Chapter 29

(A/N: Was with Jesse (@ihaveadream98) yesterday and we went shopping, movies, baked, and had our own little mini party if you want to call it that. It was an early celebration of my birthday coming up which is on May 28, I'll be 15, I'm sooooo excited, but not for school...all of my teachers know from their computers and will tell everyone in class which I absolutely hateeeee.)

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Jesse's POV

***Recap***

"I-I can't...you drive...please? I'm so sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry." He cried, roughly wiping his face again, I swallowed, and felt the tears brimming in my eyes once again.

"Stop...stop, please...you're going to make-to make me cry." I whispered, my voice being unstable.

"I'm a jerk...I'm so sorry...I-I don't know what to do...I-I'm sorry...I don't like her...I like you...a lot!" Harry shouted before slipping back into his cries.

"Let me drive...just hop in the back." I whispered, he did as I told him, curling into a ball as I watched the amount of tears stream down his face. I frowned at the sight. I ruined Harry Edward Styles.

Throughout the whole car ride it was silent and sometimes filled with small, soft cries escaping from the broken Harry. I even had my make-up smudge from my tears that would slip every now and then, but I tried to stop it.

"We're here..." I whispered, stopping the car in the back, and unlocking all of the doors. Harry didn't even move, he just sniffled, he wasn't facing me, but I could see his body shake while he silently cried. My body started shaking and guilt took over me, what have I done?!

"Ha-harry...we need to go..." I said a little bit louder, opening my door, and then opening his to see him still in the same curled up position.

"Stay-stay with me...please?" Harry murmured, slowly moving his eyes to meet mine, they were red and puffy, mine were just red when I looked to see. I bit the inside of my bottom lip, "I-I can't."

So...I ran, I ran into the building, but I could hear Harry crying even more, his voice calling me back, his words stabbed me like a knife, he wanted me with him and I couldn't even do that. I cause too much pain and I wasn't going to let it continue.

My mind was filling with memories and thoughts, but my tears were pouring our like a waterfall.

"Jesse! What happened?!" Louis ran over to me, pulling me into a different room to where the other guys couldn't hear or see us.

"I-I broke him...Lou...I-I, he's crying! He's broken! Be-because of me! I don't know what to do!!! I-I feel guilt!!! I feel broken! I feel horrible most of all!" I cried in his chest while he held me against him.

"I'm going to go get him, stay here." Louis said and then headed out, I could see him going to the car. There was a window to where I was watching them.

Louis walked to the car, I could see Harry sit up, wiping his tears faster to get rid of them. His face showed sadness and rage, he was yelling it seems, roughly tugging on his hair as he spoke to him.

Louis hugged him and helped him out of the car, but Harry fell onto his knees, crying whilst looking down at the ground, my heart shattered from the sight. 

I did this to him.

I made him feel this way.

I made him cry.

I broke him.

Oh no.

They're making their way here, I ran to the bathroom that was in this room, and locked the door. My body slid down until my bum was sitting against the cold, hard tiled floor.

"Come on Harry, I know, I know." Louis' voice was getting closer. I could hear the door open that was in this room. I bit my lip as I hoped he had thought I had left.

"Jesse...come out of the bathroom..." Louis knocked on the door before trying to open it up.

"I know you're in there, see..." I felt Louis' fingers touch the back of me, I squealed, jumping away from the door, he had his fingers under the door, well kind of, but it was creepy enough.

"Talk to Harry! Please, this is too much. I mean-" Louis got cut off by Harry's deep voice.

"Lou...stop...leave her alone...she-she hates me...I can't fix that..." Harry's voice made me sob into my hands, that wasn't true, I didn't hate him, I hated the fact that he had liked me...

"She doesn't hate you, I promise you Harry..." Louis told Harry.

"How would you know? You don't! I made a stupid mistake! Okay? It's my fault! Please, let me just deal with it." Harry's angry voice made me jump, my hands pulled away from my face, and I backed up into the wall with fear.

"Alright, then I'll be right back." Louis said before leaving the room. I heard something lock.

"LOUIS!" Harry's raged voice echoed, I caught my breath, scared.

"Open this door up, NOW." 

"He-he locked us...here?" I asked through the door.

"Yeah...I'm sorry, Jesse...just errm...once-once we get out of here...I'll leave you alone...I promise..." Harry whispered, he was close to the door though.

"Don't say that." Tears came to my eyes.

"What?" Harry had his soft voice on, I heard him lean against the door, I walked closer, leaning against it as well.

"Please...it wasn't good for you...to like me...you need someone else...better." I said through the door.

