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The bus halted as it came to a stop making the blue head to snap out of his sleep. The long eyes of the male slowly opened up to meet with the bright sunlight that hit right against his eyes, The boy squint his eyes before turning his head to the other side and as he did his eyes met with another pair of eyes.

The warm brown orbs were staring right in to jeongin's and the blue head didn't knew why he end up staring back, He felt somewhat peaceful and calm as he stare in to those honey pools but it didn't took him much time to snap out of it because of the chuckle that erupt from the owner of those eyes.

Jeongin sat up straight as he fixed his hair.

"Did we reach?"

The blue head asked the brunette who hummed while nodding his head.

"Let's get out."

Jeongin said in a low voice as the both boys moved to exit the bus.

It was now almost 4 or 5 pm making the sky look golden and pretty and that same pretty golden sky resulted in seungmin to look gorgeous cause without jeongin himself realising he kept on glancing at the older, The way those golden rays hit against those brunette hair, The way his face was shining, The way his brown eyes was glistening under the light, God he looked so pretty!

Seungmin was walking along with jeongin, Looking straight, completely unaware of the pair of eyes who were watching him as he walked silently.

Jeongin stopped on his track making seungmin to stop as well. The older male looked at the younger with confused eyes but when he followed the blue head's gaze, he came to realisation that they were now standing infront of the most famous bakery of Busan, The bakery jeongin's mother owned. It used to be a cafè but now it has turned in to a bakery. A wonderful one.

"Here we are.."

Jeongin says as he stares at the bakery. Seungmin nods his head as he asks.

"Shall we go in?"

Jeongin whips his head to seungmin, Both of them looking at eachother and soon jeongin was nodding his head at seungmin.

The bell over the door rang as jeongin pushed the glass door to the bakery open and just as they stepped inside a women's voice yelled out saying.

"I am sorry but we are closing the bakery early today!"

She said sweetly and loud and that was when the boys really noticed the "closed" board hanged on the door. Jeongin looked around in the search of that voice's owner and when he finally spot her, a big smile formed up on his face, His dimples showing up.

"Sorry mam but I am not here for your bread."

The blue head says back making the women to cease in her motions. She quickly looked back with wide eyes, Meeting eyes with jeongin and it didnt even took seconds for the tears to start forming up inside her wide eyes.

Jeongin walks closer, opening up his arms wide as the women quickly runs to hug him. Jeongin hugs the women tightly with the brightest smile and so did the women.

"I missed you, Eomma.."

Jeongin said making yujin to respond back.

"I missed you too, Jeongin-ah"

She said tears falling off her eyes uncontrollably. Jeongin breaks the hug to look at his mother's face.

"Wow are you that upset to see me back home?"

He asked as his eyes scanned across the female's puffy red eyes. Yunjin whips her tears as she smiles at the boy who have now grown alot taller than her.

"No I am just happy to see my baby back."

"Pfft baby--"

Seungmin couldn't help but say that aloud, It was one of his habit to never miss a chance to tease his friends but seungmin froze on his spot worried if he teased him at the wrong time.

"Seungmin-ah!"

The women calls out for the brunette with a bright smile as she rushes to hug the boy. Mrs. Yang have met seungmin and hyunjin many times, whenever she visited jeongin so she was really familiar with them. Seungmin hugs the women back as he asked.

"How are you, Mrs. Yang?"

"Very good dear, What about you?"

"I am doing good as well!"

Seungmin exclaims as if he was not at all heartbroken at the moment. It was pretty much an amazing skill seungmin had when it comes to hiding his real feelings behind a mask of his. Pushing all his problems in to himself and just presenting his happy self to those around him, With a bleeding heart he laughed softly while breaking the hug.

The sound of the door unlocking resonated through out the whole house as Mrs. Yang walks inside with the boys following just behind. Switching the lights on, Jeongin closes the door behind.

Walking further inside, jeongin's eyes ran around the house. They moved out from that old apartment years ago and now had a whole new house for themselves and jeongin felt proud and happy for this big of an upgrade in their life. The hope that the things would turn out better in their life came true and the feeling it gave him almost made his eyes to turn glassy.

"You guys should get freshen up, I will make sure to make the best dinner you have ever eaten by then!"

She said with a chuckle in the end of her words. The boys smiled widely at the women as they started moving ahead.

"Where should I stay??"

Seungmin questions.

"Well ofcourse in my room, Like dude there is only two rooms."

Jeongin says making seungmin to smirk softly as he says in a teasing manner.

