Part 38

!Flashback!(Smut warning)

December 2017

Dear diary,Billie and I have been something for about 4 months now, and it's going great. She has always been really sweet and caring, but since our first kiss, she has been even more affectionate.

Billie's always searching secret skin to skin contact no matter where or when. Luckily, we've always been pretty touchy, so no one really seems to realize any difference.

Still, everything we do happens in secret. I get it, though, and we haven't even labeled anything, so I understand where this is coming from. But it still kinda hurts , I guess she's worth it, though.

Reality Ny phone vibrated next to me.

___Billie

Wanna go for a drive ?I'll pick you up in 5.

___

Billies 16th birthday was a few days ago, and now she's allowed to drive. She's using her ability to its full extant. This is about the third time she's been picking me up, and she's only been 16 for about one and a half weeks.

I shot her a quick text saying that I'll be ready before slipping on one of Billie's hoodies, which I had borrowed. Well, it's more like stole, but perhaps I'm gonna give it back - someday.

"Are you leaving, honey?" Mum asked from the couch as I came running down the stears. " Yup, Billies picking me up in a bit." I called out, pulling on my shoes.

"Ok, but dont stay out too long, ok?" She warned. I know she doesn't mind if I sleep over at Billies, but she won't let me be outside past 11 pm for some reason. "Yeah, we won't don't worry. Bye, mum."

I could hear a car pull up our driveway, so I quickly sprinted out the door. Billie was waiting for me in her mums car as she didn't have her own yet. She says she really wants a matt black dodge challenger, but that car is expensive as hell.

Well, Billies has been making really good money with her music lately, and she was working on an album with Finneas again, but it was still not enough.And on top of that Maggie was still scared of letting Billie drive alone.

"Hey B." I called out as I climbed into the passenger seat. " Hey princess. " Billie said, a smile playing on her lips. I playfully rolled my eyes at the nickname, but I let it slide.

"Where are we going?" I asked as Billie handed me the aux cable so that I could play some music. "Uhm, I was thinking maybe TacoBell, and you stay the night at mine?" Billie said , pulling out of the driveway. I chuckled. " TacoBell again? Do you even eat anything besides burritos at all?" I asked, truly concerned.

"Uhm, I do!" Billie said in her quirky voice.I laughed at her, throwing my head back.

Billie pulled into the TacoBell drive-through, ordering our usually before parking in the parking lot so we could eat. " This shit is so good." Billie murmured with a full mouth. " Yeah, it's not bad." I chuckled. " Not bad?! Excuse this is so damn good." Billie said defendingly.

We enjoyed our food for a while longer until we felt like we were about to explode because we ate so much.

"You wanna go back to mine?" Billie asked as she returned from throwing away our trash. I nooded, earning a soft smile from Billie. " Good." She whispered before she pulled out of the parking lot.

I stared out the window a little, admiring the flashing lights pass by. Billies warm hand sliding up my thigh pulled me back to reality. I watched the way her hand laid calmly on my thigh while driving. Her eyes flickered towards mine for a second, her eyes brighter than usual.

There was something about the look she gave me that I couldn't quiet place. Her eyes returned back on the road, but her hand stayed put. My Playlist playing softly, filled the silence between us - Billie humming along ." I love your voice. " I abruptly blurted out.

"Thanks." Billie laughted. Suddenly, I became embarrassed about what I said, my fingers absently playing with my rings. " It's ok, mamas, dont be shy. You're cute." She giggled her fingers, rubbing up and down my leg a little. My hand landed on top of hers on my thigh. She turned her hand around, interlinking our fingers , resting in my lap.

The drive to Billies home was quick. Her hand gave mine a last squezz before she pulled it from mine to get out of the car. I followed her quickly. She quietly unlocked the door, taking forever. " Can you hurry? I'm freezing. I'm only wearing my hoodie. " I whined as she kept fumbling with the lock.

" First of all, you're wearing my hoodie, and second of all, shut up. I'm trying. " Billie shot getting frustrated . " Come on, let me." I said, pushing her aside and unlocking the door with no problem.

"M'lady." I gestured for Billie to step inside . Billie gave me a playful push but stepped inside anyway.

The house was already dark, indicating that everyone else was already asleep. Billie took my hand and led me down the hall to her room. Once the door closed behind us, Billies lips were on mine. It took me a second to register before I moved my lips with hers insinc.

It was soft, but at the same time, it felt urgent. " I've been wanting to kiss you all night." Billie mumbled in-between kisses, her hands sliding up my waist. " Than, why didn't you?" I whispered back. Billies hands were soft as they slipped under my shirt, grabbing my waist.

Billie pulled back a little to look at me - her pupils dilated. Her fingers drew patterns against my skin while my hands rested on her arms.

Billie bit her lower lip like she was holding something back. " What?" I asked.

She hesitated, her hand stroking up my back. " I want to make you feel good, baby." Her voice was barely above a whisper. " I'm already feeling good." I answered, confused. Billie let out a breathy laugh, shaking her head a little.

"You're so innocent. it's cute." She chuckled, her eyes staying fixated on mine with this intense look. But I stayed confused . I think Billie could tell by my facial expression because she chuckled once again before opening her mouth again. " No baby, what I meant is that I want to have sex with you. But only if you're ready, of course." She said, her voice more serious.

"Oh." I mumbled, taken back a little.

"Have you ever like-." Billie asked hesitant."No." I answered. Billie nooded understandingly. " I want you to know that we dont have to do anything if you're not ready. And that's totally ok." Billie said, her hands grabbing my sides a little harder, but not in a violent way , more passionate.

I nooded. I thought about it for a second before crashing my lips back on hers.I wanted this, and I wanted her. Billie moved us back a little till my legs hit the edge of her bed, making me fall backward. But Billie was there to catch me , carefully laying me down before climbing on top of me . All without breaking our kiss.

