Chapter 63

A/N: Merry Christmas Everyone:D This is my Christmas present for you all and it's a long ass chapter with over 6000 words~

But honestly, I don't think it is as good as I wanted it to be...I guess my writing just wasn't good enough but it takes time to practice (years maybe or it might never be) but I can't just keep you waiting for that long right? You guys are gonna kill me I am sure Lmao

So here it is and I have no time to edit it as I have been spending time with my family the entire day and only have little time now as we are waiting for our Christmas dinner:) Sorry for any errr or mistake lol

Don't have high expectation because I am afraid it might disappoint._.

Jade's POV

I frowned as I have opened all my presents and looked through them for several times just to be sure...but still, I can't find the one present I most look forwards to...Perrie's. To be honest, I don't really need her to get me anything because all I want for Christmas is her. No, not only Christmas, I want her for all my life. I need her every second of every day.

I highly doubted she would forget it at all though. I know her too well, she loves to spoil me, in every possible way at every possible time, and yes that's how romantic and sweet my girlfriend is. Gosh I am one lucky woman! But even though I could sense if she was up to something, I could never guess what she was actually planning because she is always full of surprises, and there is not a single time she fails to make my heart swelling and fluttering to an unhealthy rate. I looked at her expectantly, only to find her caught in her own thought. I shook her body softly until I got her attention

"Where is my present?" I pouted.

She seems a little bit startled when her blue eyes met mine, but soon a sweet smile crept up on her face. She stood up and reached out her hand.

"Follow me babe. It's in the backyard"

I beamed and took her hand. I can't want to find out what she had planned for me. I wondered if it's something big so she had to place it in the backyard. But whatever it is, I knew she was either too excited or nervous to show me as I could feel the sweat in the palm of her soft hand. I squeezed it gently, wanting her to know there is nothing to worry about, I will love it anyway as long as it is from her.

We all walked in the backyard and the theater had been set up. We usually use it for having a massive movie night when there are too many guests that won't all fit in our living room, and it is not any less finer than any other outdoor cinemas out there as I had spent a good amount of money on the equipment to ensure the quality. But unlike usual, there was only one chair placed in front of the big screen this time. Perrie led me to it and sat me down.

"Are we watching a movie or something? What about you guys? I am gonna get more chairs" I was about to get up but Perrie gently pushed me back down.

"Stay here babe"

She mumbled, stood behind me while keeping her hands on my shoulders, to make sure my butt was glued to the chair

"But-"

"It's okay Jade. We have watched it already" Debbie smiled

The others went to sit on the benches by the grills, which was a little bit further but also has a good view at the big screen, except Jonnie who made his way to the projector.

"We are watching a video babe and it's especially for you. Although it's my idea, they did all the work."

"No Perrie. You did most of the preparation work, we just helped you with it and worked on the video" My mam smiled. So that's why they were all missing when we were in the living room earlier

"It's nothing really. Thank you so much for helping me with this, it means a lot to me"

"We know and we hope it's good enough for you to...you know" My dad gave her a wink

"I hope so" Perrie crossed her fingers

"What are you all talking about?" I was completely bewildered. What were they implying at?

"Sorry. Can't tell yet. It's a surprise baba"

"Of course it is" I whined and rolled my eyes playfully.

"Don't be like that babe. I haven't watched it either so I might just be as surprised as you are. Gosh I hope it's good" She said nervously

"Don't worry sis. Have some faith in me cause I edited the video" Jonnie said proudly

"That's what scared me the most!"

"Hey!" I was amused by their banter even though I don't really know what they were talking about, I wonder if there is one day in their family that goes without an argument at all.

"Don't worry Perrie. We all made sure it is as good as it can get" Alex assured her, the others nodded and sent her a small smile.

"Thanks dad...and everybody! Really. Now shall we start watching my princess?"

She wrapped her arms around my neck and gazed at me hopefully with those captivating blue eyes. I smiled and gave her a nod.

"Sit with me babe"

I moved to the side to leave her some space. The chair isn't big but it is enough for the two of us, barely, which I had absolutely no problem with. The more skin contact we have, the better. I can sit on her lap even if it won't fit. She squeezed in and put her arm around me, and I snuggled up to her right away like a magnet. I let out a content sigh when she kissed my head and pulled me closer.

