Take my hand (*one diretion* fanfic)

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Chapter 15

Abi's POV

We got home and I felt like shit. I hate breaking in front of them. I hate feeling sorry for myself! I hate it but it just got to much. I feel dead like I'll never feel again. I went up to my room. I sat at the window.

It was Sunday. We have only one week still over. One week on this Island. Will I ever survive it. I heard my door open and saw Liam. I missed Liam so much. I hugged him. Not planning on letting him go ever.

He chuckled.

"I can't breath Abi. Let go." I sigh but do as I'm told. He sits next to me and takes my hands.

"You okay?" I shook my head.

"I don't know Liam. I never felt this dead. Its like I've reached the end."

He smiles.

"Don't blame yourself okay. If I were you I'll never last as long as you do. Just don't give up. Find a positive thought. Keep it with you always. You can defeat it. I believe in you. We all do." I nod and made a promise.

I'll keep on trying. For them.

"I'll do that." I said and rested my head against his chest.

"I missed you." I whispered. He chuckled making his chest vibrate.

"I missed you too. I'm only here when you need me Abi."

I looked up into his weird blue eyes.

"I'll always need you Liam. Your my best friend. You are the one that understands. Don't ever leave me." He took my face in his hands.

"I won't ever. I promise you that. I won't ever give up on you. Just don't give up on me."

I kissed his forehead.

"I'll never give up on you Liam." He smiles and I rest my head against his chest again. It was relaxing. Feeling the even movement of his chest. I let myself slip.

If only Zayn could love me. I thought and then I was gone.

Liam's POV

I watch Abi sleeping. I meant what I said to her. I'll never give up on her. She's to precious. I love her with everything I have. I hope whoever is meant for me will understand the bond between me and Abi.

I ain't going to let the bond break. The bond is for life. Its so different to her and Zayn's bond. She keeps me going. She fills me up with hope because she keeps a smile on her face while she's breaking inside.

She was bound to break. She had to deal with so much. I admire her strength. That's why I like being there for her. She gives me strength. I trace her scars. She's been through so much.

I looked up when I heard her door opening. I saw Zayn staring at Abi. I smiled.

"She's okay. Just drained." He nods and sat in front of me, taking on of her arms. His eyes never left her.

Its like he'll do anything for her. I know he will. He loves her. He's hers.

"Bradford bad boy has fallen at last. She'll be okay. She's strong Zayn."

He smiled.

"Yeah I've fallen. I've fallen hard. And is she? Is she really that strong." I sighed.

"Maybe not but we are. We have to be there for her." He nods.

"Cause I don't know what I'll do without her." I smiled at the love in his eyes.

He didn't even take his eyes of her when we spoke. That's love in his truest form.

"I don't either." He looks away for the first time and looks at me.

"You love her too?" I sigh and nod. His face fell.

"Woa not like that Zayn. Relax man. I love her as a friend or a brother." He smiles and looked at Abi again.

"You have a weird bond with her. I respect that."

I smile.

"Thank you for not judging." He nodded and kept his eyes on Abi. He sighed and leaned in to kiss Abi's forehead.

He then ruffled my hair and sent me a smile.

"I'm off to go sleep I'm tired." I nod and he left. I looked at Abi and then rested my head against the wall.

The love Zayn has for Abi is pure. I just know one thing. Their child must be named after me. I smiled at that thought. I'm totally insane.

Abi's POV

It was dark when I opened my eyes. I saw Liam asleep on the floor. Poor Liam. I stood up and lifted him up and put him on the bed. He didn't even stir. I smiled at him and saw it was almost day break.

I made my way downstairs and out the front door. I'm not climbing out of my window. Not this time. I walked up to the peer and looked out at sea. I could easily just jump. Let the sea swallow me like I wanted to do back with Niall that night.

The wind blew hard. Made me feel so free. I listened to the waves. I imaged giving myself to the sea. Just letting it take me. I would have been so easy. I smiled. Looking down at the sea. Leaning against the railing.

"Its dangerous leaning like that."

I jolted back. I grabbed my heart and glared at Zayn.

"Yeah just give me a freaking heart attack will you." He chuckled and leaned against the rail next to me. He stared out at see. The moonlight highlighting his profile.

I saw tear stains on his cheeks. I looked down feeling guilty.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. He looked down at me.

"No I'm fine." I sigh but leave it there. He took his cigarettes out of his pocket and gave me one and the lighter.

I had to bend to stop the wind from blowing the flame dead. I sucked in the cigarette. It caught. I gave the lighter to him and he lighted his cigarette. We stood there side by side staring out of sea.

Smoking. I felt myself relax. Smoking really helps. Zayn sighed. I looked up at him and saw him looking at the ground. I took a step closer and he looked up. He ran his fingers through his hair.

"Damn it!" He cursed and I flinched.

He looked at me apologetic.

"I'm sorry I'm just irritated with myself." I sighed.

"Tell me." He shook his head but then he took a step back.

"Your driving me insane Abi." I look at him in confusion.

"Wha-?" He cut me off.

"Every time your sad I feel it to. The way you hurt, hurts me to. I wish I could do something. Anything. To make it alright. Its killing me to see you hurt! I'll give anything just to see you smile." I smile at him and he rolled his eyes.

