Chapter Seventeen

Author's Notes: If you guys read the first book, you know my books are normally long. Do you guys mind that, or would you like me to speed up the book so it isn't too long? lmk :)

What Really Happened

Jinhwan's POV

{The day after the bar} 

As lunch time approaches at school I couldn't think straight. My leg was bouncing throughout my last class bothering myself of the other night. I started to remember what happened with Taehyung and Namjoon. I remember being asked about my old school, those memories were to never be spoken about. That school has brought a crazy amount of darkness into my life. It's a reminder of who I really am inside. A version of myself I never want to face. My life hasn't been normal sense attending that school, so much happened but I try to act as if it never. 

Even though I started remembering faded conversations, there was something bothering me. Like something big happened that I can't remember. I shut out my surrounds, the teacher talking, the students bickering, even the birds outside and I try to focus. The conversations started coming back slowly. I remember being asked about the trauma, the surgery, the bully...Kyung. I said something about Kyung!

"Excuse me, Jinhwan?" The English teacher pauses her lesson to get my attention. I quickly lift my head up acknowledging her and noticed the rest of my classmates were starring at me too. 

"Y-yes?" I gulped hearing some classmates chuckle. 

"Everything alright? I heard some mumbling," The English teacher tilts her head to check my expressions to see if I'm okay, but I'm not. Whatever I could've said about kyung is dangerous. Some things need to be kept in the past, however Taehyung is making that too difficult. 

"I'm okay, Mrs. Jung," I smiled brightly at her, and felt my frustration leave my shoulders in a couple seconds. I felt relieved that I figured out what's been bothering me. It felt as if it never happened. Mrs. Jung proceeds with class after nodding at me. 

After the class was over I head over to the balcony for lunch, I needed to think about what to do with Taehyung and Namjoon. They seem to have the intention to get something out of me, like they want to know my past. Why else would they ask about Kyung? Taehyung has wanted me to stay away from Sunny ever since the beginning, is he trying to find reasons to tell Sunny so she could leave me? The more he wants me away from her, the angrier it makes me. What makes her so special? 

From the moment I met Sunny, her aura was different then most people. I felt a sense of loneliness that I could relate to. I never fit in any group, including my family. I was always the one getting picked on and abused. It has left a scar on my chest, including my actions I made regarding it. Therefore, I felt comfortable with Sunny. I felt heard, and I know she feels it too. With Taehyung not only trying to take a piece of happiness from me, but also digging into my past life, it is something I cannot accept. 

I felt a feeling of rage. I didn't know what Taehyung was up to and it was bothering me, afraid of what he'll do next. I'll just have to be a step ahead to keep my secret safe. 

After calming myself down from my raged emotions, I tried to think of what Taehyung would do if he was me and he told me the guy who has all the information to my past...I would go and see him. I would ask him about Taehyung, and try to get something out of him. I can't let that happen, I must stop Kyung before he says anything dangerous. 

After school I quickly walked home to think this through. The past Kyung and I have is dangerous and complicated so I have to show him I am serious and makes sure he listens. I walk into my bedroom and lower myself to the ground. I slit my hand under my bed and grabbed the small rectangular box. After a moment of looking at it, I opened the box to a gun stained with blood. I smirked at it before grabbing it and holding it firmly. I aim it up towards my window and aimed down a man walking down the straight. I was imagining it to be Kyung, I raised my gun to aim at the strangers head and acted as if I shot him.

"Pow..." I smirked at the gun once again, then placed it in the back on my pants. I quickly got up remembering that Taehyung and Namjoon could go and see Kyung at anytime. So I put on my black winter coat and left the house putting my hood over my head. 

By the time that I made it to my old school, National Korean High School, I see Taehyung and Namjoon already speaking to Kyung. I had to hide from a distance so I couldn't tell what they were saying. I hid behind a tree before seeing Taehyung and Namjoon walked away. I feel my body being filled up with rage once again as I walk towards Kyung. 

Just at that moment I wanted to shoot him from my distance, whatever the consequence may be. The walk I took to get to him filled myself with memories of him throwing my tray at me during lunch. The time he banged my head against the lockers, and fought me without reason. The consistent humiliation I faced because of him. The thoughts I had because of him, I had enough problems at home, but Kyung made my health worse. He worsened my disorder and made me act out of it, making me get expelled. I have so much hate for this man, I would do what I did to him last year, over and over again. 