The light dimmed and the video started to play. I grinned when I saw it's a slideshow full of photos of Perrie and I, with 'Nothing Else Matters' playing at the background. I know it sounds cheesy as I wrote the song myself but it is definitely my favorite song from our new album, together with 'Touch' of course. In every photo we were fully unaware of the camera because our attention was only on each other no matter what we were doing, and I finally realised how oblivious we were. It is so clear to me now, that our eyes were brimming with love and the smile was full of happiness when we our eyes met, no wonder our mams could pick up on our 'hidden' feeling so early and easily.

The photos were shown in chronological order, so to us, it's like we were walking down the memory lane. Every time a new photo showed up, me and Perrie would utter the time or date of when it was taken, and soon it turned into a small competition which we would try to beat each other and be the first one to answer it right because the winner could earn a kiss on the cheek. It is really a no surprise to me that we both knew the answer to every single photo, it just came down to who got it first, which was no difference to me honestly, as getting a kiss from her or giving her a kiss feels just as great.

"After we performed 'Shoutout to my ex' on X Factor, when we were in the car and heading to the after-party"

"Ah not this one!"

I squealed and blushed at the photo which I preferred not being shown on the big screen, and it got worse when it kept zooming in to our locked lips and tangled tongues. Oh my god I can't believe our whole families were watching this! There were far more than one of them and they were all laughing and sending me some teasing winks. Can someone please dig a hole and bury me in it? Gosh this is so embarrassing!

I do remember when they were all taken but I was unable to say any word in this state so I just kept pecking her cheek as she continued answering correctly one after another like the photos didn't bother her at all. Why can't I be like her? But I do get better now with her help and the girls' (mostly Jesy's) constant teasing at our PDA as much as I hated to admit it. They love to sneakilytake photos of us when we were making out as they knew our guard was completely down and won't suspect a thing, then they would send us the photos later to mock and abash us. I mean...how sick and mean are they?

Luckily the torture didn't last for long as some cute photos started to show on the screen once again and I knew the video would soon come to an end once I saw the photo of us kissing in front of the Christmas tree, which was just taken yesterday, and the song was about to finish too. I cheered and clapped once the screen went black, but stopped as I was shock to see there was more when I saw Leigh Anne's face appeared on the screen

"Hey Jade. Merry Christmas! I am so happy today, not only because it's Christmas but the fact that you and Perrie finally went public! You don't know how long I have been waiting for it because now I can finally announce that I am your biggest supporter and no one can take my place ever not even Jesy! I don't know if you realize, but the love you have for each other is just...shit I am starting to get emotional I am gonna cry...sorry" She paused to take a deep breath and started fanning herself as her eyes started to get teary

"Aw don't cry Lee-Lee"

I cooed even though I knew the video was prerecorded and she isn't right here with me, but I couldn't help to console her when I saw her like this, and I knew once she started to cry, I will too.

"She is always so emotional isn't she?"

Perrie chuckled but I knew she was too as I could hear the little tremble in her voice. I hummed and held her hand, holding my urge to look at her because I knew once I met her glassy sapphire eyes, we both couldn't hold back the tears anymore

"It's just a crime to hide it...it should never be kept in the dark because it need...no it have to be shown to the world, to everyone! I can actually feel the love by looking at you two or just be around you so I knew anyone can feel it too. It's so real but surreal at the same time because I never thought a true love like this could happen in real life.

Jade. You can never find anyone that loves you as much as Perrie I am telling you, and I meant it when I said I need a Perrie in my life BUT...Jade listen to me first before you are going to kill me! BUT-I have found someone already and his name is Andre. Okay? Calm down now I love Andre not YOUR Perrie. However, Perrie is a catch and you know that, so you better hold on to her when you have the chance. And Perrie, you are doing great just continue treating our little Jeed like the Disney princess she always deserves to be, but I know you will do that no matter what.

I love you girlies and always remember I am your No.1 Jerrie fan!"

Wow. I That's touching but...weird I guess? I almost cried at first but then I wanted to kill her when she said she wanted Perrie and then I was confused when she said I should hold on to Perrie and she even gave me a cheeky wink after saying that...What was that? Did she know something I don't? Is someone trying to steal MY PERRIE? NO HELL NO they would need to kill me and walk over my dead body!

I was about to ask Perrie if she thought Leigh Anne's speech was a bit strange, but my eyes were locked on the screen once again when Jesy's face appeared.

