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Kageyama opened his eyes, only to squint them shut again due to the bright sunlight.What time was it? It must've at least been midday. What had happened? Kageyama tried to remember what had happened, and why he was laying in an unfamiliar bed, but his head suddenly hurt really bad.As he groaned in pain and gripped his forehead, trying to ease the pain, he slowly sat up.

He then heard people whisper besides him, so he took a turn to the right, where the voices had come from.He was greeted with four familiar faces: Iwaizumi and Oikawa, and Shoyo and Kenma. The four people that meant the most to him at the moment. But when he saw that none of them were looking at him happily, he knew that, whatever had happened, it probably wasn't too good.

Hinata had his gaze turned to the ground as he fiddled with his fingers, while Kenma looked out of the window. Oikawa tried to give Tobio a nice and uplifting smile, but Kageyama saw that it was full of pity.Even Iwaizumi, who was the strongest one, the one that held everything and everyone together, was now rather quiet.What had happened?

"Uh... what happened? How long have I been out for? Why are you guys here?" Kageyama actually had so many questions, but he only asked few of them, not wanting to upset the others. They didn't look good themselves.

"Tobio-kun. How do you feel? Are you in pain?", Iwaizumi said, totally ignoring Kageyamas questions.

"I am alright. My head hurts tho... what happened?" He asked again.

"Here... take these. I'll bring a glass of water, wait a second." Hinata gave Kageyama some pain killers and went out of the room. He knew he couldn't avoid the situation forever, but he wanted to as long as he could. Normally he wasn't the type to run from his problems, but this time- this time it was different.

"Tobio-Chan, you had a panic attack, and you passed out. You've been out for almost twelve hours now. Do you still remember the party?" Oikawa said, answering almost all of Kageyamas questions.Tobio held his head, as he tried to remember the party. 'Party... Party...? Ah! There was an arcade! And the photo booth... oh and the truth or dare game...' he finally remembered what happened roughly.

"Yes... we were at bokuto-san's house, right? But what exactly happened? I can't remember anymore. Why did i pass out?" Most of his questions still weren't answered.

"Uh... I think we should leave now, shittykawa. We've got some work to do. Let them others handle this right here. Tobio, just give us a call after you guys settle everything between you, okay?" After Kageyama silently nodded, Iwaizumi dragged oikawa out of the dorm.

Once the two of them were gone, it was only Kageyama and Kenma. Hinata hasn't come back yet.Kageyama turned around to face his best friend, who was looking everywhere but at Kageyama.

Kenma was drowning in regret. After he had exited the party, because of the view he had to see, he was outside just crying. He didn't bother to go back to campus, since he was a little bit tipsy, and that had turned out to be the right decision. When people were getting nervous, and there was more of nervous talking and less of laughing, he knew something had happened.People who stood in front of the house were talking with each other, and kenma was sure he heard the word 'ambulance' out of someone's mouth.

As he then made his way through the ton of people that just stood there, he couldn't help but feel concerned, worried, and nervous at the same time. What if something had happened to his friends?He finally got to the couch, where he saw a drunk, crying Shoyo sitting on the ground. He crouched down to him.

"Shoyo! Are you alright? Can you see me? How many fingers am i holding up?" He held up three.But Shoyo slapped his fingers back down and started murmuring and crying again.

"...me...it'sch mine... my fault... scho stupid.." he was babbling, due to the alcohol, but kenma understood. Something had happened and Shoyo was blaming himself for it.Kenma stood up, since he figured talking to Hinata wasn't gonna actually help.

He then looked around again, and saw Kageyama laying on a couch, while Iwaizumi was towering over him. Iwaizumi was constantly slapping Kageyamas cheeks, trying to get him to wake up. As kenma realized that Kageyama must've been unconscious, he got there in mere seconds.

"Oh god Kageyama! Are you... i mean is he okay? What happened?" He asked Iwaizumi and Oikawa and Bokuto who stood around with worried faces."I- I don't know! It was after Hinata had kissed him. He just- passed out! I- I really don't know!" Oikawa was trying to explain, but he didn't quite get it himself.

Kenma sighed. He figured that Kageyama must have had a panic attack."He probably had a panic attack. He used to get these more often when we were younger, but it was actually all good again. This is the first one in 13 years. At least as far as i know."

They all looked at him with curious faces. 'Kageyama had a lot of panic attacks?! Why?'Kenma sighed again. " after his family died, he would often be scared of little things, but Hinata and I were able to help him through that." He explained. "Anyways, we can bring him to Hinata's dorm. It's not far from here. Who's gonna carry him?" Kenma didn't want them to risk finding anything in his dorm they probably shouldn't.

"I will." Iwaizumi said, and picked up Tobio, bridal style.

Kenma was drowning in regret. He regretted not being there for his friends, and letting his emotions get the best of him.He was now trying to get busy with other stuff, rather than looking at Kageyamas probably disappointed face.Hinata got back with a glass of water. He placed it in Kageyamas hands, and took a seat at his desk. All three of them weren't saying anything.

