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My eyes observed his actions in admiration. How the blue jeans jacket hid his milky white arms from the sleeveless shirt he wore, how the colourful beads decorated the few thin braids carefully made on his hair, how he brought his hands up to his mouth whenever he smiled. My heart thumped even harder as every second of me watching him passed by. We've just returned from filming another variety show. I can't believe it's been two weeks since we debuted, feels like it was just yesterday that we had the debut showcase where we all felt under the heat.

"Oh to be young and inlove" I flinch as I hear another voice speak from behind me and see Yunho.

"Respectfully, shut up" he frowns at my words for a second but it's replaced by his smile again. I look at him a slight bit confused as he whistles with his mouth forming a little 'o' sign and swings his arm around my shoulders.

"So lover boy when do you plan on confessing?" His smile widens and I make a face.

"Stop grinning the invisible rainbows and sunshine you're giving off is blinding me" my skin stings as he pinches it under the black sleeveless shirt I'm wearing making me wince and elbow him.

"Guys please stop fighting" I hear someone say just when I'm about to finish him for real. We both stop our movements and look upto see Hongjoong shaking his head and walking away. Great. The two of us stay frozen in our fighting positions for about five seconds before I clear up my throat and stand still again Yunho following me instantly. I sigh as I watch the small male leave the two of us and grip Yeosang's hands, the two of them just talking and laughing.

I hear giggles from beside me and when I look Yunho cracks up even more.

"Ahahah pfftrt you should've seen your face oh no Yeosang taking my Hongjoongie awayyyy"

His laughs get even louder and I'm the subject of his hitting because the man canNOT stay still when laughing, he will beat the shit out of anyone beside him. I give him a look furrowing my eyebrows at his dump behaviour.

"What do you mean?" His eyes watch my index finger closely as I point it at him. I know exactly what his means but I will never say it infront of him.

"Wow Park Seonghwa never thought you were this much of a jealous type" I roll my eyes at his words but at the same time I can feel my cheeks getting a bit hot. He's right. I'm only like this with Hongjoong. He pata my shoulders and give me a small nod.

"Don't worry Yeosang will never steal your man although you do need to hurry up and confess to him alright?"

We walk towards the exit from the studio bowing to the show MCs and the staff members in respect and appreciation. My brain spirals as I think of confessing to Hongjoong. To be honest, I have been thinking about this for a week already but everytime I'm just held back by confusion and fear. I know Hongjoong told me he likes me already but I didn't have a reply for him at the time and now when I do, what if it's too late?

"I can help you decide how you want to do it by the way that is if you want my help ofcourse!" Yunho offers me a small smile and I bump his black puffy jacket with my fist giving him a small smile back.

"Hmm sureee I'll definitely need your help with this man thanks"

"Ofcourse, I just have this heart full of kindness and love you know, I'm SO nice like- ouch, hey!"

I personally believe that Yunho is a type of a person who'd even give his life away for me one day but then he'd haunt me for the rest of the life praising himself for it. I chuckle as I slap his shoulder with my hand and start walking faster. Yunho calls out my name whining about leaving him alone but I don't stop instead I walk even faster to catch up with the other members who are ahead of us.

I know confessing to Hongjoong is going to be really difficult for me considering the fact I'd never liked a guy before and he is my first and going to be my last. Even though I still find my feelings weird I know there's no going back now, I figured this one out weeks ago. South Korea isn't exactly accepting of gay people either and as idols are main purpose is to be making music and fan service— being true to your fans, is what they say. We can't let anyone know about this at all, not even our own members since I'm not sure about how they'd react to this other than Yunho who has obviously found out about it already being a nosey person he is.

"Yo joongie hyung wanna sit together?" I look up as soon as a familiar voice fills my ears and see Yunho dragging Hongjoong away. I pass him a look as I watch him leave with him while he smirks in amusement. Fuck. I was so lost in my thoughts I didn't notice him get ahead of me. I don't know when I speed up my pace and end up grabbing joong's wrist pulling it away from Yunho's grip. 

"Uhh" I blink coming to my senses and stare at the way my fingers are wrapped around his wrist. My gaze moves from our hands to Hongjoong's face and I see how red his face is.

"Erm hyung please let go ahaha" He gulps and signals me that Yunho is watching us making me let go and scratch the back of my neck. Oh shit I forgot to mention it to him that he knows. Yunho's lips curl up even more and his smirk seems to become 10x more annoying than it already is. He knows exactly what he's upto and he knows that I can't do anything about it, yet. 

"Wait I need to talk to Hongjoong about something I think you should go forward Yun"

"Hmm we're a team you can say whatever you want infront of me Seonghwa hyungie. he grins "We're also the OG trio aren't we? Are you guys keeping secrets from me now?"  He fake gasps and hold his heart dramatically with a frown on his face enough to me almost gag, almost. I glance at Hongjoong who smiles at him looking a bit panicked. Oh my Joongie if only you knew that this asshole already knows and is trying to annoy me.

"Uh I should probably listen what he has to say Yunho you should go first I'll sit with you!" Hongjoong lets out an awkward laugh and pats his shoulder before moving towards me. Before walking away I catch Yunho sticking his tongue out to me and ignore him trying my best not to jump at him.

"Sooo what's up?" Hongjoong swings his arms as he walks with me. I don't reply but stop infront of him on the patchy road. He tilts his head looking a bit confused and it makes him look more adorable than ever. It's a cute habit.

"Just wanted a sweet treat" my gaze moves from his eyes to his nose finally landing at his peachy lips. The confusion on his face seems to be radiating even more making me chuckle lightly. I quickly capture his lips with mine sending him into another panic mode, his hands land on my chest as he tries to push me off.

"H-hwa!" He stops looking around to see if anyone caught us before punching me directly in the chest. Gentle but too gentle. "What if somebody saw us!?" His eyes furrow and a pout forms on his lips making him look too cute for someone who's angry if that's what he is.

"Shh don't yell like that nobody saw us I checked before kissing you" I ruffle his hair and start walking away with my hands in my pocket.

"Yah! Wait for me!!" He no longer stays frozen and comes beside me. A smile forms on my face as I see how he looks away as soon as I look at him.

"Come on it's not my fault you didn't give me any kissed today" I say but he doesn't look at me making me poke his sides knowing he feels ticklish almost literally everywhere.

"Ahahah- hey stop!" He laughs but pushes my hands away returning the previous expression on his face. His arms move upto his chest as he crosses them against it and looks away again.

"Are you mad?" I ask him in a low voice.

"Hmmph" sighing I grab his hand and pull him near me. He squeals but quickly shuts up.

"Alright alright I'll make up for it what do you want hmm? Tell me" I'm pretty sure I'll be regretting this offer but oh well.

"Okay..." he stops for a few seconds before turning his face back at me with a huge grin on his face.Should I be concerned? 

"Snacks! No matter how many I get you have to pay for them" His grins widens if that's even possible and yes, I am concerned.

"What joong come on you know I don't let you have too many of them because they aren't good for you plus you've hardly been eating anything these days don't think I'm not catching on that so if you're about to eat then eat something healthy"

He stares at me with a pout on his face and pushes me away by shoulder. Way too hard actually, what the fuck. Where does all this strength come from sometimes. I stumble back almost about to trip but thankfully I don't.

"You said you'd make up for it hwa" he points his index finger at me as if he's accusing me of theft or something and then proceeds to speed run towards to Yunho. Oh boy.

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Forgive me for how bad this chapter sucks 😭The next will be better, trust 💯 this is also about to come to end soon dang.