47 "new life"

"..o..oh..ohh walker" I whimpered against his lips. "Walk!" I gasped with my fingers tangled in his jet black hair. My hands tugged against his scalp like it was my safe word. He repeated to me how tight I was, how hot I was, how perfect I felt and how perfect I looked. He would moan my name under his breath as I would moan his name louder. I could take him without any pain. He fit inside me like a damn glove. When my hips rocked against his, when my breasts pressed against his bare chest drove me wild. He was everything to me. I loved to see his eyes focus on my body like he was hungry for more. His hands grasped the skin on my thighs and hips as he rocked me. I could tell he was cumming hard by the way he moaned into my neck. His breathing was heavy in my ear. "Fuck.." he gasped. "Ah fuck.." he nuzzled his face completely into my body. I panted like a dog as I wrapped my arms around his defeated head. I closed my eyes to regain my energy. "God I love very inch of you" he said as he kissed my chests and breasts. I glanced down at him a bit taken aback by his words. I wanted to respond. I wanted to tell him I just loved him.. but I jumped when Suddenly my body flinched at the loud sound of thunder rumbling above our heads. The lightning strike was louder than anything I've ever heard. I looked above me at the tin roof that covered the barn we were continuously making love in. Walker chuckled as goosebumps chilled my skin. "You're alright" he laughed with me "you ain't goin no where. You ain't blowin away" he nuzzled his face back into my neck as he held me on his lap still. "Sound like a damn bomb" I smiled with my hands rubbing along his shoulders. "I love that sound" he said. "Of bombs?" I snickered. "No blondie. Of the rain on the tin roof" he smiled as he kissed my chin. I wrapped my arms around his neck as I observed him. "I love it too. The earth stops being quiet for once" gently I leaned my forehead on his as he shut his eyes. We sat quietly in peace for a long pause. I then spoke up "did you know horses can't breathe from their mouth" I said quietly. Walker opened one of his eyes with a smirk. "Is that so?"

"Yup. Did you know they can see just about 360 degrees around them without moving their head" I smiled as I busted out my facts. Walker leaned back against the barn wall as he smiled at my nudity. "Oh yeah?"  I nodded as I sweetly looked down at my fingers that played with the ends of my hair "when horses sleep standing up they buckle their knees so they can't fall"  Walker pushed my golden strings out of my eyes "how did you become so smart" he spoke so softly I could fall asleep to his voice. "I spent my childhood alone.. reading any book I could find.. i started saving for collage when I was 16. I didn't make much. But when I did make somthing I saved it" walkers lips stayed smiling as he listened to me "shouldn't you have enough to get you started?" He asked. I frowned "I uh.. gave it all away to help a friend in need.. that friend isn't a friend anymore... he never was... huge mistake" I stood up to slip panties on. Walker watched my every move as he laid on a thick wool blanket in the closet of the barn. "What friend?" He questioned. I shook my head to avoid answering him. "Will?" He nudged me with his toe. I. Ties my hair back with a bow as I changed the subject "Did you know boarder collies can jump up to 7feet?" . "Willie" he grumbled. I looked down at his hand as he held out his fingers. I gently slipped my fingers between his as I laid my naked self on top of his nudity. I played with his fingers as I spoke the truth. "Jimmy..." I whispered. "Willie why" he sighed. "He needed help. He needed a lot of help at the time.. I didn't want to see him hurt.." the sadness of being used over came me again. Jimmy ended up being like everyone else I tried to make love me. "How much did you lend him?" He seemed annoyed. "...ten thousand" I mumbled. Walker was taken aback. "Ten!? What are you crazy!? Are you dumb!? You gotta be dumb right!!?" His loud shocked tone scared me... I shut down quickly. I peeled away from him to hug myself as I felt my goosebumps return. "I..I'm sorry.. it.. it was a mistake.. I.. I wish I never did it" I was scared he was upset with me. I was scared he was gonna storm off and leave. I prepared myself for mercy. "You should've gone to collage baby" he leaned back nonchalantly. I began to realize he wasn't mad at me at all. Not even close. "...you think so?" I questioned. His hands reached out again to pull me against him. "Duh. Miss horse facts" he smooched my head. "But here you are. Stuck in a bunkhouse with smelly men" he patted my hair as he nuzzled into his arms. "Yeah. I'm thrilled" I sighed. "You could be homeless. Ain't that bad"

"Ugh. I hate when you think logically. I like when you're dumb. Be dumb!" I pinched his cheek. "I am dumb darlin. I dropped out of school in the 7th grade" he said  "really? Why?" I asked. "Well. My mama died. My daddy ran off. My grandpa tried to raise me but I choose to run off. He died a few months after I left. So I just chose to hit the road. Now here I am" he nodded. "That's really young walk. How did you survive?" I patted my eyes up at him with interest. "Double stuffed Oreos I would steal from gas stations" he laughed aloud. I smiled. "Double stuffed? I didn't even know they sold double"

"You never had a double stuffed Oreo?" He questioned. I shook my head "I've never had an Oreo" I laughed at his shock factor. "That's bullshit! I'm buying you a pack of Oreos as soon as I go into town. That's crazy!"

