Old Habits

MICHAEL'S POV ~ ~ ~ ~

I sat in my truck debating whether I should go in or not? Things seem to only get worst. Dre and i do nothing but argue. She refuses to stay here and go to college and I refuse to go to Florida with her.

I turned my truck off opening my door then getting out, Shutting it. I looked around making sure no one saw me. I hurried to the front door and knocked. I was soon greeted by Chris.

"Ayee! MIKE! Man its been a while! How you doin'? Come in!" He said. I hurried in.

"What can I get yah?" He asked.

"Where's Dyan?" I asked.

" Hes out making a deal. But I can get you whatever." He said.

"I need a fix. But I don't have any needles or anything." I said.

"Wow, i thought you went to rehab?" He smirked.

"I did. But I need some." I replied. "Dont worry. I got clean, not used needles. I'll hook you up." He said disappearing in the back.

My phone buzzed. I checked my phone and it was a text from Dre. "I love you. I'm sorry for all the fighting. Thing will get better." It read. I turned it off putting it back in my pocket. Everyone keeps saying it'll get better but it just keeps getting worst.

" Here you go." He said handing me a bag of needles and a pack of heroin.

I sat down at their kitchen table. I melted the heroin in a spoon and tighten the belt around my arm.

I injected the heroin. God this never felt so good before. Instantly my whole body calmed.

I chilled on the couch with Chris. He passed me his blunt as we talked.

"So what's up? Things seem rough." Chris said.

"I hate my dad. My mom won't talk to me. My siblings disowned me. Dre keeps arguing with me. I'm tired of it. " i said.

"Damn. That does suck." He said.

Dre kept calling me and kept calling me. I eventually texted to stop calling me. She didn't text or call back. I probably hurt her feeling but damn, leave me alone. I love her so much but I need fucking space.

I stayed at there with Chris till 9pm.

I got home and went straight to my room.

I woke up to still no text and calls from Dre. Fuck....now I have to fix whatever I did to piss her off.....

I called her. No answer. i waited a hour and called her again. Then i just texted her. 'Sorry if i hurt your feelings babe. I just needed space. I'm sorry and I love you so much. Please call me when you get a chance. " it read.

5 minutes later I got a text back.

'You want space? fine. I'll give you space.' It said.

'Dre stop. I'm tired of fucking arguing with you damn it.' I replied.

'So it's okay for you to hurt my feeling and I'm suppose to just let you? ' She texted.

Oh my fucking god this women is losing her mind!

'I didn't mean to hurt your feelings! Okay? Now will you please come over? I haven't seen you in 3 days. 3 DAYS! ' I texted.

'Nope. I'm going to give you space. ' she said.

The argument went on and on, then I basically said fuck it and stopped texting her. This is bullshit.

I went out side and just started to shoot hoops.

"can I play Michael? " Janet asked.

"Sure." I replied. We ran around shooting hoops and i was teaching her stuff.

The day dragged on it was finally dinner time. We all were sitting at the table eating.

"Michael?" My mother said. I looked over to her.

"When are you going to start applying for colleges? " she asked. I shrugged my shoulders, " i don't know. Dre and i can't agree on anything. " i replied.

"Sweetie, you've wanted to go to that school in LA since you were little. I think you should follow your heart instead of a person." She said honestly.

"You know what? Your right mom. I'll start working on an application tonight. "I smiled.

As soon as dinner ended i went up stairs to my room and got on my laptop ,pulled up how to apply and other stuff.

"Sweetie you have a guest." My mother said as Dre stood behind her with a plastic grocery bag.

I stood up as she walked in and my mother left.

"I-i got you some stuff from the gas station." She said a bit nervous. She does this everytime we fight and she knows she was wrong. It was so cute.

"Babe you don't have to get me candy and cigarettes everytime we fight. "I giggled hugging her. "I know but I just feel bad. " she said.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you more. " she replied.

"Not possible." I laughed then kissing her.

"Yeah it is." She smiled. "How long are you staying? " I asked.

" How long do you want me to ?" She asked smiling.

"All night. " I replied.

" Then I'm staying all night. " she replied

She walked over to the bed sitting down. She glanced at my laptop and her smile faded.

" You're applying without me? I thought this was something we were doing together? " she asked hurt.

"Baby, I can't waste anymore time. My mom said that this is something I've wanted to do since i was little and that I should follow my heart and dreams and not another person. And i agree with her." She looked even more hurt after I said that.

"What about me? " she asked choked up.

"Baby we'll figure something out, okay? Don't get mad because I'm following my dreams." I replied. She got up and grabbed her things. "Babe what are you doing?" I asked.

"I'm leaving. Apparently I don't matter to you." She said.

" now you're just being dramatic." I said.

"Fuck you." She said then leaving my room. I heard the front door shut and her car start.

Great. Just fucking great.