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Cianna's POV

"ma you hungry?" jay asked me.

"no not really," i looked up at him from in his lap to see him looking down at me.

i'm glad me and brook are distancing ourselves because that means me and jay can get closer again and back together.

i kind of miss her but we're done, she doesn't like me for real soo i should stop all of this and just focus on my actual relationship.

"lemme know."

"well are you? if you are we can order something." i sat up.

"a little we can get chinese food."

"okay ill call them and we can go pick it up, what you want?" i went to my call log to find the chinese store.

"uh hot and spicy chicken fried rice with vegetables."

"okay," i called the number.

"hello, china inn."

"hi yeah can i get a hot and spicy chicken fried rice with vegetables, a four piece wing platter with fries, salt pepper ketchup and hot sauce, and two homemades one blue and one pink."

"uh okay that it?"

"yeah how much and how long?"

"that is 28.90, 10 minute." the man hung up.

"it's 30 and he said 10 minutes."

"oh shit we better go now then." he got up, "ah shit you think brianna wanted sum?"

"i'll ask her real fast before we go."

i knocked on her door and she told me to come in.

"what's up ci?"

"me and jay are about to go get some chinese food, you want some?"

"im fine, not really hungry."

"you sure? you haven't really eaten much today. are you and josh okay?" i sat down next to her.

"promise not to tell mom?"

"yeah."

"we had unprotected sex and he didn't pull out in time. i'm late on my period and for like the last week or so i've been throwing up like every morning. i told him and im scared. he looked pissed and he told me to take a test. since then he's been like avoiding me and seeing like i'm a huge bother." she told me.

"oh shit, come here," i took her into my arms, "he's not shit it's okay.

"i just really love him and i finally let him fuck raw just for him to basically ghost me, what if i'm pregnant? i'm only 16." she cried into me.

"me and jay will get you some test and you can take them when you're ready. okay?"

"thank you," she sniffled, "i love you cianna."

"i love you too," i smiled getting up. "i'll be back."

i left and jay was waiting for me downstairs.

"took you long enough."

"she going through something let's go oh and she wanted some shrimp lo mein." i grabbed his hand and we walked to his car.

he drove to the place and i asked him to go in and get the food ordering hers while i ran to go get some pads considering the drug store was around the corner.

he agreed and i went.

when i got there i went and got two different brands of tests then went to the front.

the self checkout was down so i had to go to the register which i always hate doing.

putting the tests on the counter i didnt even realize that britney, brooklyns best friend was behind it.

"damn you was fucking brooklyn and getting pregnant at the same time? that's crazy." she laughed a little ringing them up.

"i'm picking them up for my friend even though it's none of your business." i rolled my eyes lowkey caring about if she'd go back to tell brooklyn.

"yeah right, your total is 179.98. cash or card?" she asked probably not believing me.

"card," i took my phone out, "i know you don't believe me but im serious please don't go telling brooklyn about this. i'm not pregnant it's for someone else."

"it's ready for you to pay."

i paid and grabbed the bag, "im serious britney."

she just shrugged before i left and went back to the chinese store putting the bag in the back.

i got back and went inside seeing him get the food as soon as i walked in, talk about perfect timing.

i was only gone for like 10 minutes.

"you straight?" he asked me with the bags in his hands.

"yeah let's go."

i put them in the back with the pregnancy tests and we rode home listening to music.

when we got back i got the bags from the back.

"you want me to grab sum?"

"yeah take our bag i'll take brianna's up to her room, she doesn't feel well." i said unlocking the door.

"okay, tell her i said feel better." he went in.

i took my shoes off going up to her room, knocking.

"come in."

"hey bri bri," i held up two bags. "i got your tests for when you're ready and i know you said you aren't hungry but you need to eat something so i got you some shrimp lo mein."

"thank you ci," she flashed a fake smile.

"of course just let me know when you're ready to talk more about it or if you know."

"yeah, but go ahead down there with jaylen. you know he's a good guy minus the whole thing with brooklyn. but you're a good girl minus the whole thing with her too. just cut her off cianna jaylen is your ride or die and if you really don't want him i think you should spare him the heartbreak." she told me.

"i'm trying to forget her i am but it's hard. i know he's the better option."

"but that 'it's hard' is gonna be the end of your relationship so actually be your best."

"i will."

"okay, now go eat." she laughed a little shooing me off.

i went down stairs and sat with jay.

"damn i almost started without you."

"you could've," i said opening my food after washing my hands.

"nah i had to wait for my shordy," he laughed a little.

i smiled back taking a forkful of his fried rice. "mm that's good."

"fat ass," he mumbled pecking my lips.

"he love this fat ass," i laughed quoting my good sis nicki minaj.

"sure do," he moved me into his lap grabbing my ass and tonguing me down.

not gonna lie i forgot all about my food and im pretty sure he forgot about his too.

but we also forgot we were in my living room soooo.

"Cianna Danay I know damn well." i heard my mothers voice making me get up off of him.

"hey mom," i laughed a little scratching the back of my neck.

"okay so yall were just gonna sit here and have sex on my couch?"

"no maam," jaylen answered.

"at least you're respectful about it, don't let it happen again, you know i'll tell your mother in a heartbeat.

"i know Ms. K, we apologize for not being considerate of your crib."

"yeah we're sorry."

"it's alright, is brianna in her room?"

"yeah," i answered.

"oh okay, i'll leave yall alone and please don't have sex on my couch." she looked between the both of us before going upstairs.

i shot a quick text to bri that she was coming up then put my phone down.

"damn what if she was a few minutes later and we was fuckin," he laughed.

"shit then we'd never hear the end of it."

we talked a little more and finished eating before he went home.

after he left i took a shower and got my pajamas on and by pajamas on i mean panties and an oversized shirt.

i couldn't go to sleep so i started watching stories on instagram.

i wish i went to sleep because i came across brooklyn's story of her smoking singing some song that kinda sounded like her.

i kinda liked it.

so i did something i shouldn't have and swiped up.

@blenktenner

you replied to @blenktenner's story:black is this you?

oh shit yeah

she replied fast as hell and she sounded good as fuck in the song

damn you sound fyee you're like really good

preciate it shordy

wydd

nothing for real i can't go to sleep

neither can iyou maybe wanna ft?

you think that's a good idea?

might aswell 🤷🏽‍♀️

that doesn't answer my question

well just call me

fine

—-

she called me and of course i answered on the first ring.

"hey black."

"hey."

"so uh let me hear something, you rapping is so-," i cut myself off.

"me rapping is so what?" she chuckled a little.

her voice right now is just doing it for me.

"impressive," i said instead of what i was thinking.

"impressive huh?"

"yeah, you have more?" i asked genuinely wanting to hear more.

"mhm ill make you one if you want," she smiled a little.

"really?" i got excited.

"yup."

"i wish i were with you to be honest.."

"maybe we shouldn't be on the phone, you still want me."

"i can't just get over you, your personality, your looks, your style, your voice, everything about you brooklyn." i gushed.

"cianna."

"im sorry, i just.. your voice im sorry for swiping up." i shook my head apologizing.

"if you like my voice so much let me say a little something and follow my every step. how about that?"

—-

i knew it was wrong but i did it anyways.

i basically just had phone sex, i let her talk me through it.

like camera set up on pillows on my bed, showing everything.

i wanted to regret it so bad but i cant.

it felt so wrong but so right and now im listening to the sound of her asleep and breathing.

all i can think of as my eyes are getting heavier is what i should do because i..

i love brooklyn more than i thought and its no way i can drop that for jaylen.——-