Chapter twelve

Long chapter, so grab some snacks and get comfy!

Izzy's POV:

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As I am close to approaching the arena I send Billie a quick text to let her know I am here as per her request.

There are so many of her fans outside waiting, it is crazy and amazing all at the same time.

I can't help but feel immensely proud of how far she has come. I know I try and keep away from this whole new world of hers, not wanting to stick an icicle into my heart without needing too, but being proud will never be something I want to shy away from.

If I was her girlfriend I would want to shout it from the rooftops, Like I'm sure her boyfriend does.

I sigh deeply at the thought, my mind imagining things it shouldn't. Like, how it would feel to go to sleep next to her at night, being able to kiss her full lips again like I did when I was younger. Roll over in the mornings and smell her shampoo on the pillows whilst she showers or to think even further into the future, looking after our babies, simple things that people take for granted each day.

I bite my lip at the endless possibilities.

Ugh, I need to stop.

I walk to the entrance of MSG and wait until I hear my phone buzz with Billie's text saying someone is coming to let me in.

My palms get sweaty and my tummy turns, feeling kind of nervous. There is so many things I need to tell her to make this right, but where do I even start.

I put my phone in the pocket of my pants and remove my glasses putting them in my bag as I wait.

"Isabelle" I hear a voice whisper to me from the large double doors leading into the arena.

I turn around quickly and see an older brunette woman with a security guard holding open the door for me. She's standing with a wide grin, tears escaping her eyes.

Maggie

I gasp in shock as my own tears stream down my face, I run into her arms hugging her tightly, my head buried into her chest.

My second mom, god I have missed her. Now that I see her I think I have missed her more than I care to admit.

"Sweetheart we have missed you so much" she pulled away, her hands gripping the side of my arms than my cheeks softly, as she checks me over in a motherly way.

"When Billie and Finneas told us yesterday I almost couldn't wait to see you, if I knew where you lived I would've driven there straight away" I giggle at her enthusiasm.

"You know" she spoke in a hushed tone leaning toward me.

"I had to bribe Billie with food to let me be the one to come and get you now" I pull my bottom lip between my teeth thinking of that fact Billie wanted to see me.

I don't know why, after what I did last night.

"I have missed you too, you have no idea. I am sorry for what my parents made you do". I am glad to get that off my chest.

"No, honey that is not a burden you need to carry and definitely not one you should be apologising for" Maggie said shaking her head.

"Come on, let's go see everyone" she tells me and pulls me into her side again walking down the large corridor.

We converse with some small talk, asking how I am and what I am doing with my life.

I tell her how I work in journalism for the New York Times and her eyes light up the way they do when she speaks of her own children.

I can't help but wonder if my parents would be proud of me.

We walk into a rather large room with food lining the walls and staff getting things ready for the concert rushing around with headsets on.

I notice Finn with a pretty girl, as soon as we make eye contact he gets off one of the couches and comes over to me, engulfing me in a bear hug.

"Hey finny" I mumble into his chest due to the height difference.

"Izzy, this still doesn't feel real. I can't believe you're in front of me" he pulls back from the hug.

"I want you to meet someone special" he says, bringing the girl into view more, as he snakes an arm around her waist.

Awe, this is cute I smile widely.

"Izzy this is Claudia my girlfriend, Claudia this is Izzy" I put out my hand to shake hers.

She looks at it and giggles giving Finneas a look.

Next thing I know, arms are around me again.

There is so much hugging lately. I am not used to it.

I wrap my arms around the brunette too, reciprocating the hug.

"The famous Isabelle, you have no idea how long I've wanted to be able to meet you" her voice sweet like honey dripping from her tone.

"Oh-uh, thanks" I reply shyly

As if right on cue, I hear people start to greet Billie.

I turn around and see her dressed and ready for her show. She's wearing an emerald green silk outfit, my mouth slightly open.

I will never not be astonished by her beauty.

I feel my cheeks getting warm as she slowly stalks over to us.

I wish I could hug her, we have lost so much time together already. I need to make it right so we can at least be friends.

I hear Finn clear his throat, and wonder to myself If I've been caught staring at his sister.

"Alright guys, everyone out" he claps his hands.

"This room needs to be used please" and just like that everyone has vacated including Claudia whom was waiting at the door for her boyfriend.

"Close your mouth, you're gonna catch flies" he whispers to me, walking past and taking Claudia's hand in his as they close the door leaving Billie and I alone.

I don't know if this is a good thing to be alone in a room with her, she might rip my head off.

I snap my mouth shut and feel my face heat up even more. Fuck.

"Hi" Billie says, raking her fingers through her hair.

"Hey Bil" she stands there not saying anything. I take that as my cue to start apologising.

"I'm sorry" we both say at the same time, then she giggles and I smile.

"No, let me start" I say walking closer to her.

"Billie I am so sorry, I shouldn't have let my emotions take over like that in the car last night. I know these past four years have been hard for you and me coming back into your life and leaning into kiss you wasn't the right thing to do especially on the day we first see each other again" I ramble, watching her lip catch between her teeth.

"If I knew you had a boyfriend I would've never over stepped" she furrows her brows at that sentence.

"What" she replies.

"Look, I really had no idea that you were in a relationship. I don't keep up with the news on you, I promise I'm not here to make things harder. I shouldn't have left you last night either I -"

"Damn straight you shouldn't have" she said raising her voice slightly.

"I'm sorry" I choke out, tears threatening to spill.

