Chapter 42: Journal Entries

(Flashback Maya’s POV)

“Carter! Just listen to me!” I hollered. Fighting with Carter seemed to become a daily activity. “Just leave me alone, Em!” He yelled. I screamed. I didn’t say a word just let out an awful scream. “What the hell was that for?!” He yelled. “You think you wouldn’t get caught!? You didn’t think I knew this had been going on! We are getting married in three months and this is how you decide to spend the last few months before you become a married man?! Are you serious! Holy crap Carter!” I cried. I was beyond mad I was pissed. My head was spinning, I was hot and sweaty, and I felt sick to my stomach.

I couldn’t believe what I had walked into when I got home from work. The picture was mentally burnt into my brain. “It’s not what it looks like!” He yelled. “What’s not? You having sex with another girl in our bed? Was it just a freaking health lesson?!” I cried. I didn’t know how or where the force came from but next thing I knew I shoved him into the wall. He just looked at me as if he knew he deserved it. “We can work this out, we don’t need to tell anyone,” He mumbled as he got back up. I didn’t say anything I just looked at him. “Please, Maya, it wasn’t supposed to happen,” he begged.

“Cater, I’m sorry, but I can’t be here right now,” I sighed. I grabbed my coat and my purse. I left the apartment and just stood in the hall for a moment before embracing the cold. The walk to my car seemed further than usual.  “Maya! Maya!” I heard him yelled as he chased after me. I didn’t stop I only walked faster. “Please don’t do this! I love you!” he cried as he grabbed my shoulder. I pulled away from and stared at him. “If you loved me you would have been faithful!” I gritted.

(End of flashback)

Almost four years later and there he was lying dead in front of me on some cold metal examination bed. “But how? He died four years ago his body wouldn’t look like this after four years!” I cried. “Maya, he didn’t die for years ago, his body was never found, but the reports show he died of overdose just the other day,” the officer told me.

“What that can’t be! The day at my apartment! They said he was dead! He jumped and he died, that would killed him instantly!” I argued. The officer nodded. I started at Carter’s dead body, hate fueled through my veins. “Does anyone know where he has been?” I asked a few moments later. “No, but we are trying to get that information now,” the officer sighed. “What about his family do they now?” I asked. “We needed you to identify it first, but we will call them now,”  one of the other officers told me. I didn’t say anything, I didn’t know what to say. I finally believed my past was over it was done haunting me, but I guess I was wrong, because now I had become face to face with my worst nightmare.

(Liam’s POV)

“They found Carter’s body?” Louis asked me. We were all confused this made no sense; he had died almost four years ago and now they body just shows up, none of this adds up. “That’s what Maya said, but she wants us to stay here with Aspen and not to leave the house. Media has already taken this by storm,” I explained to them. “How is she?” Eleanor asked quietly. “Scared and confused, but mainly angry, I wish I could be there with her, but she wants to be alone right now.” I told them with a sigh.

“Go be with her! We will stay with Aspen, she won’t tell you but she wants you there right now,” Paul said. “How do you know?” I asked him. “Remember that night I had to take her to the hospital?” He asked me. “Yeah, I couldn’t think straight that whole show, I will never forget that night,” I admitted.

“Well, this is just like that, she kept saying how she wished you were there, but she didn’t want you to feel like you had to be there with us so she didn’t say anything,” Paul explained to me. “Get her some coffee and candy and go down there!” Zayn demanded. Before I could changed my mind I rushed out the door and went to be with my wife.

(Harry’s POV)

When I touched down in Nebraska I knew what I had to do, I had already messed up everything for everyone I knew I had to fix it. My rental car was waiting for me at the airport and Google directions on how to get to Maya’s new house, the last time I was here they still lived in that tiny apartment she refused to give up. I chuckled at myself in the memory of arguing why she wasn’t going to give that tiny apartment away.

I knew I had to come clean to everyone, but I didn’t know how. It wasn’t the easiest thing in the world to tell the people who care the most about you that you have been suffering and removed yourself from them for a certain reason. I knew Liam would understand so besides my mom and sister he is the only one I had told. Simon and Paul know what was going on but I had no other choice but to tell them. When I pulled up to their new house, Liam was rushing to his car. I parked my car and got out.

“WOW! There mate! Slow down!” I exclaimed. Liam looked at me in shock but just hugged me. “Is everything alright?” I asked him. “The cops just found Carter’s body and they had Maya identify it, so she is with them now, everyone else is inside with Aspen and my parents! OH MY GOSH! MY PARENTS!” Liam cried. You could tell he was out of it. “Here, let me drive you, it wouldn’t be safe to allow you on the streets,” I offered.

“No, it’s okay, besides my guess if that everyone wants to see you,” he told me. “No, Liam, it’s the least I could go.” I insisted.  Liam didn’t say anything he threw me his keys.

(Maya’s POV) “We have some items that belong to Carter would you like them?” the officer asked me. “Do they contain answers?” I asked him bluntly. “Yes, they do,” She sighed. I just nodded, she set down what looked like a journal, a set of car keys, and a phone down in front of me on the table.

I reached for the journal and opened it.

December 25th, 2012

I finally found a place where no one recognizes me. It feels great to start over, but I know I have to watch over Maya, what I did to her was wrong, but I know it was for the best. Everyone thinks I’m dead so they won’t come looking for me. How I made it out alive and never found was beyond me, what a miracle that was.

