Chapter 10 - What has he done to you?

Chapter 10 - What has he done to you?

As I promised, double update today!

TW - non graphic mention of physical abuse and rape

Jade pov

Zayn is driving like a maniac on our way to the hotel.

My head is full of thoughts.

What if we arrive late?

What if they are not there?

And if they were there, what should we say?

I have to find a way to talk to Perrie, maybe Zayn can distract Alex and give us time.

What will I say to Perrie?

My baby

I have to ask her forgiveness, I have to show her that I still love her and that it's all my fault. I have to make her understand that she can trust me, that I want to protect her and that I will take her away from this hell.

But I haven't seen her for a year and she's been in Liverpool for eight months. I feel sick thinking about everything he may have done to her in recent months.

What if he had convinced her that this is right? What if he had brainwashed her? After all this time, maybe she has just adapted.

What if she doesn't want to come away with me?

What if she doesn't want to be saved?

Stop it, Jade! You can't think like that right now. You have to get her out of there and then you will think about what to do.

The truth is, I'm terrified.

Maybe she hates me.

I told her I hated her and never gave her a chance to explain. It's my fault. If I had listened to her, she would never have gone with Alex, she would not have left Little Mix, she would not have left London. It's all my fault.

And now I have no idea how to fix this.

How didn't I notice what she was going through? All those days and nights spent crying in the darkness of our room. All those times I approached and she was terrified. All those times I tried to touch her and she yelled not to touch her. And all those nightmares where she asked him to stop.

Why didn't I see it coming?

I had all the answers and ignored them

I hear the car as it stops and I realize that we are in front of the hotel. Now let's just hope Perrie is here.

We enter the hotel and the girl at the reception looks at us stunned.

"Good morning, we know that Perrie Edwards is staying here with her boyfriend, can you tell us the room number?"

The girl keeps staring at us and then recovers.

"Good morning, yes, Miss Edwards is here but Mr. Oxlade-Chamberlain has expressly said that no one can visit them."

"We understand but we have a surprise for Miss Edwards"

"I'm very sorry, but unfortunately I can't help you, you're in the same band, can't you call her?" oh, right, no one knows yet that Perrie is gone.

"Miss Edwards doesn't have her phone with her" Jesy fires back and I hope that's enough.

"I'm sorry"

"Can you call her room, please?" I say frustratedly.

"Oh sure, I can do that"

"Good morning Miss Edwards, I have people asking to talk to you... yes of course"

The girl hands me the phone.

"Perrie" I stammer.

"Jade"

"Please, listen, can we talk? Maybe you can come down and have a coffee at the bar"

"Now you want to talk, Jade? What do you want? Hurt me again?"

"Perrie, Perrie please, only five minutes"

"I'm sorry, Jade. I know you never loved me, but now I need to move on"

"Perrie, what? Did Alex tell you this? Perrie, I'm sorry, for everything. Please, it will only take five minutes"

"I'm sorry, Jade. I can't. Alex doesn't want to"

I hear the sound of the line indicating that she has hung up. I didn't realize the tears running down my face until Jesy wipes them away. The girl stares at us as if we were aliens and I feel fear in my veins because I know I am losing everything.

Her voice was so different. She was terrified, whispered and stammered at every word.

I have to find her. I have to.

We start to move away towards the exit when Jesy pulls me.

"Room 511" she tells me as if nothing happened and I stare at her stunned.

"I watched as she dialled the phone number."

Jesy Nelson, I love you

We head to the hotel bar and from there we take the elevators so the girl at the reception will not see us, luckily Leigh knows this hotel well.

Well. Fifth floor.

Room 511.

We are in the corridor a few steps from the room when we hear loud noises and voices.

"Who the fuck was on the phone?" is the voice of the son of a bitch. I hear a slap and Perrie almost screaming.

Is he beating her?

"It was just the reception, they got the wrong room, I swear!" Her voice panics.

Another slap. Perrie cries. I run to the room but Jesy stops me.

"I'm not standing here listening while he beats her like a punching bag" I whisper to Jesy.

"Wait, if we go in now we will make the situation worse. It hurts me too, but we have to wait"

Slap

Slap

Slap

...

I hear Perrie crying and I just want to wake up from this nightmare.

Perrie pov

Since we returned to the hotel from the restaurant two hours ago Alex was pissed as hell.

He also lost his phone so even more.

I didn't have time to think about Jade or the girls because since we entered this room he has done nothing but hit me and scream.

I tried to defend myself but as always it ended only worse.

Alex is taking a shower when the room phone rings. I answer and the girl tells me that someone wants to talk to me. Weird. Who would want to talk to me? I ask her to make me talk to the person on the other side and that's when I hear her voice.

"Perrie"

It's Jade. I would recognize that voice everywhere.

She seems to panic.

I answer her. She asks me to talk.

Talk... talk... Now she wants to talk

I would like to say yes to her with every part of my heart, but my mind reminds me that Jade told me she hated me and to leave.

I will never erase the image of her face as she yelled at me that I had been the biggest mistake of her life.