"Oh now don't word it like that, You just want me to stay in you room cause you absolutely love me~"

Seungmin waited for a slap, punch or a bite if not anything in those then the loudest yelling he could get from him but none of it happened but rather the boy said something in return which somewhat left seungmin speechless.

"Hmm maybe that's the actual case, I want you to stay in my room cause I love you and are you planning to deny that request?"

Jeongin said tilting his head up with a wider smirk on his face, Eyes staring right in to seungmin's leaving seungmin breathless and with a rapidly beating heart but he still managed to reply.

"I am not.."

The brunette whispered out making jeongin to raise one of his eyebrows up.

"You are not gonna what?"

Jeongin asks.

"I am not gonna deny that request."

Jeongin smiles at that, Stars shining inside his eyes making seungmin to stare more deeply in to those beautiful eyes of the younger.

"Thank you."

Seungmin nods, Still in a daze.

"Well come on minnie the mouse, lets unpack!"

Jeongin says out aloud, walking inside his room but seungmin still stands there like a statue. Raising one of his hand and then pressing it against his chest tightly hoping that would somehow ease his heart beat.

God tf was that!? Seungmin questions inside his own head.

After that incident they got all freshen up and sat infront of the dining table, now having their meal with laughter roaming around the atmosphere.

"Bitch I am the guest let me lay on the bed!"

Seungmin said as he tried to push jeongin off the bed who refused to move an inch as he held on to the side of the bed desperately.

"Ahhh just lay on the bed with me then!"

Seungmin stopped pushing jeongin as he smiled brightly and ran excitedly to turn off the lights and as he did he turn back around and quickly rushed towards the bed and threw his body over jeongin's, crushing the younger with his own body.

Seungmin's ears filled with the muffled screams of the younger beneath him.

But later seungmin moves away not wanting to kill the blue head. At that exact moment when seungmin was moving away jeongin kicked him off the bed making the boy's ass to make contact with the cold hard ground.

Seungmin hissed in pain as he send a death glare towards jeongin who looked back with dead eyes.

"You deserve it!"

"Yeah yeah.."

Seungmin says as he got up from the floor.

"Now move your ass before i crush you again."

Seungmin says making jeongin to move to the side making some space for the older to lay down. Jeongin heaves a sigh as he turns over on his back, his eyes quickly gluing on to the ceiling. The younger felt the bed shift around as seungmin also laid down.

Silence started taking over the room but two of them weren't asleep. They were just staring in to the darkness silently with thoughts fogging up inside their head, Their hurting heart being the centre of attention.

"Love is sometimes pretty unfair i guess.."

Jeongin mumbles out suddenly and to be honest seungmin wanted to agree and ramble out about how love sometimes sucks but he hold himself back.. They were here to distract jeongin from the pain, to distract jeongin from the hopeless romantic feelings he had for hyunjin.

"I was expecting you to ask how lizards fuck.."

Jeongin lightly punches seungmin's side at that making the brunette to chuckle out.

"Sleep kid."

Seungmin says in a low voice as he finally let his eye lids fall over. Jeongin nods even though he knew seungmin won't be able to see it. The blue head also closed his eyes, trying to slip in to his slumber and forgot about everything for atleast a moment.

Jeongin shuffles around the bed, the sound of the blanket rustling around was heard as he finally laid on to his one side, his back facing the window, in an attempt to avoid the sunlight which was disturbing his sleep but even after doing that he felt himself not being able to fall back asleep.

The boy finally lift his eye lids up, First his vision felt unclear but later after rubbing the back of his hand against his eyes his vision started to become clearer.

Jeongin eyes was fast to meet with a familiar face which was now right infront of his own face. Their noses were just millimetres away, Jeongin held on to his breath as he moves a little back but still close enough to have a closer look at the brunette's face.

Jeongin caught himself staring at the boy, his eyes scanning over the boy who was still sound asleep. Jeongin's eyes run around the boy's beautiful face, from the strands of brunette hair falling over the male's forehead to the most unnoticeable scar left on the male's milky skin.

He was lost in admiring the male, not so later he felt the urge to feel those smooth skin of the male's face underneath his own hands, The desire to caress it softly filled the blue head's head as he raised one of his long hands, soon that hand hovering over the male's side face.

Jeongin himself didn't knew what was he thinking, why he was going to do this, it felt like his body was moving on his own..

Just as he was about to place his hand over the male's face the door to the room burst open, surprising the boy as he end up slapping the male across the face rather than caressing it. The loud noise of his hand hitting over the brunette's face resonated through out the room.

Seungmin flinched out of his sleep as he screamed out.

"WHAT IN THE JUDAS BRO!?"