"But if you survived on Oreos wouldn't you get sick of them?" I questioned. He smiled "I havnt had an Oreo in 15 years. I miss them honestly. No kid could ever get sick of Oreos"

"Doubled stuff to be exact" I teased with a teasing eye roll. "You know what" his arms wrapped around my waist as he hovered himself over my body "I might just double stuff you" he laughed. I squealed as I hit him "you're so gross!! Get off!" I giggled aloud as he yanked at my panties. "Walk!" I giggled so hard my cheeks hurt. "Let me have at it" he grumbled down inro my ear. I shook my head "no! I'm sore" I smacked his arm playfully. "Awee. Is the baby sore" he pouted his lips as he mocked me. He pulled my body close to his when hugging me as I laid. "I am! Because of you!" I smiled against his cheeks as i kissed it. His hands pushed my noose ponytail hair out of my face as he admired my completion. "You make me happy" he said. I smiled cheek to cheek "do I?" My fingers ran through his hair as he said "you do. You really do... swear you won't leave me" he said. My face softened at his words. His words are what I've been needing to hear my entire life "I'd never leave you. Not unless you leave me first.." I watched his serious demeanor. "You're mine" he said. I nodded my head. "I'm yours" I agreed. "And im yours" he made sure I understood. I nodded my head again "you're mine" deeply he kissed me More powerfully and love filled than before. He was everything I ever needed. He made me whole. I loved him. It had been four months since the hanging. I still have bad dreams about it. I knew to never speak of it again. Apart of me doesn't feel anything at all. In all honesty the thing I feel the most about all of it is satisfaction. Walker had been by my side ever since. He made sure my wounds were clean and I was well taken care of. I would sleep in his arms every night without a care of how others felt about us.. felt about me. I found myself the ass end of everyone's jokes. By everyone I meant Mia. For some reason Mia and her friend stayed at the bunkhouse. They never left. It's almost like they moved in without a say. I don't complain. I was raised not to so I deal with it. But there is only so much bullying I can take. I'm not at my breaking point yet. Mostly because walker helps me ignore it all. God I loved him. "Willie!?" Casey's voice called out through the barn. I perked up looking around our nude bodies. I slipped my jeans over my panties as swift as I could. "Will!" He called out again. I attached my bra then stumbled out of the barn closet with no shoes on. I yanked down my tank top to seem more proper "yeah?! Casey! What it's it?" Quickly I pushed my messy blonde hair out of my face. Casey stood with Tate and Monica whom had a smirk on her face. She looked down at my undone jeans and messed up shirt along with my bed head. "What's a matter?" I panted. "Bird isn't acting right. Was wondering if you could take a look at her" Casey looked me up and down. "Yeah! Yeah! I'll take a look" I nervously put my hands in my back pockets then waved them on. "Bring her on in" I stepped Aside to let Tate trot his horse inside. Casey glanced up at walker who walked out of the closet while tucking his shirt into his pants. "What's up" walker nodded to Casey. Casey furrowed his brows then glanced back at me. "Really?" He seemed shocked. Monica laughed aloud "you dirty dog" she nudged me. I shook my head. "Pipe down" I said as I slipped a stethoscope along my ears. Casey stared at walker with his arms crossed. "You can act all pissed as you want. I've been nailing him for months now" my fingers held the scope, gliding gently across her chest and abdomen to listen for anything funky. That's when I knew. Her nipples were enlarged. Nearly chapped. Her belly was hard and tender like a watermelon. I glanced back at them. Tate frowned "what is it?... like.. like cancer?" He asked. I shook my head with a reassuring smile. "Bird is pregnant" I said. "She's gonna have a baby?" Tate smiled widely. Casey's eyes widened "how the hell? I've had her for awhile" he said. "I can only assumeThose studs that we housed for Travis a month ago got to her" he stepped back to look at the beautiful girl. "Can you tell how far along she is?" Walker asked. "I'd have to stick my hand in there. And honestly I ain't in the mode to do that. I'd say maybe two months. Give or take"

"How many months left?" Tate asked. I laughed softly "hold your horses. You have a whole damn year before any babies pop out of that girl"

"A year!?" He shouted. "Yeah Tate! Horses are pregnant for 12 months on average"

"I don't think I'm gonna be alive by then" heSaid. I laughed aloud "I'm pretty sure you will be bud. Just wait it out. I'm gonna go get her some vitamins. No riding her from now on okay? She's on a long needed break" Tate understood. He was upset about it but he understood. So did Casey. All too well "don't make the mistake that horse did" he teased at me. I shook my head with an eye roll. "Casey. Mind your business" Monica said as he directed Tate out of the barn. "I'm just teasingly Casey snickered before smacking walker jokingly. Walker leaned his back against the wall with a shake of his head. "Are you gonna come to dinner tomorrow night. I guess dad is hosting something for some reason" Casey spoke as he walked backwards. I shook my head "oh... I.. I wasn't told about that" I said disappointedly. "Well. Maybe there was a reason for it or maybe there wasn't. I think you should come anyways" he gave me a smile for me to cheer up. I was disappointed again "I.. I don't know Casey.. i.. I wasn't invited.. I.. I honestly have not stepped foot in that house in a long time. I think daddy would be mad" 

"So! Let him be mad. If you don't come Tate will be very disappointed" 

"...okay.. I'll see what I can do.."