Feelings Complicated

''Liam

Is it my imagination or is Niall trying to ignore me? He's been acting weird lately, and I asked Zayn about it, but he said he doesn't notice anything new. I guess we're that close that I can see through him.

So I decided to go to his room and talk to him. I knocked once, twice, but no one answered. I opened the door slightly and peeked inside, and I saw Niall on his bed, headphones on, his iPod beside him, staring outside the window, lost in his own little world.

I locked the door beside me, and he still didn't notice me. I sat down beside him, and he jumped out of surprise. He looked at me curiously, turned his headphones off and removed it from his head and put it beside him. "Liam. What are you doing here?", he asked, pressing various buttons on his iPod. "Um, I have to ask you something." He looked at me again, with those bright blue eyes staring back at me. "Yeah?" "This might sound crazy, but are you trying to ignore me?" He looked away, and pretended to look at something in his iPod. "Oh wow, look at the time. I need to eat again. How about you Liam?" He mumbled, standing up from the bed and walking towards the door. But I rushed to the door and stood in front of Niall, blocking the door. "Niall. Answer. Me. Now." He turned around and took a deep breath. "Maybe. Yes. I guess. I don't know!" I waited for him to say more, but he didn't. He just stood there, staring at the floor. I hugged him from behind, and put my head beside his. "Why?", I whispered. "I don't know. I'm not sure.", he whispered back. I turned him around and he looked at me, little tears dropping from his eyes. "Sshh. Don't cry.", I told him softly, wiping his tears. He just nodded and hugged me, saying, "I just need some time, you know." "Yeah. I know."

''Louis

Harry went to sleep hours ago, and up until now, I'm still wide awake, outside our tent, admiring the stars, remembering the 'date' we had at the park.

I just can't sleep. I don't even know why, and I don't even want to think why. I'm stressed lately. This list thing is really complicated. even if sometimes the simplest things are the ones that can actually make this work. I need to think out of the box for this, and that's a lot of work. But what I really need to do right now is to sleep. I yawned, and looked at the time on my phone. It read 12:47 AM. To be honest, I think it's still early, but walking all day is tiring, and we have to walk again tomorrow, so that means we have to wake up early and have a lot of energy.

It's late enough, so I went inside the tent. Harry is sound asleep, he didn't realize I was still up by this time. I lay down and stared at the ceiling of the tent for a few moments. Out of nowhere, I sang,

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Will you won't you, be the one I always know

When I'm losing my control, the city spins around

You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh

Be my baby

-

I hugged Harry and whispered Good Night, then dozed off to sleep.

''Niall

Everything is complicated right now. Lately, Liam and I have been spending a lot of time together, to plan our, well, solution. Sometimes, when I'm with him, I get those weird feelings inside me, like when Harry talks to me, or when Harry and I are together. I'm now confused in what I feel. One more is the dream I had with Liam. It's really weird, but it made me happy somehow, and I was kinda disappointed when it ended.

I thought avoiding Liam can help me while I sort out my feelings. But I guess it didn't. I always feel like I have to talk to him, an aching need inside me. Luckily, Harry was out of town, so I don't think I'd have to avoid him, because I'll make sure I'll sort this out the time he comes back here.

I passed by Liam's room when I was going to my room after eating. I heard a faint sound of instrumentals, possibly a guitar. I stopped and listened to it, and it was definitely the plucking of a guitar. I turned the knob on his door and peeked inside, and saw Liam sitting on a beanbag chair, looking out the window beside it, wearing headphones and his iPod beside him, oblivious to what's going on around him, like what I was just hours ago. I checked my phone and saw that it's almost one in the morning. I just continued to watch him from outside, and listened to him as he sang a song that I can closely relate to,

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Would you danceIf I asked you to dance?Would you runAnd never look back?Would you cryIf you saw me crying?And would you save my soul, tonight?

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I think I'll say this part to Harry. All five of us are close, but not as close as Louis and Harry. Harry and I are not that close like them even I fancy him. Maybe he will dance with me if I ask him, but I don't think he'll cry too if I'm crying. And maybe he won't save me either, that is if Louis is in danger too. And that hurts.

-Would you trembleIf I touched your lips?Would you laugh?Oh please tell me this.Now would you die For the one you loved?Hold me in your arms, tonight. 

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I think this would be very suitable for Liam. I want to cuddle him, and hold him in my arms all night, all day. His lips, that I always look at when we talk, I just want to grab him and kiss him. But would he tremble in shock and nervousness, or would he laugh and think this is all a big joke? I know he might die for someone he loves, he is that kind, but would I ever be one of thos he'll die for?

-I can be your hero, baby.I can kiss away the pain.I would stand by you forever.You can take my breath away.-

"Liam,", I whisper softly, that only I can hear it, "if ever Louis hurts you, just remember I'm here for you." 

-Would you swearThat you'll always be mine?Or would you lie? Would you run and hide?Am I in too deep?Have I lost my mind?I don't care You're here tonight. -

I don't know. It can be for Harry, it can be for Liam. But I want it for someone that'll fancy me back, that's for sure.

-I can be your hero, baby.I can kiss away the pain.I would stand by you forever.You can take my breath away.Oh, I just want to hold you.I just want to hold you.Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?I don't careYou're here tonight.I can be your hero, baby.I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by your forever.You can take my breath away.I can be your hero.I can kiss away the pain.And I will stand by you forever.You can take my breath away.You can take my breath away.I can be your hero.

-

I just sigh and close the door carefully. I'll be just a hero for anyone of them.

''Zayn

I see Niall standing outside of Liam's room. Lately, I can see that Niall was looking at him differently, like he was looking at Harry. Nobody knows that I know, but I can see how they act. And recently, I can also see Liam look at Niall differently, too, like the way he used to look at Louis.

I think I just made a huge mistake.

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