Her hands roamed up my sides before pulling back. " You know you didn't really give me an answer . Are you sure you want this?" Billie asked her tone a little more seriously. I nooded franticly. "Words, baby." She breathed out.

" Yes, I want this. I want you." I said my voice barely above a whisper. Billie bit her lip, her eyes suddenly turning a darker shade of blue. "Good."

Her lips crashed back on mine . The kiss felt more heated and urgent. Billies hands slipped up under my shirt. " Can I?" She asked tucking at the hem of my hoodie. I nooded before adding " Yes." It sounded more like a breath than an actual answer.

Her grip on my hoodie tightened before she slipped it over my head, revealing my light blue lacy bra. " Shit Valerie. " Billie breathed out, stearing at my upper body."You're so beautiful." She added before attacking my neck, leaving open mouth kisses along my skin.

I was already a wreck eventhoug nothing had happened yet. Billies kisses slipped a little lower all over my chest, my hand finding its way into her hair , slightly pulling on it. Billie let out a low growl. Her lips traveled lower down my stomachs before stopping at the hem of my jeans. Her eyes shot back up to mine, filled with desire."Can I?" She asked her hands, sitting on my hips, waiting to pull the jeans of my legs.

"Wait." I murmured sitting up. My hands slipped under Billies' shirt, caressing her waist. She knew exactly what I wanted and slipped off her shirt seconds later, revealing her full tits cupped by her black lacy bra. " Damn." Was all I said, earning a small chuckel from Billie. Her hands cupped my cheeks, pulling me back into a deep kiss.

Her hands found my hips again and pushed me back so that she could pull off my jeans. I laid there almost fully naked underneath her. I always thought I would be uncomfortable getting naked in front of someone else, but with Billie, that wasn't the case. She looked at me with so much love and admiration that I didn't feel uncomfortable one bit.

"You're so perfect, baby." Billie murmured, admiring by body underneath hers. My cheeks flushed red at her words.

She slipped her sweatpants off as well so that we would be equally exposed in front of each other.

"I need your Billie." I whined as her hands slid up and down my body. Billie smirked. " Patience, princess. " She chuckled her hands supported on eighter sides of my head. I had no way to escape if I wanted to, but I didn't. I wanted to be here - with her in this moment.

Her body slipped off mine, sitting back on her heals."You sure?" She asked one last time . I gave her a breathy "Yes." Before she unclamped my brain and pulled off my black underwear. Her mouth found my right boob softly sucking on it while she cupped the left, messaging it. A moan escaped my lips.

Billies eyes met mine again, a smirk playing on her lips. She was enjoying how good she made me feel. " You need to be quiet ok. The walls are thin." She whispered. I frantically nooded . Her hands left my boobs, one searching for my hand while the other one slipped lower.

She interlinked our fingers. " Tell me if I should stop. But I promise to be gentle. " She said her words soft . "Ok." I bit my lip. Billies other hand, slipped down wards between our bodies. I squirmed as her fingers graced my clit. "Mmh, you're so wet, baby." Billie sighted as her fingers slipped up and down my slit. She steared right in my soul as her finger carefully slipped inside me. I let out a gasp at the newly found sensation.

Billie slowly pushed her pointer deeper inside ,too let me get used to the feeling.

"Mmh, so pretty. " She hummed her lips, pecking mine again. After letting me adjust for a little, she started to pull out a little before thrusting back inside. Moans asked my mouth, which got swallowed by Billies lips on mine.

"Shit Billie dont stop." I gasped encouraging Billie to speed. " I'm not planning on." She whispered back. I think Billie was enjoying this just as much as me. " You think you can take another?" She asked, her hands squeezing mine a little harder. I was already holding onto her back for dear life but nooded anyway. I needed more - I needed Billie.

Billie pulled out almost completely before pushing back inside, adding a second finger. My lips part, but no sound came out. Billies eyebrows furrued. "You're so hot, Valerie ." She gasped, and I whined.

I could feel pressure building up in my lower stomach. " Billie, it feels weird." I whined, bitting my lip to keep quiet. " It's ok baby just let go. You're about to cum." Billie explained her voice soft and caring.

I squeezed her fingers, which were still interlinked with mine tighter. Billie speed up again her thumb returning to my clit. This time, I couldn't hold back, and a loud moan escaped my lips. Billies lips landed on mine again, trying to keep me quiet. I kept squirming underneath her till one last loud moan escaped my lips. My chest was rising and falling quickly, trying to come down from my high.

Billies finger slowed down a little, helping me ride it out. " You didn't so good, mama." She praised me, giving me a kiss to my temples .

Her fingers slipped out, pulling one last whine out of my throat.

Billie collapsed next to me, pulling me into her side in a swift motion."That was amazing. " I breathed out, still struggling to find a normal breathing pace." I'm glad, baby." Billie whispered in my ear.

"You good?" She asked me, and I nooded.

She slipped out beneath me , fishing my underwear of her floor , carefully slipping them back on before roaming through her closet. She pulled out one of her oversized hoodies , pulling it over my head. Billie returned to her closet, getting out some clothes for her as well.

Billie climbed back into bed next to me . She pulled me closer before slipping the blanket over our bodies. Our legs were tangled with each other, and my head was resting on her chest, enjoying the way her chest rose and fell .

"That was really amazing. " I whispered, Billies fingers drawing patterns on my skin. " Im glad, baby. But let's sleep. You need rest." She whispered her hand, stroking over my hair. I nooded, letting sleep take over me. I think I really like Billie.

A.NI need you to tell me if this is bad or not. I've never written smut before, so yeah. Should I continue or ratter leave it out?Hope you could bear this chapter and didn't cringe too bad.