Chapter 60

*Payton's POV*I had two theories about how I could break the 'news' to Brooklyn.

1)Just straight up tell him and hope he doesn't hate me.

Or

2)Completely avoid and ignore him, hoping he would take the hint.

How are you supposed to tell someone that they aren't the one you want anymore? Especially through all of this, and the things that happened in the past, it just seemed so foreign to me.

But I knew one thing, and that was that I wanted to be with Kaden.

The boy who has never hurt me, or ever will, and had stuck by me through my complicated life.

With Brooklyn on the other hand.. there's no guarantee that I won't get screwed over by whatever collateral damage I'm caught in, in our relationship.

I'm cutting my self off from the trouble I don't need in my life, because believe me, I already have trouble consuming me enough as it is.

I decided not to be a complete asshole, and have the decency to tell him in person. I couldn't be that one bitch who cuts it off with someone over text... Or even worse, doesn't tell them at all.

I shot a text to Brooklyn as soon as I got home, soaking wet. I took a hot shower and changed into clean clothes, then plopped onto my bed to text him.

To;BrooklynHey, we should talk, can you come over right now?

I hope that didn't give it away much, I really don't want to be hurting anyone, but if I don't do anything about it, I'll end up being the one getting hurt.

From;BrooklynSure, I'll be over in a few minutes, everything okay?

If only he knew..

I sighed, not responding, and deciding to just get it all over with when he comes over.

A few minutes passed, and I headed downstairs to expect the doorbell to ring any second now. As if on cue, it did and I walked down a few hallways in my large house to open the dark wooded double doors.

"Hey, come in," I gave the best smile I could on the circumstances.

He walked in, and we both went to sit on the couch. I was home alone, seeing as my parents aren't ever home and Sean was probably out with the guys, or even Cara.

I didn't know what was going on with those two, because they both claim that it's 'nothing', but I call bullshit because they're obviously all over each other whenever we all hang out.

I pushed those thoughts aside, making a mental note to dig into Cara's life a bit more later, when I wasn't just about to break it off with someone.

"Uhm," I started, obviously not knowing how to do this. Probably should've thought this through, Payton.

I knew my method of 'I'll study when they hand out the test' was going to break me one day.

"I'm just going to come out and say it, I'm choosing Kaden. Again. There was a clear reason why I did before, which makes it a clear reason for me now. I'm sorry, I really am, I'm just not looking to get hurt again, your fault or not." I looked down at the ground, not daring to look into his eyes, which I knew were filled with hurt by now.

"I get it, I'm sorry that things had to be like this. We can still be friends though, right?" He bit his lip when I finally looked up.

"N-no," I stuttered out, holding back the tears that I knew were coming.

"What?" He asked, looking defeated, when at this point I was shaking.

"I like you Brooklyn, but this wouldn't work. We can't stay friends because I know that I'll keep liking you, and that can't happen. I'm sorry," I tried to swallow, but my throat was just too dry and I felt like I had just gotten hit in the stomach.

"I understand, bye Payton," he said finally. And with that, he got up and left.

I felt like crying, but I knew that that wouldn't do me any good, so I just curled myself under a blanket, and shut my eyes, hoping sleep would get rid of the guilt that was stirring inside me.

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The confused feeling you get after you wake up from a nap would be an understatement for me right now, since I'm currently being shook awake by someone, rudely might I add, and the annoying living room lights were fighting to seep into my eyes and blind me for a few seconds.

I never take naps, and when I do, something's usually wrong with me.

I finally gave in, and opened my eyes to see Kaden shaking me awake gently, as I breathed in his faint cologne.

"Whaaaattt," I whined, trying to close my eyes again, and feel the sweet sleep take over again. But too late, I was already awake, and that feeling was long gone.

"You're so cute when you sleep. Are you okay? You never take naps," he joked, poking my cheek and laying down next to me.

"I dunno, just felt right I guess. I think I'm starting to get sick from our little outing earlier today," I giggled but that quickly turned into a cough for me. "Definitely sick," I muttered.

If you recall, I unfortunately do, me and Kaden were walking around in the rain, idiots we are, and I was in my soaked clothing for a few hours at the most.

"Do you have cold medicine?" He asked, looking truly concerned.

"I don't think so, no Foster gets sick, well except for me, I have a death wish as you may know," I joked.

"Then I'll go pick some up for you," he winked and got up. "You stay here and rest, you look horrible."

"Thanks." I said with sarcasm, even though I knew he was kidding. "I wanna come with you, it's boring here," I pouted.

"No, you'll get even more sick, it's freezing outside," he protested.

"I'll be fineeeee," I rolled my eyes.

"Nope, you're staying here and resting, and that's final," he speaks and I pout before he leaves.

I sigh, and turn on the tv once he's gone, trying to find something to watch. I settle on The Office, and snuggle into my grey fuzzy blanket. I check my social medias, following, favoriting, and retweeting fan accounts.

