part 27(Without him)

"Welcome home the piece of my heart"yoongi's mom said to yong as she hugged me and then picked him up in his arms as i entered our or should I say her house....."Have a seat my child...how are you?"she asked me as i sat down....Since the day yoongi left this world...his mother's and my relationship started to get better day by day.....maybe it's because of yong....And now she is just like my mom to me and I am just like her daughter to her......."What do you prefer?tea or coffee or wine or soju or any fruit drink?"she asked sitting beside me as yong started to play on his own...."I don't want anything eomma...just sit here and tell me about your health are you taking your medicines on time and regularly?"i asked smiling at her warmly.

After yoongi she is the only one I felt at home with....i don't know why...maybe it's because she is the same age as my mom?....or is it cause somewhere in her eyes i can see my mom.....

"Wae?you came here from so far.you need some energy..stay here I'll go and make you a quick tea...i know how you like it so much"she said smiling and stood up before leaving.

And again I am here alone...just like always... thinking about the boy i fell in love with for once and for all......ohh how i imagined myself in his arms....going on dates..... cuddling.... behaving like a cute couple......but now...... it's nothing.......

"Momma when we'll be going to jimin uncle's home?"yong asked...making me come to the realisation.

"Yonguuu can't you wait a little bit more my baby?we will go tomorrow cause I am tired today....okey?"i said cupping his dumpling cheeks.

He just pouted and went back to playing.I took out my phone and started scrolling randomly.When suddenly a notification dimmed it was from google.

"BTS min yoongi spotted in Paris with his girlfriend ......tap here to know more."

I swipe the notification.'sigh'why can't they understand that something is wrong.....when will bangpd allow BTS to tell the army that there favourite idol,there motivation,there inspiration is no more..... till when?....After 2-3 months of yoongi's death,these types of notifications started to come in my phone...at first I was shocked i thought that maybe they had pranked me by doing all this funeral thing but then i asked them about this and they said the fans didn't know about his death...cause bangpd didn't allow it cause it can break the group apart......so they told their fans that he is going for vacation to clear his mind but he will keep updating them on wevers and tweeter .of course they will just post his random photos and upload them....In the beginning i always saw them posting his pictures from his phone but then when I decided to continue my studies i completely shut down the social media.cause at that time i just wanted to achieve what I need for me and my child.

My obsession.yes it was my obsession that time.and for the first time in my life my obsession was good to me.... every time I got obsessed with something it always caused me pain but the obsession I had to become a CEO in the fashion industry didn't cause me pain but happiness.......

Ring ring ring

I felt a vibration in my bag that was on my lap..i took it out and saw the caller id......soobin.....i picked up."Yes.soobin?"i said as it was silent the other side."Yes yes I am here...did you reach there safely?"he asked his voice sounded tired."Yes.i arrived safely.why did you call?is everything okay at the company?"i asked."It's just I missed you"he said and I can tell he is pouting right now.I laugh at him."ohh really so sad keep missing me~"i said teasing him."Anyways I called to ask where are the files bighit had send?I have to give it to other companies.if you are not accepting there request"he said now in his business man ascent."Uh-yeah right i am not accepting there request you can give it to others.its in the first cabinet beside the door"i said."Okey.talk to you later"he said and i hummed and hung up the call.

"Here you go"mrs min said as she sat down."Thanku"i said and held the cup of tea and took a sip."How is it?".she asked smiling at me.the look of excitement in her eyes."Just like always.....yong take a sip dear"i said as i called him.He came and took a sip."What is this mumma?"he asked pointing at the tea.Yes he don't know what is tea cause I never tried to make him drink it and I was always at work so i couldn't drink tea in front of him."This is called tea.did you like it?"i asked pinching his cheeks he rubbed his cheeks."No! it's sweet i like coppe(coffee)"he said."But you like ice Creams and cakes those too are sweet"mrs min said."But I like coffee moree"he said."He liked it too"me and mrs min both looked at eachother cause we said it at the same time.Then we chuckles."Okey let's finish this then we will go to the park hmm"mrs min said."But I am tired.i'll sleep for sometime then we will go.tilk then you and yong can go to the park"i said in my dramatical way."Okey sleepyhead"she said."Yong let's go to park okey"she said to yong he looked at her excitedly and hold her hand and they both left.I sat there for sometime and then decided to not think of anything else and just sleep.So i went in the room....the room that was once mine and his......the room where we watched our first movie.....I took out my phone and saw the picture I had taken of him that night.

I lay on bed still looking at his photo and soon drifted off to sleep.........

Time skip.We had dinner and yong is asleep so me and mrs min is in the garden area walking.We were silent for so long but mrs min break the silence..."Who is that guy?"she asked quietly.I looked at her confuse.which guy?"Who?"i asked."The one you were talking to this morning when you came here"she asked.(They are still walking)"How do you know it was guy?"i asked."I accidentally heard you talking"she said."Oh he is soobin my secretary and my we are best buddies.he knows everything about me and my past and he is the one who supported me in continuing my studies and he supported me in becoming the ceo I am today."i said smiling while looking in front."You two dating?"she asked suddenly making me widen my eyes......"No no eomma why did you thought like that?i still live yoongi.i am not over him"i said sudden tears forming in my eyes.just thinking about someone else other than him makes my heart ache so bad."Oh....i just thought cause you were saying keep missi me....."she said apologaticly."Aish...*sniff*he was just being dramatic so i teased him nothing less and nothing more."i said now smil5at her."But it's been 5 years yong needs a father as well you should marry someone who is suitable for you and yong.uf your mom was here she would've said the same"she said holding my hand and i shaked my head."No eomma no...i can't even imagine myself with someone else...eomma if not yoongi than no one.....i had spent the most beautiful days of my life with yoongi .every month, every week, every day, every hour, every min, and every sec is so precious and important to me...and i don't think I'll ever be able to remove them from my heart... I can't replace the memories of him...eomma....i love him.....i still dream of him...i can't tell how much I miss him...how much I want him to suddenly come in front of my eyes and say'come y/n let's go we will live there happily'*sniff*whom do I tell the pain I am feeling for the past 5 years eom-ma.he just sud-suddenly disappeared..i-i could-couldn't eve-n see his fa-ce for th-e last time.... couldn't tell him he is going to be a fath-father.... couldn't tell him i-l-ove hi-m"i said as i started crying in the middle.