I finally walked up to him and placed my gun on his lower back. He quickly turned around to defends himself, but sees my face and goes blank, "You better keep your mouth shut," I warned him. I didn't need to say a speech for him to understand where I was coming from and where I am going with this, "Don't make me do what I did last time, I'll make it hurt more," 

Kyung looks at me shivering, "Your going insane again," He says starring back at me. I chuckle at his response.

"No I'm not. I'm doing everything I need to do. And you better not get involved." I press the gun harder into his shirt, "This is my warning," We look at each other for a couple of seconds, and as we do all the memories of last year flooded into both of our eyes. We remembered everything and shared that moment quickly before I put my gun back into my pants and left. 

I felt relieved after doing that, I felt like the powerful one. As I get close to the bus stop, I started to think. Kyung feels threatened right now, and when he does he does awful things. He won't go down without a fight, and that fight might end up being a mistake. 

"Shit..." I walk up to the bus stop. I don't want to deal with this later. I bring my hand to the back of my pants, and move my gun around to make myself more comfortable, but then suddenly stopped. What if I just completely stopped the situation? Kyung has been a problem since day one and even going to a new school, could still be a problem. This long time enemy, needs to go. 

6:50 pm

I arrived at the school again at 6:50 pm, Kyung lived near the school and always leaves around this time. Kyung has a secret hideout at school that he goes to after class to smoke and just chill before going home. He too seems to have an abusive home environment. I causally walked through the dark ally, the route he usually take. I was hoping to catch up to him. This ally's road has never finished making their ground and is always so challenging to walk on. After a couple minutes I saw Kyung's figure down the ally, and I started running towards him. 

He looks back a couple times before starting to run for his life. I continue to chase then notice his running became slower the more he was out of breath. I was able to catch up to him and pushed into the left where another ally began. 

"What the hell!" He shouts afraid to see me again. I pushed him against the wall, and held him the with my arm, "I didn't do anything bro!"

I released a big sigh out of being exhausted from the run, "I know I know," I repeat giving myself a minute as he looks at me, "But you'll become a problem in the future won't you?" 

"Jinhwan get the hell off me," He pushed my arm away and I start to laugh.

"Of course you're going to be difficult," I tilted my head, "Now you understand why?" 

"Jinhwan just chill...you're seriously going crazy! what do you what?" Kyung looks at me exhausted, don't worry Hyung ill end this fight tonight, "I didn't tell them anything," 

"But you will, because next time they wonder about something,  it'll lead them closer and closer to you. I am not going to risk my life for anything!" I shout out of frustration before kyung looks at me in shock. I quickly smiled forgetting about my rage and going back to business.

"Look Jinhwan, this is all mental! This is the diagnosis talking, just calm down I don't want to get in an altercation with you. I'm just trying to go home," 

I ran up to him quickly pushing him back into the wall, "Go home? No no, you don't get to live another day risking my life," He narrows his eyes.

"What do you mean?" I slowly bring my hand into my pants and held onto the gun, "Yah Jinhwan!" He starts to feel terrified knowing what I am holding, "What are you doing?!" Kyung pushes me away looking for a way to yell for help, but he knows no one else comes to this ally anymore. 

"I successfully covered my tracks, my secrets, and moved away form my fucked up past, you, Taehyung, or anyone will not take that from me!" I step away from him raging. 

"See, look at you Jinhwan, this is not worth it. Even I don't have energy for thi-" I quickly grabbed the gun and aimed it at Kyung, he hitches his breath and backs up further into the wall if that was even possible.

"You don't have energy for this!?" I shout, "I'm exhausted of my life! Everything I've done!" 

"You can change it! You can chang-" 

"I cannot! I don't want to go to jail, or the hospital- NO!" I place my other hand on the handle to get a better aim, "I'm going to end this, end the door to my past. And that's you Kyung," I close my left eye to aim right at Kyung's heart. 

