Chapter 16

(A/N: Summer time for meee! What are your plans for this summer? I'm just glad I don't have anymore school for a few months! THINKING ABOUT ENDING IT ON THIS CHAPTER IT IS GOING TO BE A LITTLE SHORT BUT BEAR WITH ME, PLEASE!!!!)

Chapter 16 :D

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Lacy's POV

***Recap***

My voice wouldn't let me speak, I stood there, listening and trying to figure out my life then and there...

"Lacy...I would never hurt you..." Niall said, I stared at him.

"I don't think I can believe you..." I whispered, my shaky voice coming into use. I was scared and I didn't know what to believe anymore. I mean how can I?

"Can I talk to you?" Louis asked, I stood up, and followed Louis into my brother's bedroom. At least it wasn't that messy anymore. Wait! Focus!!!

"Listen to me, I know you're mad at Niall, but you can't be mad forever. He was trying to protect you and you're making yourself look like the bad person now. I hate seeing Niall in this state and so do the other boys, but you can't just not let him explain everything to you. He found a normal girl who isn't clawing him down because he's in One Direction or he's famous. You thought he was just some guy who was working in town, but he wanted to keep it that way because he missed being normal. Look, I'm tired of hearing about you two acting like this-" I cut him off.

"You don't understand how much he lied to me, it's too much. I have trust issues, Louis. You don't know me." I said, telling him straight how I felt about it.

"No, just let me finish! Niall actually likes you a lot, he finally confessed on why he was leaving and where he was going, he was always wanting to see you and to help you, but you being the stubborn one before were crabby to him. He's one of my best mates and he's been trying to apologize to you. Can't you at least talk to him?" Louis questioned, he looked so furious right now. It kind of scared me.

"Louis...I'm scared. Can I at least admit that? You don't really know me and you're thinking that it's easy for me. I know you want him to be happy and I understand that...but what about me? I'm so scared, I cut because of everything! I don't have any other friends! Everyone hates me, I don't know why, but he was my only friend that I thought was true...this is where my trust problems come in. I don't know what else to tell you..." I whined, lowering my gaze to my shoes, the most interesting thing to look at now.

"Tell me how you feel." Louis said about two minutes after this tension of silence.

"What?" I whispered.

"Tell me how you feel about Niall, let it out. I'm the only one here." Louis stated, I felt like my heart started to beat faster, and my brain was shooting with sooo many thoughts...I didn't know if I was going to explode right then and there.

"I feel safe...and-and he's there for me. He understands everything and I feel like I could tell him more than I could tell myself, but he knows more about me than I know him! I like him, but I can get so irritated, I feel locked up sometimes, but he knows how to break me out. I can't believe you got this out of me..." I mumbled the last part, he started to chuckle.

"What? Don't laugh!" I pushed his chest, but he didn't move very much, of course. He's strong, very strong.

"It's just funny. You both are so in love, there's nothing stopping you two, just talk to him, for me?" Louis asked, calming his self down, and looking very sincere. Argh, I can't say no, can I?

"I-I guess I can talk to him..." I mumbled again.

"NIAAAALL!" Louis ran out of the room, I sat on my brother's bed, staring at the floor, and running my hands through my hair. Why does everything have to be like this?

"Lacy? I'm so sorry...really." Niall whimpered, walking in the room, and shutting the door. I saw a tear drip down to the floor when he wasn't facing me. I clamped my hand over my mouth.

I made someone cry...and it was over me!

My eyes started brimming as I thought of the things he's done for me and the times we shared. Niall really did care and like the idiot I was, I made a fool of it all. I hated myself for acting this way and how I treated him. I regretted every moment of the cold glares and nasty comments I would throw at him. I had thought horrible, horrible things of him and I didn't mean it anymore. I felt so guilty.