"Hello lovebirds! I am sorry I look like a tramp right now cause I didn't sleep much last night and you-know-why! But I forgave you because I am a great friend, just don't hide anything from me and Leigh EVER AGAIN!" I gulped as she scolded and sent a knowingly glare at us. Even through the screen she still managed to look extremely scary.

"Okay back to the lovely and nice friend I always am. I am proud my little Geordies have taken the world by storm. Everyone is talking about you two more than Christmas today and I read only good things. If anyone trying to talk shits, you will have me and Leigh Anne and millions of mixers defending you so don't ever worry about that, just continue to be the gross and sickeningly cute couples you always are. Jade. I know what Perrie is like. She is lazy, noisy, childish, stupid, in-"

"Shut up Jessica! I am not!" Perrie protested but it didn't stop Jesy as she obviously couldn't hear her

"Gosh that is so accurate!"

"Jonnie shut up!"

"It's okay baby. You know I never think of you like that. You are T-h-e B-e-s-t" I cooed and pecked her cheek. Her face lit up and flashed me the brightest smile

"Thank you babe. I love you" She kissed my lips and giggling like a kid who got her favourite candy once she pulled away. I chuckled and continued watching what Jesy has to say

"Seriously I don't know how you could put up with her Jade, but you do and LOVE to do that. I don't think there is anyone else in this world could do so and that's why you have to stay with her, otherwise there is no one willing to take her shits and there is no way she could survive on her own. Perrie don't look at me like that. You know I am just telling the truth"

I turned to take a glance at Perrie, and Jesy was right. If look could kill and Jesy was actually here, she might be dead already but you never know it's Jesy Nelson we are talking about, even though my bet is definitely on my baby's. But one thing was for sure, there would be a war right now if she was here.

"But somehow this idiot made you fall in love with her, it might sounds like a miracle but it's not Jade. Perrie is the only one that could gain access to your heart when you wouldn't let anyone in. Perrie is the only one that would do anything for you just to make you happy. Perrie is the only one that is always there for you when you are at your downs...and the fact that she is the same girl that helped you twelve years ago? Fuck that's bloody fate girl! So just let it be and continue to love her for the rest of your life, cause I know she would do just the same. Now I better go back to sleep because I am so fucking tired."

I giggled as Jesy's speech was quite the opposite of Leigh's, she criticised Perrie while Leigh complimented her, but they both pointed out one thing...that we are meant to be together and I should stay with Perrie until the end of time. I wonder why they need to emphasize that. There is no way I wouldn't do that and they knew that, I love Perrie too much it would shatter my heart to leave her, the thought itself was already too much to bear.

"Gosh I don't know whether I should kill her or thank her for that" Perrie groaned

"Don't be mad baby I only love you more after hearing what she said" I whispered into her ear and kissed her cheek softly. Her dimple made an appearance after hearing my words so I quickly gave it a kiss.

"And I love you more too."

She beamed and leaned in to connect our lips, but they soon parted as we jumped and pulled away once we heard Simon's voice

"Hi girls. It's Simon here and I would like to say thank you for listening to me and wait until now to announce the news. I understand it's difficult because I know how much you two love each other and I am really sorry to have to make you do that...but I hope you would think it's worth it considering at how good the album is doing.

From now on I won't ask you to do that anymore as long as it doesn't affect your work, even though I would hope what once happened in the dressing room...won't ever happen again. Anyway, I expect more amazing love songs from you two to be put on your next album. Enjoy your holiday together and I will see you after the break." What?! S-Simon...h-he....knew.....

"Was he talking about..." I stuttered, looking at Perrie in widened eyes

"I can't think of anything else that involves a dressing room babe" She laughed, but kept her voice low so no one could hear us

"Why are you not even shocked?" I gasped, feeling the heat on my cheeks

"I told you everybody could hear you because of how loud you were, and he was there so..." A cocky smile appeared on her face. God I can't believe she isn't embarrassed one bit, and even feel proud of it.

"What was he talking about?" Debbie asked. NoNoNo! They can't know

"We have no idea!" I exclaimed before Perrie could say anything, she smirked at me but kept her mouth shut

"I asked Simon about it, but he won't tell me!" Jonnie whined

"Oh my god did Simon just apologise to us? THE Simon Cowell! I would have never seen that coming"

Perrie gasped, her voice loud and dramatic enough to catch everybody's attention. I gave her a knowingly wink as I knew she was doing this on purpose, so as to avert their mind off our inappropriate 'dressing room' incident.

