled and took off his sweats as well leavin us in our underwear. Oliver looped his fingers through my underwear and pulled them from my thighs which made me whimper a little.

He chuckled and eyed me up and down which made me bite my lip and blush with embarrassment. Oliver smirked as he grabbed my chin and made me look at him "yer so perfect" He whispered, I smiled softly "S-So are you" I whispered, he chuckled and slid off his boxers which I tried so hard not to just stare at him but at least he was keepin my mind off things.

After we were now both bare and naked, Oliver turned off the bath water as it filled up the tub. He came back over and picked me up by my thighs and brought us over to the tub. He sat down with me on his lap which made us sigh as the hot water felt nice.

I let out a deep breath and lied my head on Oliver's shoulder and blankly stroked his chest. Oliver rubbed my head and back and hummed slightly which me sigh "you okay?" he asked softly, I looked up at him and nodded a little "I'm just tired" I said, Oliver nodded and brushed my hair out of my face "I know love. I know" he whispered,

I just sighed as I felt a pain in my chest like there's a hole in my heart where Cedric used to be...I rubbed my face tiredly which made Oliver rub my waist "What's on yer mind love?" he asked softly. I sighed and wrapped my arms around his neck "too much" I whispered, "tell me" he whispered,

I just nodded as I already felt the tears and pain resurface but I guess it's better to talk about it than to keep it all in...that and I can't keep it in anymore...I sighed and braced myself for what's to come "it feels like there's a hole in my heart...like when Ceddy died...It's like part of me died with him...I-I lost my other half...we were inseparable...always have been since we were babies...we shared rooms, I loved wearin his clothes, he kept me safe from things I feared like the dark and thunderstorms or nightmares...'

'Durin muggle school before he came here, he always, always protected me...we've fought before and have had arguments but he's always the one to apologize and try his damn hardest to make me happy...he's helped me when I got hurt, he's always put all his trust and faith in me whenever I-I doubted myself about things...we loved teachin each other Quidditch and ice skatin...he's helped me with my homework and he's just always been there...'

'H-he's helped me make friends...helped me with you...I don't know if I would be here if it weren't for him a-and I still can't believe that he's gone and that I-I have to live my life without him...what am I-I supposed to do without him? What am I supposed to without the only person I ever looked up to and who I've always wanted to be?" I asked as I had no voice left in me let alone tears even though some kept fallin.

Oliver frowned and cupped my cheeks and wiped them away "Cedric would be so proud of the young woman ya are today, you are so strong, brave, lovin, kind, smart, beautiful, talented and so many more things I could list off...Cedric wouldn't want ya ta give up on life because you are not alone my love...yer not...Ya have the Weasley's, ya have Harry and Hermione, ya have yer parents and most of all love...ya have me and we all love ya so so much and would do anything for ya and no matter what happens we will always be there and ya don't have ta go through this alone" he said,

I sniffled and nodded as I choked on sobs a bit. Oliver wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in a hug which made me sniffle as I sobbed a bit while Oliver just held me tightly and rocked me back and forth while hummin softly.

When I finally managed to stop cryin, Oliver pried me off him and cupped my red and tear stained cheeks "I love you so much my love. So so so much" he said, I sniffled and smiled weakly "I love you too Ollie" I whispered, he smiled and pampered my face with kisses which made me smile softly and sigh.

Oliver pulled away and started to wash my hair which made me smile and try to relax. I hummed softly "I had a dreamI got everything I wantedNot what you'd thinkAnd if I'm being honest

It might've been a nightmareTo anyone who might careThought I could fly So I stepped off the Golden, mmNobody cried Nobody even noticedI saw them standing right thereKinda thought they might care

I had a dreamI got everything I wantedBut when I wake up, I seeYou with me

And you say, "As long as I'm hereNo one can hurt youDon't wanna lie hereBut you can learn toIf I could changeThe way that you see yourselfYou wouldn't wonder why you hearThey don't deserve you" I sang softly which made Oliver press gentle kisses to my neck which made me giggle softly,

"I tried to screamBut my head was underwaterThey called me weakLike I'm not just somebody's daughter

