51: New Years Eve

  "No. I'm not going" I scowled at Blaise while eating my Cheeri Owls at the Slytherin table. He was asking me nonstop to go to the New Years party that would be in the Hufflepuff common room.

It's been a week and a half since Gaby obliviated Fred, since my birthday, and since my heart shattered into millions of pieces. I've been sitting with Blaise who was the only person i knew besides the Weasleys that were one of the students here over break. Jeremih went back home and pansy wasn't here either, all my other mates were coming later.

"I think a party is just what you need. Besides it's your own house." Blaise insisted. I told him everything I've been through with Fred and Blaise told me a few things him and Adrian been up to. "Adrian is not here which makes me sad. Sad plus fun party equals happy" he stuffed a biscuit in his mouth as I swirled my spoon around.

The Great hall was filled with only about fifty students, but it was only breakfast and more students would be joining later since Christmas was over. Meaning, the party would be packed.

"I'll think about it" I said before looking up at Blaise.

"My god woman, you're annoying the life out of me now. I just can't believe this. I'm trying my best to cheer you up——" Blaise kept babbling and my eyes went past his shoulders to see the Gryffindor table.

While Blaise was still talking, I got distracted by the laughing redhead. Everything I heard near me had been blocked out as I focused on the only laugh that filled the huge hall up. Just looking at him and thinking about him had comfort my sore soul.

My eyes started to water now while looking at him. I couldn't believe that one of my fears had came true. I joked about it once but I never knew Fred would actually forget about me.

"Emerald...I was joking" Blaise continued as he snapped me out of my daydreaming.

"Huh?" I turned to him. "Oh. It's allergies" I whispered. "I'm going to go rest, if you don't mind" I said while finishing up.

"Yeah. Fine. Well fuck me. Right. Just fuck Blaise and his yapping." He rolled his eyes and started eating the food next to him. "Let me know if you need a shoulder to cry on" he said softly, changing from his angered tone.

I was wearing the lovely top that Ms.Weasley had knitted for me and gave as a Christmas gift. I brushed off the crumbs on my soft pajama pants before standing and also folded the soft white plushy throw blanket I brought from my dorm.

The hall was filled with students in their pajamas so it didn't matter what we wore. Blaise on the other hand wore his all black silk pajama set and even had soft sleeping mask for his eyes.

"Love ya Zabini." I smiled softly with my lips as I stood up and started to walk away back to the Hall entrance. "Tell Adrian and Pansy I said Happy New years." I yelled back.

As I made my way out of the hall, I could hear a few plates being tossed onto each other and more footsteps rush out of the hall behind me. A few giggles and whispering went on and as I turned around, it was these two perky Ravenclaws.

They were walking behind me as I was walking to the fountain I loved. It would be hard for me not to hear them as they were loud as fuck. So I eavesdropped.

"Do you think he'll actually want to?" The blonde one asked.

"Of course he would. I don't know if he's done one before but I know he'd be willing to have one" the brunette one replied.

"His brother is cuter in my opinion" the blonde said. I didn't think too much of it I mean, they could be talking about any bloke at this school.

"He could bugger off. Just think about it Leila, a threesome with the hottest boy at Hogwarts"

My eyes shot out wide as the brunette girl said those words. I wanted to chuckle out loud but I held it in. What bloke could possibly be willing to have a threesome with two 6 years?

"Godric you're right. Maybe his twin would like to join" the blonde smirked.

No way......it can't possibly be....

"Fred and George Weasley shagging the both of us? Let's make that a challenge then. No threesome, instead we'll have them both in our own dorm. I call Fred and you can take the other"

My footsteps stopped in my tracks as I heard the girls chuckle more. What a bunch of whores, claiming and calling which one they'd like...I mean it was sick.

What hurt me the most is that they were right. Fred and I aren't together so he wouldn't pass on a threesome with two pretty girls. God, it made me sick to my stomach.

Instead of heading to the fountain, I turned on my heel to head to the bathroom. I rushed and started walking faster. Looking down as I let my feet lead the way to the girls restroom, I rather listen to Moaning Myrtle than hear those other girls.

I passed the great hall and moved on closer to the left side of the corridors. I then passed the bathroom and decided to just walk for a minute. Those girls had got into my head and I should've said something. What a bunch of sick little shits.