"Stop apologising" now she was yelling her arms thrown in the air.

"No billie" I start again. Billie's temper is slowly rising.

"I know you're in love with someone else and that's totally fine. I'm happy for you and I'm glad you have someone who makes you happy. I came here to tell you I hope we can be friends, I really fucking miss you and I don't think I can go back to life without you, but if that's too much we don't ha-" shaking my head.

"We broke up" Billie yells cutting me off.

I freeze at that.

"You, you wh-What?" I stutter

"Fucking god damnit Isabelle if you shut up for two seconds and let me speak" Billie says walking closer to me still yelling.

Shit, this is kinda intimidating. I take a step back as she walks towards me.

"Well, the matter is still valid, I need you to know that I had no id-" I keep going on my case.

Billie rolls her eyes and lets out a groan of annoyance.

She pulls me closer by the hips and smashes our lips together shutting me up.

I take a second to realise her soft lips on mine, but when I do, I melt into the kiss. My arms wrapping her neck and bringing our bodies flush together.

Not even a grain of sand could fit between us. I run my tongue along her bottom lip asking for entrance, which she allows. Our tongues move together in unison, soaking up the feeling of her taste, that I haven't had in so long. It's like I've been starving and finally being fed.

"You're so frustrating" she husks lowly

I let out a moan as I tangle my fingertips through her hair. I feel billie smirk into another kiss and trail her lips down my neck.

I should tell her not to leave a mark, but honestly I don't want her to stop or ease away.

She reaches my sweet spot and I feel my legs go weak at her touch.

"Jump" she mumbles between kisses, I comply and wrap my legs around her waist, hands still in her hair.

She places me down on my back on the couch and sets herself between my legs, I pull her chin gently towards my face and stare into her eyes lovingly, without noticing I bite my lip and see her eyes trace down to it with another smirk.

"I have missed you" she tells me, I don't reply I bring our lips together again showing her my answer of missing her too.

After a few more minutes of making out, we pull apart resting our foreheads together.

There are so many things I want to tell her, the first being how much I love her.

I open my mouth to speak when a knock sounds on the door. I push her off me and sit on the couch like innocent teenagers.

The door opens and Finneas pops his head in.

"Uh sorry to interrupt" he says looking between both of us.

"You fucking should be" Billie says back rolling her eyes.

"We're on soon, I tried to give you as much time as we could" we both get off the couch moving towards the door.

I fix my clothes and go pick up my bag from where I dropped it before Billie kissed me.

"I guess I'll see you later then" I say walking toward both of them.

I didn't really think much about the concert, I only came here to talk so leaving now would make sense, right?

"What, you don't want to stay" Finn asks

"Oh I -" I look towards Billie for an answer

"Iz, you can stay, I'll get mom to get you a pass" she walks to my side taking my hand in hers.

I get butterflies at her touch. I'd by lying if I said I didn't want to see her perform.

"Okay" I smile, watching her beam at me.

I see out the corner of my eye Finneas giving us a weary look moving his index finger between us. Then it's like the puzzle clicks in his head.

"Fuck yeah" he punches his fist into the air.

"Shut up" Billie says shoving him out of the room, with a big smile.

I giggle at their interaction.

The green haired girl, brings me closer once more, as I lean in and give her a longing sweet kiss to her lips.

"We should go" I whisper as she nods.

As we walk out of the door, I notice Finn waiting. Billie walks to Maggie and I see her nodding pulling out a lanyard from her pocket.

"Hey, you might wanna, you know, cover that" he points to my neck and a blush deeply.

"Fuck" I whisper to myself, pulling the collar of my black dress up higher.

"I'm wearing a fucking turtle neck Billie" I mutter under my breath.

"She couldn't have gone lower, Jesus" I roll my eyes.

Finn laughs out loud and throws his head back, hearing me.

"You're in trouble already" he says to his sister and she brings me the backstage pass and puts it around my neck.

I glare at her pointing to the purple hickey on my neck.

She just shrugs and kisses my cheek.

"There's more where that came from" whispering in my ear.

"Ugh yeah eww" Finneas says walking away.

"Where is the bathroom" I ask Billie as she winks at me.

"No, no" I roll my eyes.

"I need to fix this" I point to my neck again.

"Fine" she pouts adorably.

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After I have corrected my multiple hickeys, I am taken to side stage where Billie and Finneas are hugging each other about to go on.

I smile at them, allowing myself to relish in their happiness.

"I'm so proud of them" I hear Maggie say, stepping beside me.

"Me too" I whisper back, still in my own thoughts.

"You know, she missed you beyond life itself" my heart clenches knowing how much I should've reached out.

"I feel the same way" I turn my head to acknowledge the woman.

Speaking of the devil, she walks up to her mom giving her a hug. I feel like this is a ritual of some sort.

Maggie tells her a few things and shows her right hand with her inhaler while Billie nods.

She turns to me and gives a small smile, walking toward me.

"I'm kinda nervous" her gaze anchored to the floor.

"You've never seen me perform before. I used to imagine you in the crowd watching me you know" I smile bringing her in for a hug too.

"No matter how you perform, I will always be proud of you Bil" my hands moving up and down her back.

We pull apart and I give her a kiss on the cheek, lingering a little too long.

"Mom can you take Izzy down the front" she asks and Maggie nods.

"See you later" she winks at me and moves over to the stage wings waiting to walk on.

"Here we go" I say to myself.

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A/N:

Eeekkkk they kissed, my mf babiess

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