I sigh. I get it. I feel the same.

"I get it. I'm sorry." He took 2 steps forward till he was face to face with me. Anger flashed in his eyes.

"Don't you dare apologize." He growled and I took a step back. He let out a frustrated sigh. I hugged him.

He hugged me back. We stood there for I don't know how long just holding each other. I loved this guy. I loved him so much it hurts. He pulled away and picket up his guitar.

I didn't even realize he brought it. I smiled.

"Sing that song you wrote and I'll sing the song I wrote." I rolled my eyes but took the guitar.

"Just don't laugh okay. I can't sing." He snorted and I sent him a glare.

I picked randomly at the strings trying to find the right sound. Here goes I opened my mouth and sang.

"Give you this, give you that Blow a kiss, take it back.

If I look inside your brain

I would find lots of things Clothes, shoes, diamond rings

Stuff that's driving me insane."

Zayn smiled.

"You could be preoccupied Different date, every night You just got to say the word But you're no into them at all

You just want materials

I should know because I've heard

When girls say...

I want, I want, I want,

but that's crazy

I want, I want, I want,

and that's not me

I want, I want, I want,

to be loved by you."

Zayn stared at me wide eyed but I continued

"You've got everything you need

But you want accessories Got to hold it in your hand

If I change the world for you I bet you wouldn't have a clue

Don't you know that I can't stand

When girls say...

I want, I want, I want,

but that's crazy

I want, I want, I want,

and that's not me

I want, I want, I want,

to be loved by you

Oh, and now the girls say

I want, I want, I want,

but that's crazy

I want, I want, I want,

and that's not me

I want, I want, I want,

to be loved by you

Be loved by you

Zayn smiled and nodded his head.

"I wanna,

I'll stay true

I wanna, if you knew

What you put me through But you want, you want, you want me to love you too

I want, I want, I want,

but that's crazy

I want, I want, I want,

but that's not me

I want, I want, I want,

to be loved by you

Oh, now the girls say

I want, I want, I want,

but that's crazy

I want, I want, I want,

and that's not me

I want, I want, I want,

to be loved by you

I want, I want, I want, another girl say

I want, I want, I want,

and that's crazy

I want, I want, I want,

to be loved by you."

I finished the song and I was breathless. Zayn clapped his hands and gave me a kiss in the cheek. I blushed.

"You should totally do a song with us. It was the coolest song ever!" I shook my head in disbelieve.

He nodded his head. I then sighed.

"Your turn." He smiled nervously.

"Right well don't say anything." I shook my head and crossed my heart.

He began to sing and my breath was blown away.

"Your hand fits in mine

Like it's made just for me But bear this in mind

It was meant to be

And I'm joining up the dots With the freckles on your cheeks

And it all makes sense to me."

My eyes started to water. It was beautiful

"I know you've never loved The crinkles by your eyes when you smile

You've never loved Your stomach or your thighs

The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine.

But I'll love them endlessly."

I had tears running down my cheeks.

"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth

But if I do, It's you, Oh it's you,

They add up to I'm in love with you,

And all these little things."

I wished it was me he wrote it too. I was to emotional to realize it was me he wrote it to.

"You can't go to bed,

Without a cup of tea,

And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep

And all those conversations Are the secrets that I keep Though it makes no sense to me.

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape

You never want to know how much you weigh

You still have to squeeze into your jeans.

But you're perfect to me."

I realized then it was me he wrote it to. I couldn't believe it but the way he was looking at me. The words and everything added up. I cried.

"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth

But if it's true, It's you, It's you,

They add up to I'm in love with you,

And all these little things."

I smiled through my tears. His voice was rich. It was beautiful.

"You'll never love yourself Half as much as I love you You'll never treat yourself right, darlin'

But I want you to, If I let you know, I'm here for you, Maybe you'll love yourself, Like I love you Oh,

And I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth, Cause it's you, Oh it's you, It's you,

They add up to

And I'm in love with you,

And all these little things,

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth,

But if it's true, It's you, It's you,

They add up to, I'm in love with you,

And all your little things."

He finished the song but I was still crying. I took his face in my hands and I stared into that brown pool. I wanted to kiss him right there but I couldn't do it to him.

I kissed him on his cheek. I closed my eyes and leaned my forehead against his.

"I love you Zayn. So much." I whispered. Tears sliding down my cheeks.

"But I can't do this to you. I can't ask you to wait. I'm to broken. I'll hurt you beyond repair. I don't deserve you." I whispered.

I opened my eyes to find his filled with tears. I couldn't take it. I kissed him long and I put all my love I had for him into it. I shocked him. It was the best kiss of my life. I broke it quickly and then I ran. I left him there and I ran.

Tears streaming down my face. He was better of without me. The song was replaying inside my head. I ran till I was in the middle of the forest. I sat down and broke completely.

I couldn't handle it. I loved him so much but I broke him.

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Awww I so cried at this part!! Poor Zayn ... And poor Abi ... She had to give him up .. That had to be so much worse !! I'm so sorry guys .. Story's almost finished .. Hehe always a happy ending *:)*

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