Before the surgery

(I want to say that I am not a doctor or professional about lung cancer but just used the internet to my best abilities. So please keep that in mind.)I opened my eyes, where was I? I heard quiet sobs, so I turned my head and saw Sanemi. He was holding my hand, not rough or tightly but softly. I thought it would be best to say something because he was looking down, not seeing I was awake. When I was about to speak, my head ached, what happened?

“Sa-Sanemi? Where am I?”

He looked up at me, I could see the tears in his eyes and sat up straight. Holding onto my hand tighter, he then responded that I was in a car accident and ended up in the hospital. I was shocked, but I had to think about what would happen next. I also wanted to know how bad my injuries were.

“How bad is it? I know my head hurts, and slightly on my arms.”

I touched my head with my free arm, and felt bandages. Sanemi went on explaining that I was really lucky to just have hit my head and some scrapes and bruises. Then I heard the door open and a doctor walked in. The doctor explained that I would be fine to go home, but then also talked about my cancer. That I should consider the surgery. 

“The cancer has gotten better which is rare, but not exactly the symptoms you had earlier, so surgery would be okay and probably your best option. For your singular case some others would just have different treatments.You also luckily only have the cancer in one lung, and it isn’t the whole lung.”

“Well when could I have the surgery? If I were to do the surgery?” 

“If you would like we could do it tomorrow, the surgery takes between two and six hours. I believe yours would go very well. Your case is very special, be happy you're lucky.”

The doctor then left, saying they would be back soon. I sat up and Sanemi let go of my hand. I looked at him, his tears were gone but his eyes were still a bit tinted red from crying earlier. I felt bad so I patted his head and thanked him for being here with me. Then I wondered where the others were? Also what time was it?

“Hey where is everybody? And what time is it?”

“They went home, it’s Saturday now, the time is two fifty six am. The time you arrived at the hospital was like midnight and you just now woke up.” 

I was shocked a bit, but I had to focus on getting surgery. I knew I was going to get surgery even if I was scared. One look at Sanemi’s face and I knew he would force me to get it. Why was he so worried about me? He was still here even though it was late. He also cried over me, why?

“Why?”

“Why, what dumbass?”

“Why do you care, why are you still here?”

He looked surprised to hear me say that. It was just, he is usually angry and gives no shit about anyone. He then grabbed my hand and whispered something. I couldn’t make out what he said so I told him to speak up. 

“No, if you want to know what I said you will have to wait until after your surgery.”

The doctor came back and we talked things out. I would be getting surgery and Sanemi said he would be here the whole time. I tried to talk him out of it but he insisted with tons of curse words. I then was able to go back to bed, since it was so late and Sanemi had to go home. He was tired and Genya was practically forcing him to. The day went on, and I was trying to mentally prepare myself for tomorrow. Everyone visited me, first it was Rengoku and Uzui. Then it was Shinobu, Mitsuri, and Iguro. Next was Gyomei, Tanjiro, Inosuke, and Zenitsu. They were there the longest, worrying and they brought me flowers. Later on Muichiro and Genya arrived and said Sanemi was out busy.I was curious but I didn’t pry, it was none of my business. They left and I was alone again, facing the wall. Throughout the day the nurses helped me and I had breakfast and lunch. The day went by kinda fast, it was almost dinner time from what the nurses told me. Just as I was watching TV, I heard someone open the door. I looked over and saw Sanemi in the doorway. He had something in his arms.My heart did flips when I saw him, he was wearing a button up, but most of the buttons were undone. He was also wearing skinny ripped jeans. As he got closer, I could tell he had food in his arms. My face was flushed, I could feel it. I tried hiding my blushing face but it was no use. 

“Salmon Daikon?”

He knew it was my favorite, and it just made me feel special. He came over and pulled a chair and sat down right next to the hospital bed. Then we ate, it was delicious. I couldn’t help but smile, and sigh with happiness. Then I felt Sanemi’s eyes on me, so I looked at him and he chuckled.

“You really don’t know how to eat huh? You sloppy fuck.”

He then leaned over me and wiped my face with his fingers. His thumb also wiped my mouth, lingering a bit longer. Sanemi then pulled away and I saw a tint of red on his cheeks and on his ears. I shrugged it off as embarrassment, and he left saying goodbye and that he would be back tomorrow. Tomorrow, my surgery day and boy was I scared…