10. She is who she is

Gray’s POV

It’s Sunday morning.

I can feel the sunrays hitting my face from the open windows. It’s Sunday and it’s just 7am; can’t I just sleep all day?

I went back to sleep then I heard a noise. It's like a big hell of a rock fell from the floor.

BANG.

I heard a loud noise coming from the other room. Dammit, I woke up because of that. Now, it’s even harder to sleep. I covered my face with a pillow trying to sleep again. I’m just lazy today. Give me a break. I have been working in my blue prints for several days.

“Wait. JUVIA!” I yelled and I rushed to her room. The door is widely open so I didn’t have to break her door.

“What just happen?” I asked her. She blinked at me when she saw me. She was wearing a mask covering her mouth and nose. She was at the top of the ladder holding a small box in her hands. I also saw the large box with the scattered things around the floor. What the hell just happened? Then, she removed her mask.

“Sorry about the noise Gray-sama. Juvia’s sorry she wakes him up.” She climbed down a short ladder with the box she’s holding. I helped her.

“What are you doing? You should’ve call me if you are about to lift heavy things.” I scolded at her. She always makes me worry.

“Juvia doesn’t want to bother Gray-sama. Juvia thinks he’s having a good dream.” She smiled at me and kissed me on the lips.

“Good morning, Gray-sama” Well, that’s a great day to start of my morning.

I smiled at her and I hugged her “You’re making me worry again, Juvia.”

“Gray-sama is so silly. Juvia is just cleaning up her room.” Yeah, cleaning up your room while making loud noises; that would make me worry more.

“Then, you should have told me. I can help you, ya know.” I couldn’t stop scolding her but I’m happy she’s alright. I don’t want her to get hurt by just lifting things. I kiss her in the forehead. “I’ll help you clean up, okay?” She blushed and nodded.

“If Gray-sama wants to help, he should eat breakfast first. Come on, Juvia made a breakfast for Gray-sama” She grabbed my hand and led me to the kitchen. We ate breakfast that she had made; egg and bacon and pancakes. It’s nothing new but I could live with this every day. Besides, Juvia was the only one who can take away my stress from school. We have been dating for quite long months now and I’ve felt that it has been years and damn I love being with her. To be having to wake up and see her face every day damn, I’m so lucky that I met her and she’s my roommate.

“What was Gray-sama thinking?” She asked.

“How lucky I am that I have you” I kissed her at the lips and she smiled.

“Juvia loves Gray-sama.”

“I love you too, my princess.” We finished our food and I washed the plates. This is all I can do for her, to wash the plates after we eat because she doesn’t let me cook. She always told me that I’m too tired to cook but I always tried but she will just get mad at me. I don’t know why, well she is who she is. I had finished washing the plates then Juvia hugged me behind my back. She was always like this; surprise hugs and kisses. That’s why I love her.

“Juvia’s sorry for making Gray-sama worry.”

I turned to her and hugged her, back. She always cares for me, always. “It’s alright, next time you call me. You shouldn’t have lifted heavy things; I can do that for you.” She nodded. “So let’s start cleaning” I smiled at her. She smiled back.

After a small argument, well that wasn’t an argument; I was just worried about her. She had asthma and I don’t want her to suffer. I couldn’t do anything while seeing her having hard time to breathe and that sucks.

We decided to clean the whole room since we have nothing to do today. Well, we always clean up the room together before we even started dating so it wasn’t new to me. We changed pillow cases and bed sheets. We also put away some things that aren’t needed anymore. We changed the position of the study tables and end tables and her piano; Juvia is a little stubborn.

“Juvia, I can carry that end table. Don’t bother touching it.”

And then, she goes to the study table, she was trying to lift it. She’s so stubborn.

“Hey, I told you to not lift things, heavy things.” I scolded at her again. “I don’t want to clean up if you keep that up.”

“Juvia was just trying to help Gray-sama.” She protested.

“But you shouldn’t lift heavy tables and things.”

Then she tried to push the piano, she’s just a stubborn kid. I sighed but I shouldn’t let her do that.

“Juvia!”

“What would Juvia do, watch Gray-sama lift things?”

“Yes, now you tell me where would I place this.” I lifted the study table and she pointed to where she wanted to place it.

We finished cleaning the living room and the kitchen. Some arguments arrive because she’s too stubborn lifting things that are not supposed to lift by a woman. I think I have scolded her a hundred times. We also argued about what color of curtain should be place, she said pink but I want the blue one. What would the guild tell if they enter our dorm with pink curtains?

 Guess, who wins? Of course, not me.

Then we headed to my room. Aside from blue prints that were scattered on the floor, we changed my bed sheet, pillow covers and cleaned up trash. My room wasn’t hard to clean so we finish fast. Then we headed to Juvia’s room. Her room wasn’t also hard to clean aside from all the boxes that she had to organize again and again and again. I smiled at her as she seriously arranged her things. She is just a neat freak. Then I saw a pink and blue box. It was a small box. 

