Chapter 14

YOUR P.O.V.

He kissed me. But not just that.. he kissed me so deeply and passionately, I’d never known anyone to kiss like that. A deep, meaningful, passionate, time-stopping and heart-swirling kiss. I hadn’t had a kiss like that since I got married.

At first I tried to fight his lips off mine, his tongue begging for entrance.. but I gave in, when I knew I couldn’t fight any longer. Diggy moved his hands from my arms to my back, they were cold, so I shivered and jumped a little, making him smirk and laugh during the kisses. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me, moving my body towards his so our hips were aligned and together.

His hands moved down my back and to my ass, he grabbed it gently, making me laugh this time. He kissed me, pecked me and pulled his lips away while my arms were still around his neck, and stared down at my lips. My pink pout had been smothered all over him, like a territorial mark.

Diggy- *sighs happily* *touches his nose with yours*

Y/N- *closes her eyes* *whispers* What are we doing?

Diggy- Whatever you wanna do

Y/N- *looks up at him* 

Diggy- *steps away* You know that kiss wasn’t just anything, it wa show I felt

Y/N- *nods* *sits on the kitchen counter*

Diggy- *shrugs* It’s wherever you wanna go with it

Y/N- *sighs and puts her head in her hands* Oh God..

Diggy- *looks at you confused*

Y/N- *looks at him* That’s the problem Dig.. I don’t know! We’re friends, we have a really good friendship and we understand each other.. but then.. I know there’s something between us, something more than a bond, some attraction and feelings there

Diggy- But..?

Y/N- *sighs a little* But I don’t wanna jump into something like I did before and get hurt or hurt you and mess us up. I don’t want it all to get fucked up and we hate each other.. I’m not ready.

Diggy- *nods* Can I ask you something?

Y/N- Yeah..

Diggy- Do you want me?

Y/N- *mouth opens and closes*

Diggy- *looks down*

Y/N- I don’t wanna.. lead you on

Diggy- *stutters* Wait. so you.. you..?

Y/N- No, I’m not messing with you, I do.. trust me. It’s there. *softly* I’m just, not ready yet. But I don’t want you to wait.. I don’t know

Diggy- *stands between your legs* *rests his head on your chest* It’s okay

Y/N- *holds him*

We were there for ages. His head on my chest and arms around my waist as I was sat on the counter, my hands massaging and comforting his curls of hair. It was like a revelation to us both as we held each other… the problem was.. I didn’t know if I’d ever be ready to run into another relationship so fast. I didn’t want to rush or break hearts.. but I didn’t want him to wait for me.

*Monday*

Y/N- I feel so dumb

Mia- Because nothing happened?

Y/N- Because I think I hurt him… Mia, do you think I did the right thing?

Mia- *shrugs* You seem scared

Y/N- *stutters a little* I.. I kinda am. I don’t wanna get hurt again

Mia- You won’t. It’s Diggy

Y/N- How do you know that? Andre was a good guy.. and he changed in a matter of months

Mia- Diggy is not Andre. You know what, yeah I think you were a bit dumb. That was a huge chance you coulda had with someone so special, so good for you and someone who made you happy… but you held back your feelings.

Y/N- I had to protect my heart

Mia- You know how he feels about you. How many more times do you have to make him fall back before he decides to move on?

Y/N- I can’t even answer that… what do you want me to say?

Mia- Tell me why you came all the way out here to New York.

Y/N- To help Diggy

Mia- Why?

Y/N- Because I believe in him. I admire his dreams and ambition to get somewhere in life. That’s rare.

Mia- No.. it’s because you see something in him because of that. You’re attracted to him and his dreams and you want to be a part of his life and help him get there

Y/N- *silent*

Mia- I’m right aren’t I?

Y/N- *sighs* Yes, you are, okay?

Mia- He likes you… you like him. It’s all perfect huh? But no. You can’t get your feelings out because you’re scared of getting hurt by a guy that would only treat you like a queen. But you know, what, I respect it. Just remember, when he moves on, don’t come crying to me about it *sips her tea*

Y/N- *looks at her*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

Steve- …Well, we’d be honored to have you as part of the label… I wanna invite you to an album listening party tomorrow night

Diggy- Seriously?

I.D- I wanna getchu in the booth right now.. see what you do with any beat.. anything off your mind

Diggy- *claps his hands together* Cool, we can do this *walks in the booth* *starts rapping to a beat*

Steve- *stands up* 

I.D- *nods his head* The kid’s got potential. I always knew it

*ten minutes later*

Russell- *walks in the room* Dig!

Diggy- *chuckles and stops rapping* Hey uncle.. *walks out the booth* *daps and man hugs him*

Steve- Wanted nobody but the man himself

Russell- When I heard those songs of yours.. I mean damn.. you know I had everybody listening to that?

Diggy- Seriously?