The pain I was feeling right now was unexplainable...it was like the sky is about to fall anytime,the ground was shaking,no oxygen was there...I sat down while crying still holding her hand....cause of safocation..

"Get up my child get up..... everything will be okey...i am here... it's okey...you are strong my child...stop Stop crying my strong daughter.my brave daughter.."she said as she too sat down and wipe my tears I get a hold of her ang got up and we went inside the house......

After some silent and comforting hours we went back to our rooms and fall asleep...

Next day."Yonnggguuu my boy!how are you?"jimin said excitedly as he picked yong up in his arms......"I am good Jimmie my boy"yong said patting his shoulders.We all laughed and then jimin put him down and faced Mrs..min and y/n.he smiled sweetly and embrace y/n in his arms."How are you sister?"he asked as they pulled apart and sat down on the living room's couch."I am good.you tell me how everything is going?"y/n asked."Although Nothing is like before buttt.....better...most of the armies always sends letters for yoongi...they asked us it's been 5 years when will yoongi oppa come back from his vacation?and we just smiles at them to assure them that he'll be back soon"jimin said as he lowered his head and took a deep breath to control his shivering voice.

As to y/n,her eyes was filled with tears...cause of the pain she always feels whenever she remembered him.

"Stoo crying my child... crying won't bring him here.... control yourself."she said as she rubbed jimin's back.

"Let's go eat something outside?"yong said as he was observing all of this....

The three of them looked at him and laughed at his cute pouty face.then the decided to go for lunch.

........Timeskip to the night....Laughter filled the house again as jimin and yong came inside the living room running from an angry jk as they stole his banana milk.... following behind were Jin,Taehyung,jhope,RM,y/n and mrs min....

When y/n,jimin,yong,and Mrs min were coming back home after eating there lunch at a big restaurant,they saw jhope at a park...and then they all decided to meet others athen they went to an arcade after that after eating dinner they came back home..

"Okey okey yong... enough for today... let's go to sleep.. it's getting really late"y/n said and took yong to her room.

After tucking him in his side of bed she laid down to sleep but a thought crossed her mind...

Y/n's p.o.v.What was hoseok doing there?Flashback..Me jimin and mom and yong were roaming around a park....when i spotted someone familiar....."Mom I wanna eat ishe clean(ice cream) let's go"yong said pulling my sleeves."Jimin can you take him to buy ice Creams I need to go the the restroom"i said."You okey?"mom asked worriedly."Yeah yeah mom nothing happened I'll be back in 5 min."i said and made my way to the tree....I got near that tree and look closely to see who was that familiar person and to my surprise it was hoseok.He was with a man handing him a bag...what is hoseok doing here?is hoseok involve in drugs or something?What is this matter....They were talking about giving someone the money........

"Hoseok"I called him and he frozed for some seconds then turn around....

"H-heyy!y/n how are you what are you doing here?when did you came?"he asked getting flustered by my sudden appearance.

"I am good hoseok and I came here before yesterday and I came HERE cause I saw a familiar body behind a tree so i decided to check who is this and this person was you"i said smiling.

"Okey let's go meet others as well.they all miss you so much"he said grabbing my hand and started going towards his car.

"Hey hey I have jimin mom and yong with me let's take them with us as well."i said and he Stopped walking and turn around smiling nervously.

"Ohh you should had told me before...so let's go to them.?"he said."Okey"i said and we both went where the three of them were buying ice creams....while walking.....

Flashback ends.

Should I ask him?no no...then should I tell jimin or jin about it?....nahh.....What it's none of my buisness...

Ring....ring....ring.... Soobin

Accept. Decline. Accept.

"Hello?"i said."Yes y/nshiee how are you doing there?"soobin asked...."I am doing great...how are you awake till now?""I was calling you from the evening but you were not picking up...what is this...huh....i was worried about you.."he said sounding mad."Aish i am sorry...my phone was on silent mannn.... it'll not happen again...now tell me why did you call inhave to sleep as well""Yes so i was saying that an request has came from Paris....they are the biggest company in whole Paris...they are expecting to have a talk with you about the deal.."he said excitedly."So.....""Soo?what so? it's a big deal y/n think about it..ok..."he said."Okey if you are saying it's good then I'll talk with them..""When are you coming back you know we have to go to Paris for this whole deal""Yes I know and I'll be back soon you start packing your stuffs and go to Paris I'll meet you there....in some days..try making a brach of ours there...ut will expand our business."i said professionally."Yess mam"he said.."good night muaah"he said silly.I chuckled "good night"and Hung the phone.....*Yawn.......*aaa let's sleep.

I fall in the bed beside yong and fall asleep.......to dream of my yoongi............

To be continued....

Keep reading..... thanks to wait for so long for my updates....And I am sorry I am not writing daily....😔....For any grammatical mistakes and spelling mistakes sorry...

By the way...8 sep was my birthday😊...i was thinking of writing this part on my birthday but unlucky me got no time at allk to write that's why I wrote it in night on 9 sep...🙂.... Thanku again.