Chapter 3

He woke up late the next day. It was a Saturday thank goodness. His alarm was going off for almost an hour now. But that wasn't what woke him. It was the other person sleeping soundly beside him who was somewhat oblivious about his boisterous wake up call. The guy was sleeping on his side with his back facing Beam. He couldn't figure out yet who the guy was.

He looked around thinking he was in a different room. I'm damn sure this is my room, so who the fuck is this?!

Beam woke up not because he had enough sleep, it was because he felt accompanied. It was weird to feel someone's calm breathing beside you when you're used sleeping and waking up alone.

The guy stirred, he was awake now.

Forth?!

"You're awake." He said hoarsely.

"Why the hell are you here?! In my room? And on my bed?"

"You don't remember?" Forth sat up and faced Beam. His face was surprisingly calm unlike the other guy who has panic rising inside him.

"Remember what?!" .. Hes eyes widen as he thought of something ".. Wait! .. Did something .. "

"Something did happen .." Forth cut him off. " .. But not like what you had in mind .. "He let out a relieved sigh.

"You were drunk .. " Forth continued "deadass drunk .. And i had to drag you're spoiled ass all the way here. That's what happened."

Forth. He knew he had to talk like this in front of Beam because he can't let him know what really happened last night. He can't let him know the things he knew for now. They were still fragments. He needs to know more. For now, he needs to be sassy so Beam doesn't panic about what he knows and shut him out.

"But why did you sleep in my room?"

"Can't I? I was damn tired. And besides, were friends aren't we?"

".. Yes .. But -- " Forth cut him off again

"We're both men. So you don't have to worry about me ogling you while you're sleeping."

Forth knew he might regret saying the words we're both men cause he might end up eating those words. And they were damn bitter.

"OI!! I didn't say that! You shameless bastard!" Beam's pink face turned scarlet red and threw Forth a pillow to which he dodged.

Forth was smiling now. They both were. Beam look pissed but he knows the other guy was at ease now.

He stood up from the bed. He needs to go, for now at least. "I'm just messing with you. I need to go by the way .. Wait .. Do you want me to bring you breakfast?"

Without looking up from his phone "Do you think i'm some girl who needs to be taken care of? I can manage thank you very much."

"Okay then. See you around. Bye."

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Beam hadn't given much thought about what really happened that night. He don't remember a thing except for the fact that they were at a pub last night then he woke up cause someone was sleeping soundly beside him and he could feel his presence even when he was asleep.

He heard a loud bang on his door. He's not surprised at all. He knew it was his neighboor.

"OPEN UP!!" said a muffled voice behind the door. Forth must have left it locked when he got out.

He contemplated whether to get up from bed and let him in or just ignore his knocking till he gives up. But then again, its kit, and he don't give up just like that.

He groaned. Why do i have to open it? Why can't you just use the spare key? You have it for a damn reason!

"OPEN UP WITH YOUR SPARE KEY!" He shouted back. The banging stopped for a while then he heard his doorknob twisting. Then goes Kit.

"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!" Hands resting on his waist. He was clearly furious about something.

"What the hell was what?" He had that innocent look on his face. He didn't know what Kit was blabbering about.

"I saw Forth leaving your room just now." He was trying his best not to sound like a distressed mother.

"Oh." Beam wasn't even looking at him.

"Oh?! Are you fucking serious right now?"

"Ai'Kitty. It's not a big deal. We went out last night and he sent me back here then he slept here. Just that."

"YOU WENT OUT DRINKING LAST NIGHT?! AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TEXTING ME? I CALLED YOU A HUNDRED TIMES LAST NIGHT!!" Now he was mad again. Kit couldn't contain his anger because he was really worried.

"Ai'Kit. Please calm down. Ai'Pha knows. He left me with Forth after we got my meds from the pharma." Beam explained calmly. He needs to be level headed this time because if he explodes just like Kit all hell will break loose. And besides, his head feels like it might crack any minute now. Fucking hangover.

"That bastard didn't even bother texting me. And how about your meds? .. WAIT!! Did you take Meds again while you were drunk?" Kit was clearly having a roller coaster of emotions.

"If I did that I would be dead by now wouldn't I? Please calm down na Kitty."

This guy still has some sass in him. Kit thought. Don't you ever die on us again you bastard.

"So how was your sleep?" Kit sat at the edge of the bed. He has calmed down now.

"Bit weird. But it was alright." Its true. He slept alright. The nightmares didn't visit even when he didn't take his dosage for the night. Seems like the alcohol helped. Beam thought.

"Good. So how are you feeling now?"

"I'm gonna be a doctor too. I think i can diagnose myself Ai'Kit. Thank you."

"Stop being smart with me Beam."

Beam chuckled. He knows Kit has really calmed down now. "Alright. Alright. Well, aside from this massive headache. I'm hungry. Does that answer your question now?"

"Alright then. I'll go get you breakfast." Kit left the room. Beam was alone again.

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Before his bestfriends started dating their boyfriends who were also bestfriends, the two of them, Kit and Pha would always stay with him in his room. He shooed them out but they were stubborn as hell just like him. They did whatever the hell they have to do to kill boredom, study, PlayStation, Xbox, even playing cards. They stayed with him every weekend.

It amazed Beam how two people would waste their precious time for a person like him who once thought dying was his only way out.

He went on to studying Medicine even after his suicide attempt. He didn't know how he was still holding on. Perhaps the hell weeks of exams and lab works distracts him from his miserable existence. Despite the fact, he was okay. He needs to be if he wants to survive. He joked with his block mates, and other people who knew him. Aside from Pha and Kit, no other soul knows how he nearly killed himself. Not even his bestfriend's boyfriends.

Pha and Yo have been dating for almost two months now. Kit and Ming started dating three weeks after Pha and Yo became official, which was the night of Star and Moon Competition to which Ming was announced as the new face of the campus. His friends had gone a long way since all three of them became bestfriends while he, he was stuck in time. He wasn't moving forward. Indeed, the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.

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A/N: The last line was from a song of Mayday Parade.