"No, Niall...I'm sorry." I threw my arms around him, hugging him so close to me that if I hugged him any tighter, he might pop like a balloon, but all I wanted was to feel safe around him again. I knew he had to be upset with me and I couldn't manage to hold in all the tears or guilt. I needed us back the way we were, not the hating each other type.

"Lacy, don't apologize, I'm the one who lied. You should be hating me, you shouldn't be hugging me. You should be saying how much you never want to see me again or that you never want to hear a word from me. What are you doing?" Niall asked, breaking down in my neck, tears were sliding down on my shirt.

I cried harder, listening to the things he was saying. I didn't want any of that to happen.

"No! Stop! I never want any of those things to happen!" I sobbed, kissing his cheek.

"Why? I'm the most terrible person ever!" Niall yelled, pulling away from me.

"That's not true! I promise!" I shouted back, trying to wipe all of my tears away quickly.

"Then I must be a monster! I can't believe what I did and you're still trying to say sorry..." Niall said, breathing heavier.

"No! You were protecting me! I get it, you don't know how safe I feel around you. I don't think anyone has ever understood me like you! You care about me so much and I treated you so terribly, why aren't you hating me? I never realized how bad of a character I really was to you. I'm sick with myself. I hate myself. I hate that you're sorry!" I finally admitted towards him, as much as I was afraid to, I knew what I had to say and do.

"You shouldn't hate yourself, princess. You're beautiful and perfect the way you are, I understand how you feel, but I would never hate you, I will always apologize for the stupid or horrible things I do." Niall said, stepping forward towards me.

"But I do, I hate myself, but when I'm with you...when I'm with you...I want to live." I whispered, Niall had taken in what I had just said, and picked me up from the bed. Kissing my head over and over.

"I love you! Okay? I never want anything to happen to you! You can't hurt yourself, I won't let you, beautiful." Niall started to cry again, I was sitting in his lap, steadily crying over the words he was saying.

"Just kiss me." I breathed, my eyes just a little blurry from the brimming tears. All I wanted was to feel his lips on mine, I needed that spark, that little tingle, and those weird feeling butterflies in my stomach. I needed it, I craved it, and I had to have it.

Niall cupped my face, staring into my eyes as I blinked away the tears to see him. He took a slow time that was killing me, but I realized how broken we were and how much it was worth it. His lips brushed mine and he finally pressed them onto my lips. We took it with so much passion and love.

The kiss was filled with regret and sadness. I couldn't believe how much love could take and how much it could take to ruin it, but something held us together and we couldn't stop this feeling of love and hate. I knew it was there and so did he, but why couldn't we finally figure everything out, why did everything have to happen like this?

"Never stop loving me..." I breathed, the kiss was long, and we both needed a breath. Our noses brushed and our eyes were closed. His forehead rested against mine, we both opened our eyes, and stared at each other.

"I could never do that even if I wanted to. You and I are in this together." Niall said, pecking my lips, and then lightly kissing the tip of my nose. I smiled, a tear letting loose. He kissed that away as well.

"No pretty girl like you deserves to cry because of me, I don't like those sad tears of yours." Niall whispered, rubbing his thumb on my cheeks softly, cupping my face.

"I love you." I managed to say without breaking down again. I needed this, I needed him. This moment was the best thing between us. We knew exactly how we felt and exactly what we wanted.

"Lacy...come with us...on tour..." Niall mumbled, closing his eyes slowly, and then re-opening them. I bit my lip.

"You know I can't do that...I can't leave school..I can't leave my family..." I replied, choking on my words every now and then. I couldn't believe what he was asking me, it was a lot, and a lot to think about. What would my mum say about this? Even Nathan? Dad? 

"You and me...and the boys, traveling...can you think about that?" Niall asked, leaving kisses on my forehead, I let my eyes closed.