"He did" I giggled to play along

"Is he always this nice to you? I thought he was really mean and harsh" Shireen asked.

"Actually he is really understandable and supportive" I smiled

"Now I know Simon Cowell do have a heart" Karl nodded

"He is not that bad" I laughed. Mission accomplished

As the video continued, more and more familiar faces appeared on the screen, like Tulisa, Kelly and Nathan, and even some artists we aren't very close to, like Ed, Lauren and Demi, who all congratulated and praised us for being brave enough to come out and inspired the LGBT community. I frowned when a girl's face popped up on the screen that I couldn't recognise from anywhere, I don't think I have ever seen her before.

"Hello Jade! I don't know if you will see it because you possibly receive millions of videos but hopefully I would get picked cause I love you and Perrie so much! Oh my god I have been a mixer since you girls were on the X Factor and I shipped you and Perrie from the beginning cause you two are so cute together!"

"Y-You asked mixers to film me this too...You are crazy do you know that?"

I looked at Perrie in complete shock, hand on my mouth as I couldn't believe how much effort she put into this...I mean it was supposed to be a Christmas gift only but she asked our fans to film a video just for...me. I don't know why I am entitled to be treated so superiorly as today is not even my birthday yet, and even if it is I still don't deserve all of these, but Perrie makes sure I am.

"I didn't do much Jadey. I just posted a video and asked them to send me a video. That's it" She shrugged like it was nothing. Then it hit me. That's why she didn't want me to get my phone. I would have seen it

"Still. You are crazy Perrie Edwards" I stared into her ocean blue eyes while caressing the porcelain skin on her cheeks

"I am crazy for you"

She flashed me an irresistible charming smile that mesmerize me as I felt myself slowly leaning in while gazing at her heart-shaped lips...but it stopped halfway as my gaze shifted to the screen once I heard someone yelling

"AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU TWO ARE ACTUALLY DATING RIGHT NOW! Aw I am so happy when I saw your post and I woke up all my family members because I was screaming so loud! I can't even go to sleep last night because I was afraid once I woke up, I would realize it was just a dream and I would be absolutely devastated. But not only it is real...I saw Perrie's video today gosh I can't believe all of this happen in one day!

Jade. I can see the how much love in Perrie's eyes every time she looks at you, no matter it was five years ago or now, that's something never changed. The only thing that changed was you began to look at her the same way she did during the competition, and I don't think you realized it. I can imagine you two being 80 years old, still looking at each other the same way you do right now and I can't wait for that day to come! Perrie I wish my video helps and fingers crossed I will hear only great news from you after tonight. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NEVER FORGET THAT"

"Great news? What did she meant by that huh? Why I feel like there's something you are not telling me" I raised an eyebrow

"That's why I called it a surprise my princess. You will know very soon I promise you, be patient yeah?" She smiled and kissed my cheek.

I was eager to know what it was but I knew there was no way she was gonna tell me because her lips are sealed when it comes to surprises. So instead of pushing her to tell me, I continued to watch the video, hoping I could get any hints from it. More mixers from all around the world appeared on the screen telling me how happy they were for me and Perrie, but what touched me the most was when they said it encouraged them to come out or at least accept who they really are, and they are not ashamed of themselves anymore. That's our goal after all. And we have achieved that.

I am crying. Perrie was busy wiping off the tears off my face while I was doing the same for her as she was just a mess like me. I don't usually cry, but I am extremely vulnerable when it comes to fans telling how we changed their lives and inspired them, and of course Perrie's sweet and heartfelt speech also.

But then someone's face came up on the screen flipped my soft and emotional side to a one eighty as I went completely crazy.

"OH MY GOD"

I let out a scream that possibly could break some glass when I saw RuPaul on the screen. Is it actually him? Oh my god it is really him that's his voice. Gosh he said Jade. He said my name. My fucking name! Oh my gosh he said he is happy for us and so proud. Am I dreaming? I can't breathe I am going to pass out...

"You alright baba?"

Perrie chuckled once his video ended, which was too short for my liking if you asked me. Her hand rubbing my back trying to calm me down, because I have been screaming at the top of my lung non-stop while tears continued running down on my face. I must look like a mad woman right now

"Ru...Rupaul...babe...T-That's fucking Rupaul Perrie! How...How you possibly do that?"