Now I didn't know if I should go to that stupid party and just make sure nothing happens or stay in my dorm and reminisce on the memories I had with Fred.

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It was now eight and students from the express had now just came back. While mostly everyone was at the supper I'm skipping, I was laying down and playing around with the anklet Fred gifted me. I thought about his words, his touch, his moans, the way he says my name. Even thought about the things I'd do to him and the things he'd do to me if we did end up in my dorm on the "New Years" he planned.

The party was about to happen in an hour and I couldn't decide whether I should go down to the common room and just see the party or just stay in my dorm.

I was sitting on the middle of my bed and still had the anklet in my hand. I pulled up the bottom of the sweats to where it was folded on my leg, then I clipped on the anklet on my my ankle this time. Wearing it had made me feel like Fred was still around. Like Fred knew me.

"Emmmmmm. It's me Lia" a voice said outside of my door. "I seen the Weasleys so I know you're here." She added.

Amelia was usually the one that would comfort me in moments like this but I just didn't know how I could tell her. I got off of my bed and made my way to my door.

I let my hand turn the knob till it opened and In front of me stood a tall beautiful pale girl, Amelia who I haven't seen in a while.

"Lia" I hugged her and took in her flowery sent. She came into my dorm and sat on my bed while I closed my door. I turned around to face her and she looked at my face and made a surprising look.

"Em—oh my Merlin—you look dead. What's wrong?" She asked as I sat next to her.

There was something about hearing "what's wrong" that just grabbed my emotions out of me. All the feelings that were shoved inside of me had now poured out. Now I was sobbing as my head rested on Amelia's shoulder.

"I'm back sluts————-oh no"

My door flew open and Lia and I both seen the light shine on a shocked Rosetta at the door, holding a bottle of firewhiskey in each hand.

Rosetta joined and together they we all sat on my bed as I told them everything while eating some of the crisps that Lia brought. There was nothing that compared to my best friends comfort. Amelia went on about her and Pansy and Ro had said she had the best birthday when her and Grey went out.

It was just like before, my mates had their lovers as I stood to be lonely in that department.

"I might have a way to help Fred remember you" Ro said.

"Really?" I asked, thinking the idea would actually help.

"Yah. You jock his memory by Shagging him"

"Rosetta—he doesn't even remember me. What makes you think he'll just...shag me?"

"It is Fred Weasley...." Lia added.

It reminded me of the girls I overheard and eavesdropped on earlier. It was hurting me that something like this was so true. I just couldn't stand the thought of it, and going to the party wouldn't help at all.

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It was an hour already from just us talking and so Ro and Amelia just got ready in my dorm. I helped them with their hair and told them the right things to wear as I was still dressed in my pajamas from earlier.

"Em you're going, come on" Lia said.

"No Lia, I'm not" I replied sternly.

"You can either party with us or sit here and think about what Fred could be doing." Rosetta said while putting on her lipgloss.

I didn't say anything about the two girls but just thinking about it made me angry. I love Fred so much, I just wasn't ready to see him again. See him back in his old ways with other girls.

"You two go without me for now, I'll be down in a hour" I told them, but I was unsure if I was actually telling the truth.

The girls in their mini dresses left my dorm as i stayed in, with my comfortable sweats hugging my thighs.

Alone in my room, I could hear all the cheering and music as I laid on down on my bed and on my stomach. Thoughts about Fred never left my mind. Thoughts about girls on him lingered in my head as well. Jealousy caved in and images I wish I never pictured of him and those two girls had been running around in my mind.

I pushed them away like before. I started to think about Fred and the moment we shared near the fountain. The "I love you's" we shared. How good he made me feel.

Hurting my heart as my mind loved it. Painfully knowing that I'm the only one thinking about this. Merlin knows what Fred could be thinking about, he doesn't even know me anymore. I haven't even talked to him since the visit and my ears turned red as I imagined his deep voice whisper and moan in them.

It's only been twenty minutes and I got eager on just thinking about what the hell could be going on. It was New Years so I knew the party was going to be bigger than the usual ones. Sort of like Jeremih's birthday party.