To think about all of this, it wouldn't be such a bad idea...I could finish my school online, it's even better because I wouldn't have to deal with the other kids at school and be alone again. I could feel safe everyday, as long as I'm with him, everything will be okay. Everything is okay. I could get my mum and Nathan to fly out if they wanted to, see a concert or two. I could fly home and visit for a few days. It already sounds like paradise in my mind. It sounds like such a perfect idea, but my mum wouldn't like that. She doesn't know Niall, she calls him James.

But...lots of kids go by their middle name...don't they?

"I do want to go...but my mum...what would she say?" I questioned, my hand reaching up to his soft hair, brushing it back until I left my hand on the back of his neck, playing with the back pieces of his hair.

"She likes me, let me talk to her about it. Tour starts in a week or so and I need you with me, I do, I really do. After all of this I know that I need you with me everywhere I go. I can't leave you here or not be able to be here with you for eight or more months, I can't do that. Where is she right now?" Niall asked, he seemed to perk up fast.

"Woah, woah, woah. First of all, I don't think you can, she works at the hospital, I think she's busy, that's why she made me stay at your flat." I put my hand on his chest to keep him down, I knew he was trying to get up.

"I know where she is, Lacy, if you want to come with us on tour, we have to talk to her. I want you to come." Niall said to me.

"Okay, we will, but we have to convince her about online school and then how good traveling can be for me, it has to be convincing enough for her. She doesn't know you're famous, so you have to tell her, and you also have to explain how much you'll take care of me, because she might not fully trust you." I tried to tell him, but all he wanted to do was go to my mum right away.

"She can trust me, I know she can, can we see her soon then?" Niall asked, his eyes filled with hope.

"Yes, of course. Of course." I nodded over and over.

"Do you need space tonight? You've been at my flat for a while, I can let you stay here for the night." Niall offered.

"No, I need you..." I whispered, another tear slipping because I could hear hurt in his voice, he porbably thought I needed time away, he was so sweet. How could I take him to being this upset, it made my heart break a little.

"Tomorrow. Tomorrow we'll speak to her." Niall whispered in my ear, goosebumps covered my arms as his hot breath tickled my ear. I only let a nod out as I felt a lump in my throat.

"You mean so much to me, if your mum says no...would you run away with me?" Niall asked, he looked absolutely nervouse. I felt my hands shake.

Would I run away with him for tour? Leaving everything behind in the past and starting fresh?

"I-I...yes. I would..." I barely whispered, it was so quiet, I don't even think he heard me, but the look in his eyes showed me he did. His eyes were a lighter blue and his smile came out, that made my heart skip a beat. He was the only one who could make my heart beat fast and slow.

"ARE YOU TWO GOOD? I DON'T HEAR ANYMORE TALKING!!!" I could hear Louis scream from the halls. I face-palmed myself and shook my head. Niall chuckled and opened the door with my hand in his.

"Boys! THEY'RE OKAY! THEY'RE OKAY! I REPEAT-" I stopped Louis.

"Stop repeating!" I giggled, nudging myself into Niall more. I felt like I haven't seen him in a long time and I missed him. I didn't know why I felt like this because it's been a day.

"IS IT TRUE?" Harry had followed our voices, mostly Louis' though. I could see the shadows of the other boys coming up.

"Yes." Niall smiled down at me, I let a blush creep on my cheeks. I couldn't help it.

***The Next Day***

Niall and I were hand in hand walking into the hospital, the nerves were hitting him pretty bad. All morning I was watching him stand in front of his bathroom mirror, figuring out the right thing to say and how he should say it. 

During the car ride, his fingers tapped constantly, not the hand I was holding, but the other one, it kind of scared me a bit. What if we couldn't convince my mum properly? Would I really just run away with him and the boys? It seems so much better with them. I can even get to know the others!

"Hi, may I help you two?" One of the nurse's sitting behind the counter asked.

"Can we see Mrs. Serene?" I asked in a polite way.

"Let me see if I can call her down, is this about being pregnant?" She asked, narrowing her eyes at us before they went down to my stomach.

"No ma'am." Niall shook his head.

