Chapter 47

SPIN'S P.O.V.

*ten minutes later*

Diggy- *pulls up to the house*

Spin- You aite?

Diggy- Yeah, I'm good.. I wanna crash out right now

Spin- *laughs* *gets out the car* *goes up to the house and hears crying* Dig.. is that Malik?

Diggy- What? *locks the car and walks to the door* *hears crying* *tries to open the door* Shit. Y/N locked it from the inside.. *bangs on the door* Y/N! Y/N open up!!

Spin- *looks through the windows* Dig, the house is dark..

Diggy- *balls his fists and thinks* *tries to break down the door*

Spin- What the fu..?

Diggy- *breaks open the door* *runs in the house* Spin, gp and look for Y/N... *runs upstairs to Malik* *sees him crying exhaustedly and picks him up* Oh my God..my poor son what is wrong baby boy? *looks at him wailing*

Spin- *hears the water running* *runs to the bathroom* Y/N?? Y/N can you hear me? *pushes the door open* *sees you on the shower floor clothed and crying* Y/N, oh my God...

Y/N- *rocks on the floor*

Spin- *turns off the shower and tries to pick you up*

Y/N- *cries out* No! Don't help me!

Spin- *pulls you up* You need me. Y/N, come on.. *tries to stand you up* *grabs a towel*

Y/N- *breaks down in tears*

Spin- *wraps it around you* *hugs you* Shh...

Diggy- *walks in* What the hell was going on Y/N?!

Y/N- *sobs* Diggy, please..!

Diggy- No! My son is crying his heart out next door and you're not even helping him?! What kind of person are you.. no, what kind of mother does that!?

Y/N- *cries and runs off*

Spin- *looks at him* *gives him a look*

Diggy- *snaps at him* What?

Spin- *goes after you*

Y/N- *cries and sobs on the bed*

Spin- *sighs* Y/N, you're worrying me...

Y/N- *shakes her head frantically* You gotta leave me alone..

Spin- You sure?

Y/N- *nods* Please

Spin- *kisses your head* *walks out* *closes the door*

Diggy- *walks up to him* What's up with her? This is all crazy..

Spin- Man, I don't now.. but she's not good

Diggy- *confused* Fuck you mean she's not alright? She was all cool just the other day?

Spin- She's been unstable all week..

Diggy- What? Has she?

Spin- *stares at him* You haven't even noticed have you?

Diggy- *shakes his head carefully

Spin- *sighs* You gotta keep an eye out for your girl man, cause I know something is up.. *walks to his room*

Diggy- *looks down at Malik sleeping in his arms*

DIGGY'S P.O.V.

*the next morning*

Last night.. confused me. It was so odd. I've never seen Y/N so unstable or acting so oddly in the while time I knew her or was with her, especially after Malik was born, I thought it was just her hormones making her  a little tired and angrier. I'd shrug it off. I never saw it as anything major.

Y/N- *lays in bed*

Diggy- *kocks and walks in the room* Babe..?

Y/N- *pulls up the covers* Leave me alone..

Diggy- No, I won't..

Y/N- *screams* I said, leave me!!

Diggy- *stops in his tracks* I'm not gonna let you talk to me like tat and I have to pretend like it's nothing. I'm here for you and I wan tot tlak to you

Y/N- Diggy, just leave me..

Diggy- You locking yourself in the house with a screaming baby and sitting on the shower floor isn't fine Y/N

Y/N- *grits teeth* I said I'm fine.

Diggy- What is up with you babe? *holds your hand*

Y/N- *snatches away*

Diggy- Is this something I c..

Y/N- *interrupts* No, you can't help me! There's nothing you or anyone else can do but give me some space, okay? *turns away form him*

Diggy- *pauses* *turns your chin with his finger and kisses you * *breaks the kiss and leaves the room*

Y/N- *lays on the bed* *starts to cry into the pillow*

Diggy- *walks downstairs*

Spin- *stops playing with Malik* Hey.. what happened? Did you talk to her?

Diggy- She's .. there's something wrong. But I don't know what to do

Spin- *sighs*

*that night*

Y/N- *walks in the kitchen* *folds her arms* Um, hey..

Diggy- *turns around* Oh, hey... you okay?

Y/N- *shrugs* I'm a little tired.

Diggy- What was that earlier?

Y/N- I.. I don't know. I just feel a little uneasy sometimes

Diggy- *looks at you weird*

Y/N- *opens and looks in the pantry* *looks at him* What?

Diggy- You want me to call a doctor? It could be se..

Y/N- No, no.. I odn't. 

Diggy- *pauses* Okay then.. Malik's gonna wake up soon, you wanna feed him?

Y/N- *hand shakes* Not really.

Diggy- What do you mean?

Y/N- I... don't want to.