Jeongin's mom who just bursted in to the room laughed awkwardly.

"I guess my timing was quite bad--"

Later they got up, Getting ready to start their day and soon after jeongin's mother proposed the idea about have a little picnic outside and the boys seemed to like the idea as they started packing up for the picnic.

"Dude you seriously don't know how to direct people or what?"

Seungmin asked, annoying jeongin as the blue head death glared him for the nth time. Jeongin was trying to direct his mom with the help of the google map but he didn't knew if it was the map or him which made them keep going to all the wrong directions.

"You rat, its the google!"

Jeongin argued making seungmin to roll his eyes.

"Yeah sure."

"Tf you mean by that do you want me to shove my fist in to your mouth or what!?"

"Yea--"

"Yah! Stop fighting, we just can go to another park nearby."

Mrs. Yang said calming down the quarrel between the two young males.

"Yeah thats better."

Jeongin said as he switched off the phone as he decided to stare outside the window of the car.

Jeongin was sitting in the passenger seat while his mom was driving and seungmin was sitting behind them.

Silence suddenly filled the atmosphere as the car ran through the quite empty road.

"Okay but can you still shove your fist down my mouth though--"

Seungmin says all of a sudden. Leading to Mrs. Yang to choke on her own saliva while jeongin yelled out.

"WHAT THE--"

Seungmin carried the basket from the car to the picnic mat that was now laid out on the green grass as jeongin and his mom sat on it. With placing the basket down seungmin also sat down.

Mrs. Yang started to unpack the basket as she put out the food. It was quite a beautiful weather, clear blue sky, warm sunlight and the soft breeze and there weren't many people around them as today wasn't particularly a holiday.

Seungmin heaves a heavy sigh as he laid down with his head over the younger's lap. Jeongin looked down at seungmin who looked back at him.

"What are you doing?"

"Admiring the beauty..?"

Seungmin replied

"The pond is ahead you bitch"

Even though jeongin got what seungmin meant he still said that, doubting if the male actually meant something like that.

"Nah I meant admiring your beauty."

A light blush crept over jeongin's cheek as the boy looked away.

"Yah! Stop being all lovely dovely infront of a single lady!"

Mrs. Yang said making jeongin to quickly reply but only to get cut off again.

"We aren't--"

"And you said you had alot to tell me about, when are you talking about those then?"

Mrs. Yang asked as she looked over at her son.

"Well I will tell you soon eomma.. I thought I should first feel like i am finally home and relax a little bit before rambling about those.."

Jeongin says.

"Ohh.. wait is it about y'all dating or something!?"

The women deadpanned.

"What the hell-- no no."

Jeongin denies while seungmin wished it was.

"Oops sorry! The way you guys are acting made me think like that."

She says as she lets out a laugh.

"Well imma go buy some drinks from the nearby store, i forgot to bring any with me."

The women says as she stands up.

"I can go, eomma."

"Nah it's fine and after all seungmin looks really comfy in your lap."

Yujin said as she glances at the boy who puts out a thumbs up as he says.

"You got that right mam!"

Jeongin sighs as he shook his head.

"This asshole.."

Later jeongin noticed his mom walking away now leaving both jeongin and seungmin alone. Silence started spreading through the atmosphere as seungmin and jeongin got busy staring ahead at the pond. Watching the ducks swim around..

Jeongin lowers his gaze at seungmin who still had his head on jeongin's comfy laps. Jeongin stared at the male who still had his attention on the pond, soon after jeongin felt his body moving on its own once again.

Seungmin felt himself froze on his spot at feeling a hand brushing through his hair in a soothing manner.

The boy avert his eyes up to the boy, Jeongin send a soft smile towards the boy which warmed up seungmin's cold heart. The brunette end up smiling back softly as he decided to close his eyes and enjoy this moment. Warm breeze brushed against the older male's face as he relaxed himself on jeongin.

The blue head stared at the older suddenly feeling like there was something untold about this male. Jeongin didn't failed to notice the fact that something was bothering this boy, There was something inside his chest which was hurting him and like always the older just decided to let it hurt him, let it swallow him in.

"Hyung.."

Jeongin called out softly making seungmin to finally open his eyes.

"Hmm.."

The older male hummed in response.

"Something is bothering you, isn't it...?"

Seungmin didn't knew what to respond to that as he just blankly stared back at the younger male.

"I know there is something.. You are just hiding it from us for millionth time.. How much times did we tell you..without speaking out about these feelings which is hurting you, you can't never really destroy that pain easily or healthily.."

Jeongin scolded as he brushed away the brunette hair from the older's forehead.

