Chapter 21

Bea POVI drove to Ateneo early morning and it was raining. I felt all numb and I have no will to do anything. I hate this feeling. I feel vulnerable and for the past few weeks, I feel like a walking corpse. Great. The sky joins my sadness.

"Why? Kianna" I muttered. It has been weeks since that happened. I turned on the radio and the station was playing a Taylor Swift song

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

Flashback"Hello? Bei. I-Its Kianna. Bea anak nabangga sya" It was Tita. I felt my world crumble. Something bad happened kay Kianna. I felt weak. I felt breaking out. Why did I let her? DAMN IT BEA WHY DID YOU LET HER DRIVE?!

And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breatheThe doctor came. It was a few days after the incident and Kianna has just awaken from a coma.

"The patient has survived the surgery. Although, she might have lost parts of her memory. It would be better if she could only meet her parents first. Because stressing out and triggering her brain with a wave of memories could further the brain damage she has" the doctor said.

"Will she ever recover her memories?" Tito asked.

"Theres a chance. But it might take 2-3 years. We cant exhaust her brain right now"

And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are"Bei, she cant remember you" Tita told me with her tears falling down. I sat there, fallen. Thinking of why. Of all the people you could forget. Why me?

Hope it's nice where you areI stared up at the moon. She couldn't remember me. Our relationship or anything. She just cant. And im afraid, that if we force information, I might loose her forever.

And I hope the sun shinesAnd it's a beautiful dayIf its meant to be, it will be. I'll wait. I always do. Even if it takes a hundred years, baby. I will wait.

And something reminds youYou wish you had stayed"Its hard, I know it is" ate Ly tried to comfort me."Maybe not today, but someday everything will go back to where it is" Ate Ly added after she stumbled upon me drinking the night away.

-end-

I felt the tears graze on my face as I forcefully shut the radio down. I yelled my pain. I hit the stirring wheel of my car as I was parked near BEG.

"Of all the things you'd forget, why me?!" I cried. It was always like this for the past few weeks. I tried meeting her. But she didn't recognize me. It was too dangerous if we forced her memories to go back.

I just sat there with my own despair when someone knocked on my door to see ate Den. I gave in and opened my door

"Kianna would've hated seeing you like this, Bei" ate Den said. I just broke down infront of her. I might look desperate and vulnerable at this point, but I didn't care.

"Lovers turned strangers. The pain is unbearable" I muttered. Ate Den caressed my face, looking me straight in the eyes.

"Look, Kianna would never want to see you cry and hurt yourself like this. For the past few weeks, you were like a walking corpse. She isn't gone, Bei. Theres still hope. And if its meant to be, it will be. Now cheer your ass up or else you're in trouble" ate Den said causing me to chuckle. She's right. Maybe instead of crying here, I should be working hard. Waiting for her.

————————We were done with our afternoon training. For the first time in a while, I felt ok and normal. Ate Den really talked sense into me. Idk what I would do without her.

"Hey Bei! Tara Uptown?" Yaya ni ate Ly but I shook my head

"Dali na manaaaaang" pilit pa ni Jia. Hays fine.

"Oo na nga" I said. We were going to Uptown along with Jho and Mads.

We were walking around after eating at Uptown. It was friday and I had to deal with the usual Alyden flirting-fighting sensation. One minute they were sweet, the next moment they were bullying each other ugh.

"Will you quit it, parents?" I annoyingly asked. They acted like my baba and mama at Ateneo. They froze for a second and looked at me.

"Well, she started it" Ate Ly said and crossed her arms.

"Ugh annoying! Ikaw yung pinagtatawanan yung face ko whenever I receive ah" Ate Den rolled her eyes. Hay nako. Ate Ly was making fun of ate Dens face whenever nasa game kami. Its too serious daw. Parang kakainin na yung ball

"Even if she makes fun of your face, she still finds it beautiful. She's basically head over heals for you" I chuckled and earned a death glare from ate Ly. Nilaglag ko kasi sya. Every single time she has, she would talk about ate Den noh!

"Thats not true!" Tanggi ni ate Ly pero halatang naiilang.

"Hay nako Ly at Den. Tama na nga yan" saway ni Jia. Or Ate Jia. Pero sabi nya kasi she prefers being called Jia nalang.

"Why cant you both be on a relationship together nalang-" Before I was finished, I saw someone familiar.

"Kianna" I whispered as I stare at her. I never thought that she would be here. She was wearing some leggings and....... the hoodie I gave her. And she was also wearing a bonett to try and hide her scars from the surgery. She was with Tyang Aby. I followed their direction with my eyes.

"Bea, are you ok?" Ate Den asked. They all noticed where I was staring and they also saw Kianna. Suddenly, Aby glanced at our direction and saw me. She smiled and started walking towards our direction. I stepped back unsure if it was safe.

"Dont worry, just go easy" Ate Ly whispered and patted my shoulder.

"Dennise!" Kianna greeted her. Ate Den was one of the people she still remembers. I approached Tyang. We became close because of Kianna.

"How is she?" I said in a low voice. Kianna seemed busy talking and catching up with Ate Den.

"Ok lang sya, Bdl. Balang araw, babalik din sya sayo" Tyang said and offered a smile. I eased me to know that she was fine.

"Wait, Tyang" I called before she walked to Kianna's direction "Will she play?" I asked her. Volleyball is something Kianna loved doing. And with her condition, im afraid that she wont play anymore. I was just curious though. If she can play.

"Sabi nung doctor, 1 year pa daw recovery state nya." Aby said and we walked to where the others were chattering. Kianna didn't even notice my presence.

"Swishy, tara na" yaya ni Tyang. Kianna bid goodbye to them but the she suddenly turned to my direction. Our eyes met and I felt hope. I was hoping that she would remember me. She just stared at my eyes. Like she was trying to process something. I looked away but I could still feel her eyes on me.

Hell, I can wait for you. This baby will wait. Your baby.

"Ate Ly, you were looking for National Bookstore right?" I asked trying to divert her attention. As much as I wanted to hug her, I just cant right now.

"A-ay oo nga. Did you find it?" I think ate Ly sensed what I was trying to do. I felt her walking away.

"Jump Then Fall" I said aloud. Just enough so that she would hear it. She stopped walking for a second. Before continuing to walk with Aby.

"Jump then fall?" Ate Den questioned me. I sighed.

"Its the song that I used to ask her" I answered referring to the night where we attended that Taylor Swift concert.

May we meet again