"I left a message on his instagram and twitter. I might have also asked our mixers to try to bombard his account. To be honest I don't know if he could see it or even do it but I guess it worked" She flashed me a goofy smile

"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH"

I have to do something. Otherwise I am going to explode due to excessive excitement so I cupped her face and planted kisses all over her face, not wanting to miss one spot because I fucking love her so much and I wanted her to feel it on every inch of her skin.

"I love you too" She giggled lightheartedly.

"You are not crazy. You are insane" I mumbled against her smooth skin while continued showering her face with kisses.

"Cause I am insanely in love with you"

"You need to stop being so loving and cute and affectionate and perfect...Aw my heart can't take it anymore!"

I was about to smash my lips on her and give her one of the most passionate kiss ever when I heard my name. I turned my head to the screen and saw Jed's face.

"Cockblock"

I giggled as Perrie groaned in disappointment. I pecked her lips and whispered a 'Later babe' that brought back the huge smile on her face

"Remember the time we used to hang out everyday? Honestly, it wasn't the best memory for me. Don't get me wrong Jade, you are a great friend and I love hanging out with you...it's just you weren't happy. I wanted to ask but I don't wanna prey on your mind because we weren't close back then, so I just pretended I didn't notice it at all and took you to places to do things that I thought might cheer you up. But that didn't work because I could literally see how depressed and broken you were even though you tried to fake your best smile on your face.

One day I realized I was not helping you at all by avoiding it so I decided to ask you, finally, and you broke down, completely, telling me what had been causing you all the pain and sorrow...who, to be exact. I knew the only thing to make it right was for you to talk to her, to be completely honest of your own feeling because running away from it could never solve it. But you were scared, afraid of making it worse, even though I told you it won't. From everything you told me about Perrie Edwards, I knew there is no way she could ever hate you, but you were so stubborn, you won't listen...and even asked me not to clear thing up when the media portrayed us as a couple, I never thought it would be a good idea but I couldn't say no when you were crying and pleading me to do it.

Still, every time we hung out, I made sure to persuade you to talk thing out with her because I knew it was the best thing to do, and eventually, after that conversation in the cafe, you did. And I was right, she didn't hate you, and even had the same feeling and struggle...all this time you was worrying and torturing yourself for something you could have fixed easily...You should've listened to me at the beginning you idiot"

I know. I let out a long sigh. I would always feel like the dumbest person in the world every time I thought about that

"When I saw your post, I feel like a proud brother finally seeing my little sister grows. Not only you are now happily in love with the person you have loved for so long, you are not afraid to show her how much you love her, not afraid to show the world how much she meant to you. Now, your lovely girlfriend has something to say. But before you hear what she has to say, I want you to keep being your fearless self. Do not let any uncertainty or unnecessary worry to cloud your mind. Don't overthink and just go with your heart, what you are really feeling and what you really want. I promise you if you do so, no wrong decision would be made. Jade, this time you will listen to me right? I am all done now. Perrie you can start to woo her with your romantic speech. Good luck."

The video stopped once Jed's face disappeared. I averted my gaze to Perrie, desperate to find out what she wanted to say. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, then her sapphire eyes staring back at me with seriousness and sincereness. I nibbled my lip nervously, as I knew it has got to be something extremely important and solemn.

"Jade. I love you. I love you so fucking much it hurts sometimes. When I heard what Jed said earlier, about the pain and sorrow I put you through, it hurts. When I remembered I left you twelve years ago and never get the chance to tell you why, it hurts. When I imagine you having to go through all the terrible bullying alone, it hurts. When I thought about I might have lost you for anorexia, it kills me. But that's what happened in the past, what matters to me the most is now you are healthy and happy.

However, no one can foresee the future. I wish I could so I would do anything to stop anything bad from happening to you ever again, to me and your love ones also because I know how heartbroken you would be if something happens to us, so I am going to prevent that too. I don't know what is gonna happen in the future. Maybe I will die tomorrow, maybe we will live until nineties, I don't know. But I know I am going to cherish every second I am with you and not letting one go to waste. I don't want any regret if our time together would be limited, I want to make sure that I am spending all my remaining time with you. That I am spending every morning waking up to your kisses and falling asleep with you in my arms. That I am spending everyday to make you the happiest woman in the world. That I am spending every second of everyday to love you as my wife"

My breath hitched at her last word. Wife.

