Chapter 32

"We'll see you guys next week!" Niall shouted as we pulled our suitcases from Harry's car. I was going home with Niall for christmas and we were the first to go. The rest of the boys were leaving later on or tomorrow morning. It was the day before Christmas Eve and the airport was packed. 

"You better behave over there in Ireland. I'm not above flying over there to put your ass in line." Louis scolded me from the passenger seat. 

"Me, not behave? C'mon now! That doesn't sound anything like me!" I smiled batting my eyelashes at him. He just rolled his eyes and laughed as Harry pulled away.

"The flight is really short so don't worry. You can just take a little nap. How do you feel? Are you hungry or anything?" Niall asked as he reached for my suitcase.

"Nah, I'm alright. I can take that." I grabbed the handle from him and he tried to grab it back from me. "Niall it's a rolling suitcase, I think I can handle it." I laughed as he sighed and gave up. We walked inside through airport security and found our way to our gate. We boarded within a few minutes but the plane was really crammed. Since it was such a short flight it was one of those tiny little planes. 

"If you need anything let me know, okay? My mums so excited to meet you. I've been talking to her all about you these last few months." Niall laughed and I felt kind of nervous as my stomach twisted.

That means she knows everything. And I mean everything. Niall seems pretty close with his mum and his whole family so I'm sure he hasn't been shy of details. I just gave him a little smile and laid my head back trying to nap as the plane started to take off.

I was so nervous but I'm sure it'll be fine. I mean when has anything in my life not gone fine? Good one. 

Just relax, Abigail. His mum is a nice lady who won't judge you but instead give you warm hugs like mums are supposed to do. 

Once we landed and got out of the airport the car was waiting to take Niall and I back to his house. "I think the only people there right now are my mum and my nephew Theo. My brother and his wife are at work. So it won't be too over whelming." He gave me a reassuring smile and put his arm around me as we sat in the back. 

"Are your parents together?"

"No, they got divorced when I was 5 but they get along good. My dad will be over for christmas." Niall told me as I stared out the window. I had only been to Ireland once when I was really little. Me and mum came here to visit my granddad. I remember he lived on this beautiful farm in a tiny little home and there were sheep and goats everywhere. I wished we just stayed there with him. 

"Ready Abby?" Niall nudged me out of the car and we grabbed our suitcases from the back. I could tell Niall was excited to see his mum. He was buzzing and wore a huge smile as we walked up to the door. It was a cute cobble stone house with lots of flowers. It was actually just how I imagined it to look. 

"Mum!" Niall called out as we walked inside. Niall took the bags and put them by the stairs as I followed him through the house as we looked for his mum. 

"I'm in the kitchen with Theo!" We turned the corner and his mum was sitting down in front of Theo cutting up his lunch. "Oh my boy!" She cheered jumping up and running over to him. She was a short woman, about my height. She had beautiful shiny blonde hair and the bluest eyes just like Niall. "I missed you so much!"

"I missed you too. Mum this is Abigail." Niall pulled back and she turned to acknowledge me. At first she kind of just stared at me as she probably thought over everything Niall told her. I know Niall probably told her not to do anything or say anything but I get it. It's a lot.

"It's so nice to meet you darling." She pulled me into a hug and I was right, it was a warm hug.

"It's nice to meet you too. Thanks for letting me come here. You have a beautiful home." I smiled as she pulled back from the hug. She placed her hands on my shoulder thanking me. 

"If you need anything, you just let me know." She turned back and sat down again in front of a very fussy Theo. He was not liking the attention he wasn't getting. 

"heyo little dude!" Niall laughed running over and swooping him up out of the high chair. Theo giggled and tugged at his hair as Niall swung him around. 

I walked over and took a seat at the table with Niall's mum.

"Are you excited?" She asked, turning to look at me.

"Sorry?"

"About your baby. I'm sorry Niall told me and I'm not sure if I was supposed to say anything. I was just wondering."

"Oh no, it's okay. Yeah I'm excited, nervous too." I smiled sheepishly as I glanced over at Niall as he swung Theo around. 

"It'll all be okay. It's going to be tough but there's nothing better than the love you feel for that baby." She reached over and rubbed the top of my hand and my nerves subsided a little bit. "I feel terrible but would you two mind if I just ran to the store really quickly. I need a few things for dinner tonight."

"Go ahead we'll watch Theo for you!" Niall laughed as he tossed Theo up in the air again. 

