The Rain and his pain

Days went by as the three of them were  living together happily . There were so many time lucas and athy got into fight but they will just apologise and reconcile after some time. They never fought in front of ari .when they fought they usually focus on work and then eventually reconcile. It  was a small fight like any other day. Athy slams the room door and started working. The last thing she saw  was lucas sitting on the sofa facepalmed. She dwelled in work that she lost track of time it's already night now

" God.!! how long am I sitting in the same place? " her body become stiff. She stood up  stretching her body and opened the window

"what..?!! it's already night?! I should ask how ari is doing he really loves to play with them huh?"

She mumbled. Arius was visiting max and stephen frequently nowadays to play with them . They two live in the same house. He sometimes sleep there and they will drop him home next morning. After checking up on ari she opened the door to check what her big baby is doing. Her anger disappeared along with time. when she opened the door lucas was not there. usually he will either sleep on his office room or working at this time but he was not in The house. She tried calling him but he was not answering . She tried several times but no reply

" is he that mad at me to cut my calls?!!   Our fight was not even that big. Geez he is so childish sometimes" she sneered and and settled on the sofa.

" but he looked so moody today  for some reason, in fact he was the one who started the fight.. what's wrong with him today?  When she is about to call him again lucas's uncle called her

" . Hello Uncle how are you? "

" oh I am fine dear, how are you and ari?"

" hmm all are fine uncle "

" athy dear what is lucas doing right now? "

" hmm... That.. He was moody from the morning now he is not here "

" hmm I know "

" you know he will be not in home?!! "

" hmm.. Actually I called you to tell something important but I guess I am late.. Athy today is lucas 's mom' s death anniversary. He would have been  at his mom's cemetery by  now. "

" what....?!! "

athy was so shocked that words didn't came out of her mouth. she felt guilty for  fighting  with him when he was upset at his mom's memorial day. tears pooled in her eyes

" do you want the address? " uncle asked understanding her silence

" yes please " she said her voice trembling.

She asked max and stephen to take care of ari. they were more than happy to play with him. She was about to go out and rain started pouring.

ari was now doing better in rain due to the necklace athy gave him. So she  was a bit relieved. she hurried to see lucas. When she reached the cemetery which was in the private villa of them near a mountain range its already late night. Her heart ached at the sight of lucas sitting on the ground  drenching in the  rain near a tomb.

She silently stood  in front of  him holding   umbrella  . Lucas  realised the  rain stopped pouring at him and  opened his eyes to see a pair of legs. he looked up to see athy looking  at him with worried  face. He stood up and their eyes met. He was fully drenched in rain his white shirt is transparent from rain revealing his body . his hair strands covered his forehead and  half of his eyes dripping water drops.

  He looked at her with a mournful face. Tears dribbling  down his face mixing  with rain droplets dripping  from his hair. Athy didn't said anything and  wiped his tears with her hand with a fretful face.

They were like that for some time. Tears dribbled continuously from his face. she caressed his cheek with her  hand. He leaned his  face on  her  palm feeling the Warmth

" sia why did you come here?" she didn't said anything

" atleast go inside you will get sick" he said in a low voice and turned back from her to open the door. Suddenly his body felt warm. Athy hugged him from behind tightly. He released her hands and turned back determined to send  her  away from him but when he saw her face her concerning eyes which looked at him, he can't able to say that. Even now she didn't said anything and just looked at him with a concerning face.

He can't able to see her face which shows pure concern for   him, he Sat on the same spot again  leaning his face on his knees .. his body is trembling in cold . She crouched in front of him and patted his head. He slightly looked up with water dripping from his bangs his eyes were blurry with tears pooled. He can't control himself anymore  and hugged  her tightly buried his face on  her chest.

Warmth and  comfort were the only things  comes to his mind. she continued caressing him without saying anything. They were like that for some time, the rain finally stopped.

Athy didn't said  or asked anything. she is just sitting beside him and he placed his head  on her shoulder both are looking at the night sky silently. only the sound of insects were heared.

" what are doing here?"

" hmm.. Giving you company" she blankly said

" sia... Do you wanna hear my story ?"

" I am all ears "

" when I was five years old, I saw my father kissing another women and I got disgusted and told my mom to divorce him. she asked for reason and I just straight out told her what I saw and I don't like him anymore so  divorce him.

