part 34

I try to stand by holding a pole.

I can't stand.

I walk to the bathroom feeling a big pain on my belly.

I'm bleeding.

I ran to take the cab cause I can't drive anymore.

The pain was bad. Much. Too much.

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The doctor examined my body as I lay down

"Miss" he said.

"This is not a great news"

"But I hope you can accept it" he said.

"What is it doc?"

"What happen?" I said

"Just tell me" I said

Please please God.

Please tell me that this is not about the baby.

Please.

It's the only thing that's left from johnny.

"You're having a miscarriage" he said

"No" I shook my head.

"No" I shook it again

I can't believe it.

"No" I said.

"These weeks is really fragile, you can't do much activities" he said.

JAKE. HE CAUSED ME TO FALL

BUT I DONE THIS FOR JOHNNY.

But I don't regret it.

I'm a mean girl

I know I deserve this.

I know

"I hope you can accept the truth. I know this is hard" he stroke my back.

"Thanks doc" I said.

Goodbye baby, goodbye my little johnny.

Goodbye johnny.

I know you're not mine.

Will my heart still trying?