Chapter 3~ Who?

Elizabeth as a 16 years old:

Guess who is turning 16 today?Me!And guess who's birthday no one remembers?Mine!

As you can see, my self-esteem didn't grow.

Technically this wasn't even my birthday. This was the day I was found. I had no idea when I was actually was born.

As in all my birthdays, I was sitting on the roof and watching the sunset.

A cool wind bit on my shoulders causing me to shiver. Unluckily, I didn't have a jacket with me.

So, instead, I rubbed my shoulders trying to feel warmer.That worked for a bit, but not for long. So I decided to focus on my thoughts.

I haven't had the dreams with the Doctor since we saw each other that night, 2 years ago. I always thought once there was no dreams, I would be normal. But now that it was possible... I want everything back. I wanted the Doctor back in my life. I wanted to feel special again. But nothing of it happened.

I even started forgetting his face. That beautiful not-ginger and messy hair or just his black. Those beautiful brown eyes or blue ones.

Luckily, I still had my old drawings of him. I could've just thrown them all out and start a new life. A normal one. But I didn't want to be normal. Normal is boring.

I smirked remembering those words and like the Doctor said them. He promised that he would've came back. But he didn't. Is it because of what I said before leaving? Is it my fault he didn't come back for me? If it was, then I would've killed myself.

I let out a sigh. I want him back.

I closed my eyes, which would've stop the tear in my eye to slide down. Then leaned my forehead on my knees, which I brought to my chest and hugged with my arms to keep warm.

I sighed again trying to forget and never remember. But how was that possible? That man was everything for me. My entire existence. Literally.

«Nice view from here.» I heard a man's voice saying.

I looked up to see a tall man with gray hair and blue eyes. He wore a black jacket with a hoodie and black pants. I wanted to ask who he was but, instead of that, I smiled at him.

«Loving it almost.» I said. Like if I knew the man from ages, even though I never saw him in my life. Or at least that was what I thought.

«May I enjoy it in your company?» he asked, his look lowering to the spot next to me.

I let out a chuckle. «You may.» I then replayed with a smile. He smiled too. Then sat down next to me while I looked ahead at the sunset.

Suddenly I felt something being but on my shoulders. I turned around only to see the mysterious man putting his jacket on me.

«Oh, you don't have to-» I started.

«But I want to.» he cut me off. I smiled gratefully then looked back at the sun. It was going down, slowly.

With a corner of my eye I saw him looking at me. «Did you want something, Sir?» I asked politely turning my face to face her.

He didn't move and was still looking at me. In his eyes I noticed an admiration. Was he admiring me? Who even was he?

He just smirked.«You never change, Elizabeth.» he calmly said, ignoring what I asked.

That made me slightly panic. How did he know my name? And why was he talking like if he knew me from a long time? And then I recognized that eyes. That eyes ready for the war. For revenge. The Master.

«Maybe I'm not trying to, Kosch.» I called him like the girl of that dream I had.

He grinned proudly.«So you do remember me, do you?» he asked.

«Why should I remember you? The only time I saw you was in my dream 2 years ago.» I told him, my politeness slightly fading.

He laughed.«That's awkward: I'm the man from your dreams.» he said looking down.

I laughed too, slightly.«That is creepy, Koschei.» I corrected him.

He laughed.«Maybe you're right. -he looked at me- Maybe not.»

I smirked.«I see you kept that mystery of yours, huh?» I asked sarcastically.

«Mystery? Me? Nah, Ell. I'm charming, that's different.» he said, landing back on his arms observing the sunset.

I laughed, bringing his jacket more on my shoulders and comfortably shifting in it.

«I thought you died in the Time War. Why are you here? Are you with the Doctor?» I asked, hope in my voice.

Hearing that name his smile faded.

«Theta isn't with me. I saw him a couple of hours ago but I can guess now he is flying through time with his TARDIS.» he answered, with no smile and avoiding to look at me, instead watching the sunset.

His answer made me feel worse than ever: what if the Doctor didn't even remember my name? I mean, who am I to be remembered? I'm a freak with no memory!

But I didn't like making people sad so I just changed the argument.

