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The next few days seemed like a bad dream and a bit of a blur. Olivia gave her statement and was taken to Brian Cassidys apartment to recover from her multiple injuries. She didn't talk much the first couple weeks as the memories replayed in her mind like a horror movie she couldn't get out of. Every time she slept she would wake multiple times in the middle of the night in a cold sweat gripping the blankets for dear life. Neither her nor Brian got much sleep. One night after waking more silently then usual from another nightmare of william lewis she gently stood as not to wake Brian and made her way to the bathroom. She looked at herself in the mirror for a long time. None of her features looked like her to her anymore. Over the last 2 weeks she took more showers then she could count trying to wash away the filth she still felt all over herself but never felt clean enough. As she continued to look at herself she hated herself and wanted to be someone else. She went slowly to the kitchen and quietly rummaged through Brian's junk drawer and found an old pair of scissors. She held them tight in her hand as a flashback ran through her mind.

She struggled hard after he said "should I rip your clothes off or burn them off? Or both?" He laughed with a large sinister smile. "Ah cut them. They have to have scissors around here." He smirked leaving the room for a moment and returning with a different sharp device and showed it to her. "Perfect isn't it?"

She shook the memory from her head and walked back to the bathroom with the scissors still in her hand. She glanced at her broken self once more and then began cutting away chunks of her long chestnut brown hair as tears escaped her eyes. By the time she had finished she now had a long Bob style haircut and felt atleast slightly like a small part of the weight of the past was leaving her.

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Olivia was on leave from work till she could fully heal and until she was cleared by a therapist to return to work. She had been seeing Dr. Lindstrom 4 times a week since she had been rescued but it took her quite some time to really open up to him about the incident. Another couple weeks went by and she began to feel sick. She figured it must just be the flu since it was going around Brian's building like the plague. Brian and fin eventually convinced her to go see a doctor when she still wasn't well after a week. They feared she may have caught something from william lewis and wanted to be careful. She made an appointment and went in. She sat in the waiting room feeling nervous although she wasn't totally sure why. After another 30 minutes a nurse called her name and led her to a room and took her vitals and some blood and urine samples before leaving her alone in the plain white walled room. The only sounds were the muffled mumbling of people walking by the door and the hum of medical machines all over the hospital area around her. It still seemed so quiet and her mind began to wander which for olivia was not good as a few memories flashed in her head of him on top of her and inside her. She could still smell his sweat and the feeling of him inside her going faster it seemed with every thrust. She shook her head to clear the memories away.

A little bit later a female doctor came in. "Hello Ms. Benson I'm Dr. Harding."

"Um...hello." she said swallowing away the emotions that had been threatening her just moments ago.

"So it says here in your medical records that you were assaulted and raped?" She asked gently.

"Y..yes a little under 2 months ago." She verified and pushed the flashes away that threatened to run through her head.

"Did he use protection?" Dr. Harding asked.

Olivia gave her a look "what?...um...no he didnt." She said as the question rang in her head.

"And other than that did you have any other sexual vaginal intercourse?" She asked carefully.

"Yes a day before he...took me I had sex with my boyfriend Brian." She said.

"And was that protected?" Harding asked.

Olivia thought back to her last consensual sex act with Brian "yes we used protection....why all the questions about protection?" Olivia asked scared now to hear the answer.

Dr. Harding hesitated slightly and said "Olivia your tests show you are pregnant."

Olivia froze looking down at her stomach and hands. "P..pregnant? This is a joke right?"

Dr. Harding sighed "I'm afraid not Olivia. We ran the test twice to be sure."

Olivia shook her head "i...I can't have his...a rapists baby." She said although it hurt her heart to speak those words.

Dr. Harding nodded her head in understanding. "Listen it's still early and you have options alright?. I'll give you some recommendations for abortion clinics and adoption agencies." She continued and left the room leaving olivia to her thoughts.

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