Today is Christmas which is difficult to spend alone, but I know I will be okay. I know Maya is probably in a worse place then I am.  I saw her at Starbucks getting coffee this morning before she drove to my grave to wish me a Merry Christmas. I hope she never notices me following her, but I made a promise to her dad that I would keep her safe and that’s what plan on doing.

I couldn’t read anymore, I was freaked out enough, he faked his death and then decided to stalk me!? What kind of sick joke is this! We were all in mourning that Christmas because he wasn’t there to celebrate with us and he was actually just watching from a far?  I remember that Christmas my apartment wasn’t even decorated, you wouldn’t even know Christmas was just around the corner if you were trapped in the apartment with no communication outside the four walls.

I was ready to leave here and go back home, but I couldn’t bring myself to tell anyone that, I had so many questions I just wanted answers. “Maya, did you look through the phone?” The officer asked me. “No, should I?” I asked her.  “I would,” She noted.

I turned the phone on and his wallpaper was a picture of us, I noticed he had a text message that hadn’t been open. It was from Jane, I knew she had been sent to a rehab center but I didn’t know they allowed phone access.

I scrolled through the messages they went back so far, how did she know he was still alive and didn’t tell me about it?! Angry flowed through my veins, that’s when I found the conversation that started it all.

Carter: I need you to bring her back here, I can’t live with this secret anymore I need to see her, I need to make sure she is okay! I miss her! I made a mistake come on Jane, do it for me!

Jane: I will do whatever it takes for her to get out of the Hollywood light, I’m supposed to be famous not her, and I would love for you two to be a couple again. I hate this secret agent stuff.

Carter: thank you Jane, I know I could count on you.

The messages dated back to a day before she showed up at my hotel room. I couldn’t believe this, why was she helping him. “Why are you showing me all this?” I asked practically whispering.  “Maya, you had people stalking you and that’s dangerous on an everyday type deal but being that you are Hollywood icon it’s a little different. These messages between Jane and Carter get pretty twisted and nasty, and they really try to pull all the stops. Jane wasn’t the only voice the media had, they also had Carter. He tipped them a lot with things you didn’t want people to know about you,” the officer explained to me.

“This whole time Jane and Carter were tag teaming in the attempt to bring you down so that Liam would leave you and Carter could have you back,” Another officer told me. “How do you know all this?” I asked, even though I didn’t want the answer. “Everything you need to know lies in these three items,” she pointed out.  This was too much to take it, and I couldn’t handle anymore, but I had so many emotions running through my mind that I didn’t know how to react.

“Maya, Liam is here and wants to see you,” My dad came and told me. “He can come in,” I informed him. The perk of being a police officer’s daughter is that if you are ever in a tight situation your dad will be there to help you out.  “Maya, I know it will be hard for you but we need you read everything in that journal, look at every picture, read ever text message, if any one of those names or faces jump out at you please tell us so we can get everyone involved in this mess behind bars for good.” The officer instructed me.

“I’m sorry I can’t, this is all so much,” I pushed everything out of reach, I couldn’t give up my days reading this journal which was pretty much Carter documenting my life moves and what him and Jane had come up with. I didn’t want to know anymore then I already did. “Maya, please you have too,” the officer informed me. “Why should I? Do you know how messed up all of this is? And how do you get away with something like this? How did he not die when he jumped off that bridge?! Did he even jump?! Is this some sick nasty prank!? I have a family at home to take care of I don’t have time to sit down and read this nasty piece of crap!” I yelled. That’s when Liam and Harry walked in the door.  Wait…what was Harry doing here?!

I ran over and hugged Liam as tight as could. Tears streamed down my face. “Shh, It’s okay, Maya, I’m right here,” Liam said over and over again as he held me tight. “We’ll step out for a minute,” the officer said. I noticed Harry take a seat where I had been sitting. “What is he doing here?” I asked Liam. “He came to talk to all of us, but this came up,” Liam explained to me. “Well, THIS is freaking weird!” I cried.

(Niall’s POV)

Liam had told us where extra blankets and pillows were for us to use when we were ready for bed, but none of could find that closet. “Maybe, it’s in the bed room,” Eleanor suggested. “Isn’t that room off limits?” I asked. Zayn and Louis just chuckled. If Harry was here he would make some nasty joke about the bedroom being off limits and we would laugh so hard we would end up in tears. “I think it will be okay,” Simon informed me.  I walked down the hall to the bedroom stopping to look at the pictures as I did.

We had so many great memories together and I loved how they were put up for everyone to see all throughout the house. I smiled as I saw a picture from the wedding, that was one of the happiest days for us a group. To witness to people we love so much become husband and wife was a feeling nothing could ever replace.

I couldn’t imagine how much pain Maya was in right now, you never really saw her upset unless it was something pretty major, she wasn’t one to get upset easily. “Did you find them?” Eleanor asked me snapping me out of my train of thought. “No, sorry I got distracted,” “It’s okay, I think we all are,” She pointed out. I knew that couldn’t be more true, with not knowing what was going on with Maya down at the police station everyone let their mind wander to what could be happening. Hopefully we would find out soon.

 

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