Coulda been a nightmareBut it felt like they were right thereAnd it feels like yesterday was a year agoBut I don't wanna let anybody know'Cause everybody wants something from me nowAnd I don't wanna let 'em down

I had a dreamI got everything I wantedBut when I wake up, I seeYou with me

And you say, "As long as I'm hereNo one can hurt youDon't wanna lie hereBut you can learn toIf I could changeThe way that you see yourselfYou wouldn't wonder why you hearThey don't deserve you"

If I knew it all then would I do it again?Would I do it again?If they knew what they said would go straight to my headWhat would they say instead?If I knew it all then would I do it again?Would I do it again?If they knew what they said would go straight to my headWhat would they say instead?" I finished singin which made Oliver smile as he gently grabbed my chin and made me look at him and gently press his lips against mine which made me smile and kiss back as the kiss was so lingerin and passionate.

He pulled away leavin me breathless which made him smile as we looked at each other lovingly "I love ya so much" he said, I blushed and smiled weakly "I love you so much too" I whispered which made him smile and rub nose against mine which made me scrunch it up and giggle a little as we finished up our bath.

When we finished, I drained the water as we hopped out and wrapped towels around us. I felt so dizzy and lightheaded probably from me not eatin but I just can't do it...I'm just so tired and wanna sleep. When we got back to the room, I needed new clothes so I headed back to my dorm to grab new ones...well mainly just undergarments and sweats cause I still wanted to wear something of Cedric's.

I hopped in my clean clothes, headed back to Ced's room seein Oliver dressed back in his regular clothes. I grabbed another Jumper from Ced's drawer and slid it on and sighed a bit. Oliver came up to me and wrapped his arms around my waist "Do ya mind if I go practice Quidditch for a bit?" he asked,

I smiled softly and shook my head "I'll be here. I'm tired" I whispered, Oliver nodded and kissed my head as he headed out to practice quidditch. I sighed and wrapped my arms around me to feel like Ced was huggin me...My heart still ached so badly and I just wanted to cry all the time but I just felt so numb and it felt like I ran out of tears.

I let out a shaky breathe as I looked seein pictures many framed photos of our parents, me and Ced together, or all of us together...I picked up the framed photo seein how happy we all looked. I started to tremble as I put a hand over my mouth and sobbed yet again...the tears fell on the picture as I held it close to my chest. I curled on the back cradlin the photo while sobbin...why me? Why him? Why us?

(3rd Person View)

The twins decided to check on Cecelia because they just wanted to see how she was and if she needed anything since they haven't visited her yet. They decided to stop by Honeydukes and get her some treats because they thought it would be a nice thing to do. Fred got her, her favorite sweets and George bought her a stuffed badger to keep her company and comfort.

When they got to the Hufflepuff dorm, they entered the password and walked in "Cece?" The twins called out but heard nothin. They walked up Ced's room and knocked on the door "Cece? It's Fred and George, can we come in?" Fred asked,

They heard cryin on the other side which made the twins frown as they walked in seein Cecelia's trembling body on Cedric's bed in his sweater and cuddlin what looked like a framed photograph. The twins frowned at the broken state of their friend...they couldn't possibly imagine the pain she's goin through right now.

They walked over and sat at the edge of the bed in silence. George rubbed her back as Fred rubbed her head as she cried in pain. The twins looked at each other and frowned and just tried to comfort her until she stopped cryin.

After a few minutes, Cece coughed and sniffled as her nose was stuffed and she couldn't breathe, her face was pale but so red, her eyes were bloodshot and red as well along had dark bags under from the lack of sleep of not eating. The sight of her broke the twins hearts and all they wanted to do was make her smile and make her laugh and make her happy again...

Fred went to get her water and tissues while George kept her company. No words were exchanged between them as George just rubbed her back and head which made her yawn a bit. He smiled softly knowin she was exhausted.

When Fred came back, Cece blinked a few times and weakly sat up. He handed her the tissues and water which made her smile weakly "thanks" she whispered hoarsely, they just nodded as she grabbed a tissue and blew her nose.