"Fuck this." I got up and went through my drawers immediately looking for a outfit I could roughly put together. I grabbed the black skirt and found this white crop top that was just covering my breast and was off the shoulders. I pulled the pleated black skirt to my waist, with it under the top and the waist band above my belly button.

The outfit was very promising and would attract more than one person I know that. I did the whole blow out curls like usual and wore my mother's necklace too. While putting on my wrap up strappy open toed heels, I realized I had the anklet on. So, I left it on.

It was now around ten o'clock when I still sat on the edge of my bed that faces the door, still thinking if I should attend the New Years party or not. Opening my door, the muffled music had now played clearly. I slowly took more steps forward and eventually made it to the live area.

Right off the bat I see a bunch of people, way more student than usual. Groups in corners or somewhere in the middle dancing. I couldn't see too well due to the soft flashing colors that lit up the room.

The music was upbeat and booming loudly as students were dancing, making out, or smoking.

As soon as I seen some smoke in the corner, I knew who I'd find.

I made my way closer and closer to the back corner. I watched as a familiar face took a hit out of the joint that relaxed his excited expressions. Actually, a group of familiar faces.

"There's our girl" Enzo said as he stood up from the armchair.

"Yeah, took you long enough" Grey added. Grey was standing up with Jeremih and Ced as they all rested their elbows on the high table. I walked around to where the Diggory's were on my right and Enzo and Jeremih on my left. I was facing the party while my back was towards the empty corner.

"I missed you lot. All my favorite boys in one corner" well, all but one...oh that's right—he doesn't remember me. "May I?" I asked while pointing at the joint, gesturing that I wanted to hit it.

"Who would I be if I didn't let you?" Grey smirked with his eyes shut closed. He threw his hand over Ced and together they laughed loudly.

Grey passed me the joint and I slowly placed the end between my glossed lips as my fingers pinched the paper filled with Neville's famous plant. I took a long drag and removed the joint away from face. After I held it in, I looked up to the party and blew out the warm smoke that also filled my lungs up with comfort.

I watched as the smoke in front of me faded away slowly and from across the room, I noticed the redhead that hadn't left my mind at all. Fred was far away and on the other side of the dancing crowd. He was tall enough to tower over the crowd. Keeping my eye contact on him, he watched as I took another hit and blew the smoke out slowly.

"Having fun? Or are you going through something?..." Enzo asked while chuckling which caused me to break my contact with Fred.

"Erm...yeah, I'm just stressed" I replied.

"I'll be back—I need to find Ro" Grey said. "Yeah I really need to find Cho and tell her I'm in love" a drunk and high Cedric said as Grey helped him move around.

When the two left, Jeremih had explained that he wanted to look for Blaise and ask him if he wanted to match the second joint. Now at the table only stood me and Enzo. I skimmed the room to see if Fred was around but he wasn't.

"I have a question to ask" Enzo said as I kept my eyes down on the table while I fidgeted with my fingers.

"Ask away"

"Ok so...you seem to be good at smoking or have a experience and I wanted to know if you know what uh...shotgun is..."

"And let me guess, you want to try?" I asked while lifting my head to look at him.

"Well yeah...but I don't know. It'll be my first" he blushed.

"Am I taking your shotgun Virginity?" I joked as I placed my hand on my heart. "Not the first one I must admit" I smiled cheekily.

Enzo chuckled with me and gave me the joint. He moved closer to me so we could be face to face even though he was about an inch taller.

"Ok so you want to just...uhh.." I tried to figure out how I should tilt my head and how he should. It was hard to show since he didn't know at all.

"I didn't think this through" I added. "Wish I had someone to demonstrate with" I rolled my eyes.

"I'll do it"  a voice said, grabbing our attention.

My mouth dropped at the same redhead I was in love with. It's been days since I heard his voice and seen him up close. Instead of pain, I felt relief. To see him standing there was surprising.

"Uh—ok...yeah sure" I moved back and Enzo moved to the spot he was in before. Fred had moved closer to me and I had this feeling of just grabbing him and throwing him on that armchair.

"Okay Freddie—Fred! I mean. Blow or Suck" my mind was racing as I looked into his eyes, my shy side coming out again.