"Hinata", Kageyama said. He figured he had to get things straight.As the older male looked up with a bit of hope in his wet eyes, Kageyama sighed. He knew Hinata knew what he was gonna talk about. "Did you confess to me yesterday?" He needed to be sure, before giving his answer.

"U-uh I-I" he looked around before letting go a final sigh. "Yes. Yes i did. And i wanted to tell you that I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done what i did yesterday. But i also need you to know that i mean it. Every word i said. I really do love you Kageyama. I have ever since Highschool." Hinata finished, keeping his look on the ground.

It was silent. Kageyama was processing what Hinata had just said, and Hinata was waiting for an answer.

"Hinata... I-I feel really honored...I-" Kageyama started. He was gonna friendly decline, since he didn't feel like that towards the tangerine, but Kenma interrupted.

He scoffed. "Yes. It's always about you! Kageyama Tobio here, Kageyama Tobio there. It's always about you. It has always been like that. Everyone was so busy with you, that they totally forgot about me. I mean- i can't blame them. Im just the little invisible friend. But it hurt. It hurt when you guys were too busy with yourselves to realize how i felt.Shoyo, I guess you didn't know that i have been in love with you ever since, did you? But all you ever did was talk about him. It was as if you didn't acknowledge my presence. I was always with you, but you weren't with me. Your thoughts were all about him. And that hurt. So bad, you know? I always told myself I was being a drama queen, and that I shouldn't of felt the way i did. I told myself that my feelings were unimportant and petty, and did this to myself."

He pulled up his sleeves, to show his cuts to his best friends. Their eyes widened when they saw Kenma's bruises.Deep down Kenma knew he couldn't really blame Kageyama and Hinata. Hinata didn't ask for him to fall in love with him, and all that Kageyama wanted was supporting friends.But it hurt. It hurt so bad. He didn't want to cope with the pain anymore. He needed to let it out.

"I just- I just don't think this works. This friendship i mean. Whenever i am with you guys, i feel like i don't really belong here. It's not your fault. I just- i need to get my thoughts off of you guys. It doesn't do me any good. Maybe... maybe one day we can be friends again. When i am better. When i don't die inside while only looking at you. Maybe one day..." he finished.

Kageyama had his look turned to the bedsheets.His eyes were full of tears, while listening to what pain he had put his best friend through. If it was unintentionally or not.And he knew Kenma was right. He didn't bother to find out about Kenma's feelings. It wasn't like he didn't care, he just didn't know how to approach him, and if he could even help.But now he realized, everything would have been better.

He squeezed his eyes, letting the tears fall and looked up again. Kenma was clutching his training jacket tight, and hinata was sobbing into his palms.

"I'm sorry. I know sorry won't cut it, but I want you guys to know that I genuinely am. I am sorry Kenma, that I wasn't good enough of a friend. Sorry for making you feel like it was all about me. Sorry for making you insecure in so many ways. And mostly sorry that I wasn't there when you needed me the most.And Hinata, I am also sorry. Sorry for not noticing you feelings earlier. Sorry for having to reject your feelings. Sorry that you had to stay silent for so long. I'm sorry that i don't love you like that.Although i am sorry about so many things, I never doubted one thing: how much i love you guys. I always did. I never stopped, and i will never stop. You guys have pushed me in so many ways. I will forever be grateful."

His two friends were now crying along with him.He knew they were crying because of him, which made it even worse.

"Kageyama. Even if you don't love me like that, i still want to be friends. I'll take everything you are able to give me. Just please don't leave me. Don't leave me alone." Hinata was now crying uncontrollably.

Kageyama knew that it wasn't gonna be like this. He knew even if they wanted to be friends, they all needed time. Time to recover and heal from everything that had happened.They needed to surround themselves with other people, and maybe, just like Kenma said, they would be able to be friends again. One day.

"Can- can I hug you all? One more time?" Kageyama asked, knowing this would be the last interaction in some time. No matter what happened, he still loved his friends dearly. They were everything he had. They were his family, his pride and joy. No matter what happened, he could never be mad at them.Although them parting was the last thing he wanted, he knew it was better. Better for all three of them.

They all came in for a group hug, feeling the same as Kageyama.The loved each other more than the pain they caused each other hurt. They were gonna miss it. Miss sitting together at lunch, miss hanging out together on Fridays, and miss talking about how life fooled them.Cause it did.It did, but their friendship was always an absolute term. It was the one thing they never doubted.

They were gonna miss it, but it was for the best.

A/NPhew, this time a bit shorter. I'm sorry about the turn things took, but now they all go their ways.I felt like it was kind of a destructive relationship from the start. But they're all gonna get better, i promise!

And i wanted to thank you all for the love this fic is getting. It's my first ever, and I'm not sure if its good, so please leav some criticism. I'd like to know what i could improve.