Chapter 45

15 months later

I wake up to the sound of a crying baby. Every fucking night. I got up and picked up little Mackenzie from his crib and walked over to the kitchen to make his bottle.

I hadn't told Simon about his baby. They all messaged me so much that I had do get a new phone. I really did miss them but now I've got 6 month old Mackenzie to keep me company.

Mackenzie soon calmed down after I gave him his bottle. It was around 9am so I thought maybe me and him could go to the park. I get him changed into some dungarees and I just throw on a shirt and jeans.

I put him in his push chair and take him to the elevator. We lived in a block of flats and it was quite nice for just us. I pushed him out the elevator and over to the bus stop.

We got off the bus and over to the park. I got him out of his push chair and onto a baby swing. He enjoyed it a lot but looked like he was getting quite tired. I took him back out and back into his pushchair.

I gave him a bottle and gently rocked the push chair while scrolling through my phone. He finished maybe half of his bottle before falling asleep so I just kept and eye on him while enjoying the sun.

Someone: Lee?

I knew that voice from miles away. And plus no one ever calls me Lee.

Josh: It's not her, forget it Simon.

I look over to that direction and see all the boys walking towards me. I stand up and try and hide the push chair behind me. It's not like I felt ashamed about Mackenzie. I just didn't want Simon finding out.

Simon: It is her!

He runs over to me and gives me a big hug. I missed him so much. His smell, his lackey ness everything.

He pulls away and looks at the push chair with a shocked but happy smile on his face. By now the rest of the guys had come over and greeted me.

Simon: Who's this cute little monkey then?

He says in a baby voice looking in and rubbing his face.

Me: That monkey is called Mackenzie.

Vik: You have a child?

Me: Yeah I did. He's turned my life around for the best.

Vik: I'm so proud of you.

Harry: And I see you have hair again.

He says pointing at my hair that just came past my shoulder.

Me: Yeah! I finished Chemo and now I'm free of cancer.

Mackenzie starts to cry so I turn around to sort him out but Simon was already getting him out. He get him out and cradled him in his arms as they looked into each other's arms.

Simon: How old is he?

Me: 6 months.

I see Simon trying to do the maths in his head and when he figures it out, a tear falls down his face.

Me: He has your eyes. They always remind me of you.

Simon now pulls Mackenzie up to his face and kisses his forehead.

Ethan: Shall we go sit down for a drink?

Me: Okay, you guys have so much to tell me about.

JJ: And you have a lot of explaining to do.

I look at JJ and I can see the pain in his eyes. I knew he would stay mad at me for leaving. Me and JJ always had a love hate relationship.

I push the push chair while Simon carries Mackenzie and showing him to the boys. We walk over to this coffee shop that I've worked at for a year now. It was in the middle of town so it got a lot of customers.

We all went in and got a table and ordered our drinks. Simon hadn't taken his eyes off of Mackenzie. It was very cute actually.

JJ: So why'd you leave?

Tobi: Leave her alone JJ.

Me: No it's fine Tobi. I should have told you all but I guess I didn't want to. Erm well I went to see Garry on Christmas Day.

Ethan: Why would you even go and see him again after what he did to you?

Me: I don't really know to be honest. Anyways he told me to stay away from you guys.

Harry: And what. He couldn't do anything.

Me: Thats where you're wrong. You know Laura, Garry told her to get in between Simon and me. And that's why she stabbed Vik and almost killed me. I just didn't want that to happen again.

Simon: Holy fuck. Really?

Simon says now looking up at me.

Me: Yeah really.

Josh: But we'll all look after you. He won't even know anyways.

Simon: Yeah exactly. Just please come back home. We've missed you.

I look around the table at the other boys who where all nodding their heads. Just then Mackenzie starts crying again. Simon tries to cradle him again but it didn't work.

Me: Come here, he probably just needs his bottle.

Simon hands him over to me and I put him on my lap and get his bottle out of my bag. I feed it to him and he soon enough calms down.

Simon: Why didn't you tell me? About Mackenzie.

Me: I don't know. I just didn't want to ruin your life.

Simon: Don't be stupid, how the fuck can he ruin my life.

I look down at him holding his bottle and looking at me.

Tobi: Hes so cute.

Simon: He's perfect.

I smile and look up at Simon who was also smiling. All the boys were smiling actually. I was just happy I had them back. My boys.

Me: I'm going to the toilet. Who wants him?

Vik: Me, I wanna see my little nephew.

I pass him to Vik and head over to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror, I realised I had no make up on which probably made me look ugly but who cares. I washed my face with some cold water and then headed back out but behind the counter and to the back.

Steph: Thought today was your day off Kay.

Steph was one of the girls I worked with. We've gotten quite close recently.

Me: It is. You know them guys I've been telling you about. They're here.

I began to freak out so Steph held my arms still.

Steph: What about Mackenzie.

Me: He knows. He does have his eyes after all.

Steph: Holy shit I'm going over there.

She walks off and over to the table so I follow after her.

Steph: Finished with your drinks?

Simon: Yes thank you.

She turns around to me and whispers,

Steph: You're right, he does have his eyes.

I sit back down and look at Simon's eyes. They did look very similar actually. Steph takes the drinks away and winks at me as she goes.

JJ: So what now? Are you just gonna piss off again?

Me: Well no. If you guys still want to see Mackenzie again then we can rearrange something.

Harry: And you as well.

Me: Well yeah but -

Simon: You can stay the night. We still have your old room and we can go around to your to pick up Mackenzies cot and everything.

I look at the rest of the guys and they all smiled and nodded at the idea. 

Me: Okay then. Good idea.

I put Mackenzie back in his push chair and we all head out. Simon was pushing it in the direction of his car. We got there and the rest of the boys got into their cars.

Ethan: We'll see you at the house yeah?

Me: Yeah of course.

I take apart the push chair leaving it in a car seat and strap it up to the seat in the back of Simon's car. Simon put the push chair in the boot and I got into the passengers side.

Simon shortly got in after and set up the car but didn't move. He just looked at me.

Me: What?

I ask confused.

Simon: You know you could have just told me about Mackenzie and I would have helped you. Through the pregnancy and everything.

Me: Well you're here now and that's all that matters.

He smiles and I couldn't help myself but to kiss him. I leant in and planted a kiss on his lips before pulling away quickly after realising what I did.

Simon just help my chin and looked into my eyes before kissing me again. This was perfect. Everything is back how it was.