"No! I don't need someone else! I need you! I need you, Jesse! I hate the fact that you think I deserve someone better than you because it isn't true! You deserve better than me! You are more than enough for me and I really like you! Screw what management says, forget what the girl flirted, I realize that I've wanted you so much. The public can wait, but this can't. I can't stand being away from you, I can't stand not being with you, I can't stand not being able to kiss you...I can't stand any of it! I know you'll never forgive me, but I'm so sorry! Okay? I need you to know that I didn't like that girl, not at all, but you? I love you..." Harry whispered the last part before walking away from the door.

I unlocked this door and opened it, he wasn't facing me, nor did he acknowledge that I even opened the door.

"Do you mean that?" I asked.

"Of course I mean it...I wish you would understand my feelings for you..." Harry replied, still not glancing over at me, or the door I should say. I quietly walked over to him, putting my arms around his waist from behind, and cried into the back of his shirt.

"Pl-please, don't cry!" Harry pleaded, I could hear his voice crack, he was about to cry as well.

"I'm-I'm so sorry!" I mumbled, he pulled me around, and then hugged me to him, I steadily cried into him, he started crying in my hair, I didn't care though.

"Stop! Don't be sorry! It's me! I'm sorry!" Harry sobbed, pressing his lips to my forehead, and then continued crying.

"I broke you Harry...it's my problem! I'm sorry." I stumbled over my words, my knees felt weak under his touch.

"I-" Harry stopped and pulled away when he heard the door unlock.

"Harry? Jesse? You two need to get into make-up and dressing rooms! Now!" The stage manager said, he had keys in his hands, and looked at us like we were crazy, but he shook the thoughts out when we all left to go where we were supposed to go.

"Were you crying? I can fix that!" Lou ran over to me with brushes and different make-up, I just sighed until I noticed how quick she was done with me. It didn't even look like I cried.

"Now let's get you into this outfit and then do your hair, yeah?" Lou walked over to the rack of clothes and searched until she found my outfit, handing to me. I went into the bathroom and changed. Lou wasn't there when I had came out, she must've went to fix the boys up. 

That's understandable.

Fifteen minutes had gone by and still no Lou, I heated up the straightener, and waited for it to heat up all the way.

Once it did I started straigtening my hair, doing what Lou would've done, I know that most fans wouldn't look at me, they would look at the boys so why does it matter for me to be having Lou do this wonderful stuff for me?

"Jesse!" I heard a small voice call after I had unplugged the straightener, it was baby Lux.

"Aw! Lux, what are you doing in here?" I gushed, picking her up, and sitting her on my side.

"Pretty!" Lux pointed at my face, I had my mouth hanging open.

"Pretty? You're the pretty one, Lux!" I giggled, she let out the cutest laugh.

"I not the pretty one! You pretty." She said back, she spoke with trouble since she was quite young, but she still could catch on pretty well.

"You're too cute!" I started tickling her, she was squirming, and giggling like mad.

"Ah! Lux! There you are! Go find your daddy, love!" Zayn walked in, smiling at us.

I let baby Lux down and she went out of the room, I looked up at Zayn.

"We know about you and Harry." Zayn commented. I narrowed my eyes at him, were they just telling everyone?!

"Well it's over now, we're not dating anymore, please, drop it." I walked past him and was about to go wait at the drums before the starting, I could already hear the loads of fans screaming and chanting.

"Running from your problems will only lead to bad things." Zayn shouted to me.

"I practically cause people to get upset with me, so it looks like I'll be okay with this." I replied back in a sarcastic way, hurrying up to my drum set, and seeing all of the fans cheer. The other members were setting up too, just playing random things, I stared out into the crowds, seeing the people from the back to the people standing in the front rows.

I noticed all of the signs that stood out.

One Direction Come Home With Me

1D TAKE ME HOME

Harreh! Give me your gravy!

Liam's 10 Inch!

Louis lemme see yo' carrot!

Niall I HAVE NANDOS!

Jesse! We talked on Twitter! I love you! Xx

I'D DATE THE DRUMMER!

I noticed the last two, the first one was the girl from Twitter, I waved to her and she screamed, crying, then I looked over at the 'I'd date the drummer' one, seeing as it was a guy that was maybe two years younger, I laughed, that's hilarious.

"ARE YOU READY, DUBLIN?" I heard Liam shout into the microphone.

The screams were almost piercing, but good thing I had something to help it, no wonder everyone where's these on stage, we can hear the music we play instead of not hearing it at all from screams and chants from the crowds of people or as I would like to call them...fangirls.

"Alright!!! Let's get this started!" Louis shouted into the microphone, it was my cue to start beating on the drums, and I did, getting the rest of the band going.

The night was great, but Harry kept looking up at me, mouthing 'I'm sorry' every now and then. I finally mouthed 'I love you.'

I hope no one else noticed that.

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