"Now tell me what's wrong?.."

Jeongin asks but seungmin says nothing in return, Just staring up at him but later the male averted his gaze away.

"If i talk about what is bothering me..I don't think so I would be able to lay on your lap like this once again.."

The male says in a low voice, sadness coating his voice and when jeongin was about to say something again his mom was here to interrupt him.

"Here is your drinks boys! Strangly there was no shops nearby."

Seungmin gets his head up from jeongin's laps as he sits up straight.

"If you didn't had seen any shops nearby you should had just called for us, we could had went to buy it instead of you."

"It's okay min, Like that I atleast got a little work out.. as you can see i am getting a little fat here."

She says with a laugh.

"If you are fat then I am Michael Jackson, You look perfect Mrs. Yang!"

Seungmin says making Mrs. Yang to laugh out aloud.

"Do you want something from me?"

"Wow now don't make me look like that! I was just saying the truth."

Seungmin says with a little pout as he poked the straw in to the bottle of drink. Jeongin just stared at the boy silently, His mind still stuck with those words which seungmin just told him.

Through out the rest of the picnic no conversation happened between jeongin and seungmin and Mrs. Yang didn't fail to notice it so when they were packing their things up to go back home and when seungmin went in a search for a washroom, Mrs. Yang asked her son who was quietly folding the picnic mat.

"Did you guys fought or something?"

Jeongin snap out of his train of thoughts at that as the blue head shook his head a no.

"Then what's with that awkward tension between you guys?"

"I don't know.."

Jeongin replied silently, his face holding a cold expression. Yujin frowned her eyebrows at that as the pretty women stared at her son.

The drive back home was sickeningly quite, and even though Mrs. Yang tried her best to light up the mood nothing happened.. There was something extremely bad going on between them.

Reaching back home Mrs. Yang noticed both of the boy's going separate ways. Knowing jeongin too well Mrs. Yang decided to approach seungmin to understand what was going on.

Seungmin sat at the balcony, staring at the starry sky. The whole day today..there was not a single cloud to cover up the beauty of the sky. Seungmin heaved a heavy sigh as he felt like it was a bad idea to say something like that to jeongin and seungmin didn't knew why jeongin was staying quite and he was worried if it was cause the blue head figured out that seungmin liked him.. and it made him worry that jeongin was uncomfortable about it and even if he was seungmin couldn't blame him.. It might be hard to understand the fact that your best friend is in love with you..

Suddenly there was a voice erupting from behind him.

"Can i sit with you?"

Seungmin looked over his shoulder to make eye contact with yujin. He smiled softly and nodded his head. She quietly made her way to sit beside him now both of them sitting beside eachother, All quite.

Yujin looked over at seungmin, watching him as seungmin was fighting with his every bit of strength to not cry out infront of her.. he was looking ahead refusing to make eye contact with her but his eyes were turning glassy, lips quivering.. The hurt flashed inside his eyes. The boy felt it suddenly getting hard to breathe, nerves popping up from biting back the tears.

Mrs. Yang got up from her seat going behind seungmin as the women wrapped her arms around the boy from behind.

"Seungmin-ah.. Let it out.."

And with that seungmin breaked apart, Tears left his eyes uncontrollably as he cried hard. Yujin held him close, her own eyes turning glassy as well.

"..I can't h-have him e-eomma..."

The boy says out loud, Even after yujin giving him and hyunjin the permission to just call her "eomma" they have never really used it but here was seungmin using it for the first time and hearing him call her like that just made her feel even more closer to the boy..

"Who..?"

"J-jeongin.."

Yujin wasn't really that surprised she did had the feeling that the boy liked her son.. Seungmin finally calms down a little as he wipes his tears away, Yujin broke the hug as she took the seat beside seungmin once again.

Seungmin stared ahead, his eyes and nose swollen and red. He looked tired and heartbroken.

"..I love him alot..Seriously alot and feeling i could never have him just hurts alot.."

"You found out he likes hyunjin..?"

Yujin asks already knowing about the slight crush her son had on hyunjin, but jeongin haven't really talked seriously about that crush yet to her.. so she was unsure if the crush still existed but it became clear once seungmin nodded his head. Mrs. Yang felt her heart tighten at that..

"But.. hyunjin loves someone else too and that was why jeongin was upset.. And that is why he came here.."

Yujin quietly listen to the whole story until silence was only left behind.

"You know.. this thing called love.. It is the most beautiful thing but yet so dangerous.. They say falling in love is the best feeling but it is only the best feeling when you are falling for the right person.. You might fall for someone, love them and cherish them, Almost live for them but sometimes love is scary cause for all those beautiful and kind gestures you give out all you might get in return would be pain and sadness, The worst feelings which might could even reach you to the brink of death.."

