Chapter 15

"Now before you passed out was there anything happening that you didn't want to happen?" The doctor asked me. "Well the other girls were helping me put warmer clothes on but I only wanted Mackenzie to help me" I said hopefully satisfying her requirement.

"Why didn't you want the girls to help you?" "Because, they are horrible to me and aren't my friends" I said in a huff. "Maddie of course they're your friends" my mom cut in. "No, their not" I said throwing a pillow at her.

"Maddie, please calm down. I only have a few more questions to ask you" she said placing her hand on my arm. I shrugged it off. "Fine" I said crossing my arms.

"In the moment, were you scared, annoyed, anything?" she asked me. "Well I guess I was really scared and I don't know why. I mean, I know they're not my friends but I'm not scared of them" I said.

"Have you ever had these kind of feelings in the past over anything?" "Yes, several times at dance" I said abruptly. "Ok that was the last question" she said smiling at me. "Finally" I groaned. "Your answers do confirm what is happening in your little mind-" "My mind is not little, I'm a very intelligent girl" I said getting angry.

"Maddie, I just meant that your smaller then an adult, that's all" she said. "Whatever" I muttered. "Well, it appears Maddie that you have panic disorder" she said placing a hand on my shoulder.

I didn't bother shaking her hand off this time. I looked at my mom who was sitting next to me. I then looked back at the doctor. "What is it?" I asked softly. "Panic disorder is when you have panicked thoughts quit often which can lead to several panic attacks."

I stared at the wall in front of me. "Most commonly people who have this is due to thoughts of dying or having heart attacks. For you the causes are different. You get panicked when you are in a stressful situation or a situation were you suddenly feel unsafe" she explained.

I continued to stare at the wall. I started to take shorter breathes. My mom grab a hold of my arm. The doctor got up off her seat dropping her notepad and pen on the floor. "Maddie, try to control your breathing" she said.

I continued to stare at the wall in front of me. I started panting and my body started shaking. There were fast beeping sounds coming from one of the machines. "She is having another attack" the doctor said pushing the button on the wall for a nurse to come. "Melissa, I'm sorry but we need you to leave the room" the doctor yelled at my mom.

My mom stood up but I grabbed her arm and pulled her back down. "Maddie, I'll be right outside-" "No, I want you with me" I said in a panicked voice. "Stay with her, if she wants you it might calm her down" the doctor said.

The doctor went over to a machine and hooked the breathing mask up to it. "Mom, what is she doing?" I said starting to cry. "She is helping you Maddie" my mom said pulling me into a tight hug.

"I don't need help though" I said pushing my mom away. She got up the bed and looked at me. "I don't need this stupid mask" I said ripping the mask off my face. "Maddie, please put the mask back on" the doctor said trying to put it back on me.

"No" I yelled. By this stage a couple other nurses came into the room. "I don't need any help" I yelled at the top of my lungs. I threw the covers off the bed and got up.

One of the nurses came rushing over and tried to put me back on the bed. "Go away" I yelled at her face and pushed her away. I started to head for the door but fell to the ground.

My ankle was still injured and I couldn't walk on it. I was also still connected up to machines. The two nurses grabbed me and lifted me up. I kicked and screamed for them to put me down.

My mom was rushed out of the room by another nurse. The doctor came over and tried to put the mask on me again. I continued screaming until everything went silent.

I was still screaming but I couldn't hear anything. I stopped and the Doctor looked at me. She said something to me. I couldn't hear what she said but I could tell she said Maddie.

I could feel my self still panting. I was put on the bed and in an instant everything went blurry and white. I closed my eyes wanting this to end.

A/N: So Maddie has panic disorder. 4 votes for more.