One Day, Two Sendoffs Pt. 2/2 (Millie and Elliot's pov)

It's all plain gibberish that he's speaking, insane even. I can't quite comprehend why he did this, what did they ever do to him? He tells me that he did it for me, because they both hurt me, but nothing could have hurt worse than this. Let me start from the beginning...

It's been 6.5 months since Drake was official, 3 months since my accident, and one month since I moved in with Henry. I couldn't ever imagine this in freshman year, me living with Henry, that just sounds stupid! Today, it sounds amazing and I wouldn't trade it for the world, well besides the fact that today is Sean's final day in Rosemeadow. It's his final day here. I can't say I'm excited, no certainly not, but I can't say that I'm disappointed either. This has been his dream since he was a little kid, and now it's time he goes, no matter how hard it'll be, I'll stand by him because that's what friends are for. Friends are people that you can talk to, people that you know better than yourself and if he wants to go off to a school far, far away from here, then so be it.

Daisy scoots in closer to me, resting her head on my shoulder and holding my hand. "I know that this is hard for you, it's hard for me too. I may not have known him for very long, but I promise, I love him, not in a romantic way though, I could never do that to Sadie, she's my.. my love." She paused for a minute, not really emphasizing why, leaving me stranded, wondering why she's dramatically pausing. I look over to see a puzzled expression on her face that soon turned to a soft, sweet tone. "I think that's what makes it so much easier to comprehend things, having someone to love, someone to cherish really makes you feel important, like you matter or something. I'm sure that once Jake found Drew or when Henry found Liam that it didn't really seem to matter anymore, whatever it was, it didn't matter because they were the only people in the world and that felt like it made everything okay, it felt as if a weight had been let off of your shoulders and just tossed away. My point is, everything just seems doable when you love someone. I'm sorry, I'm rambling!"

Her words hit me like a train. The way she said it so gracefully, the way she talked as if it was the easiest concept to grasp, in her case it was. It just seemed to make so much more sense when she put it so bluntly, when she told me how she felt. It was like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders and suddenly I began to run. As I ran down the street, thinking about the one that I love, thinking about how everything will be so much better with him by my side, everything.

I found myself at the end of Elliot's driveway, staring up at the light blue house with the black door and tinted windows awaiting me. As I walked up the driveway that lead to the path to his porch, I couldn't help but imagine him kissing me, his loving hands gripping my sides as we made out passionately, no I couldn't think about things like this when I have a boy waiting for me in his room, well not waiting but you get the point.

I rang the doorbell, almost running away but deciding against it. Daisy's words seemed to inspire me, something in me knew that if I didn't do it now, I wouldn't ever confess my feelings to Elliot. I watched as the door inched open, a little salmon haired girl peeking through the crack of the door. She opened the door much wider, realizing it was me who was there. "Milly!" She exclaimed as she threw her arms around my waist. I rubbed the top of her head as she hugged me tightly. "Hey, Rose, is Elliot home?" I ask, flashing her a smile as I stood there outside of the pollen covered door. I never seemed to realize how the pollen contrasted so much with the raven colored door up until now.

She nodded her head, letting go and running into the home, sprinting up the stairs and disappearing down the upstairs hall. I seem to forget every time that Elliot's house is so big, much bigger than mine ever was. It kills me to think about that, the fact that I no longer live there. It's not the fact that my home was just so great, it's just that it had so many memories and now it's destroyed. Nana left the house in my aunt's possession, my aunt didn't care for it, obviously, given she bulldozed the lot and put it up for sale right after I moved my shit out of there. Soon Elliot was outside, standing in front of me directly. He's been a little distant ever since Jake and Drew were outed. Maybe he didn't want me to give my opinion because his was different, but I don't know, maybe not.

"H-hey, Milly," he simply says, sounding a bit nervous. "Oh, uh, hey, Elliot! Just wanted to tell you something." He looks at me with worried eyes, ones that could worry you to death with his piercing gaze. "I'm just going to come out and say it because if I don't do it now, I won't be able to do it later!" I thought about Drew and Jake and Henry and Liam and I had to think about everyone and everything, the way that they all smile and thrive when with each other, the way they glisten when kissing their loved ones. I wish I could have that with Elliot, I NEED to be like that with Elliot or I may die. I'll put it simply, he's so nice and loyal and everything I'd want in a boyfriend, a lover, maybe I'm exaggerating , but it seems like a necessity to have him with me at all times. He won't leave me, he CAN'T leave me, not ever. "Milly are you okay?" He asks. That's Elliot, the caring, charismatic boy that I love. He cares so much about everyone and is so loyal, maybe I'm dramatic, but I think he's the best guy on the planet, my favorite most cherished person. I love him so much that it hurts especially to keep something like this for as long as I have.

"Yeah, I'm good, don't worry about me, Elliot! I am A-OK!" he looked at me puzzlingly with a smirk on his face before that smirk turned into a frown. "Elliot, I'm in love with you, I've been meaning to tell you for months now, I just couldn't and now I can and I wish I would've before now, but I didn't, so better late than never!" He looked at me with a remorseful look. This can't be happening. He can't reject me, he can't! I've been aching to tell him, yearning to know how he feels, desperate for him and only him. "I... I'm flattered, but I can't be with you." I nearly fainted. He can't be with me? What the hell does he mean that he can't be with me? There is absolutely no reason as to why he can't be with me, there could be reasons that he won't, but reasons that he can't is extremely limited. "What do you mean that you can't?" I asked, almost yelling but deciding to keep my cool just in case. "Well it's rather that you shouldn't. You may love me, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm a terrible person."  What was he saying? He is no where near a terrible person, he's sweet and an amazing person. "A terrible person? What the fuck are you talking about, you're the sweetest person in the world!" I exclaimed, just wanting, begging almost for him to just kiss me. "No, I'm not."

Elliot's pov:

"You are the one that I want!" she yelled even though I was right next to her. "But I'm not the one that you need," I calmly said, trying to calm her down, knowing what I had to do. "I outed Jake and Drew, it was me, I'm sorry!" I knew this would break her heart, I loved her so much yet I couldn't be with her because I fucked up, I fucked up bad.

Millie's pov:

It's all plain gibberish that he's speaking, insane even. I can't quite comprehend why he did this, what did they ever do to him? He tells me that he did it for me, because they both hurt me, but nothing could have hurt worse than this.