«So... why are you here?» I asked. I saw a relief on his face.

«To say you Happy Birthday.» he said glancing at me with a smile.Something in that smile made me smile too.

«That's nice. But how did you know it?» I asked looking at him.

«I looked for you.» he seriously answered looking straight in my eyes. «Every day my only wish was to find you. I just didn't know you were alive.» he said.

What?! Looking for me?! Alive?! Of course I'm alive why should've I been dead?! What happened to me?!

«But I don't know you!» I said, now louder. «You do. Deep down you remember me. If not you wouldn't be that confident, would you?» he asked.

I looked at the sun. He was right. I felt something of familiar in him. Something that I couldn't remember.

I stayed in silence.

«Oh! I brought you a present. It's not much 'cause I don't know what you like.» he said, taking out of his pants pocket a box.

I took it. No one ever gave me gifts. I looked up on him. «Why?» I asked, curiously.«Open it.» he said, returning his gaze to the sunset.

I did as he said. I took off the gift paper and I opened the little box carefully. In it there was a little bear. An old toy bear. I recognized it straight away.

«It was of a friend of mine. You remind me her really much.» he said, while I was looking at the fragile bear in my hands.

I smiled sadly overturning the bear in my hands carefully.«Crystal.» I said.

I heard him smiling.«I see you remember her too.» he said.

I smiled at his comment and then I looked up on him.

«You loved her, did you?» I asked, looking at his sideline because he was looking on the sun that already was gone.

He smiled sadly, looking down.

«I love her.» he corrected. «My feelings for her will never change. Even if I'll have to wait other 9 hungered years and even if I never will be able to have her, I always will love only her.» he said and looked in my eyes.

I smiled sadly and he did the same.«You have her same eyes.» he said with a smile. «Blue as the TARDIS.»

I smiled blushing slightly and looking down. Sadness then took me over. I knew Crystal chose the Doctor to him. Theta to Koschei. And then a wave of guilt suddenly covered me causing me to shiver. Why was I feeling guilty?

«I'm sorry.» I said looking up at him.He smirked weakly.«Don't be sorry for things you didn't do, Ellie. Remember that.» he said, making me remembering that that was the thing I told the Doctor 2 years ago.

«Oh, and do you still have that pocket watch?» he asked me.

«I do.» I agreed then looking at him questionably.

«You haven't opened it yet, have you?» he asked.

«No, why?»

«'Cause one day you'll have to.»

I frowned «But it's just a watch. And it's broken.» I told him.

«Well, have you ever opened it?» he asked, grinning.

I looked down. I never thought to open that watch. What was in it?

«When do I have to do that?» I asked still looking down.

«One day. You will know when. You will feel it.» he told me with a smile. I nodded.

«What's inside?» I asked looking at him.

«Don't be noisy, Smith. Wait and you'll see.» he said.

I nodded again.

He looked at the clock on his wrist. «Guess I have to leave now. It's late and I have some plans.» he said.

I nodded as he stood up.I stood up too and handed him the jacket.

«No, keep it. At least you'll have something to remember me.» he said with a smile.

I smiled weakly looking at it. «Thank you.» I said.

«Hey, what's wrong?» he asked, putting a finger under my chin making me face him.

My eyes started burning and my view became blurry. I was crying. «I will never see you again, will I?» I asked.

«I'm afraid you won't. At least not me, the earlier version. And I can guarantee you, I'll be a jerk.»

I laughed.

«So don't be mad at me, okay?» he asked with a smile.

I smiled too with a tear that was sliding down my cheek. He wiped it with his thumb. I looked in his eyes: full of love and sadness even though he hid it behind a smile. A fake smile.

I then nodded.

«Promise me you won't be mad?» he asked me, smiling hopefully.

I nodded again.«I promise.» I said.

He smiled and his eyes shined at the light of the first stars. He was crying too.

«Good.» he said, faking a smile again.

«Good bye, Master.» I said, trying not to explode in tears.

«Hey, never call me like that! I have a name and you know it. So you may use it.» he said.