"Alright just don't break him. Denise will kill me." She gathered her things and keys and left leaving just me and Niall with Theo.

"Mum test time."

"What?" I asked confused. 

"Here, take care of Theo. He's only 5 months old. Let's see how you do." Niall walked over to me and handed me Theo. I held him at arms length and stared at him as he stared back at me.

"I don't know what to do!" I panicked as Theo's mouth formed a little 'o'. His big blue eyes stared at me and studied my face and then as if a switch went off he started to scream and cry. "Niall! Take him!"

"No, use that maternal instinct, c'mon you can do it." He stepped back and crossed his arms and I brought Theo closer to my chest and cradled him against me. I rocked back and forth as he looked up at me, his lip jutted out but his cries had quieted.

"I'm doing it!" I smiled down at the baby who mimicked my facial expression. "Yeah, it's okay baby." I mumbled in a hushed tone as Theo seemed to become more comfortable with me.

"See, you can do it. I told you." Niall chuckled walking over to me and Theo. I stared down at the baby in my arms as he smiled up at me.

Maybe I really can do it.

~

We were sat around the table one Christmas day, Niall's family was so lovely. Honestly the happiest bunch of people I've ever been around. "So, tell me again how you know Niall?" His grandmother asked as there was a lull in the conversation. i looked over at Niall not sure what to say.

'oh yeah uh im a prostitute that he found and hes been helping me get over my drug addiction oh and im pregnant! nice to meet you grandma!'

"Mum, I told you remember." Niall's mother said to her mother in a hushed tone. I didn't like the sound of that.

"Oh, wait, you're kidding this is that little girl?" She gasped looking over at me from across the table. "oh dear, I thought this was his girlfriend he was bringing home, not that girl you've been telling me about!"

And that's when it clicked with everyone else. I realized that they must've thought I was just Niall's girlfriend but I guess they finally figured out who I actually was. I sat there, their eyes all staring at me. Most filled with pity for me and I had never felt more uncomfortable.

"Oh dear, I'm so sorry for all you've been through and a baby on the way?" His grandma said in a sorry tone. There were a few gasps, I guess that news didn't reach the whole family. I felt sick to my stomach.

"I'm sorry, excuse me." I croaked, getting up and leaving the table. I rushed down the hall and into the bathroom. I lifted up the toilet seat and got there just in time to spill my guts.

Being 3 months pregnant already meant a lot of puking but in a situation like that, that just induces it. Niall came into the bathroom and sat down next to me. I looked over at him and I could tell he felt bad.

"I'm sorry. I didn't think my mum told anyone. I only told her that stuff cause she's my mum, I thought she'd know what to do. She always gave me advice." He breathed out, Resting his forehead against his palm.

"It's okay, I just wasn't expecting your grandmother to ask me or even know about that. Not exactly the best Christmas dinner topic. Gosh, that's so embarrassing." I sat up and leaned back against the wall across from where Niall was sitting.

We sat there for a little while longer and Niall offered for me to just go up to bed, I was feeling so tired.

I went up to his room and he went back to dinner with his family. I'm sure they'll understand. I pulled out my phone and scrolled and saw Louis name. I pressed facetime and waited for him to pick up.

"Hey kiddo!" He chirped, his face moving around on the screen.

"Louis!" I whined, looking distressed. "I just had the worst experience." I felt like I was going to cry honestly. I don't know if it's hormones or whatever but I've been way too overemotional lately.

"What?! What happened?" In a second his facial expression changed from joking to worried.

"I was sitting at the table and Niall's fucking grandmother asked who I was and as you could imagine it went down hill from there." I sighed, groaning. "Even worse, she brought up the baby!"

"Oh man, I'm sorry Madeline." He sighed, looking distraught. "Anything I can do?"

"No, i just wanted to talk to you. Niall's been really busy with helping his mum and seeing his family members." i sighed, resting my cheek on my hand.

"Hang in there, you'll be back home before you know it. Listen i've got to go, my mums putting dinner on the table. I'll talk to you soon, Mads. See ya!"

"Alright, Bye Louis!" I mustered up a smile before the call screen went blank. I locked my phone and through it onto the other end of the bed.

I'll constantly have people looking at me with pity for the rest of my life, what if my own child finds out and looks at me like that? Gosh, this was getting harder and harder.

It was almost easier being a prostitute with no one but me.

Shut the hell up, Madeline.

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