Chapter 5

I shift my glance from my husband's face. My eyes start to get blurred by tears. I don't want to talk to him. I'm afraid of his rejection. I'm afraid he'll say he will leave me. No, I don't want to let go of him and Mingyu.

I make sure Mingyu is fast asleep, and then I walk towards my room. I lock the door and throw the key away to the bedside. My knees start to tremble, my breath becomes heavier and my head gets dizzy. Laying myself down, I cover my eyes with both arms. My sleeves slowly become wet with tears.

Then comes a knock on the door "Hani-ah....love...open the door..." No, I will never open the door anymore.

"Honey...Jeonghan-ah...please, open the door...we have to talk..." No Seungcheol-ah, because I know, once I open that door, my happiness will end.

He stops knocking the door. But suddenly there's a noise of key rustling. Oh God, I forgot. Seungcheol always saves all the spare keys on top of the kitchen cabinet. I will never let him in. When I jump off the bed and about to hold the door, it slowly opens, and there my husband stands with his redden face, trying to hold back his anger.

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! Why did you lock the door?"

"Because I don't want to see your face!!!!" I dare myself to look at his eyes. "I don't want to see you and hear all those insults you throw at me, I don't want to hear that I'm a bad wife and mother, I don't want to hear how many compliments you give to your former wife, and most importantly I don't want to hear that you'll do your mother's will..."

"Listen..Jeonghan-ah...."

"No, I don't want to hear anything from you." Tightly I cover both of my ears.

"WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!!!" he snatches both of my hands that used to cover my ears. I stumble into his embrace. Accidentally I catch the smell of his body that I love, something I always have every time he hugs me to sleep.

That is what makes me realize, I could never let him go. If I just stay in his arms, I know he will say he has to leave me. I don't want to hear it, I have to avoid it.

I push him away with all my might, and without his arms around my shoulder and waist, I lose my balance. My body hits the floor hard. I can feel a huge pain on my lower body.

I try to get up. My husband's arms are back to help me. And when I make it on my feet, I see red. Blood stream down in between my legs. Oh God.

END OF CHAPTER 5

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