She didn't  replied me and went inside her room and closed the  door. she didn't came  out all day and then she started doing that daily. she stopped talking to me and often scolded and  beated me. then cried.. break things at home and whenever dad come home they always fight like crazy. my brother would send me inside and tried to convince them but they never listened to him. he got tired at one point and he started giving me company whenever they fought.

He was also the only one who treated my wounds and sleep with me whenever mom beats me. One day, when I woke up, I saw mom room's door kept ajar  but lights turned  off. I went in, turned on the light,.. to see her hanging from the ceiling fan .. I got paralysed by shock, I can't move an inch

my brother who came searching for me saw that and moved me out and I fainted from shock . They said I was in bed for 2 weeks unconscious. when I woke up everything was over.. mom's funeral, their daily fight.. everything, the house was empty, It was soo peaceful.

When mom commited suicide dad said he felt so  guilty, it's so funny right? 

Feeling apologetic for a person when they were no more. He started blaming me for everything. he said I don't deserve a family and he started beating and harrasing me "

he chuckled

" it's just like they switched positions the treatment I received was the same. I didn't felt anything whenever he beats me. I already got so used to that to the point it didn't even bothered me.. I always stayed silent.. I can't feel any emotion so I usually don't show any expression .

They said  I am not like other  children of my age who  cry and complain . I  rarely talked to others I only talk with brother and uncle. when I was twelve years old I can't stand that man's useless blamings anymore so I left the house. he didn't allowed me to go.. so brother let me escape. He had to stay on that damn house so that way I can live freely. but he somehow shutted my dad's mouth by doing what he had to do as the heir of the house until that women came back as our stepmother.

I can't find words to describe that man who abused me in the name of his guilt for his late wife and Married years later to the same woman who was the source of this problem. then only we came to know that he already had a child with her when mom was alive  and he was about my age . My brother got disgusted beyond words that he  left the house but that man didn't allowed him to leave the company.

so he had to continue that 's when he fell in love with your sister and finally reached his freedom by escaping from  this damn household . When he heared he died, I am sure he didn't even felt a little bit of sorrow, but he himself confirmed it by shamelessly asking ari' s guardian rights to take my brother ' s properties  in US .

From the day I witnessed my mom's death, I never wanted to have a family again.. because the family I know was always like that.

even before I told mom about dad' s affair. he rarely comes home and mom wait all day for him and call him infinite times which he never answers. she always worry about him and wanted to meet him. she never cared for me and my brother. all she wanted was his attention. but he didn't even know that and cheated on her.

I hated the word family because it revoke my memories of my family. I tried hard to forget everything and move on but whenever I see a family. I felt guilty... if I didn't told my mom will she be alive now ?  If there will be some peace in house?  I always thought about them and eventually I tried to bury that thoughts but on this day I can't bury them. they keep coming backn to my mind.. her hanging in the ceiling... their fights and everything... it's just so annoying "

tears flowed down his cheeks and wet athy's shoulder.

" haah my childhood was such a mess isn't it ? " he asked turning towards to see her crying but she calmly replied

" yeah so messed up "

" are you blaming yourself even now? " she asked after sometime.

" hmm... Not now I blamed myself for  sometime  until I realised the fact  that she would have  eventually found the truth even if I don't told her because that man thought of  bringing that woman home and asking  for divorce himself but I just  accelerated things between them and thanks to that, mom didn't have to see that woman entering our house with dad because dad found mom was not a bit interested in divorce because of me and  stopped his plan midway.

He stayed silent for a while

" but I don't know why.. but I regret doing that . I think it's  not easy to erase regrets."

athy stayed silent listening to him and talked after sometime

"hmm you are right  it's easy to erase memories but it's not easy to erase regrets I think it will stay with us until we die"

she said looking at the stars calmly but lucas felt  sadness in her words. He  sit straightened

" how do you know this place? "

"uncle told me "

"haah that Oldman... Let's go inside you will catch cold "

he was about to get up but she pulled him down

" what...? "

" let's just sit here for some time "

" he looked at her stupified but obeyed and sat beside her . They both were silently sitting in the top of the knob inside a forest. Cool breeze was freezing their  wet bodies. Lucas who is fully wet  than athy who was partially wet  shivered in cold.  athy turned and see him shivering. She placed her hand on his cheek

" you are cold, then we should go inside" she ruffled his damp hair and adjusting  his bang. He came closer  and leaned his head  on her shoulder

" no it's okay let's sit for a while"

"hmm" she leaned her head on his  and caressed his hair. He fell asleep in her warm embrace.