Chapter 22

1 year later

"Ate Bei!!!" It was only before the crack of dawn when Keanne decided to wake me up.

"What is it, captain Keanne?" I murmured as I sat up rubbing my eyes.

"Uhhh its December 10? Diba you have training camp?" Keanne said. SHIT! Training camp??? Its today?????

I shot up and glanced at the time. It was 5:30am and I have to leave before 6am for the U23 training camp. Its a 12-day training camp for the national team. I tried to get ready as fast as I could. I took a shower, dressed up, and ran downstairs to grab something to eat before I leave.

"I knew you would wake up late. Here. Your ready to go sandwich" Mom said as I rushed to the kitchen.

"Thanks mom! Just call me if there are complications sa business" I said grabbing the sandwich and loaded my luggage sa car. The training would be in Batangas and thats a bit far from here."Gotta go na mom! Love you! Bye!" I bid goodbye as I hopped on my car.

Alot has changed over a year. We won the championship this year, I had a successful baking business going on, and we are getting ready for this international league for U23.

I sighed. Alot has changed. Pero one thing never moved on. Kianna. Its still her. I would lowkey check up on her. Having a connection with her siblings is a great help! She's back on the court, she's doing well, she had a boyfriend. Si marck, they broke up a month ago, and now Im gonna meet her sa training camp. Greaaaat just greaaaaaat.

I was driving for 30mins now and it was getting kinda boring. So I turned on the radio just to see what they were playing

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that wayPeople are people,And sometimes we change our mindsBut it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Flashback"Bea, I know you and Kianna never had a proper closure, but I'll ask her tonight to be my girlfriend. I just wanted to talk to you out of respect" Marck approached me 5 months after Kianna's incident. I had no choice. I thought I had to let her go.

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,Now I don't know what to be without you around

I drove all the way to Tagaytay just to be alone. I never knew it would hurt like this. Seeing the person you loved the most, with somebody else.

I yelled my pain here up the mountain. Its 11pm and my phone was buzzing. I had no control of the situation. And all I can do is watch her be with him.

"I love you so much. I wish you'd never forget" I muttered as the breeze brush against my skin. I was up here where we have our vacation house. Where I would always go to when things are rough.-end of flashback-

I gripped tightly on the steering wheel. Remembering the pain I had put up with, I guess it's inevitable.

"Ugh fuck you, Taylor" I muttered. Whats with these Taylor Swift songs??? Its like it always tries to remind me of Kianna!

———————————I arrived at Batangas and it was already 8am. I guess ate Ly is already here? I saw her red car sa parking.

"Ate Ly!!" I called out as soon as I stepped inside the gym where we would be training.

"Goodmorning!" She said and hugged me."I just checked the room assignments...." Ate Ly slowly said. I looked at her confused."Kianna is your roommate" ate Ly finished. I stepped back a little. WHAT? ANONG ROOMMATE??

"Ha??? I dont know if this is a blessing or a curse. Ugh God the universe is confusing" I said while palming my forhead. Jusko what am I going to do???

"Its your chance, Bei" ate Ly said. And then, some other teammates arrived. It was Dawn and Jia!

"I guess I have to avoid her" I whispered to myself as we walk to the lobby. Eya, Ate Den, Jaja, ate Ly, Dawn, Kalei, and Jia were already there.

I sat beside ate Den while the others were busy chatting with each other waiting for the others to arrive.

"Mukhang problemado ka" Ate Den spoke up. She must've noticed me staring at nothing.

"Why the hell is she my roommate?" I said. I dont know what to do! Should I be distant? Try to avoid her? So that I can protect myself from pain?"Should I avoid her? Ayoko masaktan, ate. She still doesn't remember me. What if I've done something that would force her to remember? That would cause her trouble. Can I switch roommates??" I ranted out. But all I heard from ate Den was a chuckle.

"Dont overthink, Bei. Just act normal" she said and ruffled my hair. God im thankful I have her and ate Ly with me.

——————————The staff was showing us to our rooms. We start training later at 3pm.

"Room 203, Bea and Kianna" coach Ramil said and showed us our room. Oh God here we go. I opened the door and held it for Kianna to come in.

"Thank you" she said and smiled at me. BEA ANUNA KAYA PA BA???

I only speak when I needed to. We finished placing our things. Later, we would go down to have lunch and a meeting with the team.