"Well—I guess you can show me how good you suck" he smirked. It was different since I knew him well but he didn't seem to know me at all...the worse part was we didn't talk about anything either.

"Should we switch then?" I asked as he leaned down on the edge of the high, small, and round table. Without replying, Fred placed his hands on my hips and turned me around while he did too. Now, we were switched around.

"There. Now pass it" Fred gestured to the joint.

I passed it to him and watched as he placed it between his lips. His cheeks caved in and sharpened his features. I had licked my lips at the sight of him, thinking about how he looked the same when he was down somewhere I wanted him to be again.

He raised one eyebrow, seeing to see if I was ready. I nodded while looking at his lips. With the smoke in his mouth, Fred placed his large hand on the side of my neck and stood closer now. I parted my lips open as his face was now centimeters away. He blew the smoke and I sucked it slowly.

"Blow it back in my mouth" Fred whispered into my mouth as we got closer and our bodies touching. I was leaning my back on the edge of the table but Fred moved his hand lower to the side of my hip now.

I placed my right hand on the side of his jaw and slowly blew the left over smoke back into his mouth. It had gotten very seductive in my opinion. This was the sexiest shotgun I've done.

I looked up through my lashes at Fred's eyes while his was gawking at my lips.

I should've took him right there but I forgot about Enzo. I placed my hands on Fred's chest, slightly pushing away so I could shift.

"Okay so like that but....The fuck——" to my surprise, Enzo was gone.

"Yeah he's been gone" Fred yelled over the music.

"And you're now just telling me?" I yelled back.

"I was more in the moment" he winked.

Having Fred close to me and touching my body had not helped at all. It just brought back memories."You wanna know something crazy?" He asked as he smiled into his laugh.

"What?" I smiled as I moved closer to him again.

"I don't think I know you from potions..." he said as he took a long drag from the joint.

"No? And why is that-?"

"I see you in my dreams every bloody night...but it's weird" Fred now moved closer, just like before.

"Why is it weird..." I whispered since we could now hear each other closer.

"Because Im smart enough to know that it's too real to be dreams...right?"

"Uhh—"

"And it's been making me really want to do this"

I barely had the chance to fully process his words about me in his dreams while he smashed his lips into mine. But I didn't stop him. Fred had his hands on my hips and kept his lips attached to mine.

The way his lips felt, it felt like it was too good. A kiss that maybe he'd even remember, but that was only in fairytales.

I pushed Fred off and immediately walked away from him.

One thing was going to lead to another and I was okay with it at first until I had to remind myself that he didn't remember. Soon enough, I was probably going to be just a hook up to him.

I moved to the table that was further away and had drinks on them. So I went straight for the clear alcohol beverage that looked promising. I pulled the cork out and poured a little into my mouth.

Thinking things through, what if a crazy idea like shagging Fred...would actually help him gain his memory.

I turned around after it's been only three minutes but before I could even walk back to see Fred, he was already in the center of the crowd. My eyes looked at the two girls that were dancing on him. One behind him who was blonde and the brunette that was in front of him. They were both grinding against him and I knew them to be the girls from earlier.

My blood was boiling and of course I was jealous. Fred had no idea how I felt...so I didn't waste my breath for a second. I then skimmed the room and none of my mates were in sight.

"Great. Just fucking Great" I scoffed to myself as the group next to me looked at me like I was mental.

I couldn't watch Fred any longer, I grabbed the bottle and rushed to my dorm.

I pushed my door open then slammed it shut. All my anger and pain building up more and more. All I could think about was Fred. Over and over and over again.

It's all my fault.

I downed the bottle and threw all my clothes off of my body, leaving me naked. I pulled my covers from my bed and wrapped myself into my plain sheets. I couldn't even get into the damn sheets without thinking of Fred. Thinking of how his hands felt on my body again. Thinking more of how he'd make those girls feel tonight.

That stupid threesome. I should've stopped it. I should've just went in there and grabbed Fred. But I couldn't. It was too soon.

For a few seconds of tonight, it had felt like Fred and I were still a thing. It was like he knew exactly who I was, like he was still in love with me. But I built up this feeling in me that wants him to remember and I let that take over me.

Everything was just going to have to start over again.

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I'm really rushing this and it's confusing me but we're just gonna push through it all

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