Chapter 2 - They Just Don't Know You

Chapter 2 - They Just Don't Know You

Perrie pov

I wake up after a restful night's sleep and rub my eyes, I look at the phone on the bedside table and I see that it is already two in the afternoon, I turn around and see Jade next to me sleeping peacefully, I realize that she is naked and I realize that I am too. Slowly the memories of last night run through my mind and a big smile form on my face.

I remember the first time Jade and I made love, the way she took care of me moved me, she waited for months for me to be ready without ever pushing me and when we finally did it, I remember I cried for joy and happiness.

Every time Jade takes care of me and asks me if I'm okay with what she's doing, she makes sure I don't get hurt or feel overwhelmed. One of the many reasons why I love her.

I remember the first time we started talking about something more pushed. We were at Jesy's house for a girls night and thanks to the many glasses of wine the conversation became very hot. Jade, Jesy and Leigh talked for hours about sexual fantasies and because of my inexperience I listened carefully.

When Jade brought up the bdsm topic my heart started to speed up and I couldn't help but get wet, while they were talking about that, I thought of Jade tying me up and makes me hers.

After a few days, I decided to talk to her, I told her I wanted to try, starting calmly and seeing how it went. Jade wasn't entirely convinced at first, she explained how it worked and made sure I understood perfectly, made me choose a safety word in case of emergency and repeated hundreds of times that I could stop her at any time if I felt uncomfortable.

One evening, after a dinner just the two of us, we came home and started kissing intensely, when Jade started holding my hands with hers, I felt the excitement invade my body, seeing and feeling her dominant side gave me the same adrenaline rush I feel every time I'm on stage.

Jade noticed this and asked me if I was ready to try something new. I responded positively and we put into practice some of the things we had talked about in the previous days. We didn't use ties or objects, but Jade would give me orders and tell me exactly how to behave. When I wasn't listening, she spanked me softly, causing me only a slight amount of pain.

I've never felt better

From that day we started to explore more and we are still learning to know each other in this aspect... And I couldn't be happier.

I trust Jade with all my heart, I would entrust my life to her, I know that I can always leave her control and she will not take advantage of it.

I wake up from my trance when I feel Jade's hand squeezing my waist, I see the smile on her lips and I hear her slight snoring, she is still sleeping.

Slowly I move her hand and pull myself out of bed, without making a noise I leave the room and go to the bathroom, do my morning routine and go back to the room, I just put on an extra large t-shirt that barely covers my ass and go to the kitchen.

I take out the pancake dough and add the missing ingredients, start cooking and in the meantime prepare the table and cut some fresh fruit.

After half an hour I feel two strong arms wrap around my waist and a kiss on the cheek.

Jade

"Good morning, love" her voice is still hoarse from sleep and something pulsates between my thighs.

The things you do to me, Thirlwall

"Good morning, babys slept well?" I ask her already knowing the answer, as I imagined, Jade squeezes me tighter and nods, rests her chin on my shoulder and I know she is smiling.

I turn around dragging it along with me and we are in the same position as before, but this time we are looking at the stove.

Jade's grip loosens and moves away.

"What the fuck, Perrie? Is it possible that every time you cook it looks like a bomb has exploded?" Her cold tone of the last few days is back and the magic of last night and this morning went out the window.

Once, Jade would have come to the kitchen and laugh at me for making such a mess, but she would applaud for the excitement and joke, we would dance together and then help me tidy up. Now she gets pissed off and her mood changes from one moment to the next, she gets irritated immediately and for everything and gets on my nerves.

Jade grabs a couple of pancakes and some fruit and starts eating quietly. I am waiting for her to say something, but she just keeps eating.

"Jade, please speak up. You know I'm a bit distracted when I cook but then I always clean. Let's not fight over this, ok baba?" I say calmly to avoid adding fuel to the fire.

Jade hints at a smile but then finishes eating and leaves, I stay there alone in my thoughts and finish eating too, remove the dishes from the table and clean the whole kitchen, then join Jade in the living room. She is sitting on the couch with a notebook in her hand and a pencil between her teeth. As irritating as she is, sometimes I can't help but think about how sexy she is when she's focused.

"Jade, please, can we talk about what just happened?"

"Nothing happened, Perrie"

"I wouldn't say so, since you can't even look at me"

Jade slowly turns around and looks me in the eye, I see the anger and annoyance in hers.

"I'm just doing my damn job! Why don't you seem to care about finishing this album?" Jade responds visibly irritated.

"You know what? Forget it, I'll leave you to your damn job. Sorry to disturb you!" I answer to the fire.

I walk down the corridor and I arrive in our music room. I start writing to vent my frustration and words and words come out of my pen without any control.

I look at what I just wrote and despite the anger it seems to sound good. I try to sing it in my mind and I am satisfied with how I imagine it. I pick up the guitar and start singing.

"So oh oh

Tell me, tell me you won't break my heart

You won't tear my world apart

That you'll be there when I need

'Cause I wanna tell them

They just don't know you

They just don't know you

They just don't know you

They don't know you like I do

They just don't know you (They don't know)

They just don't know you (They don't know)

They just don't know you, like I do"

I look at the time and see that it is already past five, I keep writing. I don't know what's happening to us. Last night I felt like we were back to normal, all kisses and cuddles and laughter. I love Jade, with all my heart, but I don't know how to solve the situation if it seems that I am the only one trying.

I look what I wrote before, but I can't continue.

I completely change perspective and pull out another piece of paper as I start writing something different. I realize it's already seven o'clock but I don't care, I'm focused on finishing what I started and that's how I don't realize that the door to the music room is open and Jade is watching me while I sing what I just wrote.

"Tell me does this scare you

That I'm living my dream?

Now I don't mean to hurt you

But you make me wanna scream

You smile while grinding your teeth

You clap and stomping your feet

You act about 17

I'm so tired"

"Oh, is that so?" Jade asks irritatedly

My eyes open wide when I finally realize she's there and I don't know how much she heard.

"I came here to talk but if this is what you think maybe we shouldn't talk at all" Jade continues and I know she's furious.

"Jade, please, I was just angry. I want to fix things with you but every time I try to talk to you, you lock me out!" I start to get all my frustration out and now I can't stop.

"Tell me what I did wrong, because I really don't understand. I love you, Jade, I love you, but it looks like I'm the only one trying."

"Really, Perrie? Is that what you think? I'm stressed about the damn album and the damn house and our damn relationship! Every time I write something you interrupt me with your talks about our relationship and you don't seem to give a fuck about finishing this album or our careers!"

"Are you serious now, Jade? Because the last time I checked I was the only one who had already written five songs for the damn album! Don't say I don't care! Never say it! And is that what you think of our relationship? Or the house? Maybe you should have thought about it before we went to live together!"

"Argh! I can't stand you when you do that! Excuse me if I'm not as good as you are at writing, Perrie! Excuse me if I'm not as good as you are at singing, Perrie! Excuse me if I'm not as good at our relationship as you are, Perrie! Maybe you should look for someone better than me because it's obvious that I'm not good enough for you, Perrie!" Jade finishes her rant and walks out slamming the door.

I take all my things and run into the walk-in closet, put on ripped jeans and hoodie and walk to the door.

"Where are you going?" Jade screams from the living room

"Zayn's!"

"Yes, good, go to your boyfriend, he'll be good enough for you!"

"You know what, Jade? Fuck you!" I yell before slamming the door of our apartment.  

A/N: Sorry guys for my bad english, but English is not my first language, so if you find errors, please just tell me so that I will correct them.

Thank you and take care 🌈🍪

-C