Take my hand (*one direction* fanfic)

Hey, hey, hey. My fans!! Today's chapter ain't for the faint hearted. A lot of sadness at the end!! You guys know what to do

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Chapter 14

Abi's POV.

I woke up with a massive headache! Damn and I'm so tired! What happened last night. Slowly the evens came rushing back. Ow it hurt. Oh shit!! I made out with Zayn???

Oh shit. I hope its not going to be awkward. I remember it felt right. I smile as I pictured Zayn with his hair all messed up. I stretched out and stood up to go shower. I took at least 15 min and then I shut of the water as I did it I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

"Hey whoever you are don't come in! There's a bomb in here! I'm joking I'm in the bath just wait a few minutes." I heard Zayn's laugh at the other side. Oh man!

I wrapped the towel around my body and paddled to the door. I opened it up and saw Zayn casually leaning against the wall. Butterfly's decided to go for a flight in my stomach. He looked me up and down.

I rolled my eyes and looked down at the floor.

"What do you want bradford bad boy?" He chuckled.

"Just to tell you we are doing an interview and that you need to come with." I sighed.

I knew I had to do it. But the vacation wasn't even over yet! Simons an ass.

"Fine, fine I'll be ready in a half and hour." He nods and walked away.

I suddenly felt empty. I just shook my head at myself and closed the door. I then looked for and outfit. Hey what about my beige dress with my skinny jeans and combat boots. Yeah that can work.

I then put on a little make up. I then straightened my hair letting it fall loose. I put on Zayn's neckless not giving a hell of what they thought. I then put Liam's wristband on. I looked at myself. I really need to loose weight.

I grabbed my phone and purse. I walked downstairs. I then entered the kitchen. Everyone went silent and I raised my eyebrows.

"You have make up on." Niall states. I roll my eyes.

"Yeah and?"

He looks away.

"You look damn sexy." Zayn said behind me. I spun around and rolled my eyes.

"Yeah right now let's go!" I grabbed a energy bar and took Harry's car keys.

I climb in the driver side. Zayn called shot gun. I looked up as he climbed in front. He smiled and I smiled in return. I started the car and revved the engen.

I sat there for 5 seconds just listening to the engen feeling the adrenaline pulse through my veins. I then pulled away in third gear feeling the car leap forward.

Zayn chuckled.

"Excited are we." I waved him of. I raced through the streets. No one dared to tell me to slow down. We arrived there in 20 minutes. I climbed out and followed the boys into a room with a lot of camera's.

They all sat down and I sat on Zayn's chairs armrest. The boys were goofing around. Then a lady appeared and started counting.

"Alright lady's and gentle men. You are on Emma's talk show and I'm Emma. tonight we have one direction in the studio."

We all waved. Just smile and wave boys just smile and wave. I almost chuckled at my own thought.

"So tonight we are going to ask some questions. If that's alright." Liam nods. The lady turns towards me. Oh boy.

"So I hear you are Harry's sister, is that correct."

"Jip." I replied.

She nods.

"So how does it feel." I shrug not knowing how to answer.

"It has its PRO's and CON's. Mostly I like it. The boys are fun to be with." Harry nods.

"Its good to have my sister living with us."

Emma nods.

"Well that's fantastic. So do you like any of the boys. You know in an romantic way." I look down. I hate these questions. I nod.

"Yeah I do. But sorry I do not kiss and tell." Oh crap that just slipped out.

Harry stared at me and I bit my lip. Oh God. I felt Zayn's eyes on me but I refused to look up.

"Oooh I see. Well that interesting. So is he a good kisser." I blushed immediately.

"Well yeah definitely." Emma giggled and I looked down. Keep your cool Abi!

"So is Harry a good brother?"

I nod.

"He's the best. He really is. I love him so much. I couldn't ask for better. I really love him." I reply. Emma awwwed.

"That's so cute. If you could describe each of the boys in one word what would it be?"

I shifted myself so that my legs were over Zayn's lap and my head against the armrest so basically I was laying in Zayn's lap.

"Start with Liam." I looked over at him and thought for a while.

"A sweetheart."

Liam blushed and looked away.

"Aww that's cute. And Niall?" I thought for a moment.

"Nando's." The boys burst out laughing. Niall sent me a glare. I sent him an innocent glance.

Emma giggled.

"That I can understand. Harry?" I looked at him. Uhm.

"Adorable." Harry smiled and made puppy dog eyes. Emma blushed.

"Louis?" I frowned.

Mmm I know!.

"Hyperactive." Louis looked shocked and then he jumped up and gave me a weird hug. I laughed.

"I rest my case." Zayn chuckled underneath me.

"Finally Zayn?"

Mmm.

"Untamed." Harry high fived me.

"Totally!" Zayn rolled his eyes. He winked at Emma. Emma blushed scarlet. I felt weird. Am I jealous? That can't be.

"That I can believe." And the next few questions were for the boys.

Until a question caught my attention.

"So Zayn. Do you like Abi?" Wait what? I stare at her.

"Uhh why?" I heard Zayn ask nervously.

"The neckless that Abi's wearing." Oh crap. Zayn shifted.

I glared at him.

"Well thank you Zayn I was comfortable until you moved your ass!" Niall cracked up. and if Niall laughs everyone laughs.

I laughed so hard the tears were running down my cheeks.