When her nose felt about 50% better, she drank her water and sighed as she pretty much downed the whole cup makin the twins frown a bit cause she hasn't been eatin or drinkin anything...no one expected her too but not doin so wasn't healthy.

She handed the cup to Fred who set it on Ced's dresser "Why are you two here?" she whispered while holding the photo in her lap. They smiled softly "we wanted to check on you" "To see how you are" they said, she smiled weakly "well...here I am" she said with a weak giggle as she sniffled again.

The twins frowned "what's that?" George asked, Cece bit her lip and showed the boys which made them look seein it was a pic of Cece and Cedric smiling and laughing in their sports uniforms, the twins smiled sadly "we bought you some things we think you might like" "we know it won't make things better but we thought we could try" They said, she smiled weakly as the twins looked at each other and nodded. Fred grabbed the bag from the floor and put it on the bed.

It piqued Cecelia's interest as she tilted her head a bit. The twins smiled as Fred got out his surprise first "I thought sweets might help and I picked out your favorite ones" he said, Cece giggled a little which made the twins smile "Thanks Freddie" she whispered,

He nodded and left the packaged sweets in the bag. Cece looked at George who grabbed out a stuffed badger "I thought this would keep you company and bring some comfort" He said and handed it to her. Cece looked at the badger and immediately thought of Cedric because his favorite animal was a badger (and his Patronus)

Her bottom lip quivered as she grabbed it and started to cry again. The twins were confused "D-did I do something wrong?" George asked, Cece smiled sadly and shook her head "N-no. Th-thank you guys so much i-it's just...Ced's favorite animal was a badger" She squeaked out and started to cry.

The twins smiled sadly as she crawled over to the twins and hugged them. They smiled softly and hugged her back "t-thank you" she whispered and choked on sobs which made the twins smiled and hugged her tightly as she cried "we love you Cecelia and we're always here for you" the twins said,

Cecelia pulled away from the twins and sniffled "Can you guys go get Ollie for me please?" she asked hoarsely as she cleared her throat, the twins nodded and kissed her head which made her smile softly as she lied on his bed and cuddled the stuffed Badger and headed out of the dorms to get Oliver who was probably at the Quidditch Stadium.

When they got there, they saw bot Oliver and Harry "Oi OLLIE!" The twins shouted, both boys stopped and flew down and hopped off their brooms "What do ya lads need?" Oliver asked, "your precious love is askin for ya" Fred said, Oliver's eyes widen a bit "Ya went to see her? How is she?" He asked,

The boys frowned "Well we got her to smile so that's a start but she was holdin a picture of her and Cedric together and broke down" George said, "We got her sweets and water hopin she'll eat somethin" Fred said, Oliver nodded and let out a small sigh "thanks lads. Harry we'll continue this some other day" Oliver said, Harry nodded as Oliver ran to the locker room to freshen up and change.

After that, he headed to the Hufflepuff house and did the password. He walked in and headed up to Cedric's room. He walked in seein his beautifully broken girlfriend lyin on Cedric's bed holdin a stuffed badger assumingly came from the twins.

His heart broke everytime he saw her like this...he loved her so much and it pained him to see the love of his life so upset and heartbroken...but she was grieving and Oliver knew that she had to grieve so all he could really do was be there for her while she grieved.

Oliver walked in and closed the door behind him which made Cece look up at him. She sniffled and smiled softly as she held her arms open for Oliver to cuddle with her. He chuckled softly and kicked off his shoes and crawled into bed next to her. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her ontop of him.

She sniffled and snuggled against him which made Oliver smile softly and rub her head and back "How are ya love?" he asked even though he knew the answer "my heart hurts Ollie...everythin hurts" she whispered, he nodded "I know my love, I know it's going to hurt for a while" he said and kissed her head,

She smiled softly as her insides felt fuzzy "I just want you to hold me and never let me go" she whispered and snuggled against him and held him tighter, Oliver smiled "I will never let ya go my flawless skater. I will always be here for you same with the others" He whispered and kissed her head which made her nod as she felt loved which is just what she wanted...

(I love their love I WANT LOVE LIKE THIS!!!)

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