Chapter 28

(A/N: This weekend has been boring yet weird, but my brother's birthday was yesterday (May 11) and he turned 3 years old...my birthday is coming up on May 28! I'll be 15! YAAAAY! I'm so excited! Enough about me and everything, let's just get to the next update!)

Chapter 28 :D

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Jesse's POV

***Recap***

"Maybe Louis can and I'll bunk with Zayn." Liam smiled at us.

"No! I didn't mean to make you leave! Please?" I dropped my stuff beside me, staring at him like he's insane.

"No! It'll be fine! Niall needs a new buddy to share a room with, he doesn't believe I'm as fun as you guys." Liam chuckled.

"No I'm just kidding, but he hates how I beat him at Mario Kart all the time, maybe you two can compete and what not." Liam laughed again, heading to his room as I could hear him collecting his things.

"I didn't mean for this to happen." I sighed, shaking my head, Niall just pulled me into a hug.

"We're all going out to Nandos! Get ready!" Niall hopped on the couch, I could feel it dip, I was reading everything on Twitter, but I smiled at the thought of us going somewhere, then tonight we have a concert!

"Oh and Louis has texted me saying he wants to talk to you." Niall pushed himself off of the couch, stretching his limbs.

"Why didn't he just text me?" I furrowed my eye brows.

"I don't know, haha, but get readyyyy! I AM HUNGRYYYYY." Niall grabbed the both of my hands and pulled me up.

"Saying I can't look like this?" I crossed my arms, I was wearing sweat pants and a loose t-shirt. My hair was in a loose bun as well, my make-up wasn't on either, but it's not like I wear a lot.

"Unless you want to wear something so baggy, plus it's really warm outside!" Niall commented, pointing out of his window, the sun was shining so bright.

"I was joking, Nialler, can I borrow a snap back? I really want to wear one instead of fixing my hair because I can do that tonight." I smiled at him.

"And what do I get out of it?" Niall crossed his arms at me now.

"Well what do you want?" I giggled.

"A big hug and a kiss on the cheek!" Niall cheered, raising his arms in the air.

I laughed at his sillyness, but gave him a hug, he buried his head into the crook of my neck, wrapped his arms around my waist securely. When we pulled back I placed a kiss on his cheek.

"Thanksss." I said as he tossed me his snap back, I ran into my room, and changed into a pair of short shorts and a tank top. I put on my Vans and the snap back afterwards. I added some mascara and lip gloss and nodded. I'm ready in only ten minutes!

"JESSEEEE are you ready?" Niall asked, banging on my room door.

"Yesss, I'm ready! Is everyone else ready?" I questioned as I opened my door up. It felt a little bit better knowing I didn't have to deal with Harry as much now...I'm glad the other boys didn't know, well besides Louis. He deserves someone better than me, it was better this way considering my contract with management.

 "Louis' here!" Niall shouted as he opened the door, Louis practically rushed over to me.

"Jesse, can we talk? Please?" Louis begged, his voice in a hushed whisper so Niall wouldn't be asking why.

"I don't know, we're going to Nandos..."

"I'll drive you there and we'll meet with them, please?"

"No, I really don't want to talk about it...he likes another girl, that's fine, please drop it." I walked past him, seeing Niall go out of the hotel room.

"You don't know what happened." Louis' voice made me stop.

"I think I do since you boys are so loud enough...but he doesn't need me, he deserves better." And with that I followed Niall on the elevator, Louis put his hand in it, and joined us.

"Liam, Harry, and Zayn are waiting for us in the car." Louis added, his eyes not leaving me, it's like he was trying to wait for me to look at him, there's no point in explanations, I don't want any, Harry shouldn't have liked me in the first place, I'm not good enough for him, I can't even go public with him.

We've gotten to Nandos and it wasn't as awkward as I set it out to be, I thought there was going to be awkward silences or glances, but it was actually not that bad, but now I really have to pee. All of this Pepsi is really getting to me now.

"Guys, I'll be right back, have to pee." I excused myself, hurrying to the ladies room, and doing my business. I came out and washed my hands, I like it better when there is no one in here like this, it doesn't make you feel weird in some odd ways, the door was opening as I was grabbing napkins so I wasn't really paying any attention.

"Talk to me, please?" Louis' voice made me jump.

"Louis! You know you can't be in the ladies restroom!" I threw away the napkins, placing my hands on my hips.

"It's okay since I put the sign saying 'cannot use' on it, now listen to me." Louis blocked me from leaving.

"Louis, I am not playing around, move. I'd like to get back to the table and not have this conversation." I sighed, trying to move him out of the way, but he was so strong and built, ugh stupid gyms.

"He picked you, you know. He doesn't want the other girl, he wants you." Louis stated, moving out of the way to test me.

"So what? He may have picked me, but that doesn't mean he won't get tired of me. I'm under a contract with your management saying that I cannot date one of you guys." I replied to him.

"And who actually reads the contracts?" Louis scoffed.

"There was a section of rules that they watched me read over, I'm sure I was forced to know these things." I turned around to face him, I had my back faced at the door, he leaned against the wall that was sort of close.

"So? Who follows them?" Louis shrugged.

"I do, I really like this job, it pays, and I'd rather not get fired, okay?" I crossed my arms over my chest.

"You like him, a lot, don't you?" Louis started smirking.

"No, not anymore." I shook my head.

