Sasuke's Journal Entry (6)

"I opened my arms to embrace the warmth without realizing that it came from the very fire that would burn me in the end..."

His smile is brighter than the thousands of suns combined. His eyes hold the most fascinating blue from the spectrum of the ocean's hues. His blond hair is softer than the light breeze along which they flutter. His body oozes perfection as he stands like the majestic king under nature's blanket.

He is the man I fell in love with.

He... is Uzumaki Naruto.

He, whom I considered to be my one and only, couldn't accept my love for him for his heart belonged to someone else...

Why did he come into my life?

I was doing just fine without him... He came and disrupted everything... why did he come and give me hope?

Why did he leave me in the damp and cold after showing me what warmth felt like...?

Why is he so cruel to me?

But then again, I can't really blame him, can I?

I always knew he loved Sai way too much... so... why does it hurt like this?

I was prepared for his rejection... so why am I acting so pathetic and crying over him?

I...

I am unable to stop myself from loving him...

I'm not wrong if I love him like this, am I?

I... I just fell in love with the Sun of my void life... little did I know... I was near yet light-years away from him...

For me... I never wished for Naruto to love me like Sai. I never wanted to replace Sai in his heart...

I just... I would have been satisfied if I even got one-fourth of the love he holds for Sai...

I'm so pathetic... I'm ashamed to call myself an Uchiha... but I can't help it!

Are we Uchihas not supposed to feel hurt? Can we not experience heartbreak? Are we always supposed to act as strong as steel?

Father would say yes... but I can't do it.

That dobe has ruined it all for me. He ruined the cold demeanor I had worked so hard to acquire... he broke all the walls I had built to keep myself safe... and now?

He left.

He left me exposed to the cruelty I was protecting myself from with the walls I had created...

What do I do? I don't know...

Suigetsu told me he would come to pick me up in an hour and take me to a bar he frequents... however... will that really be enough for me to forget him?

Is it enough to drown myself in the sin of alcohol to forget about the light that killed my fears and blinded me with love only to disappear?

He illuminated the night with his warm rays and showed me the day I never asked for. I wished for this light to last longer, but the sun eventually had to set for the night to prevail again...

I... can only wish that he would give me just the tiniest place in his heart... I want him to remember the love I've given him...

Is it too much to ask?

~ recorded on the night of the "Waxing Crescent"

*Waxing Crescent - when the moon is 35.29% visible and is crescent

A/N: Hello people! (^o^;)Well, just to make sure you all aren't confused, it's the same day going on when Suigetsu texted Sasuke that he would take him to the bar. On the same day in the evening, Naruto met up with Shikamaru at a bar and realized that he liked Sasuke.Now, after filling out this journal, Sasuke will be going to the bar soon...I hope you all are getting the hint ~😌😏If you aren't getting the hint, then you're as oblivious as Naruto.f(^ー^)Anyway, thank you so very much for 7K+ reads!It really means a lot to me! I never thought that this book would do so well!🥹💙🧡So, see you all in the next chapter!Author sound out~ ✌🏻