f o r t y

I walked into the kitchen with the bags of food and found Niall opening a bottle of beer. He motioned to me to ask if I wanted one but I just shook my head a little.

He took the bags of food from me and I thought he was going to take the food out but instead he just carried them into the living room with him along with his beer.

He put the food down on the coffee table and fell onto the sofa.

I sat down next to him and reached forward to get some food. I wasn't hungry but it was literally calling out to me. I pulled out a box of chips and began eating them.

Niall grunted as he leaned forward and pulled out a box of chicken wings.

"Chip?" I asked him and held out the box. He nodded and took out at least 6 chips all at once and I slapped his arm lightly which made him laugh.

"Where's the TV remote?" I asked with a mouthful of chips.

He chuckled, "Right next to you."

I turned my head and saw the remote sitting on the sofa. I snatched it up and switched the TV on.

Niall's TV was massive and I had no idea how to work it because it was far more fancier than any TV I'd ever had.

"Ugh, your to rich!" I said as I tried to desifer how to work the TV.

"Look, give me the remote and I'll do it," he said with a sigh but when he reached his hand out I pulled my hand further away from his.

"No because you won't want to watch what I'm gonna put on," I said and tried to smile.

"What're you putting on?"

"Nothing," I giggled and finally managed to click on Amazon Prime.

"Lily," he whined in a babyish voice and I giggled even more, "It's my TV."

"But I'm the guest," I smiled up at him and placed a small kiss on his lips before whispering, "Shut your eyes."

"No," he said and tried to kiss me again but I turned away.

"Come on your ruining it," I lied. It was actually quite fun messing around with Niall.

He sighed and shut his eyes slowly. I giggled again as I quickly searched up what I wanted.

One Direction : This Is Us I entered into the search bar and smiled when it came up straight away. Liv had watched it many times over the years and I'd seen small clips of it but not all of it from start to finish. I didn't really want to watch it because it reminded me of how famous Niall actually was but I thought it would be funny to see his reaction to himself from 3 years ago.

I clicked play and laughed.

"Ok you can open your eyes," I said to Niall.

He stayed silent until he was definite that it was his film and then he groaned.

"No why would you put this on?" he said and hid his head in the sofa. Clearly he didn't like watching himself, "This is from 3 years ago. When I was like 20."

I laughed, "I wanted to see how you'd react."

"Badly. I am reacting badly," he said. He attempted to sound angry but it didn't work. I knew he could never be angry at me. Not properly anyway.

"Oh c'mon, I wanna watch it," I said and looked up at him with puppy eyes, "Please."

"No," he said and turned away from me.

I swiveled round on the sofa and lied down, placing my head on Niall's thigh. He turned back around and looked down at me. His fingers began messing with my hair and his eyes watched his finger for a few moments before looking at my face.

"We should eat that Nando's," I said to him but didn't make any effort to get up.

"I know," he said back but he also didn't make any effort to get me off of him.

Niall began tracing my eyebrows and I smiled. 

I've missed this. I've missed it so much.

My eyes began get heavy as I watched Niall. He'd gone back to playing with my hair and he was so interested in it that when I said his name quietly he didn't notice.

"Niall," I said for the second time. When he still didn't answer I sat up and he frowned.

"What?" he asked and I knew he thought he'd done something wrong. 

"Nothing, it was just hurting my neck lying like that," I said, which was true.

"Oh sorry," he said and looked guilty. 

I gave him a small smile, "It's not your fault silly."

"Yeah but you know," he said with a shrug. I waited for him to finish his sentence but the end never came.

"No I don't know," I said as I snuggled into his side. He moved back to the corner so we were more lying that sitting, "Tell me."

"No it's nothing," he said as he reached for the remote and clicked play which made the music of the film come back on, "C'mon, let's watch."

I sighed because I was so exhausted. I didn't want to start arguing with him over something that he said was nothing. I tried to focus on the film but I kept zoning out and when I came back to reality I'd skipped a load of it. 

"You feel guilty," I almost whispered half way through a song I didn't know the name of. I turned to look up at him, "Every time I say something is bothering me your going to feel guilty."

He didn't reply. He just kept his eyes glued to the TV to avoid having to explain.

"Niall you've got to talk to me about these kinds of things. I know you want to forget our past and move on from it, believe me I do as well, but we can't move on unless you tell me things. How can we ever be together if you won't talk to me when something is bothering you?" I put my hand on his arm which made him finally look at me, "I know you, ok? I know you don't like talking about if something is troubling you but it's me."

He sighed and looked at me with sad eyes.

"Hey," I said comfortingly and sat up, "You have nothing to feel guilty for. I promise."

He sniffed, "Ok."

I smiled and leant in to kiss him. My hands went behind his neck and tugged the tiniest bit on his hair. His hands moved around my hips and waist and it made me feel so consumed by his love I thought I would explode.

"I love you," I breathed when we finally pulled away from each other for air, "So much."

"You have no idea how long I've been dying to hear you say those words," he breathed back and I couldn't stop the smile that broke out across my face.

"You have no idea how long I've been wanting to tell you those words."

"How long?" he asked and kissed me again which made my cheeks go red.

When we pulled away again I bit my lip slightly and said, "Ever since I slammed your parents front door shut 2 years ago."

"It's actually been about 23 months. So not quite 2 years," he teased and I smiled at him.

"You kept count?"

He blushed which was very rare occurance for Niall and just kissed me again while whispering, "Shhh it's a secret."

I smiled into his lips and he smiled back. He pulled back and kissed my nose like he always used to.

"My princess," he whispered.

"Always," I whispered back and leant into him. My head rested on his chest and he lay back down slowly, taking me with him. My eyes fell shut and I let myself fall asleep against Niall and let his scent take back its first place medal of my favourite smells. He stroked my hair gently as I drifted off to sleep with the gentle murmer of the film in the back ground and my entire body relaxed completely for the first time in 23 months.

I was home.