Diggy- *chuckles* Y/N, that's your son

Y/N- *snaps* And you gave me a choice. I don't want to Diggy! *slams the door and walks out*

Diggy- *watches you walk out*

*the next day*

YOUR P.O.V.

Spin- *plays with Malik* Y/N.. you got a bottle? *sniffs the air* Or a diaper?

Y/N- Um. yeah..

Spin- *phone rings* Oh.. that's my brother. Can you..?

Y/N- *looks at him* What?

Spin- Change your son's diaper. Come on I gotta take this call... *hands the baby to you* *walks out*

Y/N- *looks at the baby uneasily*

Malik- *yawns and makes faces at you*

Y/N- *puts the baby down* *walks out the room*

Spin- *sees you walk off* I gotta go, I'll call you back.. *hangs up quickly and runs after you* Y/N, wait!!

Y/N- *walks in the backyard *wipes her eyes and sniffles*

Spin- *catches up to you* Hey, hey woah.. what's up with you lately?

Y/N- I can't do it..

Diggy- *walks to the door and sees you both talking*

Spin- Do what?

Y/N- I can't be a mom! It's too much now, it's too, too much..

Spin- Y/N, why you thinking like this?

Y/N- *sobs and pants* I'm messing everything up, I can't.. *cries* I can't make his bottle without it being too hot or too cold, I don't know how to change his diaper properly.. I'm such a bad mom.. I can't even make sure he's okay all the time! *breaks down*

Spin- *hugs you* Come here.. *hugs you tight* You're not a bad mom..

Y/N- *cries* I am.. I don't even feel like I love my baby boy.. and he's my baby boy! Everything I  worked for, what I wanted and what I had has been taken from me.. my career.. my friends.. I miss my family.. it's not Malik's fault., but it's all so hard...

Diggy- *looks at you both* *walks back in the house*

Spin- Shh... *sees Diggy walking away*

Y/N- *sobs in his shirt*

*that night*

Y/N- *walks in the bedroom*

Diggy- You're selfish.

Y/N- *jumps and looks at him on the bed* What? *wipes her face*

Diggy- You're just upset that you can't go bakc to how your perfetc life was before because you have a baby?

Y/N- When did I eve..

Diggy- I heard you talking with Spin.

Y/N- *folds her arms* Oh really?

Diggy- Really. I can't believe you. You wanna put yourself first and not even look after your son?!

Y/N- You don't understand!

Diggy- No, and I never will understand how someone can't love her baby! Do you hate him that much?!

Y/N- *shouts* No, I don't!!

Diggy- Fucking prove it!

Y/N- What do I have to prove to you?! I gave birth to him, he's my son...

Diggy- So act like it. Do something as a mother!

Y/N- *shakes her head* *tries to stop her tears* You'll never understand what I'm going through!

Diggy- Oh boo-hoo, save me the fucking tears. You're barely tryng, Y/N, I don't know what's gotten into you., but you gotta step up

Y/N- *wipes her eyes* You know what, he's better off without me as a mom *walks out*

Diggy- *grabs you* You're not going anywhere, we're gonna figure this out. I hate when you're like this. tryna bring all the attention on you and playing victim, not with me. Don't you dare.

Y/N- *tears rush down her face* You know what, just.. leave me alone for a while.. you won't regret it *walks out and slams the door*

Diggy- *sighs deeply*

*a few hours later*

DIGGY'S P.O.V.

Diggy- *hears a noise from Malik's room* *wakes up suddenly* Y/N? *looks at the empty bed* *gets up quickly*

I accidentally fell asleep, but right when I was deep in sleep mode, I heard something loud. Something.. moved... it disturbed me and I didn't want to know that someone was in my house tryna hurt my son or my girlfriend. Or even my bestfriend. I got up and first instinct was to go to Malik's room...

Diggy- *pushes open the door* *gasps* Y/N!!

She.. she hung herself. Rope tied around her neck and tied to the cable of the light above the room, the chair beneath her was knocked over.. I rushed over to her, screaming, panicking.. my son was in the crib next to me just sleeping... I was desperately standing on the chair, untying the rope.. who knew how long she'd been here already, she was almost pale and barely responded to me. Her eyes didn't open and her skin was cole... she.. she attempted suicide?

Diggy- *lays you on the floor* Baby.. baby, talk to me..Y/N, please.. *gives you mouth-to-mouth several times*

Spin- *walks in rubbing his eyes* Man, why you.. *sees the rope and Y/N on the floor* Oh hell no.. *rushes to the floor beside you both*

Diggy- *starts to cry* Spin, you gotta help me right now!

Spin- I'll call an ambulance.. 999, right? *takes his phone out*

Diggy- *nods frantically* *tries CPR* *starts crying uncontrollably*