I whimpered when I suddenly couldn't feel her warmth anymore, as she pulled away and reached her hand in the pocket. I don't have to be a genius to know what she was about to do next. Everything seems to turn into slow motion, except the frantic beating of my heart, as she slid down from the chair and got down on one knee, pulled out a small red box from her pocket and slowly opened the lid.

"Jade Thirlwall. Will you marry me?"

She asked in the sweetest and most loving tone, her ocean blue eyes gazing at me at the most fond and affectionate way, her slightly shaky hand holding the most beautiful pair of rings I have ever seen in my life. The diamond is cut into the shape of heart, half on each one so when they combined, they become one, just like our necklaces.

I am feeling so much right now.

I am touched by every word in her earnest speech, even though I had the urge to smash my lips on her to shut her up as it crushed my heart when she mentioned about her dying. She is not going to die tomorrow, not on my birthday, and I am not allowing that to happen anytime soon because I need her to stay with me until we are grey and old.

I am feeling light-headed, like I was in a dream and my body was slowly floating, flying to cloud nine or heaven or paradise, whatever it called. I thought I was already in euphoria while watching the video...I for sure underestimate her capability to make me happy.

I am surprised she is proposing to me right here right now

I am scared this is just one of my imagination because it felt just too good and surreal to be true. I am nervous about whether I could be the perfect wife for her because she deserves the best.

I am speechless. I hate myself always panic and overthink at the most important situation, even though I have already pictured it million times in my head and every time I am able to say the only answer right away. However, when it's actually happening, the three-letters word suddenly weigh so much and there is just too much emotion get in the way of my ability to think or speak.

"Come on Jade! Say yes!"

My eyes widened as I searched for the source of voice that sounds extremely like Leigh Anne. Is she here?

"Jade don't be an idiot like Perrie and say yes!"

I gasped because I am sure it's Jesy's voice, then I found her face on the big screen again as I realized the video was playing

"Say yes Jade"

"Say yes please"

"Yes"

"Say yes"

All the faces I have seen on the video before reappeared on the screen and urged me to just say the word. Now I know why they said all those things in the video.

You better hold on to her when you have the chance

Continue to love her for the rest of your life

Be fearless. Don't overthink. Go with your heart.

As if it's not enough to persuade me, our families were chanting 'yes', Dad, Mam, Debbie, Jonnie, baby Karl...every single one of them, even Hatchi was barking, hard. They all have so much faith and belief in our future together. I do too. I always do. I felt silly as now I find all my nerve or self-doubt earlier unnecessary and even ridiculous

I gazed at the gorgeous blonde in front of me who was patiently and nervously waiting for my response. I see the little girl who comforted me at the park, I see the girl who tried to rescue me from a big bug, I see the woman who picked me up when I lost my aunt...she is the one who never leave my side when I was in trouble, who fixes my wounds and heals my broken heart through tough times. Not only she doesn't mind doing all that for me, now she is willing to devote the rest of her life to me, and the only thing she asked from me...is a simple 'Yes'.

I flashed her a bashful smile and said the one word that now becomes the easiest word to come out of my mouth

"Yes"

I watched how her face changed from shock and disbelief to realization and exhilaration, then a loud squeal could be heard and I was engulfed into the warmest and tightest hug ever.

"YOU SAID YES! OH MY GOD YOU SAID YES!"

I giggled and nodded my head as she repeatedly screaming the words over and over again while continued squeezing me, I don't think my ears nor my body appreciated it but I don't care. I don't fucking care about anything as long as my girlfriend is happy.

Oops. My bad.

I meant my fiancé.

Perrie Edwards is my fucking fiancé now.

A/N: Just imagine that mixer on the video is me lol

Sorry if I disappointed you or it wasn't as good as you wanted it to because I feel the same. I have imagined the entire scene in my head for a long time, but when I was actually writing it and reading it back, I fell short. I don't think I described the whole scene nor how Jade's feeling changed, as I good as I wanted it to be, but it's not the most frustrating thing...what annoyed me the most is I don't know how to make it better. I blame it for my inexperience in writing so I don't think I can improve it anytime soon and you guys have been waiting for it so I published it even though I am not really satisfied about it.

But enough for my rambling, what do you think about it? You can give me your honest opinion because I want to improve, to better my writing in return for your massive support.

A big thank you to every single one of you and I hope you all have an amazing day:)