After a short span of time, Kaden comes back, opening the door and trudging his way in with plenty of grocery bags around his hands. Yes, he has a house key, he's basically over all the time anyways and he's like family since he's best friends with Sean. Me and Sean have keys to his house too, so it works both ways.

"Uhm, cold medicine?" I asked, looking at the abundance of bags that couldn't possible fit only cold medicine.

"I got some other stuff too," he smirked.

"Obviously," I retorted, letting out a small chuckle as he sets the half dozen target bags on the sofa sectional next to me.

From the bags, he took out the obvious grape flavored cold medicine, cough and throat drops(watermelon flavored, my fave), chicken noodle soup pre made, a teddy bear, goldfish, a box of tissues, a tea box(peach green tea), magazines, vanilla pudding cups, all of the Harry Potter movies, some lunchables to feed my inner child, and just about every snack food and drink there is.

"Jesus Kaden, I have a tiny cold, I'm not dying," I couldn't help but laugh at the ridiculous amount of food and supplies he bought. Even though I did feel like I was dying, I still thought that this was excessive. Because I don't get sick very often, but when I do, it hits me like a train.

"I got us all the stuff to make pizzas," he said pointing to the pizza dough, pepperoni, pineapple slices, sauce, cheese, and other toppings in one bag. "And I got you a few makeup things so if you get bored you can play around with stuff because I know you like doing that shit," he chuckled, laying out a few eyeshadow palettes and different colored lipsticks and lip glosses.

"Awhhhhh, you shopped in the makeup aisle for me?!" I exclaimed, jumping up to hug him. "I should stand in the rain more often," I joked.

"Yeah, I got many, many glares and an awkward conversation from the cashier, plus I had to fight an 8 year old for the last pepperoni pizza lunchable ," he joked.

*Kaden's POV*I pulled into the parking lot of Target, hopping out of my car and grabbing a basket as I walked in. I made my way to the medicine section, grabbing some grape flavored cold medicine, because I know that Payton hates cherry flavoring. I grabbed some cough and throat drops as well while I was there, watermelon flavored, her absolute favorite. That girl could literally eat anything watermelon flavored...

If I was sick, what would I want?

I walked into the food section and grabbed ready chicken noodle soup, goldfish, lunchables because she's like a little kid basically, some pudding in case she doesn't feel like eating food, tea and hot cocoa, and a few more snacks.

I also grabbed stuff to make pizzas in case the guys came over and even if they didn't, me and Payton would have something fun to do so she's not completely bored out of her mind.

I got all of the Harry Potter movies, since she'd told me that she left a lot of movies in her house in California, and Harry Potter was her favorite.

I grabbed a medium sized teddy bear and plopped him on top of the overflowing basket, and some magazines for when I'm not there to keep her company.

Lastly, I forced myself to go into the makeup aisles and grab some eyeshadow box things. I always see Payton playing around with her makeup when she's bored, and maybe it'll cheer her up. I couldn't decide wether to get the 'midnight rose' or 'frosted darlings' set, so I was standing there, debating which colors Payton would like more.

Some nearby teenage girls were standing by, who I'm incredibly surprised hadn't recognized me by now. Even with my sunglasses and SnapBack on, I'm pretty unmistakable. They kept giving me weird looks like I was insane or something.

"It's for my girlfriend, okay?!" I exclaimed, receiving awwws from them, which they stopped staring and went back to gawking over new shades of blush or whatever.

I just shoved both of the colors into my basket, along with some lip stuff that I randomly grabbed off the shelves.

Proceeding to checkout, I stood in line behind a mom with two kids sitting in the cart. She had just walked away after checking out, and I put my basket on the counter. An older lady smiled at me as she started scanning my items, but like everyone else, gave me a strange look when she got to some items in my basket.

"It's for my girlfriend, she got sick from the rain and I'm trying to cheer her up," I explained, fighting a smile on my face at the mention of Payton.

Man, I got it bad....

"That's very sweet of you, I don't know many boys your age who would do that," she smiled and I finished checking out, walking to my car, and driving off back to Payton's.

*Payton's POV*"You really didn't have to, Kaden. I'll probably get over the cold in a day or two, not weeks," I laughed again at his sweet gesture.

"Well I'm just here to make those one or two days less miserable for you," he kissed my forehead and I nuzzled my head further into his chest. "Now, care for a Harry Potter movie marathon and some Oreos?" He grinned.

"I thought you'd never ask," I grinned back.

This is why I had chosen Kaden. He was always thinking of me, and made me incredibly happy to be around.

But I couldn't help but feel really guilty about dropping Brooklyn like that. In no way was I just carelessly hopping around, but it sure looked like that, and that wasn't the reputation I wanted, in no means whatsoever.

Maybe I was a little harsh on Brooklyn though, at the least we could be friends..

But I knew that that would be an absolute bad idea.

Snap out of it Payton! You know what's good for you, and Brooklyn isn't it.

I just hope if I keep saying that, I'll actually start believing it.