Chapter 19

"no..cabel.. I Have to talk to him right now.." she said rushing inside..

She saw him upstairs and Called him..

"lucas.. Wait a minute" she said as she followed him but he didn't stop

"lucas.." she called and he paused for a moment

"what..?" he asked without turning back.

" i..

Even before she said anything... He went inside his room and closed the door with a loud thud ... She stood in front of his room door with a sad face...

" why are you not talking to me..? "she asked

" what do you want to talk about .? "he asked leaning on the door from inside

" I have to say something to you.. "she said placing her hand on the door.

" just go back sia.. I don't want to hear anything.. Leave me alone.. " he said and there is no sound after that...

She stood there for god know how long until cabel convinced and escorted  her back to her palace

Lucas sit on the floor.. The room is less dark compared to his face

'she might have a reason for going out with him.. I should listen to her.. But.. Why do I feel this scared..?!! Heh.. It's not at all like me... Am I always this cowardly ..?!! No.. Not at all.. I don't even know how fear feels until now... It feels like shit... I feel fear when it comes to her.. Haah... What did she do to me..?!! Why am I like this when it's her..? Shall  I go and  talk to her..?! No.. no...I.. I will talk tomorrow..

He went to his bed lied down hiding behind the blankets..

Athy was walking towards her room looking so sad which made lily worried..

"athy dear what's wrong...?!! You are fine when you went out.. Did you two had a fight..?" she asked as athy lied down on her lap.. Lily gently patted her head as she stayed silent the whole time.. Her face back to stone like...no expression at all

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Athy's. P. O. V..

It's hurts...its hurt so much.. Is this how feeling guilty feels like..?!! I am sure lucas saw me with ijekeil at the market.. That's why he got mad.. He must be thinking I lied to him.. I am such a stupid.. I should have Informed him before leaving... I.. I hurt him.. I went with someone who he loath for his life.. Someone who take his life... I am really a bad person... Why did I do that..!?!! . I  hurt lucas.. I want to ask sorry but he won't even talk to me... This one week without talking to him feels like hell..

"you are spacing out again.." I looked up to see claude sitting in front of me.. It's tea time..

"here drink this.." he said passing me lippe tea.

" th.. Thanks." I said taking a sip... It calmed me a little

" what's wrong..? You can try sharing it with me  so that you will feel better" he said...

For once he is actually acting like a dad to me.. But it's too late to do isn't it.? Still.. I feel like talking to him today.. May be cause I am stressed..

"lucas is mad at me.. Cause I went on that mission without telling him.. He saw me with Ijekiel that day.. I think he misunderstood the situation.." I said looking down circling the lays of my dress in my fingers...

" misunderstood..? Are you two dating..? " he asked and I looked up at him surprised

" what..?!!! No.. No.. We are... Friends.. " I said my last word sounding doubtful even to me...

" friends huh..?! Then..do you like that brat..?" he asked and peeked a glance  at him and he is smirking...

I want to dig a hole and hide in it.. Why is he so understanding and observant today...?!!

"athanasia..?" he called in teasing tone...

It feels so strange to hear him calling my name in a voice which have zero hatred..

" I... I.. I think I do..." I mumbled and he is silent

"hmm.. Then go and tell him.." he said in nonchalant tone

"huh.. Tell him..?!! " I asked surprised

" hmm..explain to that brat.. And if he kept acting up even after that... I will deal with him."

he said.. His last words sounded so pissed.. No. I don't want a snake - eagle fight between him and lucas

" yeah... I will.. "I said gulping down the last sip...

" come to think of it... Who confessed first.?you or mom..? " I blurted out and he looked surprised for a moment

" hmm..its obviously your mom.. I wouldn't have admit in this life that I love someone... It's your mom.. Who confessed to me and showed me how it's feel to be loved.. She was always the one to initiate things .. I would just happily follow her lead" he said in a softest tone he has spoken ever, so I am  in  shock !!!

I felt guilty inside. I know I don't have to.. Still.. It's easily said than done... I still feel guilty whenever he is like this. If it's not for me.. He would have stayed  soft like this  always...

" if she is alive... She would have given you best advices on things like this.." he said as he got up and patted my head before walking away...