"Oh Nialler. I love you!" I said chuckling. Niall eyes widened. It was dead quiet and then I clicked what I said. Really.

I burst out laughing again. Zayn was feeling my head.

"You okay there?" I laughed even harder. I was red in the face. Zayn took his hand and waved it in front of my face trying to cool me down.

"Chill girl! Your going to die." I shook my head and then held my breath.

I counted to 5 and then took a big breath. It worked. I fanned myself with my hand.

"Man that was hilarious." Zayn looked at me.

"What was?" I chuckled thinking of it.

"You guys were like dead quiet when I said I loved you Nialler. I meant I loved his laugh. Its so contagious!"

Niall blushed and looked down. I got up and walked towards him. I stood in front of him. I grabbed his chin and made him look up. I smiled.

"You're insecure

Don't know what for

You're turning heads when you walk through the door." I sang quietly. It was dead quiet.

I looked away from his blue eyes. Every boy was staring at me. In shock. I raised my eyebrows.

"WOW. You can sing!" Zayn said in shock. I get it. Oh man. I smile.

"And?" They just shook their heads.

I smiled.

"So Abi what's the one thing you'll die to get?." Emma asked me. I smile.

"Manly a ticket to CONAR MAYNARD show. Or better yet. To meet him! That would be so cool!" Emma smiles.

"I'm also a fan. Are you going to record songs with the boys one of these days?" I thought a moment. I shook my head.

"I'll wright songs for them but I won't sing. I can't really." Zayn snorts.

"Liar." He said.

I look at him and consider it to slap him but I don't. Won't be worth it.

"Whatever." Emma laughs.

"Do you have a song for them?" I nod remembering the other night. I was bored so I wrote a song.

"What's it called?" I smiled.

"I want."

The boys look at me curiously.

"I'll show you guys when we get home. Simons going to love it no doubt." I said and Zayn coughed. I rolled my eyes. Emma smiled.

"There is defiantly a spark between you two." She said pointing at me and Zayn.

I raised my eyebrows.

"Yeah right." I scoff. Zayn burst out laughing. It hurt a little but not to bad.

"And that's all we have for today lady's and gentlemen. One direction! Next week on Emma's talk show we will be interviewing Conar Maynard." Oh my god! Thank god its over.

I walked out of the room. I walked to the restrooms. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked drained. I slid down the wall til I hit the floor. It hurt to be like that to Zayn. I sat there on the floor with my hands over my ears. The voices wasn't back but I was hurting.

Depression hit. That I could handle. I took deep breaths and didn't hear Niall enter until I saw him crouching in front of me. I took away my hands. He looked worried.

"You okay?" I nod and smiled a weak smile.

"Just depression."

He nods.

"Me and the lads are staying awhile if that's okay." I nod.

"I'll be in here." He nods and walked out. Man I wish my life was easier. I wish I didn't have these feelings for Zayn. Why?

I got angry with myself so I stood up and looked at myself in disgust. I really am pathetic. I smashed the mirror with my fist and I started bleeding. I cried and sat on the floor again. My life is one big mess. I hate myself.

The glass didn't even hurt and that's what made me cry. I couldn't even feel physical pain anymore. The emotional pain took over.

Leaving no space for physical pain.

Zayn's POV

Niall disappeared to the restrooms. I sat with the boys goofing around with Emma. We decided to stay awhile longer. I didn't know where Abi disappeared to.

She just walked out. It hurt being like that to her but how else. She said she liked someone in the band, and then said she doesn't kiss and tell. What's that suppose to be. Was it me, because we kissed.

Or maybe she kissed Niall to. I'm confused. Niall returned and announced that Abi was in the restroom. She'll stay there until we're ready to go. He looked worried. I wonder if the voices are back. I hope not. She doesn't deserve it. The boys talked to Emma but my head was by Abi.

I decided to go check on her. I stood up and walked out. I heard crying in the restrooms. I knew it was Abi. I walked in to see her sitting on the floor crying. The mirror was smashed and her hand was bleeding. I rushed to her side and took her hand.

I looked into her eyes and I wished I hadn't. Her eyes were dead. Dead as can be. She looked at me and I saw life flash in her eyes but then its gone.

The cut on her hand looked deep but she refused to get up.

"Its done. I can't no more. It took over. Why, why am I still living. I try and be happy. I do. But I can't. I can't feel pain anymore. All I feel is emotionally dead." I almost cried.

She really couldn't anymore. But I wont give up.

"I won't give up on you. I promise." I whisper helping her to her feet. She looked at me.

"You should." I shook my head.

I won't I vowed to myself. I ran her hand under the tap. She didn't even flinch. I then called Harry, told him what happened. It wasn't 5 seconds and all 4 boys were here. They looked at the glass and then at Abi. Harry was in pain.

I could see. Harry met Abi's eyes and then he cried. He ran to her and rocked her back and forth. He wouldn't let go. She hugged him back. Her eyes closed. She hated herself I knew.

She didn't want to hurt him but she's hurting to much. I don't know how to fix this. How do you fix the one you love. How do you fix a person that's all ready dead. I didn't know. But what I do know is this.

I won't give up. I'll fix her. I won't let her give up. I love her to much!

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Dum, dum, dum! Poor Abi. I feel so sorry for her. She's going through hell .. I cried at this chapter .. But everything is going to be alright .. But first it has to get worse .. Love you my fans .. !!

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