Russell- There’s something so different about you compared to your brother, it’s crazy that I can hear it but I can’t even say what it is… I can’t even hesitate to invite you to the listening party.. 

Diggy- That sounds dope *smiles*

*that evening*

Spin- *on the phone* Of course I’ll be there, Jeremih already invited me, it’s gonna be turnt

Diggy- I’m so excited for this man, a Def Jam listening party..

Spin- *chuckles* Mannnn…  

Diggy- *puts his key in the door* I’ll talk to you later tho, aite?

Spin- Cool bro.. *hangs up*

Diggy- *walks in the apartment* Hey..

Y/N- *glances at him from the couch* Hi.

Diggy- *walks and stops* *looks at you* It’s not weird is it? Us… being like this?

Y/N- *shakes her head slowly* You’d tell me if it is, right?

Diggy- To me, it kinda is. But if you wanna be friends, that’s cool with me. *holds his hands up*

Y/N- *smiles*

Diggy- I’ve got this listening party I’m going to tomorrow.. you wanna come with me and Spin?

Y/N- *shakes head* I’ve gotta work… early till late. I’m sorry Dig

Diggy- No problem *walks to his room*

Y/N- *watches him go* *sighs*

*the next night at the listening party*

Jeremih- Wait, so are you signed with them yet?

Diggy- Not yet

Jeremih- Dammit.. but damn, you’re gonna get it too

Girl- *walks past him* *touches his arm*

Diggy- *watches her go* *smirks*

Jeremih- My boy got some admirers, huh? Why don’t you go after her?

Spin- *looks at him*

Diggy- *shrugs* I don’t know

Spin- Aren’t you in a situation right now? Kinda.. complicated?

Jeremih- Are you taken?

Diggy- *shakes his head* No

Jeremih- *pushes him gently* So go and talk to that fine girl over there! Get your number in her phone or something

Diggy- *chuckles* Alright, alright.. *walks over to her* Um… hey

Girl- Hi.. *smiles and sips her drink*

Diggy- *blinks a few times* Wow.. you look amazing tonight

Girl- *chuckles* Thank you.. you’re not too bad yourself… do I know you?

Diggy- You’re about to.. I’m Diggy

Girl- *smiles* Stacy *kisses his cheek* *wraps her arms around him*

Diggy- *licks his lips*

*the next morning*

YOUR P.O.V.

Y/N- *walks in the kitchen* *puts her purse on the table* *runs her hands through her hair* *goes in the fridge* *takes out juice*

Late start and rushing to work? Not my favourite thing to do.. Thank God I could do my make-up in the car my boss always sent me in. It was always a Rolls Royce Ghost, my boss’s favourite car. I straightened my work dress as I looked in the fridge for something to eat on the go.. then I heard Diggy come out of his room

Y/N- *closes the ridge* *puts juice on the table* *looks up and pauses* Oh… 

Stacy- *looks up at you bashfully* Hi…

Y/N- *confused* Hi..? And you are?

Stacy- Stacy.. I was here with Diggy last night? We’ve never met.. *reaches her hand out to you*

Y/N- *shakes it awkwardly* Yeah… we never have. *looks her up and down*

Stacy- Sorry about this… Diggy said I could grab a shirt, but I don’t know where he keeps his

Y/N- *fakes a small laugh* *walks to her room*

Diggy- *walks out* *picks Stacy up*

Stacy- *squeals* Diggy!! 

Diggy- *laughs* *mumbles in her ear* Last night was good, huh?

Stacy- *chuckles* More than that *wraps her legs around him*

Diggy *pecks her lips*

Y/N- *walks out slowly* *sees them*

Stacy- *sees you* Oh, sorry *gets off him* *stands on the ground*

Diggy- *turns around to see you* Oh.. I thought you left for work already…

Y/N- No.. I start late. My boss will be here *looks at her watch* …soon.

Diggy- *nods* *glances at Stacy under his arm*

Stacy- *nuzzles her head in his chest* I’m still so tired

Diggy- *kisses her neck* I can getchu outta that *feels down her body*

Y/N- *looks away awkwardly* So, I’m gonna go.. *grabs her purse*

Stacy- Oh.. have a good day.. it was nice to meet you

Y/N- *smiles briefly at her* Yeah.. you too *looks at Diggy*

Diggy- *looks away*

Y/N- *leaves*

I might have put on a front like what I saw didn’t bother me… but I couldn’t hide how much that hurt to see.

Y/N- *gets in the Ghost outside*

Boss- *looks at you* What’s wrong?

Y/N- *shakes her head* Nothing… *phone buzzes* *looks at the message*

Diggy- You said you weren’t ready, you didn’t want me to wait. We’re just friends now, right?

Y/N- *puts the phone down* *puts her hand over her face*

I couldn’t pretend like that didn’t hurt.