Yujin says as she also stares off at the sky. Seungmin listened to her honey like voice as she continued.

"That is how half of the love story turns out like.. And that was how jeongin's and hyunjin's was..and even mine.."

Yujin looks at seungmin who looks back at her. Her lips cracks in to a soft smile as she continues.

"But.. Yours and jeongin isn't going to be like that.."

Seungmin looks at her in confusion.

"How do you know?"

The boy questions.

"Gut feelings."

She replied but seungmin couldn't help but let out a small laugh at that.

"Yah! Don't make fun of my gut feelings, most of the times my gut feelings turns out right!"

"Well hope it does."

Seungmin says looking at the starry sky once again with a soft smile over his chapped lips. Yujin heaves a soft sigh as she places her hand on top of seungmin's.

"I will bring you some pastries, Pastries never fails to lighten up anyone's mood!"

Seungmin lets another chuckle slip out of his mouth, Jeongin really was like his mother. Seungmin nods as the women stands up and leaves the balcony leaving seungmin all alone.

As soon as yujin steps out of the balcony she notices the figure of her son behind the shadows, Standing silently and leaning against the wall.. Did he listen to all of that..? Jeongin stands straight now dim light falling over his face making yujin to notice the tear stain over her boy's face. Without a single word yujin embraces him as jeongin hugs her back tightly.

They stood like that silently.. Then after a while yujin spoke in a whisper.

"You should talk to him.."

Jeongin nods at that as he breaks the hug.

Seungmin leans his back against the chair soon closing his eyes close. Suddenly he heard the sound of footsteps then the creak of the chair. Thinking it must be yujin seungmin opens his eyes while saying..

"You are back quite quick---"

He stops mid sentence as his eyes met with another person from who he was expecting, The blue head boy, The love of his life now sitting there looking at him. Seungmin furrowed in worry as he notice the red eyes of the smaller boy.

"Were you crying?"

At that jeongin laughed slightly.

"I can't even see your eyes cause of how swollen they are from crying and you are still caring about my eyes..?"

Jeongin questions and seungmin didn't knew what to respond so he stayed quite. Jeongin stares deep in to the bloody red eyes of the older as he spokes leaving seungmin shocked.

"I heard everything you said to mom.. I didn't meant to eavesdrop or anything but I end up.."

Seungmin felt like his heart dropping to his stomach. He felt the whole world around him coming to a stop, leaving him in a pit of darkness, the fear that he can no more even be friends with the smaller scared him, made him feel sick..

"I am sorry.."

That was all he could spit out as he looked away from the younger, somewhat ashamed. Hearing nothing but silence in return made his heart to beat rapidly in worry.. but then..

"Why are you sorry? For falling in love?"

Jeongin asks as seungmin looks at him noticing the younger looking straight in to his eyes.

"No like you must be now uncomfortable with me.."

"Why should I be?"

Jeongin asks in return soon jeongin was taking seungmin's hand in his. It left shivers down seungmin's spine.

"I know these feelings more than anyone.. Falling for someone who loves someone else is the worst and it almost killed me... but it astonish me hyung.. how strong you are to push those feelings in to yourself and with that burning heart you comforted me, acted like nothing was bothering you. You are so cool."

Seungmin was taken aback by the younger's words. Jeongin couldn't help but stare in to those orbs of the older as he felt something filling up inside his heart. Without himself knowing maybe he was already falling in love with the older, When he thinks about it the male was always there for him, he made him feel special, he made him happy.. Everything about seungmin was too perfect to not fall in love and jeongin called himself too stupid to not realise who his actual "right person" was..

"But still---"

Seungmin was cut off when a pair of lips were smashed against his own. Butterflies swarm around his stomach as his eyes widen. He felt his whole world once again stop but in a good way this time, The soft lips over his own made him feel every single pleasant emotions.

Jeongin brought his long hands to place it over the both sides of the older's face as he deepen the kiss.. Seungmin's eyes were slowly closing as he finally decided to respond to the kiss, Their lips moved in sync, Heart beat also beating in a sync against their chest, for eachother.. Under the star filled sky they shared their first kiss, A kiss filled with love..

Jeongin broke the kiss, slightly gasping for air as he rested his forehead against the older. Seungmin looked in to the younger's eyes which stared back..

"You know what.. I think I might be falling in love with you as well.."

To be continued~

Hahaha you thought i was dead hahaha-- Yeah i was.