Chapter 24 - A Second One?!

5th July 2007. 4 Days later... (Ruby's POV)

I was still stuck in my mind and I was getting tired, the demons never left and they were getting worse and worse but inside I was planning an escape to life, I only had a few hours left before my body shut down.  I was incredibly weak 4 days later. 

If this was how everyone's life ended, I knew then that it wasn't so easy to just hold on or stay alive. My main fear was that I would eventually give up and go with the demons and I'd leave Mike and Otis alone. Recently, I had been feeling really sick and was gaining weight, this was the exact same thing that happened when I was pregnant with Otis and I was afraid that I was pregnant again and that I would kill the baby along with myself. That sudden realisation struck me to run to the entrance of life, the demons chased but were way too slow, I was determined so fucking badly for the possible baby growing inside of me. I got there and everything went white.

A voice struck me, "So you wanted to give it another go? Great choice lets see if we can do this" It was a woman's voice but one I had never heard before. I closed my eyes tightly and all of a sudden I was in a hospital bed with Mike and Otis beside me. All of this felt like a dream and was just my last moments playing before me but then Mike let out a, "She's opened her eyes! Ruby!!" He hugged me and lifted my arms up to try and do it too, "I'm sorry Mike..."

A doctor came over and asked me a question, "Do you remember what happened? It is OK if you cannot." I remembered everything and told the doctor exactly what I did, "I attempted suicide... I left a note I don't know if you saw it..." Mike held my hand, the doctor nodded, "We saw it.. Well Otis didn't because I don't wanna upset him.." Guilt filled me heavily but I was glad I was here with my family. 

Later..

It was about 4 hours later, I was talking more clearly and could move way more, I decided to ask Mike if he thought I was pregnant. "You really think so?" Mike asked me, I nodded. 

11th July 2007:

Finally I was back in the comfort of my own home and my neck didn't hurt as much, I struggled to walk a little but the doctors said that would improve slowly. "Ruby?" Mike sat down next to me, "Yeah?" I replied back to him and smiled slightly, he looked a little sad. "Please tell me when you next feel like you did. I was so absorbed in my own well-being that I forgot all about yours.. I don't want to ever lose you" He grabbed my hand with both of his and the warmth of his palms was so relaxing, "Seeing you in that hospital bed was the worst thing ever, not knowing if your eyes would open again. Leaving Otis without his mother.." Mike's eyes watered up but he tried to hide it by closing his eyes rapidly, seeing him cry was the worst feeling ever. "I went to the shop before and got this." He passed me a pregnancy test.

I went to the bathroom, with assistance from Mike of course. The test was positive and we hugged each other tightly, I remembered about the time Mike said our house had space for another child.

When we got into bed, Mike looked so agitated and was shaking a bit, "You OK Mike?" I put my hand on his shoulder. "The moment I found you and went to sleep by you that night keeps replaying in my mind and is fucking me up. I know you won't do it again but it's scary..." "Come here Mike and give me a hug." We cuddled in bed and I gave him a comforting kiss, it was nice to know he cared for me and looked out. The thought to start a different conversation to take his mind off it was my tactic to calm him. "Why don't you sleep shirtless anymore?" He looked at me confused for a sec and then answered, "Kinda self conscious y'know? Its hard work to stay in shape when you wanna eat all the time." We laughed, "Well I think you're still hot either way." I smirked and reminisced of 2001, "I remember the first time we met and you said you loved my Linkin Park T-shirt." "And when we sang In the end together" Mike added on, "When I was a nervous wreck in front of you! Also, when did you get feelings for me?" I asked.

Mike nervously laughed and thought for a while, "I always considered you as cute. When I told Chester about you he asked if I liked you and I said yes, its been pretty much from the start to be fair. Love at first sight eh?" "I've loved you ever since I saw you on TV in 2000 performing By Myself in your baggy ass clothing" Mike giggled like a child when I said that, I smiled. "Can I tell you something funny?" Mike asked me, "Of course, go ahead" "Well when I first introduced you to the boys, Dave admitted to liking you, he said he still thinks you're cute now but focuses on Lindsay, his girlfriend." I laughed, "Aww what a cutie. He's so adorable and sweet, I pretty much love every member of Linkin Park but have always had a special place in my heart for you Mike" We smiled and went to sleep, it felt 100 times better to be in my own bed other than a hospital one.

Hi, I am sorry the story skips Weeks, Months and even Years. This shows that during the amount of time between 1 chapter to another is that nothing interesting or worth documenting is happening and it is a normal day or something that has happened before, for example a concert. I am sorry for this, I don't want things repeating.