"You seem quiet" Kianna said while I was busy placing my clothes in the cabinets

"I don't wanna waste my energy, I guess" I said plainly and continued to place the last of my baggage

When I was done, I looked at Kianna and she was looking at me before she avoided my eyes and held her forehead.

"Whats wrong?" I asked. She looked like she was having a headache

"My head hurts when I remember things that I forgot because of an accident" she said while closing her eyes and massaging her head

"Should I get help?" I asked. Still trying to keep calm and contain my emotions.

"No need. I was involved in an accident when I lost some parts of my memories kase." She said and looked at me.

And you forgot we had a relationship. Great.

"I remember you" she said. My heart started beating fast. Oh god. Could she remember??? "We were roommates 2 years ago, right?" She said. I stepped back trying to think of what to do.

"How much do you remember?" I asked hesitantly while I was hoping that she would remember us.

"2 years ago, we were roommates for this training camp too. Thats..... all I remember" she said while looking confused.

"Yeah. We were roommates" I said and sat on the bed and faced the glass balcony door and took a deep breathe. Get yourself together, Bea.

"Are you ok?" Kianna asked. She must have noticed how I've been acting.

"Im fine." I said plainly. It isnt easy pretending to be fine while you have the person you love the most acting like you never had a relationship

"I cant take this right now" I whispered to myself. I stood up and decided to take a walk."Im going out. I'll be back" I said grabbing my wallet and phone and walked out the room.

I walked out the hotel to walk at their garden. Its the peacefulness I need.

"Bea, you need to get yourself together" I talked to myself. I still pains me. I love her so much. Yet, she cant be mine now. I hate it. I hate this feeling. After a quite a long time, I have this feeling of pain, regret. Im breaking down again. Throughout the year, I would sometimes breakdown when I couldn't act fine anymore.

I sat at a nearby bench having a view of the man-made lake the hotel has. Its serene and beautiful here. I sat there for maybe hours?

I was never truly fine. Sometimes I breakdown. But I still lived everyday. I was lucky enough to have ate Ly and ate Den by my side. I also have Jho. I established my own business just to keep myself busy. School,volleyball,business. Thats what my life is for a year.

"How could you act fine when you just lost the person you love in one night?" I asked myself. It was also supposed to be our 1st anniversary the month after the incident

"All you had to do was wait another month, baby. Why did you leave?? Why."  I yelled. I drove myself to Tagaytay again on the night of our anniversary.

"Happy anniversary, baby" I muttered as I drown myself with tears and tequila.

I sighed. They say if its meant to be, It will be. But then the universe keeps playing with us.

"I figured I'd find you here" it was ate Ly. She sat beside me."You couldn't take it?" She asked looking at me. I nodded and kept my head low.

"Kianna texted me. You were acting like you weren't fine daw" ate Ly continued."She cares about you" she said. I just laughed at the thought.

"Why would she care? She forgot about me diba?" I said bitterly.

"She did lose her memories. But not her feelings. Those are two completely different things, Beatriz" ate Ly said. I looked at her confused but she just smiled.

"Theres a thing called soulmates. And your emotions that you feel about your soulmate isnt based on memories. Love isnt based on memories. You love someone because of your heart. Not your brain" ate Ly explained. But somehow, I still couldn't understand

"Its a saying. Dont take it too literally" she said and chuckled."I love you like a sister Bea, but dont be stupid" she said and that made me chuckle

"Memories and feelings are two completely different things." I muttered and looked at ate Ly. She stood up and gave me a smile.

"Get up. Its almost lunchtime"she said.——————————We went back to the hotel and we were greeted by ate Den who has her left eyebrow up.

"You're in trouble" ate Ly whispered to me. Oh God.

"You disappeared for 3 hours, you had me worried" ate Den sternly said and pinched my ears

"Ouch, ouch. I love you too ate Den" I teased. Ate Den would always be the one to act like a mother to me. Pero hell, masakit yung pingot nya!

"Next time you plan to run away, you tell us!" Here she goes lecturing me. Parang nanay talaga. She goes on and on ranting of how worried she was, I shouldn't disappear like that, something about "malilintekan ka sakin" and all that.

"I know, im sorry ate. Di na po mauulit" I said. The only reason I kept sane was ate Den's lectures every time I wander off to tagaytay or when ate Ly caught me getting wasted and ate Ly's comforts. They were both there for me.