I smiled and wrapped my hands around his waist. At first he didn't expect it but after I said «Good bye, Koshei.» he wrapped his hands around me lifting me up.

Tears and tears were going down my cheeks and I didn't even know why. I knew I met him just now but it was like leaving a friend. A best friend. I could feel something was happening. Something was going to happen to me.

He then put me down and I pulled away. He looked at me from up for a second and then said «Never say goodbye. Because good bye means going away, and going away means forgetting. Trust me. Disney never gets it wrong.» he said. I laughed at that, weakly.

«Then... See you later?» I asked hopefully.He smiled. «See you later, Elizabeth.» he said, he kissed my forehead and then started walking away, leaving me alone on the roof with his jacked in my hands.

The Masters pov:

I walked away leaving her alone on the roof with my jacked in her hands. My hearts were beating faster than ever.

I clenched my jaw tightly, stopping a year from sneaking out from my eye. That was because I knew she would never forget me for what I did. What I will do. I pushed the door of the orphanage with all the anger I had and exited in the night.

«Guess who's moody.» I heard a female voice behind me. I turned around, my gaze falling on the girl who was sitting on the fire stair.

«I have good motives.» I stayed, dryly.

«I know you do. And I know them. I also know you are feeling guilty.» she said, jumping down the stair she was sitting on and approaching me. «But you can change nothing now. And you know that.» she said.

«I know...» I looked down ashamed of myself. «And I'm sorry.» I looked back up on her. «I'm really... Really sorry.» I breathed out looking down.

«And I accept your apologies. I hope she will too.» She said, doing a step forward me. I scoffed «Why should she?»

«'Cause she promised.» she smiled. I smiled too. «Thank you.» I said. She smiled back.

«Where is your boyfriend?» I asked.

She smiled from the corner of her lips «It depends.» she then answered.

I raised a brow. «On what?»

«Which one.» she said. I smirked at her.

«The skinny, converse wearing one.» I then told her.

«Oh, he's actually waiting for me. I told him I needed to pay a visit to someone and he listened. Weird of him.» she said. I nodded.

«A bit.» I agreed causing her to laugh. That laugh made my grin fade slowly. Because I thought. I thought about how much pain I caused to her. I thought of how I won't ever be able to make her smile like Theta did. I thought that I couldn't ever have her...

«Tell Theta that... I'm sorry... For what happened.» I couldn't believe I was actually saying that.

She looked surprised.«Wow... can't believe you actually said that.» she said.

«Believe me, it's a shock for me too.» I answered, making her laugh.

Slowly her face became serious. «How much time do you have?» she asked. I looked at the watch on my wrist. «2 minutes.» I said with sadness in my voice.

She nodded. «Then... I guess it's a good bye?» I asked. She looked at me with a smile. «Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting. Listen to Disney. Never Gets it wrong... I'll never forget you, Master.» she said.

«How many times do I need to repeat it to you? You know my name, and you shall use it.» I said before she enveloped me in a hug. I hugged back, squeezing her tight to me.

«Sorry, Koshie.»

«And never call me like that!» I said making her laugh again.

When she pulled back I stared at her blue eyes. «You have 50 seconds left.» the voice on my watch said.

«I love you.» I then said looking in her eyes.«I know you do.» she simply answered making me laugh.

But then she kissed my cheek. As she pulled back, she smiled.

«Thank you. You and Theta never gave up on me, and I'm thankful for that. Thanks for today, 'cause up there, on that roof you gave that little girl hope. Thanks for worrying for me. Thanks for loving.» she said.

I smiled looking down on her lips. I thought of how would've it been kissing them... But she never would. I knew her, and I knew she loved Theta more than anything else.

«You are welcome.» I said smiling sadly. She smiled back, sadness in her eyes. She then kissed my forehead and I stepped back.

«See you later, Crystal.» I said as the watch started beeping and Crystalline disappeared from my life again.

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Hey guys, so... when I first saw an episode with the Master on one point I fell for him, but then I saw what he did to the Doctor and I stopped liking him. But seriously even if he is the bad guy, I don't see why can't he have a weakness? And his, and the Doctors, weakness is Crystal. 😏

Nighty. Sofie.

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