"Yes you do, you're upset about all of this, you think he deserves someone like her, don't you? You think you can't go public and you also think it bothers him. I hope you know he cried after reading that note that you had left on the counter, he moped around the rest of the night, he deleted the girls contact, and he even slept in your room last night. Did you ever think how this would effect him?" Louis stood in front of me now.

I stayed silent, I didn't expect Harry to feel that way.

"Exactly, he can play a smile, but on the inside it's killing him, you don't know what you're doing. You can't stay away from him, I know you'll crack, you both like each other way too much for this." Louis walked around me, he was now behind me as he spoke, I sighed.

"It still isn't changing my mind, I know you think that you can change everything back to the way it was, but it's going to take more than that. He should've kept the girls' number because he's going to need it." I opened the bathroom door and headed back towards the table, I even met Harry's bloodshot eyes for a mere second, but I ignored it...even if I didn't want to.

"Everything okay?" Liam questioned me, he sits on the right of me, Niall sits on my left.

"Just peachy." I nodded.

"Ready for the concert tonight, guys?" Zayn smiled.

"As always, what about you, Jesse?" Niall nudged me, he had a mouthful which made me giggle because he looked like a chipmunk with over filled cheeks.

"Yes, of course. I love playing the drums and especially in front of everyone, This is practically the best job you could ever ask for." I smiled, even Louis sat down, with a small smirk. No, I wasn't mad at him, he just wanted us to work, but he was trying too hard.

"Awwww!" Niall said before pulling me into a side hug and then Liam decided to join it, and then Zayn, Louis, and one hesitant Harry, he didn't want to make it look like something was up.

"Zayyyn, I have to talk to youuu." Louis said, Zayn nodded like he was figuring something was happening, no! He better not tell Zayn what's been going on, what's the point of having a secret relationship when the boys know about it.

"Oh also Liam and Niall." Louis smiled, motioning them over.

I groaned to myself, pulling out my phone as a distraction to let it not be awkward. Twitter, yes let's go on there.

JesseCarterDrums: Hyped for the concert tonight in Dublin, who's ready for the boys to perform? x

I sent the tweet, seeing more and more notifications blow up my box, but when I saw really nice comments and asking how my day was, I followed them, maybe I should answer some of them.

DirectionerForLifexx: @JesseCarterDrums What's it like to be their drummer? x BTW I LOVE YOU, even if you never see this. xxxxxxxx

JesseCarterDrums: @DirectionerForLifexx I see it :) being their drummer is the best job ever, it's definitely, and I love you too xxxx

GiveMeThe5Ds: @JesseCaterDrums OMG, I am coming to the concert tonight! Front Row on the floor! I am so excited! You are so good at drums! XOXO

JesseCarterDrums: @GiveMeThe5Ds your username is so funny, but maybe I'll see you there, I'll make sure to skim the front row, if you make a sign telling me it's you, I'll wave xx

ILuv1DCarrots: @JesseCarterDrums OMG YOU ARE REPLYING TO TWEETS, If only you'd see mine, do the boys play pranks on you? x

JesseCarterDrums: @ILuv1DCarrots Yes! All of the time, but I get revenge, you know? And I see yours, maybe if anyone wants to give me prank ideas? x

JesseCarterFanPage: @JesseCarterDrums Ohmygawd, you are my idol! You inspired me to continue my drumming and try more things! I won't give up on meeting the boys or you! x

JesseCarterDrums: @JesseCarterFanPage Aw! This is so sweet! Never give up xx

"Are you, erm, are you just going to sit there on your phone?" Harry coughed, swirling his straw in his Pepsi.

"I don't know." I shrugged.

"The boys texted me...saying they left, but my car is here...I can take you to the concert place..." Harry's sad eyes met mine.

"I guess they did this on purpose, we have no choice." I stood up from my chair and followed him to his car, he kept his head lowered, a small sniffling noise coming from him, what is he doing?

"Did...did Louis...erm tell you...everything?" Harry didn't make eye contact with me when we got inside his car, he turned away from me to stare out of the window, I even saw his hand come up to his face to wipe his eyes.

"Yep." I mumbled, turning to face outside of my window.

"I'm sorry...I-I don't like her...I don't want her...I only want you...us..." Harry whispered, but quietly, almost barely a sound, but I still heard it, though I pretended like I didn't. I felt my throat close with a lump, my eyes watered a little, but I blinked it away.

"I'm so stupid...I'm such an idiot." Harry mumbled to his self, I looked at him from the corner of my eyes, he violently wiped his eyes, and then his nose. He ran his hands through his hair, taking off his beanie.

"Why did I do this? I like her too much...I-I love Jesse." He said, still very quietly, I pretended to still not hear it. The strings were being pulled and snapping back, the lump in my throat stayed, my heart was beating fast.

"Jesse deserves better than me...I'm sorry." Harry murmured to his self, he even pulled the car over, and took a minute to put his hands over his face, small cries coming out from him.

"Why did we pull over? What are you doing?" I quizzed, watching his actions carefully.

"I-I can't...you drive...please? I'm so sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry." He cried, roughly wiping his face again, I swallowed, and felt the tears brimming in my eyes once again.

"Stop...stop, please...you're going to make-to make me cry." I whispered, my voice being unstable.

"I'm a jerk...I'm so sorry...I-I don't know what to do...I-I'm sorry...I don't like her...I like you...a lot!" Harry shouted before slipping back into his cries.

"Let me drive...just hop in the back." I whispered, he did as I told him, curling into a ball as I watched the amount of tears stream down his face. I frowned at the sight. I ruined Harry Edward Styles.

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