My lips curved into a smile... I stood up and walked towards him... He sensed my movement and turned back

" what? "he asked confused

" you are also good... After talking to you... I feel better now ... Thanks.. "I said smiling and he stared  at me surprised.. I walked back smiling..

P. O. V.. Ends.

She saw lucas on her way to palace and rushed towards him..

" lucas stop.. Until when are you going to run away..? "

she asked panting As she had a hard time matching his pace.. She realized how fast he can walk and how he have been walking slowly for her all this time...

" who is running away..? I am not.." he said his face looking emotionless.. She felt strange.. The small smile which he have only  for her isn't there... It's seems she is talking to someone else and not  lucas... Her heart ached...

" I told you I have to talk to you.. You won't even let me talk.." she said

" I also told you I don't want to hear it... I don't want to hear how you went on a date with that whitey bastard behind my back when you know very well how much I hate him... I don't want to talk about anything... I wish all these things never happened in my life..I don't want to see you.. Don't annoy me "

he shouted pissed and the next second his expression changed.. he flinched as he saw the hurt and shocked expression in her face.. He felt a pang in his heart. He clenched his hands as they wants to hug her tight and never let her go.. She didn't said anything back... She just turned back and walked away..

Every step she took.. She felt like crying...he saw her walking back silently standing there. His is pressing his thumb against his palm with much force that  it may get pierced and bleed anytime. He also turned back flipping his hair frustrated as he walked back to his mansion...

She sit on her bed looking dazed... Her face expressionless like a doll.. Lily sighed as she walked out of the room.. She is seeing athy and lucas acting like this for a week and she was already aware of their feeling for each other Even before them... She let it go as they have to sort out their lovers quarrel...

"shall we talk to him..? " rei asked as he and  leo  are peeking at lucas who is walking here and there in  the hall like a  crazy guy

"leave him be... He is not normal right now" cabel said which made those two flinch and turn back. They sighed in relief to see its only  cabel

" when was he ever normal?" rei asked

"well.. Yeah... But he is super crazy... Look at the speed he walks.." cabel said sighing

"are they still at it..?" Nigel asked joining them 

"yeah... I think so... I saw them quarreling at the corridor some time ago.. Lucas hyung scolded athy noona..now he is the one looking frustrated " leo said

" I don't know what's going on... And I won't interfere in their lovers quarrel.. I just wish they will make up soon.. "cabel said

" huh. Lovers..?!! "leo asked surprised

" then what do you think they are...?! They may not say it out..may be didn't realised it themselves  But the way they stare at each other and fighting like this.. If they aren't dating then what's it..? " cabel shrugged...

" let's go.. Leave him alone.. He may go crazy at this rate.." rei said dragging everyone away to their rooms.

'Haah... I am crazy.. Why did I shout at her..?!! I mean.. Yeah I am very pissed at her.. I know she might have her reason to do so... Still. I hate to hear it from her. I won't listen to her.. But..

Why does it feels hurt here.?!! If I end up not talking with her again..?!!! If she stops being my friend..?!!!! Haah.. It feels so  depressing... I don't want her to leave me..

When I saw her holding his hand.. My heart ached so much.. I felt like crying.. Anger and sadness hit me hard at the same time... I.. I think I am more upset by that than the fact she went out with him.. He was being all lovey dovey with her.. Holding her hand and even buying her earrings... But it escalated when that bastard kissed her And she just let him do that... Why..?!! My head hurts... '

He frustratedly walked upstairs and stared at the moon in daze... It's full moon today... Bright and big.. Hiding all the bright stars by its light looking majestic and... lonely... Which made a familiar voice rang in his ears

" lucas... You are like that  moon you know..?" a white haired man said staring at it with a sad smile

"huh. Why..?" lucas asked titling his head

" when it's full moon... That's when we realize how beautiful and majestic it is.. But at the same time.. When it's full.. It glows brighter than anything else making the stars look dull.. May be that's why.. The moon looks lonelier when it's full... And.. It's not that's how you are..?!!

You are stronger than anyone else and make other beside you looks dull.. And that's what makes you lonelier. People fear or jealous  of You.. My poor child.. "

his master's voice filled with concern wasn't understandable to that 7  years old kid staring at his master and the moon in confusion.. But now he understood it.

" Haah... Why today of all days...?!! "he mumbled am turned back... He went down to his room  closed  all the curtains and made his room look dark as hell just like his childhood room ..