Kyung panics and feels like his body is stuck, like he couldn't move. All he could do is yell, "HELP! SOMEBODY!" Kyung looks into my eyes, trying to get me out of this, "Jinhwan I'm sorry, okay? I know what I did was wrong, I've hurt you and I'm sorry-but please don't do this-DON'T DO THIS!" As tears stream down his face in fear, my eyes tear up. How that bullshit apology made me feel a little whole. I haven't heard him apologize to me for anything, but It's too late now. 

"Bye Kyung," I take a deep breath before pulling the trigger. 

"JINHW-" Kyung lays on the ground, lifeless. Dead. All the emotions I felt in that second left, as I feel nothing again. I stare at the body like I don't know who it is. I lowered my head to my hand looking at my gun and the stained blood. I walk up to Kyung's body and smeared the blood over the gun, collecting it's blood. I then turned around and went home. 

{The next day}

I walk down the street feeling relieved, the man I hated is dead but I have to deal with the aftermath. Sooner or later someone will find Kyung's body and the police will come knocking on my door. 

I walk into the police station confident. I'm not worried about anything, I have this all under control. 

A middle aged male who looked like he was ahead of the police investing squad walked up to me," Jinhwan, hey! What brings you in here?" I stare at him chuckling. 

"Doen, Goodmorning," I pause, "Can we take a seat?" Doen nods agreeing.

"Yea, of course," We walk into his office and take a seat, "So?"

I start talking without hesitation, "I'm here to turn my self in," Doen looks at me surprised, "Well...not exactly, I'm not going to be arrested," 

"What are you talking about?" 

I sigh having to repeat such tragic incident with Kyung, "There is a dead body laying on the ally, near National Korean High School. if you find it, well then congratulations," I lift my right leg over my left getting comfortable, "The body is male, name is Choi Kyung, around 5'11, and is 17 years old," As Doen nervously starts taking notes of what I am saying, I think, "Is there anything else I'm missing?.." I asked myself, "Oh! shot him with my gun, and no I will not turn in my gun. That is mine, remember who gave me that gun by the way?" Doen gulps looking guilty.

"Jinhwan why are you saying this, why did you do that?" He asks concerned.

"Kyung was someone who...took up extra space," I smiled softly, "I need that extra space for Taehyung, I can only handle one enemy okay?" Doen slowly brings his hand to his walky talky, "Now you might not want to do that Doen..." 

"W-why?" He asks afraid. 

"Because I'm trusting you! You were my fathers friend, which makes us family...ish. I need to trust you with things like this," 

"Jinhwan, you're going to be arrested," He quickly gets up remembering this is his job, I start to laugh.

"Wooow," I said impressed, "Aren't you good?" My laughter died off as I lead towards him, "Your not going to arrest me," 

"Why would you say that?" Doen asks

"Aaaah, sit down sit down, let me remind you of a story," Doen slowly sits down, "Remember when it was your second year working here, under my father and you had a little accident while running late from work?" Doen slowly removes his hand from his speaker knowing what I was referring to, "...That little girl you hit with your car?" I chuckle, "Didn't my father hide that investigation to save your ass? I need you to do that with this," I lean back into my chair, Doen glances outside his office to make sure no one heard. 

"Jinhwan-" 

I quickly interrupt, "Just tell the media that someone randomly killed him, the murder covered it's tracks well, and you cannot find them. Don't worry, his family didn't even care about him when he was alive, they won't mind now," I smirked at Doen and he looks at my concerned. 

"Jinhwan...Is this the diagnosis?" My facial expression quickly changed as I suck my teeth.

"Aish!" I raised my voice, "Shut up about that," I calmed my tone down and proceeded, "I don't need any cops at my door, no hospital letters, and especially not a single call form Kyung's family. If they call I'll kill them too," Doen has a blank expression, "Your understanding all of this?" I asked

"I-it's not that easy, my job is to protect and help people. This is not okay, you need to serve your time," 

"I'll agree if you serve your time as well," I smirk at him, "Not only did you also kill someone, you performed a hit and run, lied, and used your job to hide that investigation-I think that's going against the law. You will spend so many years in jail, then when you get out, if you even do, You'll have no job to survive off of. You're going to die by hunger I'm sure of if!" Doen bit his lip afraid for this to happen, he realizes what he has to do. 

"Okay okay... I'll do it, Just get out!" Doen raises his voice, and I gladly get off his chair walking towards the door. 

One down...