“Hey, Juvia, what was inside of this box?” I pointed the small box. I slightly opened the box and I saw envelops and papers but she rushed towards me.

“Don’t open that, Gray-sama.” She rushed towards me and lifted up the box. What was inside of it? I think I saw my name on it. She’s hiding something from me.

“What is that?” I gave her a look, a look that was enough to hand me the box.

“This is just nothing, Gray-sama.”

“Then why would you not let me see it.” I walked towards her, trying to get the box.

What was inside the box? Why would she hide it from me? Is it an important secret? An embarrassing one? Well, I accept her for who she is, but why the hell would she hide that box from me.

“No, Gray-sama shouldn’t read this.” She walked backwards around the room until I cornered her at the wall. So it’s a letter, I mean letters.

“Is that for me?” I ask but still trying to get the box in her hands. “If it’s for me, then I should have it, right Juvia?” Then I smirked and leaned my face against hers and kiss her on the lips. I gave her a passionate kiss enough for her to lose grip at the box.

“I got it.” I lifted the box and I smirk again. Victory is mine!

“Gray-sama is unfair.” She pouted. 

“Sorry Juvia but I would want to see this. I might not be able to sleep later if I haven’t got to see this” I smiled at her and kissed her on the forehead. She didn’t say anything as I opened the box. I saw letters, a small journals, empty ball pens and papers.

“The letters are for Gray-sama” She explained. “And my diary and…poems and doodles.” So that was inside of the box. I look at the poems and the doodles.

“I didn’t know that you can draw.” I saw a sketch of me. If this is just a doodle then why the heck it looks so great? She looked down the floor.

“Hey, these are great. No need to be shy.” I lifted her head up and smiled.

“Juvia never showed it to anyone.”

“What, but why? These are great.” Then I kept on looking at her doodles and I started reading her poems. Some of her poems were sad and some were happy. She writes it with all of her emotions; the words rhyme and it fits perfectly to her personality. She looks at me with her worried eyes. Then, I smiled at her and then she gives me a small smile.

“Do you mind if I read these?” I pointed the journal and the letters. She nodded and I started to read it. She then said that she would just finish cleaning her things.

“Are you sure?” I asked her. “I don’t want you to lift heavy things again.”

“There’s nothing to worry about Gray-sama. Gray-sama has already finished moving my bed. Juvia just needs to organize her things for school, for her jobs and other things.” She said but I know she was anxious about the letters and her journal so I give her a hug.

“I love you Juvia, for who you are so there’s nothing to worry about, okay?” Then I leaned my forehead to hers. “I love you.”

“Juvia loves Gray-sama, too.” Then she headed back to do her own thing. I went to the couch and started to read her journal first. It was her journal when she was in high school.

Juvia’s classmates were so mean to me. They laughed at Juvia when she tried to introduce herself. They said that Juvia is weird, talking differently from the others. Juvia tried using the first person but she just can’t. Why would they not accept Juvia for who she is? Juvia thought that high school is fun but why would they bully Juvia even on the first day. Juvia hopes she will have a friend but looking at her situation, Juvia thinks that will not happen for her.

Her high school days were so gloomy; that she had been bullied for over a year because of her hair and how her classmates tell her that she was like the rain, ‘gloomy’, how weak she was. I have been Juvia’s classmate but I hadn’t known these. I felt bad for her as I read her journal. I wish I had confessed to her a long time ago, so they can see how Juvia is now. A shy, cheerful and weird person that I have loved and I will love. I was also mentioned in her journal. ‘The one who dare to save me from those boys’

Today, Juvia was saved by Gray Fullbuster. He was my classmate. Juvia found him so handsome. Juvia thinks she likes him but who would dare to like Juvia. Nobody likes Juvia.

I started to feel sad for her. Wait what? She likes me since high school? I blushed. What? I am blushing? How the heck would a man blushed? That’s unmanly.

Oh, now I’m starting to talk like Elfman. Crap.

Juvia likes Gray-sama. He saved Juvia from that bully, that’s why Juvia likes him. Gray-sama also complimented Juvia’s hair. For the first time, Juvia was appreciated by someone. And she was so happy. Juvia would like to call him Gray-sama because he had saved Juvia, he made Juvia smiled and she thinks that Gray-sama showed Juvia the clear blue skies. Juvia never think of being happy in this school but gladly Gray-sama came to her life. Juvia would endure being here for Gray-sama.

Her high school life was gloomy, she had no friends and no company; no one. Where was I when she was lonely? I always looked at her; I also spoke to her but it was very often. I always see her smile when I talked to her. That’s what I remember. Yeah, I had a crush on her in high school but I really don’t pursue myself to her. I read all her experiences, they were always sad. Like when her grandmother died, she was really depressed because she was really close to her grandmother. I really wished that I have been with her that time. Then I read her journal when she goes to this university, I smiled as I read it.