I don't want to be a mistake. I want Jade to be happy. I don't want to cause any more problems.

Then I remember all Alex's words. How he explained love should be and I realised that Jade never loved me.

I know that if I see her I will feel even worse. I have to move on. She has to do it too and that's what I tell her. Jade still tries to talk but I hang up.

I hear the bathroom door open and see Alex coming out.

He looks at me badly and I already know that he will hit me again. I don't even know why he does it today, but he's more angry than usual.

He walks over and grabs me by the hair. I gasp in pain, "Who the fuck was on the phone?" he yells and hits me in the face.

"It was just the reception, they got the wrong room, I swear!" I try to explain. I know I'm lying and I shouldn't but if I tell him the truth it will be much worse.

He keeps hitting me again and again not believing me. I keep telling him it was the front desk and he finally gives up.

I feel like I'm about to faint. Every bone in my body hurts. I have so many bruises that there is no way I can cover them with makeup. I feel blood running from my nose and mouth and my right eye closing from swelling.

I just want to lie in bed and sleep 'til the pain and all the tears are all gone.

Then I remember that Alex loves me, he does it for me.

Alex loves me

And I love him

But then I remember Jade. How beautiful she was today and how sweet her eyes were as she looked at me at the restaurant, even though she hates me, her gaze was so welcoming.

I wish Jade would love me again. Then I could go back to her. In her arms that gave me all the security I needed.

But Jade never loved me

Alex loves me

And I love him

But sometimes I wish Jade could love me again

I hear the door slamming and I understand that Alex has left for another interview.

After a few minutes, someone knocks. He must have forgotten his wallet or keys, so I get up and walk to the door before he gets angry.

I open the door and see her.

She's so beautiful

She looks at me and her expression changes. Then I realize that I'm still naked since Alex and I have done... what couples who love each other do.

I want to go get some clothes but I feel so much pain that I know that if I take another step I will fall. Jade takes off her coat and passes it to me, I thank her silently.

"J-Jade... What are you doing here?" I ask her shyly.

Behind her, I notice Jesy and Leigh and see their shocked faces. Now I'm dressed though, I don't understand.

"God, Perrie, what has he done to you?" Jade looks at me with tears in her eyes.

I don't understand

Who did what?

Jade raises a hand and brings it close to my face, immediately I raise my arm to protect myself from the slap that will follow but to my surprise it never comes.

I am afraid to open my eyes but I feel that we are not moving from this situation. I pluck up courage and open my eyes to see Jade's pair staring at me softly. A sea of emotions in her gaze but one over all, guilt.

Why should she feel guilty?

"Perrie, can we come in?" Jade asks in her softest voice.

Jade pov

We hear more banging and then Alex finally leaves the room. We hide in a storeroom while we wait for him to walk down the corridor.

We head for Perrie's room while Zayn stands guard by the lift, so if Alex comes back, Zayn will distract him and we'll have time to get out of here.

I knock on the door and wait for Perrie to arrive.

Despite the shitty situation we're in, I can't wait to see her again. My excitement disappears the instant the door opens and I see Perrie.

Oh my God

She is completely naked, with cuts and bruises all over her beautiful body. Some areas are so purple that it is impossible to see her real skin, and I can see her ribs sticking out so much that it looks as if they could come out of her body at any moment.

I hear Leigh sobbing behind me and I know she's going to cry, I can also feel my tears pinching but I do everything I can to keep them from falling.

Perrie needs you to be strong

She looks at me with confusion painted on her once beautiful, now battered face, and then realizes that she is still naked. I see her hesitating to go get some clothes. I take off my jacket and offer it to her. She nods her head and puts it on.

"J-Jade... What are you doing here?" her voice is so small that it seems like it could break at any moment. And that's what I'm afraid will happen to her body if we don't take her out of here right away. Hearing her weak babble causes a sharp twinge of pain straight to my heart.

"God, Perrie, what has he done to you?" I raise a hand in her direction to give her a gentle caress on her face but immediately see her backing away and protecting herself with her arm. She thinks I want to beat her and I wonder how many other times she has been hit until she could no longer stand.

What has he done to you?

It kills me to know that my baby has been through all this and who knows what else, and it kills me to know that it's all my fault. That I wasn't able to protect her. That the only thing protecting her, were her slender, now purple arms. Those arms that I will always want to return to. Those arms that held me when the world was too much and took away all the fears.

I have to take my baby back and love her until she can love herself. And then I will continue to love her until the end of my days.

"Perrie, can we come in?" I ask in my softest voice. 

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A/N

Hello everyone! 

So, I really wanted to thank everyone who is following this story because, I admit, it really was hard to write and I was very hesitant whether to publish it or not. I was afraid it would be a bit too dark, and it probably is, but I'm really happy that you guys are appreciating it so far.

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Also, a big thanks to jerrie24-7 , sdedwards25 and sgreenwale125 for your feedbacks and comments, you really motivates me to continue.

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And last but not least, I want to reassure you all that this story is already completed and will have an end, because I actually started writing it a long time ago. I'm working on the sequel right now, so... keep following and if you want leave comments and share ❤️

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