Chapter 15

Am I freaking insane? I have the world's most finest woman who wants me and I can't give in to her. No you're faithful. That's what you are. I mean one time wouldn't hurt would it...right? No, what am I thinking I have a girlfriend. A very loving girlfriend whose heart I don't want to break. I face palmed myself sighing as I laid back on my king sized bed. You April my friend are in deep shit.

"April," Janet yelled.

I jumped up out of be and ran to the living room.

"What wro..." I stopped finding Janet holding the door open for Nadia, and Janet didn't look happy at all. Hell it was plain as day.

"Your," She cleared her throat and looked Nadia up and down, "friend is here."

Nadia was about to speak before I cut in," Hey babe what are you doing here?"

"I can't come see my girlfriend," She questioned walking in past Janet.

"Nadia don't...just come on," I sighed pulling her to my room.

Once inside I shut the door and Nadia starts with the questions, "Have you slept with her?"

I looked at her like she was insane. I mean Janet and I kissed and stuff, but it never got that far.

"No I'm not sleeping with her Nadia. Why are you questioning me about this? You know you're the only person I'm sleeping with. Do you trust me?"

She stayed silent.

"Answer my question! Do you trust me," I shouted making her jump.

"I do trust you April. I just...I just," She mumured.

"You just what Nadia?"

I stopped, taking a deep breath and exhaled to calm myself. She didn't say anything. I walked towards the bedroom door and opened it.

"Nadia I want you to leave. I need to breathe and think," I hissed.

She walked to the door turning around.

"Apr..." she started, but was cut off.

"Nadia not right now."

She then nodded and left. When I hear the hotel door opening then closing I close my door and sit on my bed.

She's known me for forever. She knows I wouldn't intentional hurt her in any way. It hurts me that she doesn't trust me. Running a hand through my hair, I came to the conclusion on what I had to do.

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I awoke to the bright morning sun shining through the curtains in my room. Today the kids and I would be back on the road. I got up out of bed and went to the restroom.

I washed my face and brushed my teeth before walking back in my room to get some clothes. Deciding on my black laced underwear set, sweats and a t-shirt to put on after my shower.

I sit my clothes down and strip out of my night clothes. I step into the shower letting the warm water soothe my skin. I wash my body thoroughly before getting out and drying off.

I lotion my skin then get dressed. I pull my hair into a messy bun not really caring about how I looked. I slipped on some socks and my black and yellow Jordans.

Good thing I packed everything last night. I grab my phone off the dresser and put it in my pocket, before putting my charger in my purse. Grabbing the rest of my bags I placed them in the living room.

Where was April?

She'd usually be awake already. I knocked on her bedroom door.

No answer.

I knocked again.

Still no answer.

She's probably still sleep. I opened the door revealing an empty bed.

I walked to the bedroom closet opening it to find it empty. I walked over to the dressers opening them finding them empty as well.

She left? Why did she leave? I looked around the room feeling like my world was shattering.

My eyes then landed on the bed. There layed a note. I walked over to it and grabbed it reading it.

Dear Janet,

I had fun during the time I spent with you touring. You're a really sweet and loving person. You were even becoming my bestfriend. I hope that you don't become upset with me for leaving. I just really need time to focus on what's really important right now. I really hope you understand.                                                         Love,                                                     April

P.s. Goodluck on every show Ms. Jackson.

I sat down on the edge of the bed in disbelief. She really left. She's gone. Suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my chest as I waited for it to go away.

I missed her already.