"Well alright, please take a seat over there while I try to reach her." The nurse pointed at the chairs about five feet away from us. We took a seat and I leaned my head on his shoulder, letting out a sigh.

"I hope I can really get you to come, I can't leave you. I just can't do it." Niall told me, rubbing his thumb over my hand as he held it.

"Yes nurse?" I watched my mum come down the hall, staring at her.

"Those two were asking for you." The nurse pointed at us, my mum took a second glance, and then speed walked over to us. Niall and I both stood up.

"James, Lacy, what are you two doing here?" My mum questioned, she looked so exhausted. There were dark circles under her eyes, don't forget about the bags as well. She also looked quite flushed, I hope she is okay.

"Can we speak to you privately?" I asked her, biting the inside of my cheeks.

"Come on, we'll go to my office, I need some coffee anyways." She said, motioning us to follow her through the halls.

"So what's going on? I was going to call you tonight, did something happen?" Mum said, almost in a panicked voice.

"No, Mrs. Serene, everything is fine. We had...a lot to talk about actually..." Niall said.

"Well, what is it James? Lacy?" 

"I don't believe I had told you what my career was, did I?" Niall asked, I'm sure he never had broughten it up before.

"Erm, I don't think so, why?"

"Well, I'm in a famous boy band, One Direction. Have you heard of us?"

"You're famous?? Oh! I've heard you boys on the radio a few times! Some song is about beautiful or something?"

"What Makes You Beautiful, yes," Niall chuckled and then continued, "ever since our career had taken off, we've been the biggest boy band yet, and I'm going on tour in a week. Do you trust me, Mrs. Serene?"

"Please, call me Regina. Do you mean with my daughter? Yes, of course I trust you, I let her stay at your flat." My mum nodded.

"I have a serious question to ask you...Regina. Could she come on tour with me and the boys?" Niall asked, nervously.

"What about school? Graduating? What about a job? Honey, this is a lot." My mum looked at me, stress filled her eyes.

"Mum! Listen we have this figured out! I could do school online and still get good grades, I can graduate online as well! As soon as we get back I can get a job! Mum, we're...we're dating and I want to come with him. Please? Please mum?" I begged, pulling her into a hug.

"How long is this 'tour?'" My mum asked.

"About eight months." Niall said.

"Eight months?!" My mum exclaimed.

"We have plenty of breaks and she can come visit or you could fly out and see a concert, or just to visit. Lacy and I had talked all of this out. I promise I will take care of your daughter and nothing bad will happen to her. She will get all of her school done and graduate. I just want her to come with me. I care a lot for her and want her to experience this. If you haven't known, she's been getting harrassed by all of the kids at school and she doesn't need to have that. She feels...safer with me, I can't leave her here alone. I'm in love with your daughter, Regina." Niall said, closing his eyes as he spoke, he was holding in the tears, but as soon as his blue eyes opened back up...a tear slipped out.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" My mum looked at me, tears brimming in her eyes.

"Yes, more than anything, I love him, mum. I promise this will be good. For all of us." I nodded, tears stirring up for me as well.

"I guess this will be alright, but expect a lot of phone calls, please don't let her get hurt, I'm trusting you with her, James."

"Call me Niall, James is my middle name." Niall grabbed my mum into a hug, I smiled. I was actually going to go on tour with them. Justl like Niall and I had said the day before. I wiped away my tears. 

Niall grabbed me and pulled me into a hug his self.

"Let me get a picture of you two. Hold on, I'll grab my camera!" My mum walked around her room, going through drawers until she finally found her camera. Niall and I laughed and smiled in the picture.

"This is going on the fridge...the hallway...and in your room." My mum started to cry, grabbing tissues, and blowing into them.

"Mum!!!" I giggled, rubbing her back.

"I'm sorry, my baby is growing up! When Nathan gets home, he'll call you. Your father might call you as well, but I'm not sure when he comes back. I love you, honey."

"I love you too, mum."

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